Feb 13
In the ashram now.
Yday woke up several times becos of Sadhguru singing. Then switch off d alarm. I told myself jus rests. But I woke up at 5.05 am feeling refreshed n want to do hatha yoga.
Walked all d way. Did guru pooja, suria namaskura and it was effortless, followed by shakti and shambavi and surka kriya. Whole process, something never did due to time.
During the meditation, I laughed and laughed so much. This is the first time I totally let go. After the continous laugh, tears of gratitude came and moments later wash away by tears of laughter.
I felt so light.
Went to Vijii's place. This time, it was a just a comfortable place. I no longer felt d pull nor the overwhelming love. Perhaps I hav found my own love. But what I know is that even when I looked at her pix, I jus see someone like me. There is no envious feeling of wanting to have what she is having. I got it.
Afternoon
A fellow meditator just shared that she wan to buy apartment here n stay here.
For me, no.
This time around, I felt is like goodbye.
To me breaking limitation, I break on my own. I need not do renunciation. I already break my limitation by 3 days week and by having 40 days vegetarian.
Everyone is searching to break free of their limitation?? True, but I think the more true is that they break free so they can follow their destiny.
I know my destiny is to be a Transformational leader. Perhaps for them Sadhguru is d one and only. For me, he is one of d many.
Osho
The night is the reflection of the whole day; it is its echo. Whatsoever happens in d mind during the day resounds as an echo during the night.
Whatsoever has been left incomplete, the mind tries to complete it during the night.
If u r were angry and u did not express anger totally towards some person, if the anger was left incomplete or stuck, then the mind releases it at night.
If somebody has fasted during the day, then at night he eats in his deam.
The strings of the mind are very tense.
Whereas the strings of the heart are very loose. It sways from hate to love.
There can be no compromise between the two. In a heart which has love, hatred becomes impossible.
Then what it is that which u call love?
When there is less hate, u call it love, when there is more hate, u call it hate.
There is no love, jus lesser and greater proportion of hate itself.
The strings of ur heart are totally loose. The music of love does not arise from those loose strings - neither does the music of bliss.
Have u ever known bliss?
What do u know? U know restlessness. If restlessness becomes a little less, it gives an illusion of peace.
Aloneness.
When u r alone without anyone to talk to, there are no excuses from the outside; u will have to assume all the things are within urself.
If there is no anger within u, if there is no hate within u, then no power in the world can bring anger or hate out of u.
In the same way, if nobody gives us the opportunity, then no anger or hate or envy comes out of us. But do not think that there is no anger within u. The anger is there and it is waiting for someone to trigger it.
But we think these empty, in-between moments are moments of love, of peace. This is a mistake.
Within man also, there is either anger or there is preparation for anger - man does not know a state of non-anger.
Soul
Projection mode. 80 percent of time I am able to take it in. I know my reactions is mine alone. I know all situation is neutrel, thanks to A course in miracle and to Krishnamurti.
Osho
The strings of ur heart should be a little tighter so that love can arise out of it.
The strings of ur mind should be a little looser so that a wakeful intelligence can arise out of it, not insanity.
If both these strings become balanced, there is possibility for the music of life to arise.
The more harmonious the personality, the more music is arising within, the deeper u can descend.
The more disharmony there is within, the more u will remain shallow, the more u will remain on the surface.
During meditation, u listen deeply to whatever sound u heard, either internal or external.
The more deeply u listen, the more the silence will go on growing.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Osho - inner journey
Feb 12 Evenin
Osho
The most important point in the human body is the navel, after the heart develops, and after that the mind.
Soul
When I first started meditation. The laughter already happen during initiation and hence to me, it was part and parcel of meditatitive experience. The one that frighten me cos it wasn't me, was d tightening of my stomach, squeezing out d breathe from me. I tot I was going to die. It continue abt 2 months and then less or perhaps now I accepted it.
Osho/Buddha
If the strings of life are too loose, then music does not arise, and if the strings of life are too tight, then there is no music
Soul - I was too tight previously. So I was deaf to the music of life.
Osho
When a man comes to know his inner music within himself, he comes to know the soul; and when he comes to know the music hidden within the whole, he comes to know the divine.
Soul
I know my inner music. I can go in as soon as my eyes is closed. No matter how tired or bad I feel, once I connect, d joy came and that is constant.
I came to Samyama to stabilise the connection so it can stay connected even my eyes r open.
(Apr 3 - I tot I heard my music then...Actually, during samyama, I was singing on my own...finally my real internal music literally)
Osho
The night is the reflection of the whole day.
Osho
The most important point in the human body is the navel, after the heart develops, and after that the mind.
Soul
When I first started meditation. The laughter already happen during initiation and hence to me, it was part and parcel of meditatitive experience. The one that frighten me cos it wasn't me, was d tightening of my stomach, squeezing out d breathe from me. I tot I was going to die. It continue abt 2 months and then less or perhaps now I accepted it.
Osho/Buddha
If the strings of life are too loose, then music does not arise, and if the strings of life are too tight, then there is no music
Soul - I was too tight previously. So I was deaf to the music of life.
Osho
When a man comes to know his inner music within himself, he comes to know the soul; and when he comes to know the music hidden within the whole, he comes to know the divine.
Soul
I know my inner music. I can go in as soon as my eyes is closed. No matter how tired or bad I feel, once I connect, d joy came and that is constant.
I came to Samyama to stabilise the connection so it can stay connected even my eyes r open.
(Apr 3 - I tot I heard my music then...Actually, during samyama, I was singing on my own...finally my real internal music literally)
Osho
The night is the reflection of the whole day.
Uncertainty before Samyama
Feb 12
Father, this mornin before alarm rang, I woke up n said m too sleepy. Don't want to do meditation today. Then later the alarm rang and I wake up to stop it. I said I don't want to meditate. Don't wan to stress myself. If I don't wan to do don't do lah. Then I try to sleep but after 10 min, couldn't sleep. Then I says m awake already. My mind say no but my body is refreshed. Beside yday nite I didn't do and today full day at airport. So I woke up and did guru pooja and shakti. Was worry abt some office matters but overall fine. Ended cos alarm rang and I ended n take a shower. Off to India.
Mmm, in d air plane. Tot of omelette n then they said omelette wit onion. I said then I hav to take veg meal. When I saw my next passenger eating veg meal, wit the lump rice n curry, my taste bud just cringe and said cannot eat lah. I asked for omelette, thankfully it is spring onion and red peppercorn. I took out the red peppercorn. Then I tot I forgot how much I don't like indian food and d tot of food in ashram pains me. Then I tot, how to be enlighten lah. Simple veg food also cannot take. This 40 days of veg has not remove my taste bud. How how? Wonder if I wld even cry when I hav to eat d food. Anyway, at least focus on d banana. Looks like my 40 days may be wasted loh. Looks like I may not be able to overcome my limitation by always being in the Now.
Mmm, suddenly tot of my Osho cards.
1. Outer influence affecting u or ur question.
Authenticity
The real thing is not a path. The real thing is the authenticity of the seeker. You can travel on any path. If u r sincere and authentic, u will reach ur goal.
Soul - yea, I enjoy food and I really don't like indian food cos they are gooey. It is more the texture rather than the taste that I don't like.
So, nevermind. I cannot follow veg path but I m sincere n I will find my way. Thanks.
2. External influences that u r aware of.
Compassion.
What is right and what is wrong? To me, awareness is right. If u r angry wit full awareness, even anger is right. And if u r loving with unawareness, even love is not right.
Let the quality of awareness be there in every act that u do, in every tot u think, in every dream that u dream.
Let the quality of awareness enter ur being more and more.
Soul - yeap. I don't prescribed to being nice. I believe that we need to act, the outcome/result is more important than our delivery. So, whatever it takes.
And understanding that our ego/darkness/unconsciousness) is always here, the only way is shine it away/dissolve it moment by moment is by being present/light/conscious.
So, in Samyama, I wan to have more presence moment to moment. I wan it to be automatic instead of now by will power/taking charge of my mind abt 10 percent. I wld be really happy that I can be present 50 percent on auto mode and 20 percent on manual mode.
Jus now in d plane, 2 minor incident happens. First one I asked for a pen from the Steward and he forgot. I didn't take it personally n jus know he is bz and forgot. Later when I wen to toilet, I got the pen and now I kept it.
Second one, I asked for fruit juice when d Stewardess looks busy, she frown, not so service looking. I jus see her n tot this one person who is not happy in her job. So, don't hav to take it personally n besides d fruit juice is not important and I forgot abt it and her. Then half an hour later, she came n brought my juice. I smile at her and says she remembers.
So, I hav used manual mode here n people become even more nicer.
3. Seed of transformation - inner influences that u might not be aware
Disciplehood
No situation is without a lesson, no situation at all.
All situations are pregnant, but u have to discover; it may not be available on the surface.
You hav to be watchful, u hav to look at all the aspect of the situation.
Soul
One of d situation is him not giving up on his trials to be enlightened. God willing, what has not happened today may happen tomorrow. Tot of me, since I choose food, I mus be realistic that d auto awareness mode may not reach the height that I wan and that's mean I will hav to use my manual awareness mode. But I can do it.
4. Direction of growth in ur inner awareness
That which never dies
Remember each moment, what u r accumulating - is it going to be taken away by death? If it is, then it is not worth bothering about.
If it is not going to be taken away by death, then even life can be sacrificed for it - because one day or another, life is going to disappear.
Before the life disappear, use the opportunity to find that which never dies.
Soul - not too sure abt this. At first tot me sacrificing my career - 3 days week. But I got many returns. Then tot of food, but I already know m not letting it go. I enjoy it and beside m not looking for enlightenment. I jus wan to more awareness on auto mode.
So, not sure what this means.
5. Inner understanding that is most important for u to work on right now
Communion - harmony without and within.
Man has to be nothing - man has to dissolve into the totality of things. And when we drop all the barriers, communion happens and that communion is a benediction. To be one wit the whole is all. That is the very core of religiousness.
Thru mind - there is no approach to existence. Thinking is a private world, it belongs to u - then u r enclosed, encapsulated, imprisoned within urself.
No thinking, u r no more, u r enclosed no more. You open, become porous, existence flows into u and u flow into existence.
If u can listen passively without thinking, nature speaks.
To hear the wordless, u will have to become wordless, because only the same can hear the same, only the same can relate to the same.
Sitting by a flower, don't be a person, be a flower.
Soul - tot of samyama, silent meditation. I wonder if this is the approach.
(Apr 3 - when I was in Ashram, I touch the trees there and i asked them question and i heard their replies.)
Father, this mornin before alarm rang, I woke up n said m too sleepy. Don't want to do meditation today. Then later the alarm rang and I wake up to stop it. I said I don't want to meditate. Don't wan to stress myself. If I don't wan to do don't do lah. Then I try to sleep but after 10 min, couldn't sleep. Then I says m awake already. My mind say no but my body is refreshed. Beside yday nite I didn't do and today full day at airport. So I woke up and did guru pooja and shakti. Was worry abt some office matters but overall fine. Ended cos alarm rang and I ended n take a shower. Off to India.
Mmm, in d air plane. Tot of omelette n then they said omelette wit onion. I said then I hav to take veg meal. When I saw my next passenger eating veg meal, wit the lump rice n curry, my taste bud just cringe and said cannot eat lah. I asked for omelette, thankfully it is spring onion and red peppercorn. I took out the red peppercorn. Then I tot I forgot how much I don't like indian food and d tot of food in ashram pains me. Then I tot, how to be enlighten lah. Simple veg food also cannot take. This 40 days of veg has not remove my taste bud. How how? Wonder if I wld even cry when I hav to eat d food. Anyway, at least focus on d banana. Looks like my 40 days may be wasted loh. Looks like I may not be able to overcome my limitation by always being in the Now.
Mmm, suddenly tot of my Osho cards.
1. Outer influence affecting u or ur question.
Authenticity
The real thing is not a path. The real thing is the authenticity of the seeker. You can travel on any path. If u r sincere and authentic, u will reach ur goal.
Soul - yea, I enjoy food and I really don't like indian food cos they are gooey. It is more the texture rather than the taste that I don't like.
So, nevermind. I cannot follow veg path but I m sincere n I will find my way. Thanks.
2. External influences that u r aware of.
Compassion.
What is right and what is wrong? To me, awareness is right. If u r angry wit full awareness, even anger is right. And if u r loving with unawareness, even love is not right.
Let the quality of awareness be there in every act that u do, in every tot u think, in every dream that u dream.
Let the quality of awareness enter ur being more and more.
Soul - yeap. I don't prescribed to being nice. I believe that we need to act, the outcome/result is more important than our delivery. So, whatever it takes.
And understanding that our ego/darkness/unconsciousness) is always here, the only way is shine it away/dissolve it moment by moment is by being present/light/conscious.
So, in Samyama, I wan to have more presence moment to moment. I wan it to be automatic instead of now by will power/taking charge of my mind abt 10 percent. I wld be really happy that I can be present 50 percent on auto mode and 20 percent on manual mode.
Jus now in d plane, 2 minor incident happens. First one I asked for a pen from the Steward and he forgot. I didn't take it personally n jus know he is bz and forgot. Later when I wen to toilet, I got the pen and now I kept it.
Second one, I asked for fruit juice when d Stewardess looks busy, she frown, not so service looking. I jus see her n tot this one person who is not happy in her job. So, don't hav to take it personally n besides d fruit juice is not important and I forgot abt it and her. Then half an hour later, she came n brought my juice. I smile at her and says she remembers.
So, I hav used manual mode here n people become even more nicer.
3. Seed of transformation - inner influences that u might not be aware
Disciplehood
No situation is without a lesson, no situation at all.
All situations are pregnant, but u have to discover; it may not be available on the surface.
You hav to be watchful, u hav to look at all the aspect of the situation.
Soul
One of d situation is him not giving up on his trials to be enlightened. God willing, what has not happened today may happen tomorrow. Tot of me, since I choose food, I mus be realistic that d auto awareness mode may not reach the height that I wan and that's mean I will hav to use my manual awareness mode. But I can do it.
4. Direction of growth in ur inner awareness
That which never dies
Remember each moment, what u r accumulating - is it going to be taken away by death? If it is, then it is not worth bothering about.
If it is not going to be taken away by death, then even life can be sacrificed for it - because one day or another, life is going to disappear.
Before the life disappear, use the opportunity to find that which never dies.
Soul - not too sure abt this. At first tot me sacrificing my career - 3 days week. But I got many returns. Then tot of food, but I already know m not letting it go. I enjoy it and beside m not looking for enlightenment. I jus wan to more awareness on auto mode.
So, not sure what this means.
5. Inner understanding that is most important for u to work on right now
Communion - harmony without and within.
Man has to be nothing - man has to dissolve into the totality of things. And when we drop all the barriers, communion happens and that communion is a benediction. To be one wit the whole is all. That is the very core of religiousness.
Thru mind - there is no approach to existence. Thinking is a private world, it belongs to u - then u r enclosed, encapsulated, imprisoned within urself.
No thinking, u r no more, u r enclosed no more. You open, become porous, existence flows into u and u flow into existence.
If u can listen passively without thinking, nature speaks.
To hear the wordless, u will have to become wordless, because only the same can hear the same, only the same can relate to the same.
Sitting by a flower, don't be a person, be a flower.
Soul - tot of samyama, silent meditation. I wonder if this is the approach.
(Apr 3 - when I was in Ashram, I touch the trees there and i asked them question and i heard their replies.)
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Love/Hate relationship (2)
Feb 11
Mmm, today was bit off. Lost focus a few times. Thinkin of future.
But I preservere. Tomorro leavin for India.
The Power of Now
Every crisis represents not only danger but also opportunity.
If relationship energises and magnify egoic mind patterns and activate the pain-body, as they do at this time, why not accept this fact rather than try to escape from it.
Why not cooperate with it instead of avoiding relationship or continuing to pursue the phantom of an ideal partner as an answer to ur problems or as a means of feeling fufilled?
Soul
That's what I tot in d brief rship whereby I was conned. My body was saying no but my mind say yes.
Of cos, when I ended it, I know it happen cos I was havin a low self esteem. But the fact I ended it shows that I valued myself and I tot it has been uphill since then.
But, I am afraid. I don't trust myself. I am not sure if I could handle the pain-body that arise, the feeling of vulnerability, which represent weakness to me. Of cos it happen a few years ago and now I am different, less on mind. But am I ready?
The Power of Now
The opportunity that is concealed within every crisis does not manifest until all the facts of any given situation are acknowledged and fully accpeted.
As long as u deny them, as long as u try to escape from them or wish that things were different, the window of opportunity does not open up and u remain trapped inside that situation, which will remain the same or deteriorate further.
With the acknowledgement and acceptance of the facts also comes a degree of freedom from them.
For eg., when u know there is a disharmony and u hold that "knowing", through ur knowing, a new factor has come in, and the disharmony cannot remain unchanged.
When u know u r not at peace, ur knowing create a still space that surrounds ur nonpeace in a loving and tender embrace and then transmute ur nonpeace into peace
As far as inner transformation is concerned there is NOTHING you can do about it.
You cannot transform yourself and you certainly cannot transform your partner or anybody else.
All u can do is to create a space for transformation to happen, for grace and love to enter.
Soul
Wow. This lift the responsibility from me. Ego is saying why I can't transform myself. Does d meditation help.
Now I realised that I preservere cos meditation is d doorway for grace to come in. I can only relax and be open. As to how, what or when or if it happen doesn't belong to me.
I need only to be open and not close up.
The rship thingy has been bothering me. And it is so timely that m reading it jus before I went to India
The Power of Now
So whenever ur relationship is not working, whenever it brings out the "madness" in u and ur partner, be glad.
What was unconscious is being brought to the light.
It is an opportunity for salvation.
If u observe unconscious behaviour in ur partner, hold it in loving embrace of ur knowing so that u won't react.
Unconsciousness and knowing cannot coexist for long - even if the knowing is only in the other person and not in the one who is acting out the unconsciousness.
If u react at all to ur partner's unconsciousness, u become unconscious yourself.
But if u then remember to know ur reaction, nothing is lost.
Soul
Yea, I practiced that. and now teaching my staff in handling CEO.
The Power of Now
As u may have noticed, relationship are not here to make u happy or fulfilled. If u continue to pursue the goal of salvation through a relationship, u will be disillusioned again and again.
But if u accept that the relationship is here to make u conscious instead of happy, then the relationship will offer u salvation, and u will be aligning urself with the higher consciousness that wants to be born into the world.
Judgement is either to confuse someone unconscious behaviour with who they are or to project ur own unconsciousness onto another person and mistake that for who they are.
When the pain-body has been transmuted and u r no longer identified with mind and mental positions, and if ur partner has done the same, u will experience the bliss of the flowering of relationship.
Instead of mirroing to each other ur pain and unconsciousness, instead of satisfying ur mutual addictive needs, u will reflect back to each other the love that u feel deep within, the love that comes with the realisation or ur oness wit all that is.
This is the love that has no opposite.
If u can feel ur emotions, u r not far from the radiant inner body just underneath.
If u r mainly in ur head, the distance is much greater and u need to bring consciousness into the emotional body before u can reach the inner body
Mind
Emotion
Energy.
If there isn't an emanation of love and joy, complete presence and openness toward ALL beings, then it is not enlightenment.
Another indicator is how a person behaves in difficult/challenging situation or when things go wrong.
Evenin
Today hav a good session wit CD. M real glad I got to know him better. He was also upfront wit me. He said despite havin everything, he is not sure why he is still not happy.
M surprised he understand abt the projection issue and he admitted he has hidden anger.
I told him that he was real lucky to stay this naïve for so long. He didn't have to face d politic arena.
Mmm, he is d second person cos my friend BE also d same.
Me, I faced it at d start of my career. I used to think God doesn't love me, give me such difficult challenges from day 1. Now I realised perhaps He know m ready.
M glad that CEO finally realise that CD is jus plain naïve. Its not he is too arrogant to play d corporate game, it is becos he is too simple and totally ignore the basic rule. She in turn decide that she need not be defensive n to call another person.
3 hours wit him, 1 hour wit CEO. Tiring day. Father, how lah to be coach, perhaps I didn't root myself.
Mmm, today was bit off. Lost focus a few times. Thinkin of future.
But I preservere. Tomorro leavin for India.
The Power of Now
Every crisis represents not only danger but also opportunity.
If relationship energises and magnify egoic mind patterns and activate the pain-body, as they do at this time, why not accept this fact rather than try to escape from it.
Why not cooperate with it instead of avoiding relationship or continuing to pursue the phantom of an ideal partner as an answer to ur problems or as a means of feeling fufilled?
Soul
That's what I tot in d brief rship whereby I was conned. My body was saying no but my mind say yes.
Of cos, when I ended it, I know it happen cos I was havin a low self esteem. But the fact I ended it shows that I valued myself and I tot it has been uphill since then.
But, I am afraid. I don't trust myself. I am not sure if I could handle the pain-body that arise, the feeling of vulnerability, which represent weakness to me. Of cos it happen a few years ago and now I am different, less on mind. But am I ready?
The Power of Now
The opportunity that is concealed within every crisis does not manifest until all the facts of any given situation are acknowledged and fully accpeted.
As long as u deny them, as long as u try to escape from them or wish that things were different, the window of opportunity does not open up and u remain trapped inside that situation, which will remain the same or deteriorate further.
With the acknowledgement and acceptance of the facts also comes a degree of freedom from them.
For eg., when u know there is a disharmony and u hold that "knowing", through ur knowing, a new factor has come in, and the disharmony cannot remain unchanged.
When u know u r not at peace, ur knowing create a still space that surrounds ur nonpeace in a loving and tender embrace and then transmute ur nonpeace into peace
As far as inner transformation is concerned there is NOTHING you can do about it.
You cannot transform yourself and you certainly cannot transform your partner or anybody else.
All u can do is to create a space for transformation to happen, for grace and love to enter.
Soul
Wow. This lift the responsibility from me. Ego is saying why I can't transform myself. Does d meditation help.
Now I realised that I preservere cos meditation is d doorway for grace to come in. I can only relax and be open. As to how, what or when or if it happen doesn't belong to me.
I need only to be open and not close up.
The rship thingy has been bothering me. And it is so timely that m reading it jus before I went to India
The Power of Now
So whenever ur relationship is not working, whenever it brings out the "madness" in u and ur partner, be glad.
What was unconscious is being brought to the light.
It is an opportunity for salvation.
If u observe unconscious behaviour in ur partner, hold it in loving embrace of ur knowing so that u won't react.
Unconsciousness and knowing cannot coexist for long - even if the knowing is only in the other person and not in the one who is acting out the unconsciousness.
If u react at all to ur partner's unconsciousness, u become unconscious yourself.
But if u then remember to know ur reaction, nothing is lost.
Soul
Yea, I practiced that. and now teaching my staff in handling CEO.
The Power of Now
As u may have noticed, relationship are not here to make u happy or fulfilled. If u continue to pursue the goal of salvation through a relationship, u will be disillusioned again and again.
But if u accept that the relationship is here to make u conscious instead of happy, then the relationship will offer u salvation, and u will be aligning urself with the higher consciousness that wants to be born into the world.
Judgement is either to confuse someone unconscious behaviour with who they are or to project ur own unconsciousness onto another person and mistake that for who they are.
When the pain-body has been transmuted and u r no longer identified with mind and mental positions, and if ur partner has done the same, u will experience the bliss of the flowering of relationship.
Instead of mirroing to each other ur pain and unconsciousness, instead of satisfying ur mutual addictive needs, u will reflect back to each other the love that u feel deep within, the love that comes with the realisation or ur oness wit all that is.
This is the love that has no opposite.
If u can feel ur emotions, u r not far from the radiant inner body just underneath.
If u r mainly in ur head, the distance is much greater and u need to bring consciousness into the emotional body before u can reach the inner body
Mind
Emotion
Energy.
If there isn't an emanation of love and joy, complete presence and openness toward ALL beings, then it is not enlightenment.
Another indicator is how a person behaves in difficult/challenging situation or when things go wrong.
Evenin
Today hav a good session wit CD. M real glad I got to know him better. He was also upfront wit me. He said despite havin everything, he is not sure why he is still not happy.
M surprised he understand abt the projection issue and he admitted he has hidden anger.
I told him that he was real lucky to stay this naïve for so long. He didn't have to face d politic arena.
Mmm, he is d second person cos my friend BE also d same.
Me, I faced it at d start of my career. I used to think God doesn't love me, give me such difficult challenges from day 1. Now I realised perhaps He know m ready.
M glad that CEO finally realise that CD is jus plain naïve. Its not he is too arrogant to play d corporate game, it is becos he is too simple and totally ignore the basic rule. She in turn decide that she need not be defensive n to call another person.
3 hours wit him, 1 hour wit CEO. Tiring day. Father, how lah to be coach, perhaps I didn't root myself.
Love/Hate relationship
Feb 10
Father, d veg period is nearly over. And I am getting happier. Looking forward to explore all my food hunts. There is also many more restaurants to explore. I m also happier during meditation.
The Power of Now.
Most people pursue physical pleasures or various form of psychological gratification because they believe that those things will make them happy or free them from a feeling of fear or lack.
This is a search for salvation from a state of unsatisfactoriness or insufficiency.
Invariably, any satisfaction that they obtain is short-lived, so the conditions or fulfillment is usually projected once again to an imaginary point away from the here and now.
This is the unconscious mind-set that creates the illusion of salvation in the future.
Soul - yea. Used to be work and now if I acknowledge it wld be rship.
The Power of Now
True salvation is fulfillment, peace, life in all its fullness.
It is to be who u r, to feel within u the good that has no opposite, the joy of Being that depends nothing outside itself. (Soul _ yeap, just closing my eyes, I am conneced and felt the joy of just being. People says cry themselves to sleep; I laugh myself to sleep)
The Power of Now
It is felt not as a passing experience but as an abiding presence.
It is to "know God" - not as something outside yourself but as an inseparable part of the timeless and formlessness One Life from which all that exists derive its being.
True salvation is a state of freedom - from fear, from suffering, from perceived state of lack and insufficiency and therfore from all wanting, needing, grasping and clingihg.
It is freedom from compulsive thinking, from negativity, and above all from past and future as a psychological need.
Your mind is telling u that u cannot get there from here. Something need to happen or u need to become this or that before u can be freed and fulfilled.
It is infact saying u need time - time to find, sort out, do, achieve, acquire, become or understand something before u can be free or complete.
You see time as the means to salvation, whereas in truth it is the greatest obstacle to salvation.
You think u can't get there from where and who u are at this moment because u r not yet complete or good enough, but the truth is that here and now is the only point where u can get there.
You "get" there by realising that u r already there.
You find God the moment that u realise that u don't need to seek God.
So there is no only way to salvation
Any condition can be used, but no particular condition is needed.
However, there is only one point of access; the Now.
There can be no salvation away from this moment.
You are lonely and without a partner? Enter the Now from there.
You are in a relationship? Enter the Now from there.
There is nothing u can ever do or attain that will get u closer to salvation than it is at this moment.
This may be hard to grasp for a mind accustomed to thinking that everything worthwhile is in the future.
Nor can anything that u ever did or that was done to u in the past prevent u from saying yes to what is and taking ur attention deeply into Now.
You cannot do this in the future.
You do it now or not at all.
Soul - lots of info
First thing that strike me was d fact that part of me still wan a partner. Although I know it is not for enlightenment. According to colleague, u get a partner for mental, physical, emotional or materials. She says she wan d emotion.
How abt me, I wld say physical and perhaps material. Both also important cos my physical include materials. I wld say d partner thingy is mor for enjoyment. But who knows, perhaps its jus me who don't wan to commit. And part of me also don't wan to try cos unfortunately I stil believe there may be pain. But of cos Osho says with pain comes pleasure. With agony comes ecstasy. Mmmm, not sure I believe that. I guess d real part is abt being vulnerable, being to face possibilities of non-acceptance n then it wld shake my exposed belief that m not lovable. The thing is I don't wan to be sad. I don't wan to risk my peace n comfort zone. So, now wonder cannot get, smile.
Of cos, now I know m loved by God and by myself. Loved by partner still vague.
The Power of Now
Love/Hate relationships.
Unless and until u access the consciousness frequency of presence, all relationships and particularly intimate relationships, are deeply flawed and ultimately dysfunctional.
They may seem perfect for a while, such as when u r in love, but invariably that apparent perfection gets disrupted as arguments, conflicts, dissatisfaction, and emotional or even physical violence occur with increasing frequency.
It seems that most love relationship become love/hate rship before long.
Love can turn into savage attack, feelings of hostility, or complete withdrawal of affection at the flick of a switch. This is considered normal. The rship then oscillates between love/hate, giving pleasure/pain and this drama can make some rships feel alive.
When d balance is lost, and the negative destructive cycle occur wit increasing frequency and intensity, then it will not be long before the rship finally collapses.
The pain/pleasure is mutually interdependent. You cannot have one without the other.
Soul - that's exactly why I don't wan to explore. Cos I know its not going to turn out well especially since I hav not heal my childhood abandoment issue.
Love/hate of a romantic love
The positive already contains within itself the as yet unmanifested negative.
Both are infact different aspects of the same dysfunction.
True love, which has no opposite, arises from beyond the mind
True love as a continuous state is as yet very rare - as rare as conscious human being.
Question
Why should we become addicted to another person - romantic love?
Answer
The reason why the romantic relationship is such an intense and universally sought-after experience is that it seems to offer liberation from a deep-seated stated of fear, need, lack and incompleteness that is part of the human condition in its unredeemed and unenlightened state.
There is a physical as well as a psychological dimension to this state.
On a physical level, u r obviously not whole, nor will u ever be. Sexual union is the closest u can get to the state of wholeness. That is why it is the most deeply satisfying experience the physical realm can offer. But sexual union is no more than just a glimpse of wholeness, an instant of bliss.
On the psychological level, the sense of lack and incompleteness is, if anything, even greater than on the physical level.
As long as u r identified with the mind, u hav an externally derived sense of self.
That is to say, you get ur sense of who u r from the things that ultimately has nothing to do with who u are; ur social role, possessions, external appearance, successes and failures, belief systens, and so on.
This false, mind-made self, the ego, feels vulnerable, insecure, and is always seeking new things to identify to give it a feeling that it exists.
But nothing is ever enough to give it lasting fulfillment.
Its fear remains; its sense of lack and neediness remain.
Soul - I know. I don't wan this issue to arise as I don't like it. It makes me feel small.
Love/hate
But then the special relationship comes along. It seems to be the answer to all the ego's problems and to meet all its needs. At least this is how it appears at firts. All the other things that u derived ur sense of self from before, now become relatively insignificant. You now have a focal point that replaces them all, gives meaning to ur life and through which u define ur identity; the person u r "in love" with.
The fact that the center is outside u and that, therefore, u still have an externally derived sense of self does not seem to matter at first.
What matters is that the underlying feeling of incompleteness, of fear, of lack and fulfillment, so characteristic of egoic state are no longer there - or are they?
Have they dissolved, or do they continue to exist underneath the happy surface reality.
You cannot love ur partner one moment and attack him or her the next. True love has no opposite.
If ur "love" has an opposite, then it is not love but a strong ego-need for a more complete and deeper sense of self, a need that the other person temporarily meets.
It is the ego's substitute for salvation and for a short time it almost does feel like salvation.
Just as with every addiction, you are on a high when the drug is available, but invariably there comes a time when the drug no longer works for u.
When those painful feelings reappear, u feel them even more strongly than before and what is more, u now perceive your partner as the cause of those feelings. This means that u project them outward and attack the other with all the savage violence that is part of ur pain.
Soul
Mmm, don't really recall this. In my case, I normally blame myself.
Infact, I used to wonder why d other women can get away wit it. Why they lashed on their partner n they still take it?
Perhaps that's why I don't lash cos if they do, I won't take it either.
Tot of CEO, she can't stand to see lifeless/no response/no smile/dullness/any negative emotion. That's means she has them.
Love/hate
This attack may awaken the partner's own pain and he or she may counter your attack.
At this point, the ego is still unconsciously hoping that its attack or its attempts at manipulation will be sufficient punishment to induce ur partner to change their behaviour so that it can use them again as a cover-up for ur pain.
Soul - tot of my sis always scolding and at times beating her son. Always says when will d son change his behaviour. I wonder whether if love/hate also applies to relationship between parents/children.
The Power of Now
Every addiction arises from an unconscious refusal to face and move through ur own pain. Every addiction starts wit pain and ends wit pain.
Soul
People use to say food is my addiction. Actually these 40 days of veg. I know that food is not my addiction. I enjoy food, yea. But I am not addicted.
People also says I substitute food for sex. Perhaps, but whatever it is, the 40 days confirmed that I don't have addiction since there is no pain. Jus feel bit pitiful that I can't enjoy d various food available.
Jus now shoonya, I was laughing throughout. If I m not mistaken, this wld be one of the most laughing session of shoonya.
The Power of Now
Intimate relationship do not cause pain and unhappiness. They bring out the pain and unhappiness that is already in u. Every addiction does that. Every addiction reaches a point where it does not work for u anymore, and then u feel the pain more intensely.
Avoidance of relationships in an attempt to avoid pain is not the answer either. The pain is there anyway.
Three failed relationships in as many years are more likely to force u into awakening than 3 years on a desert island or shut away in ur room.
But if u could bring intesne presence into ur aloness, that would work for u too.
Soul
Mmm, not sure if can heed this call. Easier to ignore and run.
The Power of Now
To disidentify from the pain-body is to bring presence into the pain and thus trasmute it.
To disidentify from thinking is to be the silent watcher of ur tots and behaviour, especially the repetitive patterns of ur mind and the roles play by the ego.
Soul - a tot came. May be too arrogant. Since there is no more pain in me, only laughter and joy. Perhaps now is d time for intimate rship and I need not worry abt the negative feeling that may arise. Need worry abt the judgments.
The Power of Now
First u stop judging urself; then u stop judging ur partner.
The greatest catalyst for change in a relationship is complete acceptance as he is or she is, without needing to judge him.
Love is a state of Being
Your love is not outside; it is deep within you.
You can never lose it and it cannot leave u.
It is not dependent on some other body, some external form.
You look beyond the veil of form and separation.
What is God?
The eternal One Life underneath all the forms of life.
What is love?
To feel the the presence of that One Life deep within urself and within all creatures. To be love. Therefore, all love is the love of God.
There may be one person who reflects your love back to you more clearly and more intensely than others; and if that person feels the same toward you, it can be said that u r in a love relationship wit him or her.
Soul
Mmm, something similar to 3 of heart.
Loving someone cos he reflect our love for ourselves.
The power of Now
Love cannot flourish unless u r permanently free of mind identification and ur presence is intense enough to have dissolved the pain-body - or you can at least remain present as the watcher. The pain-body cannot then take u over and so become destructive of love.
Evening
Watch d korean drama. Her wishful thinking was like mine too. I hav been there. Mind can play tricks.
Today, mom told me tomorro she is cooking chicken rice and asked me what I shall eat tomorro. At first I told her pack veg food for me, then I said nevermind, I will eat fast noodle. I then realised my family also change their diet for me.
Then in d evening, 2 green veg dishes. Mom said becos of me, the family stop eating garlic. They miss it. I realised how much they love me.
I will buy them lunch at my favourite restaurant. My family really loves me.
Father, d veg period is nearly over. And I am getting happier. Looking forward to explore all my food hunts. There is also many more restaurants to explore. I m also happier during meditation.
The Power of Now.
Most people pursue physical pleasures or various form of psychological gratification because they believe that those things will make them happy or free them from a feeling of fear or lack.
This is a search for salvation from a state of unsatisfactoriness or insufficiency.
Invariably, any satisfaction that they obtain is short-lived, so the conditions or fulfillment is usually projected once again to an imaginary point away from the here and now.
This is the unconscious mind-set that creates the illusion of salvation in the future.
Soul - yea. Used to be work and now if I acknowledge it wld be rship.
The Power of Now
True salvation is fulfillment, peace, life in all its fullness.
It is to be who u r, to feel within u the good that has no opposite, the joy of Being that depends nothing outside itself. (Soul _ yeap, just closing my eyes, I am conneced and felt the joy of just being. People says cry themselves to sleep; I laugh myself to sleep)
The Power of Now
It is felt not as a passing experience but as an abiding presence.
It is to "know God" - not as something outside yourself but as an inseparable part of the timeless and formlessness One Life from which all that exists derive its being.
True salvation is a state of freedom - from fear, from suffering, from perceived state of lack and insufficiency and therfore from all wanting, needing, grasping and clingihg.
It is freedom from compulsive thinking, from negativity, and above all from past and future as a psychological need.
Your mind is telling u that u cannot get there from here. Something need to happen or u need to become this or that before u can be freed and fulfilled.
It is infact saying u need time - time to find, sort out, do, achieve, acquire, become or understand something before u can be free or complete.
You see time as the means to salvation, whereas in truth it is the greatest obstacle to salvation.
You think u can't get there from where and who u are at this moment because u r not yet complete or good enough, but the truth is that here and now is the only point where u can get there.
You "get" there by realising that u r already there.
You find God the moment that u realise that u don't need to seek God.
So there is no only way to salvation
Any condition can be used, but no particular condition is needed.
However, there is only one point of access; the Now.
There can be no salvation away from this moment.
You are lonely and without a partner? Enter the Now from there.
You are in a relationship? Enter the Now from there.
There is nothing u can ever do or attain that will get u closer to salvation than it is at this moment.
This may be hard to grasp for a mind accustomed to thinking that everything worthwhile is in the future.
Nor can anything that u ever did or that was done to u in the past prevent u from saying yes to what is and taking ur attention deeply into Now.
You cannot do this in the future.
You do it now or not at all.
Soul - lots of info
First thing that strike me was d fact that part of me still wan a partner. Although I know it is not for enlightenment. According to colleague, u get a partner for mental, physical, emotional or materials. She says she wan d emotion.
How abt me, I wld say physical and perhaps material. Both also important cos my physical include materials. I wld say d partner thingy is mor for enjoyment. But who knows, perhaps its jus me who don't wan to commit. And part of me also don't wan to try cos unfortunately I stil believe there may be pain. But of cos Osho says with pain comes pleasure. With agony comes ecstasy. Mmmm, not sure I believe that. I guess d real part is abt being vulnerable, being to face possibilities of non-acceptance n then it wld shake my exposed belief that m not lovable. The thing is I don't wan to be sad. I don't wan to risk my peace n comfort zone. So, now wonder cannot get, smile.
Of cos, now I know m loved by God and by myself. Loved by partner still vague.
The Power of Now
Love/Hate relationships.
Unless and until u access the consciousness frequency of presence, all relationships and particularly intimate relationships, are deeply flawed and ultimately dysfunctional.
They may seem perfect for a while, such as when u r in love, but invariably that apparent perfection gets disrupted as arguments, conflicts, dissatisfaction, and emotional or even physical violence occur with increasing frequency.
It seems that most love relationship become love/hate rship before long.
Love can turn into savage attack, feelings of hostility, or complete withdrawal of affection at the flick of a switch. This is considered normal. The rship then oscillates between love/hate, giving pleasure/pain and this drama can make some rships feel alive.
When d balance is lost, and the negative destructive cycle occur wit increasing frequency and intensity, then it will not be long before the rship finally collapses.
The pain/pleasure is mutually interdependent. You cannot have one without the other.
Soul - that's exactly why I don't wan to explore. Cos I know its not going to turn out well especially since I hav not heal my childhood abandoment issue.
Love/hate of a romantic love
The positive already contains within itself the as yet unmanifested negative.
Both are infact different aspects of the same dysfunction.
True love, which has no opposite, arises from beyond the mind
True love as a continuous state is as yet very rare - as rare as conscious human being.
Question
Why should we become addicted to another person - romantic love?
Answer
The reason why the romantic relationship is such an intense and universally sought-after experience is that it seems to offer liberation from a deep-seated stated of fear, need, lack and incompleteness that is part of the human condition in its unredeemed and unenlightened state.
There is a physical as well as a psychological dimension to this state.
On a physical level, u r obviously not whole, nor will u ever be. Sexual union is the closest u can get to the state of wholeness. That is why it is the most deeply satisfying experience the physical realm can offer. But sexual union is no more than just a glimpse of wholeness, an instant of bliss.
On the psychological level, the sense of lack and incompleteness is, if anything, even greater than on the physical level.
As long as u r identified with the mind, u hav an externally derived sense of self.
That is to say, you get ur sense of who u r from the things that ultimately has nothing to do with who u are; ur social role, possessions, external appearance, successes and failures, belief systens, and so on.
This false, mind-made self, the ego, feels vulnerable, insecure, and is always seeking new things to identify to give it a feeling that it exists.
But nothing is ever enough to give it lasting fulfillment.
Its fear remains; its sense of lack and neediness remain.
Soul - I know. I don't wan this issue to arise as I don't like it. It makes me feel small.
Love/hate
But then the special relationship comes along. It seems to be the answer to all the ego's problems and to meet all its needs. At least this is how it appears at firts. All the other things that u derived ur sense of self from before, now become relatively insignificant. You now have a focal point that replaces them all, gives meaning to ur life and through which u define ur identity; the person u r "in love" with.
The fact that the center is outside u and that, therefore, u still have an externally derived sense of self does not seem to matter at first.
What matters is that the underlying feeling of incompleteness, of fear, of lack and fulfillment, so characteristic of egoic state are no longer there - or are they?
Have they dissolved, or do they continue to exist underneath the happy surface reality.
You cannot love ur partner one moment and attack him or her the next. True love has no opposite.
If ur "love" has an opposite, then it is not love but a strong ego-need for a more complete and deeper sense of self, a need that the other person temporarily meets.
It is the ego's substitute for salvation and for a short time it almost does feel like salvation.
Just as with every addiction, you are on a high when the drug is available, but invariably there comes a time when the drug no longer works for u.
When those painful feelings reappear, u feel them even more strongly than before and what is more, u now perceive your partner as the cause of those feelings. This means that u project them outward and attack the other with all the savage violence that is part of ur pain.
Soul
Mmm, don't really recall this. In my case, I normally blame myself.
Infact, I used to wonder why d other women can get away wit it. Why they lashed on their partner n they still take it?
Perhaps that's why I don't lash cos if they do, I won't take it either.
Tot of CEO, she can't stand to see lifeless/no response/no smile/dullness/any negative emotion. That's means she has them.
Love/hate
This attack may awaken the partner's own pain and he or she may counter your attack.
At this point, the ego is still unconsciously hoping that its attack or its attempts at manipulation will be sufficient punishment to induce ur partner to change their behaviour so that it can use them again as a cover-up for ur pain.
Soul - tot of my sis always scolding and at times beating her son. Always says when will d son change his behaviour. I wonder whether if love/hate also applies to relationship between parents/children.
The Power of Now
Every addiction arises from an unconscious refusal to face and move through ur own pain. Every addiction starts wit pain and ends wit pain.
Soul
People use to say food is my addiction. Actually these 40 days of veg. I know that food is not my addiction. I enjoy food, yea. But I am not addicted.
People also says I substitute food for sex. Perhaps, but whatever it is, the 40 days confirmed that I don't have addiction since there is no pain. Jus feel bit pitiful that I can't enjoy d various food available.
Jus now shoonya, I was laughing throughout. If I m not mistaken, this wld be one of the most laughing session of shoonya.
The Power of Now
Intimate relationship do not cause pain and unhappiness. They bring out the pain and unhappiness that is already in u. Every addiction does that. Every addiction reaches a point where it does not work for u anymore, and then u feel the pain more intensely.
Avoidance of relationships in an attempt to avoid pain is not the answer either. The pain is there anyway.
Three failed relationships in as many years are more likely to force u into awakening than 3 years on a desert island or shut away in ur room.
But if u could bring intesne presence into ur aloness, that would work for u too.
Soul
Mmm, not sure if can heed this call. Easier to ignore and run.
The Power of Now
To disidentify from the pain-body is to bring presence into the pain and thus trasmute it.
To disidentify from thinking is to be the silent watcher of ur tots and behaviour, especially the repetitive patterns of ur mind and the roles play by the ego.
Soul - a tot came. May be too arrogant. Since there is no more pain in me, only laughter and joy. Perhaps now is d time for intimate rship and I need not worry abt the negative feeling that may arise. Need worry abt the judgments.
The Power of Now
First u stop judging urself; then u stop judging ur partner.
The greatest catalyst for change in a relationship is complete acceptance as he is or she is, without needing to judge him.
Love is a state of Being
Your love is not outside; it is deep within you.
You can never lose it and it cannot leave u.
It is not dependent on some other body, some external form.
You look beyond the veil of form and separation.
What is God?
The eternal One Life underneath all the forms of life.
What is love?
To feel the the presence of that One Life deep within urself and within all creatures. To be love. Therefore, all love is the love of God.
There may be one person who reflects your love back to you more clearly and more intensely than others; and if that person feels the same toward you, it can be said that u r in a love relationship wit him or her.
Soul
Mmm, something similar to 3 of heart.
Loving someone cos he reflect our love for ourselves.
The power of Now
Love cannot flourish unless u r permanently free of mind identification and ur presence is intense enough to have dissolved the pain-body - or you can at least remain present as the watcher. The pain-body cannot then take u over and so become destructive of love.
Evening
Watch d korean drama. Her wishful thinking was like mine too. I hav been there. Mind can play tricks.
Today, mom told me tomorro she is cooking chicken rice and asked me what I shall eat tomorro. At first I told her pack veg food for me, then I said nevermind, I will eat fast noodle. I then realised my family also change their diet for me.
Then in d evening, 2 green veg dishes. Mom said becos of me, the family stop eating garlic. They miss it. I realised how much they love me.
I will buy them lunch at my favourite restaurant. My family really loves me.
Outside negative energy field - have less effect on me
Feb 9
The Power of Now
When u r in ur inner body, ur immune system will strengthen. It is as if every cell awakens and rejoices. The body loves ur attention. It is also a potent form of self-healing.
Ur psychic immune system is greatly enhanced as well. The latter protects u from the negative mental-emotional force fields of others, which are highly contagious.
Inhabiting ur inner body raise the frequency of ur total energy field, so that anything that vibrates at a lower frequency, such as fear, anger, depression, and so on, now exist in what is a virtually different order of reality.
It doesn't enter ur field of consciousness anymore or if it does, u don't need to offer any resistance to it.
(19 Mar 201; Soul - so this what I was experiencing with CEO)
Soul - so the meditation and d inner body awareness will help to balance my immune system. In the end, I over exerted myself n didn't listen to my body n emotion, just my mind only. I guess u cld say I was very dense.
I recalled I asked Sadhguru to tell me how can I heal myself. I don't wan to rely on medication that hav side effect.
So, doing d meditation regardless of what I experience help with my immune system
Being with my inner body also helps to balance my immune system.
The Power of Now
Whenever an answer, a solution is needed, stop thinking for a moment by focusing ur attention on ur inner energy field. Become aware of the stillness. When u resume thinking, it will be fresh and creative.
Don't just think wit ur head, think wit ur whole body.
Chi is the inner energy field of ur body. It is the bridge between the outer u and the Source.
When ur consciousness is directed outward, mind and world arise. When it is directed inward, it realises its own Source and returns home into the Unmanifested.
As u go about ur life, don't give 100 percent of ur attention to the external world and to ur mind. Keep some within. Feel ur inner body even when engaged in everyday activities, especially when engaged in relationship or when u r relating to nature. Feel the stillness deep inside it.
Keep the portal open. It is quite possible to be conscious of the Unmanifested throughout ur life.
You feel as it as a deep sense of peace somewhere in the background, a stillness that never leaves u, no matter what happens out here. You become a bridge between the Unmanifested and the manifested, between God and the world. This is the state of connectedness with the Source that we called enlightenment.
Soul
Me stuck in jam for 2 hours. While I don't think I be frus previously, but I don't expect to feel the calmness. It is as if it doesn't bother me. I don't take it personally and I see jam as the simplest problem there is. Besided don't hav to resolve.
Early this mornin, I wanted to hav 80 percent connection to the Source, on a moment to moment basis. Once I m connected, I won't create anymore negativity that activated my RA.
Earlier my original objective for Samyama is to liberate myself from all limitation. Then I tot of being in the Now, focusing on present. And now attention on inner body - being conscious
(19 Mar 2010; Soul - I am in progress)
The power of Now.
The Unmanifested does not liberate you until you enter it consciously.
The portal to the Unmanifested
1. Cessation of thinking - creating a gap in the incessant stream of thought using meditation.
2. Being in the Now - intensely present, the mind stops automatically. The Now is an essential aspect of every other portal.
3. Being in the inner body
4. Surrender - letting go of mental resistance to what is. In the state of surrender, ur form identity softens and become somewhat "transparent" as it were, so the Unmanifested can shine through u.
5. By becoming aware of empty space - or of silence, u simultaneously become aware of the space of no-mind, of pure consciousness.
Every portal is a portal of death, the death of the false self. When u go through it, u cease to derive ur identity from ur psychological, mind-made form.
You then realise that death is an illusion, jus as ur identification wit form was an illusion. The end of illusion - that's all that death is. It is painful only as long as u cling to illusion.
Soul
I wan to use all as I aim to be conscious 80 percent of the time. I aim to master myself. I aim to heal myself.
Meditation is on-going
Being in the now - stop thinkin future
Feeling d inner body - as much as possible
Surrender - whenever I hav resistance. First thing is food in samyama.
The Power of Now
Question; Surely love must also be one of those portals?
Answer: No, it isn't. As soon as one of the portals is open, love is present as the "feeling-realisation" of oneness.
Love isn't a portal; Its what come through the portal into the world.
As long as u r trapped in ur form identity, there can be no love
Your task is not to search for love, but to find a portal through which love can enter.
Soul - no wonder P's love portal hasn't been that successful.
The Power of Now
The ultimate purpose of the world lies not within the world but in transcendence of the world.
Jus as u would not be conscious of space if there were no objects in space, the world is needed for the Unmanifested to be realised.
It is thru the world and ultimately through u, that the Unmanifested knows itself.
You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold.
Bhagavad Gita
The soul, Krishna said to the ego, Arjuna: O my lower self, u must lift urself to my plane of higher soul consciousness!
Even if u destroy the wicked attachments of the senses, u r foolish enough to think that the senses themselves are destroyed! Your higher Self only purifies the lower self; It does not destroy it.
Soul - that's what I said yday abt d limitation will always be there. The solution is to stay conscious so that I don't react towards my limitation. Hence the practice of Now and contact wit Inner body is important to raise our consciousness.
(19 Mar 2010; Soul - Amazingly this is what samyama practices are all about)
The Power of Now
When u r in ur inner body, ur immune system will strengthen. It is as if every cell awakens and rejoices. The body loves ur attention. It is also a potent form of self-healing.
Ur psychic immune system is greatly enhanced as well. The latter protects u from the negative mental-emotional force fields of others, which are highly contagious.
Inhabiting ur inner body raise the frequency of ur total energy field, so that anything that vibrates at a lower frequency, such as fear, anger, depression, and so on, now exist in what is a virtually different order of reality.
It doesn't enter ur field of consciousness anymore or if it does, u don't need to offer any resistance to it.
(19 Mar 201; Soul - so this what I was experiencing with CEO)
Soul - so the meditation and d inner body awareness will help to balance my immune system. In the end, I over exerted myself n didn't listen to my body n emotion, just my mind only. I guess u cld say I was very dense.
I recalled I asked Sadhguru to tell me how can I heal myself. I don't wan to rely on medication that hav side effect.
So, doing d meditation regardless of what I experience help with my immune system
Being with my inner body also helps to balance my immune system.
The Power of Now
Whenever an answer, a solution is needed, stop thinking for a moment by focusing ur attention on ur inner energy field. Become aware of the stillness. When u resume thinking, it will be fresh and creative.
Don't just think wit ur head, think wit ur whole body.
Chi is the inner energy field of ur body. It is the bridge between the outer u and the Source.
When ur consciousness is directed outward, mind and world arise. When it is directed inward, it realises its own Source and returns home into the Unmanifested.
As u go about ur life, don't give 100 percent of ur attention to the external world and to ur mind. Keep some within. Feel ur inner body even when engaged in everyday activities, especially when engaged in relationship or when u r relating to nature. Feel the stillness deep inside it.
Keep the portal open. It is quite possible to be conscious of the Unmanifested throughout ur life.
You feel as it as a deep sense of peace somewhere in the background, a stillness that never leaves u, no matter what happens out here. You become a bridge between the Unmanifested and the manifested, between God and the world. This is the state of connectedness with the Source that we called enlightenment.
Soul
Me stuck in jam for 2 hours. While I don't think I be frus previously, but I don't expect to feel the calmness. It is as if it doesn't bother me. I don't take it personally and I see jam as the simplest problem there is. Besided don't hav to resolve.
Early this mornin, I wanted to hav 80 percent connection to the Source, on a moment to moment basis. Once I m connected, I won't create anymore negativity that activated my RA.
Earlier my original objective for Samyama is to liberate myself from all limitation. Then I tot of being in the Now, focusing on present. And now attention on inner body - being conscious
(19 Mar 2010; Soul - I am in progress)
The power of Now.
The Unmanifested does not liberate you until you enter it consciously.
The portal to the Unmanifested
1. Cessation of thinking - creating a gap in the incessant stream of thought using meditation.
2. Being in the Now - intensely present, the mind stops automatically. The Now is an essential aspect of every other portal.
3. Being in the inner body
4. Surrender - letting go of mental resistance to what is. In the state of surrender, ur form identity softens and become somewhat "transparent" as it were, so the Unmanifested can shine through u.
5. By becoming aware of empty space - or of silence, u simultaneously become aware of the space of no-mind, of pure consciousness.
Every portal is a portal of death, the death of the false self. When u go through it, u cease to derive ur identity from ur psychological, mind-made form.
You then realise that death is an illusion, jus as ur identification wit form was an illusion. The end of illusion - that's all that death is. It is painful only as long as u cling to illusion.
Soul
I wan to use all as I aim to be conscious 80 percent of the time. I aim to master myself. I aim to heal myself.
Meditation is on-going
Being in the now - stop thinkin future
Feeling d inner body - as much as possible
Surrender - whenever I hav resistance. First thing is food in samyama.
The Power of Now
Question; Surely love must also be one of those portals?
Answer: No, it isn't. As soon as one of the portals is open, love is present as the "feeling-realisation" of oneness.
Love isn't a portal; Its what come through the portal into the world.
As long as u r trapped in ur form identity, there can be no love
Your task is not to search for love, but to find a portal through which love can enter.
Soul - no wonder P's love portal hasn't been that successful.
The Power of Now
The ultimate purpose of the world lies not within the world but in transcendence of the world.
Jus as u would not be conscious of space if there were no objects in space, the world is needed for the Unmanifested to be realised.
It is thru the world and ultimately through u, that the Unmanifested knows itself.
You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold.
Bhagavad Gita
The soul, Krishna said to the ego, Arjuna: O my lower self, u must lift urself to my plane of higher soul consciousness!
Even if u destroy the wicked attachments of the senses, u r foolish enough to think that the senses themselves are destroyed! Your higher Self only purifies the lower self; It does not destroy it.
Soul - that's what I said yday abt d limitation will always be there. The solution is to stay conscious so that I don't react towards my limitation. Hence the practice of Now and contact wit Inner body is important to raise our consciousness.
(19 Mar 2010; Soul - Amazingly this is what samyama practices are all about)
Sad over food
Feb 8 evenin
Jus now did meditation. I haven't laugh this long for some time now. At the least for the past 3 weeks. Guess m rejoicing that my 40 veg days is nearly over.
Bhagavad Gita
The ordinary individual considers matter as real (because manifested); he ignores the Spirit as unreal (because hidden). This delusion enshrouds him in ignorance and suffering.
The wise man tears aside the appearance of delusive creation and, perceiving the Everlasting Reality, is permanently happy.
Thru meditation, man chooses to be identified wit the unchangeable Spirit, he will no longer be deluded and tortured by the pandemonium of change.
Spirit is ever-existing, ever-conscious, ever-new omnipresent Joy;
Soul is the individualised reflectionf of ever-existing, ever-conscious, ever-new Joy, confined within the body of each and every being.
Soul are the radiating rays of Spirit.
Jus now did meditation. I haven't laugh this long for some time now. At the least for the past 3 weeks. Guess m rejoicing that my 40 veg days is nearly over.
Bhagavad Gita
The ordinary individual considers matter as real (because manifested); he ignores the Spirit as unreal (because hidden). This delusion enshrouds him in ignorance and suffering.
The wise man tears aside the appearance of delusive creation and, perceiving the Everlasting Reality, is permanently happy.
Thru meditation, man chooses to be identified wit the unchangeable Spirit, he will no longer be deluded and tortured by the pandemonium of change.
Spirit is ever-existing, ever-conscious, ever-new omnipresent Joy;
Soul is the individualised reflectionf of ever-existing, ever-conscious, ever-new Joy, confined within the body of each and every being.
Soul are the radiating rays of Spirit.
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