Thinking results in emotion

Jan 4

Father, when I was meditating, I tot I am not equipped to handle feeler. My nephew is one of them. I used to think that Feeler cannot self-help and becos I don't have time and also m impatient, I don't want to help them. But perhaps d better word is I cannot help them. Feeler form more than 60 percent of d population. So, aren't I limiting myself.
Perhaps my nephew is to teach me something.
Anyway, good thing that I asked Cn who is a feeler to be my sidekick.

A new earth
When u play roles, u r unconscious. When u catch urself playing a role, that recognition creates a space between u and the role.
When u r completely identified wit a role, u confuse a pattern of behaviour with who u are and u take urself very seriously. You also automatically assign roles to others that correspond to u. Eg - doctor see patient/case history n not a human being. Or staff speaking to CEO or janitor (lacked d sameness of bearing before all human beings). So u r not relating authentically.

Soul - apart from role of a coach, I also play d following role
1. Thinker
2. Gourmet
3. No housework and etc

We'll, in terms of authenticity, I think I am or perhaps m not bothered abt what others think or perhaps this cld be my superiority complex.

A new earth
Be aware that what u think, to a large extent, creates the emotion that u feel. See the link between ur thinking and ur emotion. Rather, than being ur tots and emotions, be the awareness.

Soul - this seem to indicate that Thinkers r slow to react n Feeler are fast.

A new earth
Happiness is ever elusive, but freedom from unhappiness is attainable now, by facing what is, rather than making up stories about it.
Unhappiness covers up ur natural state of well-being and inner peace, the source of true happiness.

Soul - we'll, that explain why m moving towards my passion.

A new earth
If there is awareness in you, u no longer need to believe in every tot u think.
It is an old thought, no more.
Awareness means Presence, and only Presence can dissolve the unconscious past in u.
The more shared past there is in a relationship, the more present u need to be; otherwise; u will be forced to relive the past again and again.

If there is no suffering, human being would not evolve and would remain shallow, identified with the external form of things.
Suffering drives u deeper.
The paradox is that suffering is caused by identification wit form and erodes identification with form.
A lof of suffering is caused by the ego, although eventually suffering destroys the ego - but not until you suffer consciously.

Soul - that's what I meant by suffering is blessing, name of my blog.

A new earth
Human being is destined to go beyond suffering, but not in the way ego thinks - I shld not hav to suffer.
Suffering has a noble purppse; the evolution of consciousness and the burning up of the ego.
As long as u resist suffering, it is a slow process because the resistance creates more ego to burn up. When u accept suffering, there is an acceleration of that process which is brought about by the fact that u sufferr consciously.

The ego says,"I shouldn't have to suffer" and that thought make u suffer so much more.
It is a distortion of the truth, which is always paradoxical.
The truth is that u need to say yes to suffering before u can transcend it.

Soul - amen

Osho transformation
1. Issue - wishful thinking - everything created by my own tots. . I am wholly responsible. Its up to me to stop creating. Retirement of mind is meditation.

2. External event - Failure -
When it is morning, it is morning. When its evening, it is evening. There is no question of choice.
Things happen when they are needed to happen.
All goes well - jus Trust. God's goal is ur goal, his destiny is ur destiny.
Sense the cosmic spirit, the Tao, the law that permeates the whole existence - out of which u are born and to which one day u will return.

Soul - I guess m worried. I was happy for 3 days n I tot it was early retirement, jus dabbling here n there like Benjamin.
Now that I know there is a professional change, I start to feel d challenge.
Earlier, I tot I can start dabbling after I quit and now I start to feel pressured to make choices.
Aiyah, jus relax lah n savour d veg period.
Ego never ending. Earlier gav me hard time on veg and now that I m sure, it tells me on d career. Just rest lah.

3. Seed of transformation
Gates of heaven -
Heaven and hell are not geographical, they are psychological. It is a moment to moent question to ur mind.
Whenever u r conscious, u act wit full awareness, u r in heaven.

Soul - yeap to be aware.

4. A new level of understanding.
Jus state the fact, don't think of anything as a curse or blessing. Don't interpret/judge, and suddenly u will see everything is beautiful.

Soul - at first tot 3 days is great n now worried if I m able to fulfill d 2 days, can I make something of it.
Aiyah, jus go back to original lah. Don't give myself pressure. Jus savour my 2 off days.

5. Key to integration
Play.
Your mind goes on playunbg infinitely. While meditating, one has to look at the mind jus frolicking, jus like children playun and jumping out of overflowing energy, that's all.
Don't take ur tots seriously. Don't feel guilty of bad tot. And don't get too much ego of good tot, u wanting to transform the whole world, bringing heaven to earth.
U don't think abt what will happen in the end, jus be here and now. U shld not carry d results.

Soul - my case is I felt I oversaid. Not sure if I can fulfill. Now felt small cos I always wan people to say what they do, cannot go back even if its pains them.
Not sure if I can do. Not sure If I can pass. Now like loudmouth.
Now worried on why I take 2 days off. Got, so contradictory.

Father, long transformation cards, m not so sure if I interpret d right message.

A new earth
U r a human being. What does that mean? Mastery of life is not a question of control, but of finding a balance between human and Being.

Why does ego play roles? Becos of one unconscious tot; I need to play a role in order to get what I need to be fully myself.
I need to get more so that I can be more.
In form, u will alway be to some, inferior or superior to others. In essence u r niether.
In d eyes of d ego, self esteem and humility are contractidory. In truth, they atre one and the same.


Soul - perhaps this is d issue, am I going to make myself out of the 2 days of off.
My pay is cut, self esteem also cut. Doesn't help when small aunt and mother said they think it is wasteful m not working.