Let the past goes - I live my life and let him live his

Sept 26

Woke up with this tots:
I lived my life and so let him live his. No more thinking for him.
Let me focus on my own self acceptance.

Woke up 4.20 am upon alarm but still groggy from the medication as I took it too late at night. Slept back for an hour and wake up 5.20 am to do practices.

Still bit groggy so practices not so great. But I am more aware of my tots and ensure I bring myself back. Very little tots of past, more of office matters. Some of C. Basically flying tots that has no emotional impact.

Shakti was fine but no Kapala due to menses. Shambavi was good. Towards the end in arda Siddharna in silence.

Osho
What is needed for resolution?
Slowing down
Each moment one has to be at ease with oneself - not trying to improve, not cultivating anything, not practising anything.
Do whatsoever u r doing, but at the deepest core remain at ease, cool, calm and centred.

There is no need to do anything but rest in the fullness of who you are right now. If desires and hopes and dreams are fading away, so much the better. Their disappearance is making space for a new quality of stillness and acceptance of what is, and u r able to welcome this development in a way u have never been able to do before.
Savour this quality of slowing down, of coming to rest and recognising that u are already at home.

Soul
Yea. Accepting myself as I am now, without a partner.

Resolution
Friendliness
First meditate, be blissful and then much love will happen on its own accord. U don't depend on others and u don't make others dependent on u. Then it is always a friendship, a friendliness.
It is the birth of a higher, more loving quality born out of fullness of experience. It is a birth of a love that is truly unconditional, without expectations or demands.

Soul
Amen.