Jan 4 Aft
Osho
Seeing ur mind as childish, u can also see that u r not the mind - otherwise, who is seeing the mind as childish? There is something beyond the mind.
The very awareness brings the transformation; it is not that after being aware u have to do something to make the change.
Soul
Just like me seeing my compulsive mind on relationship, my childish mind on my destiny.
Osho
U r only looking at the mind. U have forgotten completely who is looking at it. Watch the mind, but don't forget the Watcher - because ur reality is centred in the Watcher, not in the mind. And the Watcher is always a fully grown-up, mature, centered consciousness. It needs no growth.
And once u become aware that the mind is only an instrument in the hands of ur witnessing soul, then there is no problem, the mind can be used in the right way. Now the master is awake and the servant can be ordered to do whatever is needed.
Intelligence belongs to the watching consciousness. Memory belongs to the mind.
If ur watcher is clear, then the body takes care of its own functions, the mind takes care of its own functions, the heart takes care of its own function. Nobody interferes in each other work. And life becomes a harmony, an orchestra.
Soul
Now the compulsive tots on rship still come, but I am able to waive them away. How about the childish tot on my destiny? I also waived it away. This morning, I responded to teacher mail.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Don't get stuck, just move
Jan 4
Osho
3. External Influence u r aware.
Laziness.
When u r lazy, it is a negative taste; u simply feel u have no energy, u simply feel dull, u simply feel dead.
When u r non-doing, u r full of energy, radiant, perfectly aware.
The mind can trick u and rationalise laziness as non-doing.
The msg says that this poolside resort is not ur final destination. The journey isn't over. Ur complacency might have arisen from a real sense of achievement, but now its time to move on. No matter how fuzzy the slippers, how tasty the pina colada, there are skies upon skies still waiting to be explored.
4. What is needed for resolution?
Guilt
Guilt is one of the most destructive emotions in which we can get caught. To let ourselves be overwhelmed with guilt is to invite a migraine. We end up surrounded by nagging clouds of self-doubt and feelings of worthlessness to the point where we cannot see any of the beauty and joy that life is trying to offer us.
U r absolutely ok as u are, and it is absolutely natural to go astray from time to time. Just learn from it, move on and use the lesson not to make same mistake again.
5. The Understanding
Moment to Moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet.
The present is the golden gate. And u can be in the present only if u r not ambitious - no accomplishment, because ambition leads u into the future.
A man who wants to be present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come but experience has not be premeditated.
Step lightly and non-seriously, and at the same time absolutely balanced and alert.
Life is a great ocean u can play if u drop all ur judgements, ur preferences, and the attachment to the details of ur long term plans. Be available to what comes ur way, as it comes. And don't worry if u stumble or fall; just pick urself up, dust urself of, have a good laugh and carry on.
Soul
Father, I felt great today. I have not felt this energetic for a longwhile now. Infact, for the past few weeks, I felt sleepy during breathing awareness.
I finally found the key. To accept my natural resistance in my path. Don't have to feel guilty for having the resistance despite wanting. It is at times ok to have the cake and eat it too. I never seem to be able to do that. Forever, conscientious.
Sadhguru
Don't waste ur life trying to look better than someone else. Instead of looking at what u want in ur life, first establish ur way of being. Once u have set ur priority as to how u want to be, then whatever has to come will come. It depends on how capable u r to make things happen. But first settle how u want to be.
Soul
Father, was disappointed in F. I was curious and she view it as patronising. She really has an issue. How come they don't mind how they show up when they proclaimed that they on the path?
So, looks like I m hard on myself. I would have felt guilty for even thinking, don't talk about telling it out.
Anyway, I apologised and she shared that I sounded like the boss. She still has issue on superiority complex to work on.
Osho
People who don't feel fed up with themselves are in a wrong situation; they are in danger, they will never change. There is no need for them to change. They will go on revolving in the wheel - they are mechanical people.
The first ray of consciousness in u - that u feel fed up.
Soul
Exactly. People tell me why bother and etc. I didn't listen and I proceed.
Father, I seem to have guilts cos too high a conscience. Loosen up and I may loosen my joints too.
Osho
When u r fed up, just sit silently with closed eyes, not doing anything. Start sitting passively and do more passive meditations.
And through that inwardness, ur centering will arise. Through that awareness, new interests, new enthusiasm, new style, a new way to live will come.
Soul
I am on the right track.
Osho
Stand on the crossroads, think, meditate, but once u decide then forgot all other alternatives - move.
Once u decide to move, your whole energy is needed there. Don't be split and don't let half of ur mind think of alternatives. There is no certainty that u r bound to be right. U may be wrong but there is no way to know it unless u follow the road to the very end, all the way.
U move on the road - right or wrong is irrelevant. The very moment gives u growth. To me it is not the question of where u go. To me, the most important thing is that u r not stuck, but going. Even if this road comes to a dead end and it leads nowhere and u have to come back, nothing to worry about. It is good that u went.
And one has to move many wrong roads before one comes to the right one.
The only important thing is not to be stuck somewhere. Don't just stand on the crossroads, hesitating, not going anywhere. Don't make hesitation ur habit.
Osho
3. External Influence u r aware.
Laziness.
When u r lazy, it is a negative taste; u simply feel u have no energy, u simply feel dull, u simply feel dead.
When u r non-doing, u r full of energy, radiant, perfectly aware.
The mind can trick u and rationalise laziness as non-doing.
The msg says that this poolside resort is not ur final destination. The journey isn't over. Ur complacency might have arisen from a real sense of achievement, but now its time to move on. No matter how fuzzy the slippers, how tasty the pina colada, there are skies upon skies still waiting to be explored.
4. What is needed for resolution?
Guilt
Guilt is one of the most destructive emotions in which we can get caught. To let ourselves be overwhelmed with guilt is to invite a migraine. We end up surrounded by nagging clouds of self-doubt and feelings of worthlessness to the point where we cannot see any of the beauty and joy that life is trying to offer us.
U r absolutely ok as u are, and it is absolutely natural to go astray from time to time. Just learn from it, move on and use the lesson not to make same mistake again.
5. The Understanding
Moment to Moment
The past is no more and the future is not yet.
The present is the golden gate. And u can be in the present only if u r not ambitious - no accomplishment, because ambition leads u into the future.
A man who wants to be present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come but experience has not be premeditated.
Step lightly and non-seriously, and at the same time absolutely balanced and alert.
Life is a great ocean u can play if u drop all ur judgements, ur preferences, and the attachment to the details of ur long term plans. Be available to what comes ur way, as it comes. And don't worry if u stumble or fall; just pick urself up, dust urself of, have a good laugh and carry on.
Soul
Father, I felt great today. I have not felt this energetic for a longwhile now. Infact, for the past few weeks, I felt sleepy during breathing awareness.
I finally found the key. To accept my natural resistance in my path. Don't have to feel guilty for having the resistance despite wanting. It is at times ok to have the cake and eat it too. I never seem to be able to do that. Forever, conscientious.
Sadhguru
Don't waste ur life trying to look better than someone else. Instead of looking at what u want in ur life, first establish ur way of being. Once u have set ur priority as to how u want to be, then whatever has to come will come. It depends on how capable u r to make things happen. But first settle how u want to be.
Soul
Father, was disappointed in F. I was curious and she view it as patronising. She really has an issue. How come they don't mind how they show up when they proclaimed that they on the path?
So, looks like I m hard on myself. I would have felt guilty for even thinking, don't talk about telling it out.
Anyway, I apologised and she shared that I sounded like the boss. She still has issue on superiority complex to work on.
Osho
People who don't feel fed up with themselves are in a wrong situation; they are in danger, they will never change. There is no need for them to change. They will go on revolving in the wheel - they are mechanical people.
The first ray of consciousness in u - that u feel fed up.
Soul
Exactly. People tell me why bother and etc. I didn't listen and I proceed.
Father, I seem to have guilts cos too high a conscience. Loosen up and I may loosen my joints too.
Osho
When u r fed up, just sit silently with closed eyes, not doing anything. Start sitting passively and do more passive meditations.
And through that inwardness, ur centering will arise. Through that awareness, new interests, new enthusiasm, new style, a new way to live will come.
Soul
I am on the right track.
Osho
Stand on the crossroads, think, meditate, but once u decide then forgot all other alternatives - move.
Once u decide to move, your whole energy is needed there. Don't be split and don't let half of ur mind think of alternatives. There is no certainty that u r bound to be right. U may be wrong but there is no way to know it unless u follow the road to the very end, all the way.
U move on the road - right or wrong is irrelevant. The very moment gives u growth. To me it is not the question of where u go. To me, the most important thing is that u r not stuck, but going. Even if this road comes to a dead end and it leads nowhere and u have to come back, nothing to worry about. It is good that u went.
And one has to move many wrong roads before one comes to the right one.
The only important thing is not to be stuck somewhere. Don't just stand on the crossroads, hesitating, not going anywhere. Don't make hesitation ur habit.
Resistant towards Destiny
Jan 3 Eve
Spoke to a friend about me wanting an answer on why I have resistance. Why am I still angry? Why do I still feel the enforced authority? I told her I got an Insight to read Walt Whitman poetry, but could not find in bookshop. I know I needed to push through the resistance cos RA is acting up, whenever I resist growth.
She brush it off and said its my mind working overtime. That's why I cannot find the answer is becos I am being analytical, not trusting the Universe. She says I have linked the pain with no growth. She says that our mind is limited and we cannot use it to help us spiritually. Spirituality is limitless.
Soul
I didn't like the preaching and cut it short. But I noted the part on not trusting Universe. I continued with my work. In the evening, a tot occurred to me to check out google. So, I did and amazingly got it at first try and even found the particular poem recommended by Natal Chart. I am pleased cos on the right track.
Father, U have always been with me. These days, while I skip the compulsive tots, I don't deny the strength of the mind. Infact, Sadhguru said that the mind is a powerful tool and we need to harness it before we can unleash it to full potential.
Osho
1. The Issue
The Creator
The King of Fire tells us that anything that we undertake now, with the understanding that comes from maturity, will bring enrichment to our own lives and to the lives of others. Using whatever skills u have, whatever u have learned from ur own life experience, it is time to express urself.
Soul
Another msg of involvement. Telling me to ignore my resistance and to proceed.
2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
The Fool
Moment to moment, with every step, the Fool leaves the past behind. Don't try to create a wall of knowledge around u. Whatsoever experience comes to u, let it happen and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning ur mind continuously; go on dying to the past.
Your actions may appear foolish to others, or even to yourself, if u try to analyse it with a rational mind.
Soul
Father, why do I have to go thru all the drama in this path. I seem to go thru the hard way, putting loads of resistance, screaming unfairness, eventhough I knew its the right track. Its like a child, an immature one. Such contradiction to my mature self. Such irony, I who always take pride in my mental maturity is actually emotionally immature. From the BSP, Theetakhoon, guru Pooja to shakti to samyama to kanji, I have been crying and wailing like a child
Answer came; Jack of Club in Pluto for Destiny Card and Queen of Spade in Pluto for Ruling Card
Queen of Spades in Pluto for Ruling (Jack of Club in Result)
U r attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within and u r indeed asking for a lot. Self-mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It comes from controlling one's tots, attitudes, beliefs, words and actions guided by higher principles. It is knowing that u can have everything u want, not by changing the world, but by changing yourself.
It can be drudgery and hard labour and u probably be doing work that u find somewhat distasteful or tedious. Spades are work, and the Queen uses her work as Karma Yoga, a tool to purify her tots and emotions.
U will have to make some changes both within and outside of urself to achieve this goal and it will not always be easy.
Affirmation - I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, tots, ideas and concepts of the world. I become the master of my self.
Jack of Club as Result
U will achieve much more creativity and success in a mental field. This could mean success as a writer of some kind.
Affirmation - I achieve success as a writer or idea person in one of the mental fields. I revolutionise my thinking.
(Jan 30 - Father, I have finally embarked on my writing career. I have faced my Seven of Club in Saturn and now facing Seven of Spade in Cosmic Lesson and for the first time in 5 years, I am facing 52 days card of Seven of Heart. I am fine, cos I am ready. I know that I need to face the Seven of Spade before I can reach my dream of Queen of Spade)
Soul
Suddenly tot that if what I want is self-mastery, no wonder I keep on attracting situation that force me to master myself. And it is a real challenging and tiring to do it every time for my personality. I always take pride in not having to work. I deflate working and now I have to work double hard on myself. Working within is doubly hard than physical working outside.
Even worse is now I know I want to do writing that light up people's mind and that means the more I need to master myself, it become a Must have instead of Nice to have. Previously its for RA, but now for Writing.
So, it is real drudgery. Let me not feel guilty for feeling resentful at times. Let me emphatise with myself. Let me acknowledge that it is drudgery and at times, I really don't want to do it and I need not feel guilty, eg. the kanji incident in ashram, the bakshi hall. Let me accept that I would have resistance and its ok cos in the end, I will persevere. Let me be willing to let my resistance shows up. They needed a voice, otherwise, it will push authority again.
Father, amen.
Jack of Club in Pluto for Destiny (Nine of Diamond in Result)
Challenge is to make a conscious effort to achieve my goal to develop the creativity to be successful in a mental field of interest, perhaps as a writer or an initiation into higher knowledge. Challenge to deal with these creative, youthful and often immature energies of Jack of Clubs.
Affirmation. I transform myself to become more mentally creative and successful. To begin a new and better life on an intellectual level.
Nine of Diamond in Result
Completion of some values that we have been holding on, could also be work or a certain pursuit. This could be pursuit of some financial goal, some relationship or some other "thing" that is valued.
When u let go, we experience a feeling of freedom and exhilaration as we move on to the next level in our personal devt. Endings are only disappointments to those who are not conscious of what is really going on in their life and who have no faith in life or love.
Affirmation - I learn to release financial worries and to flow with the cycle of abundance in my life. I learn to give things away.
Soul
I asked why others doesn't have my issue of conflict. Answer came, they don't even know what's their destiny, so cannot experience the conflict within and without.
For me, I know what's my destiny and the path to go, but I faced such conflict.
A tot just came. We generally faced the Ruling Card's Pluto challenge before we can meet Destiny Card's Pluto. Like for me, only when I have overcome some of the Ruling Pluto card challenge of Queen of Spade - self mastery, that I start to have result in Jack of Club - interest in writing.
Once that started, I faced the Destiny Card's challenge of becoming a successful Writer.
Once I overcome that, my whole value would changed and I would also be changing my career plan.
Spoke to a friend about me wanting an answer on why I have resistance. Why am I still angry? Why do I still feel the enforced authority? I told her I got an Insight to read Walt Whitman poetry, but could not find in bookshop. I know I needed to push through the resistance cos RA is acting up, whenever I resist growth.
She brush it off and said its my mind working overtime. That's why I cannot find the answer is becos I am being analytical, not trusting the Universe. She says I have linked the pain with no growth. She says that our mind is limited and we cannot use it to help us spiritually. Spirituality is limitless.
Soul
I didn't like the preaching and cut it short. But I noted the part on not trusting Universe. I continued with my work. In the evening, a tot occurred to me to check out google. So, I did and amazingly got it at first try and even found the particular poem recommended by Natal Chart. I am pleased cos on the right track.
Father, U have always been with me. These days, while I skip the compulsive tots, I don't deny the strength of the mind. Infact, Sadhguru said that the mind is a powerful tool and we need to harness it before we can unleash it to full potential.
Osho
1. The Issue
The Creator
The King of Fire tells us that anything that we undertake now, with the understanding that comes from maturity, will bring enrichment to our own lives and to the lives of others. Using whatever skills u have, whatever u have learned from ur own life experience, it is time to express urself.
Soul
Another msg of involvement. Telling me to ignore my resistance and to proceed.
2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
The Fool
Moment to moment, with every step, the Fool leaves the past behind. Don't try to create a wall of knowledge around u. Whatsoever experience comes to u, let it happen and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning ur mind continuously; go on dying to the past.
Your actions may appear foolish to others, or even to yourself, if u try to analyse it with a rational mind.
Soul
Father, why do I have to go thru all the drama in this path. I seem to go thru the hard way, putting loads of resistance, screaming unfairness, eventhough I knew its the right track. Its like a child, an immature one. Such contradiction to my mature self. Such irony, I who always take pride in my mental maturity is actually emotionally immature. From the BSP, Theetakhoon, guru Pooja to shakti to samyama to kanji, I have been crying and wailing like a child
Answer came; Jack of Club in Pluto for Destiny Card and Queen of Spade in Pluto for Ruling Card
Queen of Spades in Pluto for Ruling (Jack of Club in Result)
U r attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within and u r indeed asking for a lot. Self-mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It comes from controlling one's tots, attitudes, beliefs, words and actions guided by higher principles. It is knowing that u can have everything u want, not by changing the world, but by changing yourself.
It can be drudgery and hard labour and u probably be doing work that u find somewhat distasteful or tedious. Spades are work, and the Queen uses her work as Karma Yoga, a tool to purify her tots and emotions.
U will have to make some changes both within and outside of urself to achieve this goal and it will not always be easy.
Affirmation - I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, tots, ideas and concepts of the world. I become the master of my self.
Jack of Club as Result
U will achieve much more creativity and success in a mental field. This could mean success as a writer of some kind.
Affirmation - I achieve success as a writer or idea person in one of the mental fields. I revolutionise my thinking.
(Jan 30 - Father, I have finally embarked on my writing career. I have faced my Seven of Club in Saturn and now facing Seven of Spade in Cosmic Lesson and for the first time in 5 years, I am facing 52 days card of Seven of Heart. I am fine, cos I am ready. I know that I need to face the Seven of Spade before I can reach my dream of Queen of Spade)
Soul
Suddenly tot that if what I want is self-mastery, no wonder I keep on attracting situation that force me to master myself. And it is a real challenging and tiring to do it every time for my personality. I always take pride in not having to work. I deflate working and now I have to work double hard on myself. Working within is doubly hard than physical working outside.
Even worse is now I know I want to do writing that light up people's mind and that means the more I need to master myself, it become a Must have instead of Nice to have. Previously its for RA, but now for Writing.
So, it is real drudgery. Let me not feel guilty for feeling resentful at times. Let me emphatise with myself. Let me acknowledge that it is drudgery and at times, I really don't want to do it and I need not feel guilty, eg. the kanji incident in ashram, the bakshi hall. Let me accept that I would have resistance and its ok cos in the end, I will persevere. Let me be willing to let my resistance shows up. They needed a voice, otherwise, it will push authority again.
Father, amen.
Jack of Club in Pluto for Destiny (Nine of Diamond in Result)
Challenge is to make a conscious effort to achieve my goal to develop the creativity to be successful in a mental field of interest, perhaps as a writer or an initiation into higher knowledge. Challenge to deal with these creative, youthful and often immature energies of Jack of Clubs.
Affirmation. I transform myself to become more mentally creative and successful. To begin a new and better life on an intellectual level.
Nine of Diamond in Result
Completion of some values that we have been holding on, could also be work or a certain pursuit. This could be pursuit of some financial goal, some relationship or some other "thing" that is valued.
When u let go, we experience a feeling of freedom and exhilaration as we move on to the next level in our personal devt. Endings are only disappointments to those who are not conscious of what is really going on in their life and who have no faith in life or love.
Affirmation - I learn to release financial worries and to flow with the cycle of abundance in my life. I learn to give things away.
Soul
I asked why others doesn't have my issue of conflict. Answer came, they don't even know what's their destiny, so cannot experience the conflict within and without.
For me, I know what's my destiny and the path to go, but I faced such conflict.
A tot just came. We generally faced the Ruling Card's Pluto challenge before we can meet Destiny Card's Pluto. Like for me, only when I have overcome some of the Ruling Pluto card challenge of Queen of Spade - self mastery, that I start to have result in Jack of Club - interest in writing.
Once that started, I faced the Destiny Card's challenge of becoming a successful Writer.
Once I overcome that, my whole value would changed and I would also be changing my career plan.
Lifting veil on authority, which is cause of RA
Jan 3 Aft
Father, feeling bit edgy cos PA selection not going well. But then I remember PA effortless. Called the headhunter and we got another candidate. And the good news is that the selection is correct.
Father, what am I angry about?? Why I still have resistant to follow?
(Jan 24 - Got the PA and she is a good one. So, PA is effortless. Now, the next step is love life is effortless)
Osho
1. The Issue.
The Creator
The mystic creates himself. He works on his own being. He makes himself into a masterpiece. He is so integrated that there is no longer any difference between who he is inside and who he is in the world outside. He offers this gift of understanding and integration to all those who come to him, the gift of creative light that comes from within
Father, when I read this I felt guilty. Part of me always think that I have more to do to prove myself. But of course, I project it to U and says that since U have given me so many blessings, then U wanted me to payback.
Its ok, need not feel guilty. Just be myself.
Father, my anger at U for 'authority', forcing me to grow. Again, its back to that. Let me see.
Father, feeling bit edgy cos PA selection not going well. But then I remember PA effortless. Called the headhunter and we got another candidate. And the good news is that the selection is correct.
Father, what am I angry about?? Why I still have resistant to follow?
(Jan 24 - Got the PA and she is a good one. So, PA is effortless. Now, the next step is love life is effortless)
Osho
1. The Issue.
The Creator
The mystic creates himself. He works on his own being. He makes himself into a masterpiece. He is so integrated that there is no longer any difference between who he is inside and who he is in the world outside. He offers this gift of understanding and integration to all those who come to him, the gift of creative light that comes from within
Father, when I read this I felt guilty. Part of me always think that I have more to do to prove myself. But of course, I project it to U and says that since U have given me so many blessings, then U wanted me to payback.
Its ok, need not feel guilty. Just be myself.
Father, my anger at U for 'authority', forcing me to grow. Again, its back to that. Let me see.
Involvement is the Key to Life
Jan 3
Father, I will take up public speaking. Counseling nope.
Father, these few days breathing awareness, I can't seem to go into the connection. I watch my breathe but just aware and tot that I lost it. Tot I may need to proceed to samyama instead. When I was driving and watching my breathe, I too was conscious. Then I tot maybe, I can already do the breathe awareness without getting high. May be an improvement instead.
Father, thanks for Suria. This morning woke up with pain on left wrist, right elbow and right knee and ankle. I tot I cannot do suria and was planning to do asanas instead. But when I took the stand after guru pooja, I said, just let my body decide and it did suria. First cycle was bit difficult, but little pain and it was effortless thereafter. Thank U.
Yday message on Unleashing ur mind, go all the way.
Osho
An average American spend five to six hours a day looking at the television, being a spectator.
You have left the whole of life for others to live on ur behalf, and u ask where the meaning has gone; why u don't feel alive, why there is not some significance in ur life. Spectators cannot have significance - only participants, totally involved, intensely involved in every action.
It is doing that keeps ur juices running. If u r simply watching, ur own juices dry up. U just become a skeleton.
But the trouble is unless u start feeling some meaning in ur life, some joy arising in u, some fragrance surrounding u, u cannot fight for life. And life needs, for the first time in the history of man, to be fought for.
Meditation will create the necessary atmosphere. It will bring u back to action, back to love, back to meaning. And then, naturally u will see that it is time for something to be done. This beautiful earth should not die.
Don't be only a spectator. Rather, than just remaining in ur misery, start finding sources of life and mystery within urself. That is the only possibility for saving the whole world.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru - involvement. And frankly, I have been the most involved in my life. But I guess its still on selective mode.
Just got mail on new sathsang format. Saw that invocation is sahana vavatu and I can see resistance coming up. I guess I tot I was doing this as a favour and now its like more things to do. Father, thank U for the msg on involvement and willingness and for the pain. Cos, at least now I am acknowledging my resistance.
(Jan 24 - it turns out that I only need to do the sharing. So, being a sathsang guide is effortless)
Father, I will take up public speaking. Counseling nope.
Father, these few days breathing awareness, I can't seem to go into the connection. I watch my breathe but just aware and tot that I lost it. Tot I may need to proceed to samyama instead. When I was driving and watching my breathe, I too was conscious. Then I tot maybe, I can already do the breathe awareness without getting high. May be an improvement instead.
Father, thanks for Suria. This morning woke up with pain on left wrist, right elbow and right knee and ankle. I tot I cannot do suria and was planning to do asanas instead. But when I took the stand after guru pooja, I said, just let my body decide and it did suria. First cycle was bit difficult, but little pain and it was effortless thereafter. Thank U.
Yday message on Unleashing ur mind, go all the way.
Osho
An average American spend five to six hours a day looking at the television, being a spectator.
You have left the whole of life for others to live on ur behalf, and u ask where the meaning has gone; why u don't feel alive, why there is not some significance in ur life. Spectators cannot have significance - only participants, totally involved, intensely involved in every action.
It is doing that keeps ur juices running. If u r simply watching, ur own juices dry up. U just become a skeleton.
But the trouble is unless u start feeling some meaning in ur life, some joy arising in u, some fragrance surrounding u, u cannot fight for life. And life needs, for the first time in the history of man, to be fought for.
Meditation will create the necessary atmosphere. It will bring u back to action, back to love, back to meaning. And then, naturally u will see that it is time for something to be done. This beautiful earth should not die.
Don't be only a spectator. Rather, than just remaining in ur misery, start finding sources of life and mystery within urself. That is the only possibility for saving the whole world.
Soul
Same msg as Sadhguru - involvement. And frankly, I have been the most involved in my life. But I guess its still on selective mode.
Just got mail on new sathsang format. Saw that invocation is sahana vavatu and I can see resistance coming up. I guess I tot I was doing this as a favour and now its like more things to do. Father, thank U for the msg on involvement and willingness and for the pain. Cos, at least now I am acknowledging my resistance.
(Jan 24 - it turns out that I only need to do the sharing. So, being a sathsang guide is effortless)
Ligthing up others' mind
Jan 2 2011
Father, my hands are feeling bit numb, as if blood circulation is not enough. Don't know why except that I haven't blog or write for past 2 weeks, didn't swim for past 2 weeks too. I missed my swim.
Father, no reply from E. This would have spammed me to a mental compulsion activity. Surprisingly this time, nope. Tots do come in, but I don't want to be hooked.
(Jan 24 - Father, finally facing my fear in relationships. And this time,you even remove the self-control mechanism. So, this is not easy. But I have my practices to counter the negativity, so it is not that bad.)
Evening
Father, a close friend opened up about her marriage issue. I wasn't prepared for it but m glad I managed to light up her mind so that she can explore her alternatives. I was able to give her my insight on Givers being major Takers.
The other friend with Jack of Heart, finally face her lessons in one go. When she told me about her new job, I could see the challenges.
Both friends can be stubborn and refused to change their belief and they now have arthritis. I told them its because of their resistance to change and grow. I also told them that I have it too.
Funny, the book Unleashing Ur mind is with me now. Same as the dvd. Some msg here.
Sadhguru
Involvement is not an act; involvement is a certain willingness towards life. You have become willing to the process of life. If u get identified, u r becoming unwilling to the process of life. You are only willing in selection; with the rest of life, u r not willing. It is this unwillingness which is scaling down the aliveness in a human being.
(Jan 24 - yea, want the high but not the low of relationship. )
Soul
Father, my right elbow is bit painful. What is it, tell me? What am I still resisting? Well, food is one of them. I also resist being a counselor. Today I gave her my input because I want to help her. I don't want to be speaker and counselor because I am not sure of its success despite taking so much energy. Also, to be speaker and counselor, its outright rejection or failure. When u write, u can be anonymous. When we don't see each other, there is nothing to reject. I said its smart to reach masses than individual. It pays more using same energy. I guess this is a classic case of devaluation again. Here I said nope and its turn up in Y and B. Y from out of blue. B, someone who I tot doesn't want input and now says wants to.
Also glad J finally says she wants alternative career, in teaching. Alas, my insights works.
(Jan 24 - I am on track in helping others to find their inner light in self transformation)
Sadhguru
If u take away the willingness, the process of life naturally becomes a suffering. Whatever u do willingly, that's ur heaven. Whatever u do unwillingly, that's ur hell. So, the difference is just willingness and unwillingness.
So, if the circus of the mind has to become a symphony, if it has to rise to its crescendo, u cannot be selectively involved. U have to go full swing, otherwise it cannot happen in a beautiful way. If u r going all out with life, that itself will settle the mind.
Soul
I am selecting the part I want to play in my destiny as Transformational leader.
Father, u gave me the book because U know I didn't get the whole msg in dvd and u know book is a better access to me. Amen.
Sadhguru
If u really want to unleash the mind - not control the mind - if u truly want to unleash the power of the mind, the fundamental thing is, ur intellect should not be identified with anything. Then ur perception comes to such clarity and the mind naturally organises itself; nobody has to organise the mind. It is naturally well-organised. Only because the perception is so distorted, its function and its outcome are also distorted.
Once u r blissful by ur own nature, ur life becomes an expression of ur blissfulness, not in pursuit of happiness and that's the shift that needs to happen in every life.
Soul
Father, I still have resistant on my destiny. I am still afraid to fail. Writing is the safest among all and even if I don't succeed, I don't have to face people who doesn't accept me. But counseling and public speaking is momentous.
GM says she enjoys it. I don't enjoy it. I know I can do it, but I can't enjoy it because it is putting myself up for upfront rejection. Alas, my issue about losing energy is just an excuse. Perhaps energy gone becos I was worried about outcome, rather than others depleting me.
When I was doing my Passion List, I realised I cut out things. I also realised I wasn't as enthusiastic as I did a year ago. Father, is this the resistance ????
(Jan 24 - yeap, the fear of not achieving)
Father, my hands are feeling bit numb, as if blood circulation is not enough. Don't know why except that I haven't blog or write for past 2 weeks, didn't swim for past 2 weeks too. I missed my swim.
Father, no reply from E. This would have spammed me to a mental compulsion activity. Surprisingly this time, nope. Tots do come in, but I don't want to be hooked.
(Jan 24 - Father, finally facing my fear in relationships. And this time,you even remove the self-control mechanism. So, this is not easy. But I have my practices to counter the negativity, so it is not that bad.)
Evening
Father, a close friend opened up about her marriage issue. I wasn't prepared for it but m glad I managed to light up her mind so that she can explore her alternatives. I was able to give her my insight on Givers being major Takers.
The other friend with Jack of Heart, finally face her lessons in one go. When she told me about her new job, I could see the challenges.
Both friends can be stubborn and refused to change their belief and they now have arthritis. I told them its because of their resistance to change and grow. I also told them that I have it too.
Funny, the book Unleashing Ur mind is with me now. Same as the dvd. Some msg here.
Sadhguru
Involvement is not an act; involvement is a certain willingness towards life. You have become willing to the process of life. If u get identified, u r becoming unwilling to the process of life. You are only willing in selection; with the rest of life, u r not willing. It is this unwillingness which is scaling down the aliveness in a human being.
(Jan 24 - yea, want the high but not the low of relationship. )
Soul
Father, my right elbow is bit painful. What is it, tell me? What am I still resisting? Well, food is one of them. I also resist being a counselor. Today I gave her my input because I want to help her. I don't want to be speaker and counselor because I am not sure of its success despite taking so much energy. Also, to be speaker and counselor, its outright rejection or failure. When u write, u can be anonymous. When we don't see each other, there is nothing to reject. I said its smart to reach masses than individual. It pays more using same energy. I guess this is a classic case of devaluation again. Here I said nope and its turn up in Y and B. Y from out of blue. B, someone who I tot doesn't want input and now says wants to.
Also glad J finally says she wants alternative career, in teaching. Alas, my insights works.
(Jan 24 - I am on track in helping others to find their inner light in self transformation)
Sadhguru
If u take away the willingness, the process of life naturally becomes a suffering. Whatever u do willingly, that's ur heaven. Whatever u do unwillingly, that's ur hell. So, the difference is just willingness and unwillingness.
So, if the circus of the mind has to become a symphony, if it has to rise to its crescendo, u cannot be selectively involved. U have to go full swing, otherwise it cannot happen in a beautiful way. If u r going all out with life, that itself will settle the mind.
Soul
I am selecting the part I want to play in my destiny as Transformational leader.
Father, u gave me the book because U know I didn't get the whole msg in dvd and u know book is a better access to me. Amen.
Sadhguru
If u really want to unleash the mind - not control the mind - if u truly want to unleash the power of the mind, the fundamental thing is, ur intellect should not be identified with anything. Then ur perception comes to such clarity and the mind naturally organises itself; nobody has to organise the mind. It is naturally well-organised. Only because the perception is so distorted, its function and its outcome are also distorted.
Once u r blissful by ur own nature, ur life becomes an expression of ur blissfulness, not in pursuit of happiness and that's the shift that needs to happen in every life.
Soul
Father, I still have resistant on my destiny. I am still afraid to fail. Writing is the safest among all and even if I don't succeed, I don't have to face people who doesn't accept me. But counseling and public speaking is momentous.
GM says she enjoys it. I don't enjoy it. I know I can do it, but I can't enjoy it because it is putting myself up for upfront rejection. Alas, my issue about losing energy is just an excuse. Perhaps energy gone becos I was worried about outcome, rather than others depleting me.
When I was doing my Passion List, I realised I cut out things. I also realised I wasn't as enthusiastic as I did a year ago. Father, is this the resistance ????
(Jan 24 - yeap, the fear of not achieving)
Facing my karma in relationship
Jan 1 2011
Father, yday rec new year greeting from Z; someone whom I tot wouldn't contact me and I forgot about it. Then this morning rec msg from E. I replied and there is no answer. Can see my ego on compulsive mode, but it didn't affect my emotion. Whenever compulsion came, I just say Love is effortless to me.
My next Saturn period from Feb is Seven of Heart - challenges in relationship. Being challenged now to practice non-attachment in ur closest relationships and to overcome ur fears of abandonment. Learning unconditional love and non-attachment in rships.
Father, surprisingly, I am not afraid. I now know my mental compulsion and it is not ME. Besides Love is effortless to me, so I will be able to learn.
Great thing is that results if Four of Hearts, so I know I be fine with my tools.
(Jan 24 - Now that time is coming near, and with the breakdown of my self-control wall, I am no longer that confident. I can now feel all the emotions within...bit scary. When its good, its great, when its not good..its bad...I justfeel such unease, miss him and don't want to feel it. But I recall that this is a defensive mode. So, if I miss him and want him, just let the feelings be. It will pass on.)
Yeap, Ruling's card is Four of Club - u have great power in positive thinking now, power of the mind can be used to heal urself or remove obstacles from ur path. Any skepticism u display now is not in harmony with ur inner beliefs.
Ace of Spade in Saturn - it is the card of transformation. There are parts of urself that are due for a change, this is probably the time when it will happen.
Father, thanks for the motivation. Coincidentally, just yday I told U that I am willing to go thru the learnings.
The Passion test - Janet Bray Attwood and Chris Attwood
Clarity is critical to success. Clarity leads to power - the power to act - which is the basis of achievement, fulfillment, and happiness in life. Without a clear direction, u r either paralysed or running around in circle. Worse, u can never reach ur full potential because u dare not fully commit.
To be truly happy, we must use our uniqueness to add values to the lives of others.
Intention - Love life is effortless
Attention - Removing negative beliefs; opening up.
No tension - effortless.
Father, yday rec new year greeting from Z; someone whom I tot wouldn't contact me and I forgot about it. Then this morning rec msg from E. I replied and there is no answer. Can see my ego on compulsive mode, but it didn't affect my emotion. Whenever compulsion came, I just say Love is effortless to me.
My next Saturn period from Feb is Seven of Heart - challenges in relationship. Being challenged now to practice non-attachment in ur closest relationships and to overcome ur fears of abandonment. Learning unconditional love and non-attachment in rships.
Father, surprisingly, I am not afraid. I now know my mental compulsion and it is not ME. Besides Love is effortless to me, so I will be able to learn.
Great thing is that results if Four of Hearts, so I know I be fine with my tools.
(Jan 24 - Now that time is coming near, and with the breakdown of my self-control wall, I am no longer that confident. I can now feel all the emotions within...bit scary. When its good, its great, when its not good..its bad...I justfeel such unease, miss him and don't want to feel it. But I recall that this is a defensive mode. So, if I miss him and want him, just let the feelings be. It will pass on.)
Yeap, Ruling's card is Four of Club - u have great power in positive thinking now, power of the mind can be used to heal urself or remove obstacles from ur path. Any skepticism u display now is not in harmony with ur inner beliefs.
Ace of Spade in Saturn - it is the card of transformation. There are parts of urself that are due for a change, this is probably the time when it will happen.
Father, thanks for the motivation. Coincidentally, just yday I told U that I am willing to go thru the learnings.
The Passion test - Janet Bray Attwood and Chris Attwood
Clarity is critical to success. Clarity leads to power - the power to act - which is the basis of achievement, fulfillment, and happiness in life. Without a clear direction, u r either paralysed or running around in circle. Worse, u can never reach ur full potential because u dare not fully commit.
To be truly happy, we must use our uniqueness to add values to the lives of others.
Intention - Love life is effortless
Attention - Removing negative beliefs; opening up.
No tension - effortless.
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