Still undecided on Kailash

Jul 29 eve
Just back from dinner with M. I m happy for her arranged marriage.
I told M that I m undecided of going for Samyama this November or go Kailash next year. Actually I m not keen to do 40 days veg for Samyama.
M encouraged me to go for Kailash. She said since I m receptive, it is definitely worthwhile for me to be there.
Mmm, worth considering. Coincidentally bought the trilogy of Shiva. Will be good.

Osho - Krishna
Spiritualism is a search for self, of self-nature. U have to know who u are. And once u know who u are, u will attain to inaction without quitting action. U will attain truth without leaving the world. The world remain as it is, but u will undergo a mutation. Everything will remain the same, u will be transformed. And the day u are transformed, everything is transformed for u because what u see is ur world. Ur perception creates ur world.


Soul
Similar message in Osho - autobiography and my this week Tarot card.
When I saw Z's latest photo which show that he went overseas for holiday. At first a moment of envious arise. But I remember he is not what he seems and in truth i will have to worry about finance with him and envy evaporated.
Father, yea. Instead of focusing on my loss, focus on my gain.