My real self has no need

Jul 16
Woke up 4.05 to do my practice. Suria was effortless. Not so good on shakti and shambavi. I was done by 6.24 am and I took a light nap and wake up 6.55 am.

I felt refreshed. I now know its not the work, it is facing E. It is knowing he is a stumbling block. Father, why do I always have to confront the boss. Why can't they just do what they r supposed to do and not override their authority.

Soul
A tot occurred to me. Teacher of Isha also thinks the same way of me. In Isha I do what's is right.

Father, yea. Now I know what's the issue. I have a tough battle ahead in new company. The boss is taking a Finance role and then expect me to take responsibility. And coupled with reminders from SS on my finance role, it makes my job difficult.

And it be a tough time getting the power back from E.

I have correctly identified him as the problem creator for support team. With old boss, while she was difficult, she doesn't over step her boundaries, unlike E. And coupled with no back lash from Regional CFO, he behaved inappropriately and make wrong decisions.

I am glad I made the decision to send out the Recon. I opened up the Pandora box.

Diamond Heart - Book 3
To be complete means that u r not pulled by anything and u cannot be pushed by anything.
To be complete means to be, which means knowing urself as the one who cannot but be complete. It is not as if u were once incomplete, and then u become complete. If that were so, it would mean that ur old needs and desires were fulfilled and, as a result, u became complete. It doesn't work that way. To be complete means to realise that u have always been complete, that who u r is a completeness.

And being complete has nothing to do with better or worse, pleasure or pain, gain or loss. It has nothing to do with anything; it is not in reference to anything.

To be complete means to be thoroughly serene, totally completely in repose, so much in repose that pleasure and pain come and go, but are irrelevant, surface phenomena. To be complete means u r not interested in things being any particular way. U r not interested in getting; u r not interested in giving.

Being complete doesn't mean that u don't do anything that u just hang out and vegetate. When u r complete, ur actions can only be loving. When u r not experiencing the gap of incompleteness, there is no need and no fear, then u r free to love. Love is a natural movement; it doesn't need a desire to motivate it.

To be incomplete means to be separate from ur completeness. There is a split, a gap between what u think u r, and who u actually are. U have abandoned urself as u take the constructs of ur mind to be u. The moment u abandon ur real self, u will experience security, fear and desire.
The separation from ur real self will bring wants and needs, the tots that accompany them, the feelings that accompany those, and the rest of the mess that most people call their lives.

Seeing this split and not acting in according to the split can bring freedom. U fall back into urself and realise that u r complete, that who u truly are has always been complete, and has never lacked anything, that u cannot lack anything.