Being alone - now to face only me

Aug 9

Father, woke up before alarm rang at 2.50 am. Took a shower and shampoo. Cab came 5 minutes before 3.30 am. I am off to ashram. Went for breakfast at McDonald for my last intake of meat. Alas, my fingers slipped and coffee split all over me. My blouse and pants were stained. I promptly went over to buy a v-neck long flowy dress. I think I looked good.

Have tots of Z and tot of sharing my clumsiness with him. Alas, I didn't. Let's see how I feel after shoonya. Tot of Sl, we r facing this together.

Just reached M's house. I had a nice surprise, An was here too. Lovely meeting P again.

Osho - Tao
No parent is loving enough to leave u alone to urself to grow, to help u and to nourish u and to give u total freedom to be urself, authentically urself.

Soul
My parents is that loving. Amen.

Osho
U have to become fed up with all ur so-called worldly desires. Firstly, go into those desires. Unless u become tremendously frustrated, unless u see that they are all futile: that whether u succeed or fail, u always fail; that whether u have money or u r poor, u r always poor. ... When that insight dawns on u, then only u can really become a seeker of the beyond, u will bring ur whole world with u, u will bring all ur desires with u.

Soul
I know I haven't reach there yet. I still carry worldly desires.

Osho - Ko Hsuan
The real seeker is not achiever, he is not aggressive, he is not masculine, he becomes feminine. He is just like a womb - he receives. He empties himself totally so that space is created to receive.

That's what masters have been telling their disciples to do. And that's the whole are of meditation. Empty urself totally, become a nothingness. And the moment u r totally nothing, at that very moment, truth descends in u; u become full of it.
Tao is not the path of prayer, it is the path of meditation.

Gautam Buddha
Be a light unto urself. Follow ur own light, follow ur own intelligence. Don't listen to those with vested interests because they r working for their own purposes. They have nothing to do with ur welfare, they r not concerned about it.