Saying goodbye to Z...hopefully

Jan 28 afternoon

Finally finished compiling book 3. Since October, I was delaying it cos the ending story was still painful and I hope for another ending. Alas after all the waiting, the ending remains the same.

I finally wrote the cover today. I knew then I have accepted the ending with Z. I finally rest my case.

I mailed him the cover of 11 reflections and said my goodbye.
I came back and watch television. Then I start to cry. I quickly went to my room so I can release fully. To my surprise, after the crying, I was laughing. Then both crying and laughing together, then I slept. Woke up 2 hours later, feeling rested.

It is time to move on to my new beginning. I m lucky to have Universe's support to pursue my passion. Having a 3 days week with good money and time. I emulated Z's courage to pursue my desire. I also learned lesson from my mirror in Z of cowering to people's perception of us.

Environment
Ace of Diamonds. (Desire for money and the beginning of new ways to make money)

This will be a year when new beginnings, both in ur work and in other financial enterprises, will bring many blessings and good fortune to u.
This would be an ideal influence for starting a new biz or even a new personal rship.
Because this is a year of beginnings as far as ur values are concerned, u may find that u r starting over in many important areas of ur life, areas that will ultimately bring u more joy and contentment.
Rest assured that any opportunities for new money-making enterprises, new jobs, or financial deals will be good for u and bring u greater success.

Soul
Amen.