Sept 13
Father, my left foot is swelling. But m fine.
This morning shambavi is ok. At least these days, I bring myself back when I wander.
On 7thunder cards, its getting more interesting. I realised that there is a connection between 5 of Heart (my Mercury) to Queen of Diamond (my Birth card). Quite complex, but I think there is a trail.
Heal Ur life
This is the only way to change others - change ourselves first. Change ur patterns, and u will find that 'they' are different, too.
Blame is useless. Blaming only gives away ur power. Keep ur power. Without power, we cannot make changes. The helpless victim cannot see a way out.
Soul
Mmm, I forgot about that. I still practice blame, albeit less.
Heal Ur life
Love comes when we least expect it, when u r not looking for it. Hunting for love never brings the right person. It only creates longing and unhappiness. Love is never outside ourselves, love is within us.
What kind of love u want to attract? List the qualities in yourself and u will attract a person who has them.
Be ready for love when it does comes. Prepare the field and be ready to nourish love. Be loving and u will be lovable. Be open and receptive to love.
Soul
Be loving and u be lovable. So apt for Vijii and Tamil teacher. Both of them are loving persons, and they are lovable.
Father, I admit I never consider myself loving and I think my friends will agree.
Father, I believe I am not lovable and not loving too.
My Jupiter period is Universal Love.
I am willing to open my heart and be loving to myself first.
Heal Ur Life
I live in harmony and balance with everyone I know
Deep at the center of my being, there is an infinite well of love.
I now allow this love to flow to the surface.
It fills my heart, my body, my mind, my consciousness, my very being, and radiates out from me in all directions and returns to me multiplied.
The more love I use and give, the more I have to give.
The supply is endless.
The use of love makes me feel good
It is an expression of my inner joy. I love myself, therefore I take loving care of my body. My body lovingly responds to me with vibrant health and energy.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Direction, path and goal, key to meeting your Destiny
Sept 12
Father, attended today sathsang. Mmm, I think m even more receptive now. I find my head shaking easily, fluidly. I felt lighter.
Just now on special vision meditation. I asked for
1. Health and Wholeness.
2. Famous published author
3. Famous transformational leader.
Father, thank U. Today reading my mercury - 5 of Heart - exploring new experiences or rship. Guess that's the reason why I am open. I want to experience all.
My wisdom gained is from my experiences.
Osho - Nanak
Self-restraint means giving direction to life, giving it vision and a goal. A life of restraint is one in which a person is well aware of his goal; he knows exactly where to let his arrow fly. An arrow that is let fly haphazardly cannot possibly hit the target. No power is attained without restrained and moderation.
Once u decide upon a goal, then u have to let go of everything that does not further ur goal. If u want to achieve one thing, u have to let go of a thousand others. U have to make a choice.
So, direction, path and goal. When these three are in complete harmony, u attain self-restraint and balance (integrated whole).
Your mind is like mercury; let it loose and it breaks immediately into a thousand pieces.
If and when u become at all awakened and look within urself, u will find one part of ur mind heading East, one to the West, one to North. One part wants to earn money, another wants to follow spiritual path, and so on.
The mind is fragmented, so never trust it.
If u do not listen to ur mind but instead heed the witness within, u will be able to remember what u have come into the world for, what u have come to buy from the market of samsara.
That remembrance will become ur goal, then u will gain the ability to throw off the fragments that besieged ur mind.
To practice self restraint involve the ability to leave the chaff for the wheat, to let go of the useless and worthless in favour of the useful and worthwhile.
There are thousands of path on which to go astray, but only one to reach the right place; therefore u need a very strong memory - uninterrupted remembrance is required.
Father, attended today sathsang. Mmm, I think m even more receptive now. I find my head shaking easily, fluidly. I felt lighter.
Just now on special vision meditation. I asked for
1. Health and Wholeness.
2. Famous published author
3. Famous transformational leader.
Father, thank U. Today reading my mercury - 5 of Heart - exploring new experiences or rship. Guess that's the reason why I am open. I want to experience all.
My wisdom gained is from my experiences.
Osho - Nanak
Self-restraint means giving direction to life, giving it vision and a goal. A life of restraint is one in which a person is well aware of his goal; he knows exactly where to let his arrow fly. An arrow that is let fly haphazardly cannot possibly hit the target. No power is attained without restrained and moderation.
Once u decide upon a goal, then u have to let go of everything that does not further ur goal. If u want to achieve one thing, u have to let go of a thousand others. U have to make a choice.
So, direction, path and goal. When these three are in complete harmony, u attain self-restraint and balance (integrated whole).
Your mind is like mercury; let it loose and it breaks immediately into a thousand pieces.
If and when u become at all awakened and look within urself, u will find one part of ur mind heading East, one to the West, one to North. One part wants to earn money, another wants to follow spiritual path, and so on.
The mind is fragmented, so never trust it.
If u do not listen to ur mind but instead heed the witness within, u will be able to remember what u have come into the world for, what u have come to buy from the market of samsara.
That remembrance will become ur goal, then u will gain the ability to throw off the fragments that besieged ur mind.
To practice self restraint involve the ability to leave the chaff for the wheat, to let go of the useless and worthless in favour of the useful and worthwhile.
There are thousands of path on which to go astray, but only one to reach the right place; therefore u need a very strong memory - uninterrupted remembrance is required.
All of life is relationships
Sept 11
Answer came.
I was feeling bit ungiving and resentful cos my Ruling is Ace of Diamond. Alone and if do something must have 'return'.
That's what I meant sharing. I give and I receive.
I want that becos basically I am happy alone.
So, its not that I am 'bad' and unable to love. I am loving.
Tot came - one day, meditation will ignite a flame and burn my personality and I become a new person.
I aspire to be like Tamil teacher's presence - universal love.
Father, my 2nd karma Card and Result Card in my Life Spread is Nine of Diamond - Universal Giver. This means the chance of success is great as I already have inherent positive card due to past live giving.
Father, Giving means I already have already received.
So, giving is receiving.
Let me absorb this further.
Heal Ur life
Reinforce new learning by-
1. Expressing gratitude - yes
2. Writing affirmations - no
3. Sitting in meditation - yes
4. Enjoying exercise - yes
5. Practising good nutrition - no
6. Singing affirmation - no
7. Taking time for relaxation - yes
8. Using visualisation, mental imagery - no
9. Reading and studying - yes
Heal Ur life
All of life is relationships. We have relationships with everything. The relationships you have with objects and foods and weather and transportation and with people all reflect the rship u have with urself.
The rship u have with urself is highly influenced by the rship u had with the adults around u as a child. The way the adults reacted toward us then, is often the way we react toward ourselves, now both positively and negatively
Perhaps they never praised u, so u have no idea how to.
(Oct 15 - Sadhguru says we cannot avoid relationships. We can only decide if we want to make it joyful or miserable. And miserable is the result if we are aiming to extract joy from the other person. If we aim only to give joy to the other person, then our relationship is joyful)
Soul
My authority always criticise me for not being good enough. Always telling me to strategise especially areas where I am weak in cos I don't have enough.
Words they used
Not beautiful (Now: I may not be beautiful but I know I am above average)
Stupid (Now: I know I am smart and can even be called an intellectual)
Cannot make it. (Now: I am head of department)
Since I don't affirm myself, I don't affirm others either. All my previous 3 boss (W, A, M and J) all sought my affirmation.
Nine of Diamond
Means that things and people they value will be taken away or at least need to be released.
Nine (ending) is the Opposite of Ace (beginning)
Nine (giving to others) is the Opposite of Ace (giving to self)
Nine must follow a higher path in order to be completely fulfilled. The higher path is often the exact opposite of what is believed and taught in our society.
Nine represents the letting go of our personal desires and identity and merging ourselves into the universal consciousness. In this regard, the Nine person often identifies themselves with a great purpose - that of saving the world in some way.
When they truly released, its Nines that are accessing the power of letting go that is inherent in the birth card (or 2nd karma card) are happy and somewhat carefree. They are giving and less attached to people and things in their life. Result is happiness and enlightenment having made transition.
They understand life as no others can because they can see well beyond their personal identity to the broad picture of the universe.
The compassion they exude is real and comes from consciously passed through many endings.
Their happiness is real because it is not based on the acquisition of any thing or person. It is based on the knowledge they are in tune with the will of God and the cosmic flow.
Nine of Diamond (Universal values - the Giver)
Entails a lot of giving to others and a willingness to release both people and materials things from their life.
Great at promoting things they believe in. Great talker and communicator.
Challenges - to develop and use their charm and power to do good work. Many of them are destined to make great contributions to the world, often by leading others to a higher form of knowledge
Answer came.
I was feeling bit ungiving and resentful cos my Ruling is Ace of Diamond. Alone and if do something must have 'return'.
That's what I meant sharing. I give and I receive.
I want that becos basically I am happy alone.
So, its not that I am 'bad' and unable to love. I am loving.
Tot came - one day, meditation will ignite a flame and burn my personality and I become a new person.
I aspire to be like Tamil teacher's presence - universal love.
Father, my 2nd karma Card and Result Card in my Life Spread is Nine of Diamond - Universal Giver. This means the chance of success is great as I already have inherent positive card due to past live giving.
Father, Giving means I already have already received.
So, giving is receiving.
Let me absorb this further.
Heal Ur life
Reinforce new learning by-
1. Expressing gratitude - yes
2. Writing affirmations - no
3. Sitting in meditation - yes
4. Enjoying exercise - yes
5. Practising good nutrition - no
6. Singing affirmation - no
7. Taking time for relaxation - yes
8. Using visualisation, mental imagery - no
9. Reading and studying - yes
Heal Ur life
All of life is relationships. We have relationships with everything. The relationships you have with objects and foods and weather and transportation and with people all reflect the rship u have with urself.
The rship u have with urself is highly influenced by the rship u had with the adults around u as a child. The way the adults reacted toward us then, is often the way we react toward ourselves, now both positively and negatively
Perhaps they never praised u, so u have no idea how to.
(Oct 15 - Sadhguru says we cannot avoid relationships. We can only decide if we want to make it joyful or miserable. And miserable is the result if we are aiming to extract joy from the other person. If we aim only to give joy to the other person, then our relationship is joyful)
Soul
My authority always criticise me for not being good enough. Always telling me to strategise especially areas where I am weak in cos I don't have enough.
Words they used
Not beautiful (Now: I may not be beautiful but I know I am above average)
Stupid (Now: I know I am smart and can even be called an intellectual)
Cannot make it. (Now: I am head of department)
Since I don't affirm myself, I don't affirm others either. All my previous 3 boss (W, A, M and J) all sought my affirmation.
Nine of Diamond
Means that things and people they value will be taken away or at least need to be released.
Nine (ending) is the Opposite of Ace (beginning)
Nine (giving to others) is the Opposite of Ace (giving to self)
Nine must follow a higher path in order to be completely fulfilled. The higher path is often the exact opposite of what is believed and taught in our society.
Nine represents the letting go of our personal desires and identity and merging ourselves into the universal consciousness. In this regard, the Nine person often identifies themselves with a great purpose - that of saving the world in some way.
When they truly released, its Nines that are accessing the power of letting go that is inherent in the birth card (or 2nd karma card) are happy and somewhat carefree. They are giving and less attached to people and things in their life. Result is happiness and enlightenment having made transition.
They understand life as no others can because they can see well beyond their personal identity to the broad picture of the universe.
The compassion they exude is real and comes from consciously passed through many endings.
Their happiness is real because it is not based on the acquisition of any thing or person. It is based on the knowledge they are in tune with the will of God and the cosmic flow.
Nine of Diamond (Universal values - the Giver)
Entails a lot of giving to others and a willingness to release both people and materials things from their life.
Great at promoting things they believe in. Great talker and communicator.
Challenges - to develop and use their charm and power to do good work. Many of them are destined to make great contributions to the world, often by leading others to a higher form of knowledge
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Queen of Diamond Life Spread (2)
Sept 10
Father, today my left shoulder is too painful that I cannot do hatha yoga. It will recover tomorro. Did my breathing (not in), followed by shakti (in - now the deep breathing is effortless), then shambavi
Good thing that I can do cat stretch. The fluterring breathe. For a few second, it was fast and effortless, only breathing thru the nose surface).
Father, some tots did come in and I admit the Tamil teacher's laughter always come in. But these day, I can ignore and proceed.
Then just a sense of total peace and towards the end a tinge of sweetness.
Father, thanks for the reduced pain.
Tot of yday meal, was out but for the first time I was fine despite having expectation. Thank U.
As for J, why now only found out that he is Six of Spades, this explain his inertia. His inability to change has nothing to do with me.
Afternoon
Father, meeting D is good. I am happy for her. Turns out 7thunder cards of 8 of Clube and her Planetary card is on the right track.
Just now I realised that I have the focus and intensity but its used elsewhere, not in my path to meet my destiny. I used it for my mind, worrying and etc.
Six of Spade - they accept their destiny.
Me, I have been resisting all these while but m slowly coming to there.
Evening
I am drawn to the Tamil teacher. He epitomise what I want for myself. His presence is loving and compassion. His is a universal love.
That's my Jupiter card - Nine of Heart - universal love card.
I guess that's what my Ace of Heart represent. Found someone who epitomised what I want for myself.
(Oct 8 - not so, just met another guy who is mor reflective of my vision partner
Father, got a text for L to photocopy her cards. My first reaction is I didn't like it. Second reaction is why I don't like to share. Answer, I am doing this for my interest. Why can't they buy the book and do it on their own. Can see bit resentment again.
Then I realised that its becos she is giving, she expect that I do the same.
C loves to share. For me, I learn for my interest and to get people keen on the topics. I am not here for people.
Father, there is still a tussle in me. I still can't do it freely.
I would wish people get on the bandwagon and explore it themselves and then there can be two way sharing.
Like my rship with D, there is a 2-way sharing. We learn from each other.
I don't like it when its one-way receiving from me. Aiyah, again d similar issue wit C. Perhaps its one-way with me but the person has one-way giving to others.
My Saturn and Cosmic Lesson
Seven
Positive (Spiritual) - detached and happy where there is abundance
Negative (Mundane) - attachment and worries about not having enough, feeling of lack.
Overcoming mundane challenges by releasing attachment and practice gratefulness in order to have spiritual enlightenment and freedom from the cares of the world.
Saturn
Seven of Club (Spiritual knowledge)
Challenge - negative aspect of the mind, which are worry, doubt and pessimism.
Tool - Insights, Inspiration, Power/Intensity
Result - Fame and recognition in Spiritual Knowledge that they secretly desire.
Overcoming pessimism and negativity
1. Relationship
2. Spiritual Work
3. Health
Soul
I keep on complaining about the challenge and hardship, I forgot to remember and be grateful for having the inherent Tools to overcome challenges and the Opportunity to achieve fame and recognition ("Special") that I secretly desire but tot I couldn't have it.
Cosmic Lesson
Seven of Spade (Faith Card)
Challenge - to learn to trust and keep their faith despite problems in work and health
Tools - inherent spiritual force.
Result - Spiritual enlightenment and the overcoming of all mundane problems.
Father, instead of complaining. Its true I was selected or perhaps I elected to come back to the world to achieve my desires and it comes with a price. And the price is an attachment that I need to let go also.
Pluto
Jack of Club
Challenge - transformation from youthfulness to responsibility.
Spoilt brat
Father, tell me why so difficult to for universal love card.
Father, today my left shoulder is too painful that I cannot do hatha yoga. It will recover tomorro. Did my breathing (not in), followed by shakti (in - now the deep breathing is effortless), then shambavi
Good thing that I can do cat stretch. The fluterring breathe. For a few second, it was fast and effortless, only breathing thru the nose surface).
Father, some tots did come in and I admit the Tamil teacher's laughter always come in. But these day, I can ignore and proceed.
Then just a sense of total peace and towards the end a tinge of sweetness.
Father, thanks for the reduced pain.
Tot of yday meal, was out but for the first time I was fine despite having expectation. Thank U.
As for J, why now only found out that he is Six of Spades, this explain his inertia. His inability to change has nothing to do with me.
Afternoon
Father, meeting D is good. I am happy for her. Turns out 7thunder cards of 8 of Clube and her Planetary card is on the right track.
Just now I realised that I have the focus and intensity but its used elsewhere, not in my path to meet my destiny. I used it for my mind, worrying and etc.
Six of Spade - they accept their destiny.
Me, I have been resisting all these while but m slowly coming to there.
Evening
I am drawn to the Tamil teacher. He epitomise what I want for myself. His presence is loving and compassion. His is a universal love.
That's my Jupiter card - Nine of Heart - universal love card.
I guess that's what my Ace of Heart represent. Found someone who epitomised what I want for myself.
(Oct 8 - not so, just met another guy who is mor reflective of my vision partner
Father, got a text for L to photocopy her cards. My first reaction is I didn't like it. Second reaction is why I don't like to share. Answer, I am doing this for my interest. Why can't they buy the book and do it on their own. Can see bit resentment again.
Then I realised that its becos she is giving, she expect that I do the same.
C loves to share. For me, I learn for my interest and to get people keen on the topics. I am not here for people.
Father, there is still a tussle in me. I still can't do it freely.
I would wish people get on the bandwagon and explore it themselves and then there can be two way sharing.
Like my rship with D, there is a 2-way sharing. We learn from each other.
I don't like it when its one-way receiving from me. Aiyah, again d similar issue wit C. Perhaps its one-way with me but the person has one-way giving to others.
My Saturn and Cosmic Lesson
Seven
Positive (Spiritual) - detached and happy where there is abundance
Negative (Mundane) - attachment and worries about not having enough, feeling of lack.
Overcoming mundane challenges by releasing attachment and practice gratefulness in order to have spiritual enlightenment and freedom from the cares of the world.
Saturn
Seven of Club (Spiritual knowledge)
Challenge - negative aspect of the mind, which are worry, doubt and pessimism.
Tool - Insights, Inspiration, Power/Intensity
Result - Fame and recognition in Spiritual Knowledge that they secretly desire.
Overcoming pessimism and negativity
1. Relationship
2. Spiritual Work
3. Health
Soul
I keep on complaining about the challenge and hardship, I forgot to remember and be grateful for having the inherent Tools to overcome challenges and the Opportunity to achieve fame and recognition ("Special") that I secretly desire but tot I couldn't have it.
Cosmic Lesson
Seven of Spade (Faith Card)
Challenge - to learn to trust and keep their faith despite problems in work and health
Tools - inherent spiritual force.
Result - Spiritual enlightenment and the overcoming of all mundane problems.
Father, instead of complaining. Its true I was selected or perhaps I elected to come back to the world to achieve my desires and it comes with a price. And the price is an attachment that I need to let go also.
Pluto
Jack of Club
Challenge - transformation from youthfulness to responsibility.
Spoilt brat
Father, tell me why so difficult to for universal love card.
Attachment to food - reduced
Sept 9 Eve
Father, just did destiny reading with J and found out we got the wrong Planetary Ruling card for him. Its Six of Spade and not Queen of Hearts.
Earlier he mention abt his belief he is here to take care of people, give way to people. I replied that's a very weak mother. I tot all Queens are strong mothers. Alas, he is not a Queen.
Also, finally know why no change after a decade. He is a Six and hence tot cannot change. No wonder.
Father, why now after more than 5 years, we found out about this.
Its funny, just when I gave up on him changing. I finally found out why he is not changing.
Anyway, at least my insight was correct. The destiny reading is for Inner path and planetary reading is for outer path, what we are experiencing.
Father, I am surprised. Today meal was quite bad. I was really looking forward to a good meal, in preparation of 16 Sept vegetarian period. Alas, meal was quite bad but surprisingly it didn't affect me.
Looks like my attachment to food has lessen considerably. Also, I didn't judge myself too much for having wrong selection. Amen.
Father, just did destiny reading with J and found out we got the wrong Planetary Ruling card for him. Its Six of Spade and not Queen of Hearts.
Earlier he mention abt his belief he is here to take care of people, give way to people. I replied that's a very weak mother. I tot all Queens are strong mothers. Alas, he is not a Queen.
Also, finally know why no change after a decade. He is a Six and hence tot cannot change. No wonder.
Father, why now after more than 5 years, we found out about this.
Its funny, just when I gave up on him changing. I finally found out why he is not changing.
Anyway, at least my insight was correct. The destiny reading is for Inner path and planetary reading is for outer path, what we are experiencing.
Father, I am surprised. Today meal was quite bad. I was really looking forward to a good meal, in preparation of 16 Sept vegetarian period. Alas, meal was quite bad but surprisingly it didn't affect me.
Looks like my attachment to food has lessen considerably. Also, I didn't judge myself too much for having wrong selection. Amen.
Queen of Diamond Life Spread
Sept 9
Soul
Just did my shoonya. It was deep. Father, thanks for guiding me to the next level.
Neptune in Life Spread
Queen of Spade - Self-Mastery
They are true mothers of the world who compassionately share and teach their wisdom. They are all born to rule, but they must actualise that destiny themselves.
They rise to their highest potential by following their intuition and inner guidance.
Soul
No wonder I reacted when I heard Sadhguru, can u be a mother to thousand of people.
I want to teach to lots of people and hence got money. But I also want to be alone. That's why its my dream and my fear.
Jupiter
Nine of Hearts - Universal Love Card
They are givers, endowed with great minds and hearts to share with the world
Many are found in counseling fields out of natural desire to give to others.
Soul
Looks like I am on the right track. This avenue is the one that can also give me blessing/money.
Saturn
Seven of Club
Challenge lies in the negative aspects of the mind which are worry, doubt and pessimism.
They have much inherent inspiration and insight, but when they don't follow it, they will be despair and depressed.
They have the power to overcome their problems and to attain the fame and recognition they secretly desire, but they must apply themselves diligently.
(Oct 8 - Father, previously I couldn't relate to this. Now I can. I have loads of self-criticism. Even before things materialised, my fear will bring me back to earth. I am too pragmatic. I want to dream a bit more, be adventerous. I want my vision partner..perhaps thats why my RA was acting up cos I decided a few months ago to stop wanting. But fear of RA is more than fear of rejection, so will try and now that i know my challenge is being a pessimist, I will be focused on my vision partner.)
Soul
This reminds me of my Inner Child card I received last weekend during Soul Sisters program
Inner Child
You've got the Power!
Use your abilities to resolve this situation.
You can do it!
The fairy child is walking on a string of cow web
Just playing, knowing she has the power.
Soul
Yeap, I want to attain fame and recognition by way of Self Mastery.
A very tall order.
Neptune for the year
Six of Diamond
They are here to help others come to a greater understanding of values. If they accept what they receive through their natural intuition, they will always be happy, regardless of the circumstances of their life.
If they have discovered their special mission in life, they will not worry about how much money the have.
These people make great teachers. They are givers and can be entrusted with great responsibilities. What they have to give is a clear knowledge of higher values and the discrimination to make better personal choices. They are keeper of the law.
Soul
Exactly my dream for this year.
Soul
Just did my shoonya. It was deep. Father, thanks for guiding me to the next level.
Neptune in Life Spread
Queen of Spade - Self-Mastery
They are true mothers of the world who compassionately share and teach their wisdom. They are all born to rule, but they must actualise that destiny themselves.
They rise to their highest potential by following their intuition and inner guidance.
Soul
No wonder I reacted when I heard Sadhguru, can u be a mother to thousand of people.
I want to teach to lots of people and hence got money. But I also want to be alone. That's why its my dream and my fear.
Jupiter
Nine of Hearts - Universal Love Card
They are givers, endowed with great minds and hearts to share with the world
Many are found in counseling fields out of natural desire to give to others.
Soul
Looks like I am on the right track. This avenue is the one that can also give me blessing/money.
Saturn
Seven of Club
Challenge lies in the negative aspects of the mind which are worry, doubt and pessimism.
They have much inherent inspiration and insight, but when they don't follow it, they will be despair and depressed.
They have the power to overcome their problems and to attain the fame and recognition they secretly desire, but they must apply themselves diligently.
(Oct 8 - Father, previously I couldn't relate to this. Now I can. I have loads of self-criticism. Even before things materialised, my fear will bring me back to earth. I am too pragmatic. I want to dream a bit more, be adventerous. I want my vision partner..perhaps thats why my RA was acting up cos I decided a few months ago to stop wanting. But fear of RA is more than fear of rejection, so will try and now that i know my challenge is being a pessimist, I will be focused on my vision partner.)
Soul
This reminds me of my Inner Child card I received last weekend during Soul Sisters program
Inner Child
You've got the Power!
Use your abilities to resolve this situation.
You can do it!
The fairy child is walking on a string of cow web
Just playing, knowing she has the power.
Soul
Yeap, I want to attain fame and recognition by way of Self Mastery.
A very tall order.
Neptune for the year
Six of Diamond
They are here to help others come to a greater understanding of values. If they accept what they receive through their natural intuition, they will always be happy, regardless of the circumstances of their life.
If they have discovered their special mission in life, they will not worry about how much money the have.
These people make great teachers. They are givers and can be entrusted with great responsibilities. What they have to give is a clear knowledge of higher values and the discrimination to make better personal choices. They are keeper of the law.
Soul
Exactly my dream for this year.
Sept 8 Evening
Father, just finished my evening practices.
On the way back, I was conscious of my breathing and felt such grounding of silence. I need to check with Tamil, is there a difference between awareness of breathe and watching ur breathe.
Straight off start with shoonya without any invocation. Went in deep. This time tot came, I just left it fly by.
Then did guru pooja and followed by Shakti.
The Shakti was effortless.
Surka kriya did without any movement from the left hand. The stomach breathing was effortless and throughout I just focus on my third eye and my stomach just contract in and out naturally.
The Shakti was deep throughout.
Finally, the ending and this time I sit up straight and cross my leg sadhana style. At first, some slight numbness to the feet, but few minutes later I was fine. I continue to focus on my third eye.
Laughter trying to come out, but I contained and later the contained laughter become my slow stomach contractions in and out. Throughout I focus on third eye and I felt the orgasmic experience, better than this morning. So sweet a feeling. Amen.
Sadhguru, thank U for sending Tamil teacher. U have helped to propel me further. Now all my meditations, shoonya, breathing, shambavi and shakti has changed. You have revived my commitment. Amen.
Sadhguru
You are not bound, but u believe that u r bound. All u have to do is awaken urself.
Realisation is moving into a higher level of energy and a higher level of awareness.
Suddenly, u r awake in a different reality together, which we are referring to as the Ultimate Reality.
Soul
If anyone were to tell me that my meditation practice can go up another notch. I would disbelieve them. I tot I couldn't, that's it. And now I know that's not it. I have tasted the bliss one time and now I am tasting the sweetness of my being.
Father, thank U. Amen
I am attracted to the teacher's lovely presence and laughter. I wanted to have that too. We just met and somehow we connect. I like him. Just now watching d other guy n I didn't like the energy I saw there.
Father, I want to have the lovely presence. My outward presence is joyful and now inward is sweet. The sweetness will flow to bliss.
Father, I recalled that I said I want to focus in Feb samyama. Alas, I didn't know how to focus and my body also couldn't contain the energy. So, I only have laughter, dancing and singing in the 8 days. Now that I can focus and body is also ok, I will re-affirm my commitment. I want to have the lovely presence.
Ace of Diamond
Venus - Ace of heart
A card of soul-searching and often introspection. Its the search for self identity or for those things that help us to love who we are unconditionally. In order to love ourselves, we often find someone to love who reflects back to us what we are seeking within.
Bring a friendship from someone dear to u. Can represent a new relationship beginning.
Father, just finished my evening practices.
On the way back, I was conscious of my breathing and felt such grounding of silence. I need to check with Tamil, is there a difference between awareness of breathe and watching ur breathe.
Straight off start with shoonya without any invocation. Went in deep. This time tot came, I just left it fly by.
Then did guru pooja and followed by Shakti.
The Shakti was effortless.
Surka kriya did without any movement from the left hand. The stomach breathing was effortless and throughout I just focus on my third eye and my stomach just contract in and out naturally.
The Shakti was deep throughout.
Finally, the ending and this time I sit up straight and cross my leg sadhana style. At first, some slight numbness to the feet, but few minutes later I was fine. I continue to focus on my third eye.
Laughter trying to come out, but I contained and later the contained laughter become my slow stomach contractions in and out. Throughout I focus on third eye and I felt the orgasmic experience, better than this morning. So sweet a feeling. Amen.
Sadhguru, thank U for sending Tamil teacher. U have helped to propel me further. Now all my meditations, shoonya, breathing, shambavi and shakti has changed. You have revived my commitment. Amen.
Sadhguru
You are not bound, but u believe that u r bound. All u have to do is awaken urself.
Realisation is moving into a higher level of energy and a higher level of awareness.
Suddenly, u r awake in a different reality together, which we are referring to as the Ultimate Reality.
Soul
If anyone were to tell me that my meditation practice can go up another notch. I would disbelieve them. I tot I couldn't, that's it. And now I know that's not it. I have tasted the bliss one time and now I am tasting the sweetness of my being.
Father, thank U. Amen
I am attracted to the teacher's lovely presence and laughter. I wanted to have that too. We just met and somehow we connect. I like him. Just now watching d other guy n I didn't like the energy I saw there.
Father, I want to have the lovely presence. My outward presence is joyful and now inward is sweet. The sweetness will flow to bliss.
Father, I recalled that I said I want to focus in Feb samyama. Alas, I didn't know how to focus and my body also couldn't contain the energy. So, I only have laughter, dancing and singing in the 8 days. Now that I can focus and body is also ok, I will re-affirm my commitment. I want to have the lovely presence.
Ace of Diamond
Venus - Ace of heart
A card of soul-searching and often introspection. Its the search for self identity or for those things that help us to love who we are unconditionally. In order to love ourselves, we often find someone to love who reflects back to us what we are seeking within.
Bring a friendship from someone dear to u. Can represent a new relationship beginning.
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