Jan 11
Father, yday Sadhguru's message was very timely. D period of confusion, I did face it and now m more normalise. Jus focus on getting part time n prepare myself for samyama.
A new earth
No matter how great a revelation or how accurate information u rec on ur destiny, it would ultimately prove to be of no avail, and would not save u from further unhappiness and self-created suffering, if u failed to find the truth - know thyself.
Before u ask any other question, first ask the most fundamental question of ur life; Who am I?
Soul
This is in line wit my tot for d website. Before we talk abt soul purpose, we talk abt self discovery cos I know that even if u know ur destiny but u don't know and master urself, u can't follow ur destiny.
A new earth
Know yourself is to be rooted in Being, instead of lost in ur mind.
Soul
Yeap, for a while after d revelation of new career, my ego was acting overtime, pushin me to achieve and then question me if I can achieve, resulting in suffering. I just ignore both n jus focus on what is immediate.
A new earth
Ur sense of who u are determines what u perceives as ur needs and what matters to u in life - and whatever matters to u will have the power to upset and disturb u.
You can use this as a criterion to find out how deeply u know urself.
What matters to u is not necessarily what u say or believe, but what ur actions and reactions reveal as important and serious to u.
What are d things that upset and disturb me? If small things have the power to disturb u, then who u think u r is exactly that; small.
What are d small things? Ultimately all things are small things because all things are transient.
Whenever u r disturb, something is obviously more important than the inner peace that u said was all u wanted.
The small me that seek security or fulfillment in things are transient and get anxious or angry because it fails to find it. Well, at least now u know who u really think u are.
If peace is really what u want, then u will choose peace.
Soul
When d ego was on d new career plan. After a period of disturbance, I tot I was so happy at d revelation n my objective was initially to work part time and partial retirement. So what's this abt new career. I then stop n said I choose to be happy n even if there is no new career, so be it. Wit that I now negotiate for 2 days unpaid leave - max 8 days leave a month, wit set-off 1.5 days annual leave.
A new earth
If peace mattered to u more than anything else and if u truly knew urself to be spirit rather than a little me, u would remain non-reactive and absolutely alert when confronted with challenging people or situation.
You wld immediately accept the situation, and thus become one wit it rather separate urself from it.
Then out of ur alertness, would come a response. Who u are (consciousness), not who u think u are (a small me), would be responding. It would be powerful and effective and would make no person or situation into an enemy.
Soul - On thursday, stressful n faced wit d new biz report. Feel like cryin n ask FM to do. Then I calmed myself, got a drink and said I can do it n I will. Then tell FM that she has to do next qtr. Then call Regional, turns out report is simpler than I tot. So, not only I complete report, I also don't hav to do anymore.
A new earth
How u react to people and situations, especially when challenges arise, is the best indicator of how deeply u know urself.
The more limited, the more narrowly egoic the view of urself, the more u will see, focus on, and react to the egoic limitations, the unconsciousness in others.
Their "fault" or what u perceive as their faults become to u their identity. This means u will see only the ego in them and thus strengthen the ego in urself.
Instead of looking "through" the ego in others, u are looking "at" the ego. Who is looking at the ego? The ego in u.
Very unconscious people experience their own ego through its reflection in others. When u realise that what u react in others is also in u (and sometimes only in u), u begin to become aware of ur own ego. At that stage, u may also realise that u were doing to others what u tot others were doing to u. You cease seeing urself as a victim. You are not the ego, so when u become aware of the ego in u, it does not mean u know who u are - it means u know who u r not.
But it is through knowing who u r not, that the greates obstacle to truly knowing urself is removed.
Afternoon
Today was in a client meeting wit CEO. She looks downright ugly. Her presence is quite bad. I wonder why I never see her ugliness before. Why I can see now?
I saw all these people n wonder if they experience d blissfulness of their Being, if they know what liberation means. LK is right, my laughter during meditation is happier than before. I m wondering perhaps cld be me taking veg or it cld be not following my ego on chasing new career.
A new earth
If the tot of lack - whether it be money, recognition, or love - has become part of who u are, u will always experience lack.
Rather than acknowledging the good that is already in ur life, all u see is lack.
Acknowledging the good that is already in ur life, is the foundation for all abundance.
The fact is ; Whatever u think the world is withholding from you, you are witholding from the world.
You are withholding it because deep down u think u r small and that u have nothing to give.
You cannot receive what u don't give.
Whatever u think the world is withholding from u, u already have, but unless u allow it to flow out, u won't even know u have it.
Soul - well, I admit I previously lacked love but now I can see I hav received loads from my family, friends, staff and d world. I no longer need to arrange for appt during weekend. I can jus be.
Well, now I m helpin people at Isha, which is a beginning.
A new earth
There is nothing wrong with psychoanalysis or finding out about ur past as long as u don't confuse knowing about yourself with knowing yourself. it is content and not essence. Going beyond ego is stepping out of content. Knowing yourself, is being yourself and being yourself is ceasing to identify with content.
Only if we are still enough inside and the noise of thinking subsides, can we become aware that there is a hidden harmony here, a sacredness, a higher order in which everything has its perfect place and could not be other than what it is and the way it is.
When u can sense d sacredness, u become a conscious participant. In this way, nature can help u to become realignes with the wholeness of life.
The wise man's "maybe" signifies a refusal to judge anything that happens. Instead of judging what is, he accepts is and so enter into conscious alignment with the higher order.
He knows that often it is impossible for the mind to understand what place or purpose, a seemingly random event has in the tapestry of the whole. But there are no random events, nor are there events or things exist by and for themselves, in isolation.
"I don't mind what happens"
Does this means u can no longer take action to bring about change in ur life? On the contrary, when the basis of ur action is inner alignment wit the present moment, ur actions become empowered by the intelligence of Life itself.
Events are not personalised. He is nobody's victim. He is so completely at one wit what happens, that what happens has no power over him anymore.
Only if u resist what happens, are u at the mercy of what happens, and the world determine ur happiness and unhappiness.
Become "friendly" with the present moment, welcome it no matter in what disguise it comes and soon you will see the results.
Life become friendly toward u, people become helpful, circumstances cooperative.
One decision changes ur entire reality
But that one decision u have to make again and again and again - until it becomes natural to live in such a way.
The decision to make the present moment into ur friend, is d end of the ego.
Ego's nature is to ignore, resist or devalue the Now.
Ego lives in time, past and fute. Fear, anxiety, expectation, regret, guilt, anger are the dysfunction of the time-bound of consciousness.
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