Jun 25
Father, did my practice. It was fine but did have some pleasure tots of Z. I just let it be.
Went for my swim. It was good, just focus on breathing in water. Mid way have tots of Z, how he cannot be open with me becos he only plan be short term with me. I start to get aggravated. Then a tot came, why?? Yea, I am not my mind. Its over and I do appreciate him. Just let it be. I am not my mind. Need not hang on to it.
Father, I just know I don't want to make Z into a bad person. He is not. He is a diamond, just not my diamond.
Cecelia Ahern
I wrote all night and slept all day. I didn't leave the house for 3 months until the book was finished and I knew within the first week that it was something special. Writing is my passion, not just profession. I would write if I wasn't published. I would write on my own time, all of the time and so if u wake up in the morning and feel compelled to do something, then that's what u should do.
For me, a happy ending is when the person feels as though they are able to face the day, when they feel that they can get through the moments and they are happy to be alive. It is not about finding the man of ur dreams, its about finding the happiness within ourselves. Instead of being rescued by other people, they rescue themselves. They create their own futures.
Soul
Just about to sleep in the afternoon. Suddenly tot its nice not to have drama of Z in my mind. No uncertainty.
Woke up before the alarm. First thing I felt was I am fine. No drama.
Jun 25 Aft
The Power of Intention
Every tot u have has an energy that will either strengthen or weaken u.
There's a vibratory action to ur tots, ur feelings and ur body. U need to increase those frequencies so they are high enough to allow u to connect to the power of intention.
We must raise ourselves to the level of energy where we are the light we seek, where we r the happiness we desire, where we are the love we feel is missing, where we are the unlimited abundance we crave.
By being it, we attract it to us. By condemning its absence, we ensure that condemnation and discord will continue to flow into our lives.
If u r experiencing scarcity, anguish, depression, an absence of love, or any inability to attract what u desire, seriously look at how you've been attracting these circumstances into ur life.
Soul
I knew that.
The Power of Intention
A mini-program for raising ur energy vibrations
1. Become conscious of ur tots.
By shifting in the middle of a weakening tot to one that strengthens, u raise ur energy vibration and strengthen urself and the immediate energy field.
2. Make meditation a regular practice in ur life
Meditation allows u to make conscious contact with ur Source and regain the power of intention by assisting u in cultivating a receptivity that matches up with the force of creation.
3. Become conscious of the food u eat.
4. Retreat from low energy substances
5. Become conscious of the energy level of the music u listen to.
6. Become aware of the energy levels of ur home environment.
7. Reduce ur exposure to the very low energy of commercial and cable television.
8. Enhance ur energy field with photographs
9. Become conscious of the energy levels of ur acquaintances, friends and extended family.
10. Monitor ur activities and where they take place.
Immerse urself in nature, appreciating its beauty, spending time camping, hiking, swimming, nature walj. Do yoga, massage and etc.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Cosmic Reward - beginning of recovery (8)
Jun 24
Father, my morning practice was good. Had a good breakfast too and now at Starbuck. But I am feeling down, just want to chill out with a book and cry a bit. I missed him.
Mmm, my today reading is Four of Spades - card of satisfaction and stability in both health, work and all affairs in general.
Aiyah, its true. Everything is fine and I am recovering from Z. I should be focusing what I have instead of what I don't have. Maybe its not Z. I am just in my down mode.
Aiyah, today the trees and flowers look vibrant and alive to me. Focus on what I have instead of what I don't have. Maybe I am down today because its exactly one week since our final break up.
Today when I was doing my practice a tot came to me. God is kind to me. That I can never doubt, though he throws me challenges, he is always kind to me. My work life can be considered effortless and now I want my love life to be effortless.
Jun 24 Eve
Slept about 3 hours nap today. Good rest. Now reading story book. Tots of Z is bit heavy today. I now understood M. This is the first time I am letting go something I want. Now I understand why it was so difficult for M to leave the company. It is not easy for me to leave Z. I miss him.
Anyway, its 1 week and 2 days. Let's just wait for another 2 weeks till sathsang. I will be fine by then.
Father, I have always been able to walk away. For once, I faced difficulty. Now I can emphatise with others who said they cannot walk away.
Father, my morning practice was good. Had a good breakfast too and now at Starbuck. But I am feeling down, just want to chill out with a book and cry a bit. I missed him.
Mmm, my today reading is Four of Spades - card of satisfaction and stability in both health, work and all affairs in general.
Aiyah, its true. Everything is fine and I am recovering from Z. I should be focusing what I have instead of what I don't have. Maybe its not Z. I am just in my down mode.
Aiyah, today the trees and flowers look vibrant and alive to me. Focus on what I have instead of what I don't have. Maybe I am down today because its exactly one week since our final break up.
Today when I was doing my practice a tot came to me. God is kind to me. That I can never doubt, though he throws me challenges, he is always kind to me. My work life can be considered effortless and now I want my love life to be effortless.
Jun 24 Eve
Slept about 3 hours nap today. Good rest. Now reading story book. Tots of Z is bit heavy today. I now understood M. This is the first time I am letting go something I want. Now I understand why it was so difficult for M to leave the company. It is not easy for me to leave Z. I miss him.
Anyway, its 1 week and 2 days. Let's just wait for another 2 weeks till sathsang. I will be fine by then.
Father, I have always been able to walk away. For once, I faced difficulty. Now I can emphatise with others who said they cannot walk away.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Cosmic Reward - acceptance of ending (4)
Jun 23
Father, did my practice and it was fine. I had pleasurable tots of Z. Is it just physical between us? Don't think so cos both of us need to be comfortable mentally before we can be physical.
Yday night I went to bed laughing myself to sleep. Joy is always here.
I have recommended Isha Kriya to both D and MF. Hope they try it.
Jun 23 Eve
Father, the meeting went well. I think I did a good chairing to get things started. But looks like I need to take chair position for some time yet. Have to get it strengthen before I can 'semi retire' and just be sathsang guide.
I was focused during the meeting and forget about Z. Of cos, mind acted up bit but I ignored it. No need to worry about Z as he normally doesn't attend volunteer meet. Besides he probably being nice and wants to give me more time to forget about us.
This afternoon had a good chat with M and told her to get the Passion Test book. If it makes u happy, it can't go wrong.
I also shared with M about my insight that our lovability factor is dependent on how much we love ourselved and not how much others love us. Others can only us up to the level they love themselves and hence how others love us is not our lovability factor but their own. M agreed with me.
Father, the break up with Z is good for me. I now can set my own lovability by loving myself. I need not seek others. What a breakthrough.
On me being a speaker; M said the day I am comfortable to share my writing, that's the time I will become a speaker; as both is also about sharing. At the moment, I have not find the door yet so I cannot judge Z for not being able to do so.
The Power of Intention
Below are 4 ways of thinking that can prevent u from reaching for and connecting to the universal, creative Spirit of intention;
1. Thinking about what's missing in ur life. If u spend ur time thinking about what's missing, then that's what expands in ur life.
You should be thinking about what u absolutely intend to manifest and attract into ur life - with no doubts, no waffling, no explaining.
Soul
I tot of missing partner. I should be thinking I am having my perfect partner.
2. Thinking about the circumstances of ur life.
If u don't like some of the circumstances of ur life, by all means don't think about them. Shift ur attention from what u don't want to what u do want.
Soul
Instead of thinking Z is not good for me, I think I am having my perfect partner.
3. Thinking about what has always been
When ur inner speech focuses on the way things have always been, u act upon ur tots of what has always been and the universal all-creating force continues to deliver what has always been.
Shift ur tots from what always has been to what u intend to manifest.
Soul
Instead of thinking its difficult to find my partner, think my partner is already here.
4. Thinking about what "they" want for u.
If ur tots are on what others expect of u - eventhough u despise their expectations - u'll continue to act on and attract more of what they want and expect for u.
Father, did my practice and it was fine. I had pleasurable tots of Z. Is it just physical between us? Don't think so cos both of us need to be comfortable mentally before we can be physical.
Yday night I went to bed laughing myself to sleep. Joy is always here.
I have recommended Isha Kriya to both D and MF. Hope they try it.
Jun 23 Eve
Father, the meeting went well. I think I did a good chairing to get things started. But looks like I need to take chair position for some time yet. Have to get it strengthen before I can 'semi retire' and just be sathsang guide.
I was focused during the meeting and forget about Z. Of cos, mind acted up bit but I ignored it. No need to worry about Z as he normally doesn't attend volunteer meet. Besides he probably being nice and wants to give me more time to forget about us.
This afternoon had a good chat with M and told her to get the Passion Test book. If it makes u happy, it can't go wrong.
I also shared with M about my insight that our lovability factor is dependent on how much we love ourselved and not how much others love us. Others can only us up to the level they love themselves and hence how others love us is not our lovability factor but their own. M agreed with me.
Father, the break up with Z is good for me. I now can set my own lovability by loving myself. I need not seek others. What a breakthrough.
On me being a speaker; M said the day I am comfortable to share my writing, that's the time I will become a speaker; as both is also about sharing. At the moment, I have not find the door yet so I cannot judge Z for not being able to do so.
The Power of Intention
Below are 4 ways of thinking that can prevent u from reaching for and connecting to the universal, creative Spirit of intention;
1. Thinking about what's missing in ur life. If u spend ur time thinking about what's missing, then that's what expands in ur life.
You should be thinking about what u absolutely intend to manifest and attract into ur life - with no doubts, no waffling, no explaining.
Soul
I tot of missing partner. I should be thinking I am having my perfect partner.
2. Thinking about the circumstances of ur life.
If u don't like some of the circumstances of ur life, by all means don't think about them. Shift ur attention from what u don't want to what u do want.
Soul
Instead of thinking Z is not good for me, I think I am having my perfect partner.
3. Thinking about what has always been
When ur inner speech focuses on the way things have always been, u act upon ur tots of what has always been and the universal all-creating force continues to deliver what has always been.
Shift ur tots from what always has been to what u intend to manifest.
Soul
Instead of thinking its difficult to find my partner, think my partner is already here.
4. Thinking about what "they" want for u.
If ur tots are on what others expect of u - eventhough u despise their expectations - u'll continue to act on and attract more of what they want and expect for u.
Benefits of meditation
Jun 22 Eve (new insight on lovability and emotional power)
Sadhguru
Head looking upward, is becoming receptive.
When u become willing and receptive, ur body naturally arches up.
Soul
Exactly. When I start I will just sit comfortably. Along the way when I meditate, towards the end, my body arches naturally.
Sadhguru
Kriya creates a certain space between u and ur body, between u and ur mind. If at all there is any struggle in ur life, it is because u r identified with these limited aspect of urself. If u distance urself, then suffering ends.
When u r no longer identified with ur body and mind, u will be in touch with the Source of Creation within u. Once this happens, Grace happens.
That's means ur whole karmic bag - ur past or unconscious mind - has been kept aside. It cannot have any influence over u. Once the past has no influence over u, then life becomes a huge potential.
Every breath becomes a tremendous possibility in ur life, because the past is not playing any role in ur existence here now. If u sit here, u r absolute life. Life become effortless.
Soul
Had tots of sending to Z. Its just my mind talking. No need to seek love from him. His love won't increase my lovability. Only I can loved myself (Loved), and then I can love others (Loving) and have others loving me (Lovable).
Lovability is the end outcome. The originating source is me loving myself. So, I measure my lovability by how much I love myself. Amen.
Father, I met MF and this is his 4th job which he faces incompetent people, he feels he need to justify his value and as a result becomes a threat to others and in the end got spurned.
What he wants is to have emotional power but instead he used his mental power and locked his emotion.
Mmm, if u want to have emotional power over others, u firstly need to feel ur own emotion, then u can feel others emotion and then u can make them emotional over u.
Sadhguru
If u r aware in a certain way, u can activate the system in such a way that if u sit here it is an enormous pleasure.
Once simply sitting and breathing is such a great pleasure, u will become very genial, flexible, wonderful because all the time u r in a great state within urself. No hangover. Mind becomes sharper than before.
Sadhguru
Head looking upward, is becoming receptive.
When u become willing and receptive, ur body naturally arches up.
Soul
Exactly. When I start I will just sit comfortably. Along the way when I meditate, towards the end, my body arches naturally.
Sadhguru
Kriya creates a certain space between u and ur body, between u and ur mind. If at all there is any struggle in ur life, it is because u r identified with these limited aspect of urself. If u distance urself, then suffering ends.
When u r no longer identified with ur body and mind, u will be in touch with the Source of Creation within u. Once this happens, Grace happens.
That's means ur whole karmic bag - ur past or unconscious mind - has been kept aside. It cannot have any influence over u. Once the past has no influence over u, then life becomes a huge potential.
Every breath becomes a tremendous possibility in ur life, because the past is not playing any role in ur existence here now. If u sit here, u r absolute life. Life become effortless.
Soul
Had tots of sending to Z. Its just my mind talking. No need to seek love from him. His love won't increase my lovability. Only I can loved myself (Loved), and then I can love others (Loving) and have others loving me (Lovable).
Lovability is the end outcome. The originating source is me loving myself. So, I measure my lovability by how much I love myself. Amen.
Father, I met MF and this is his 4th job which he faces incompetent people, he feels he need to justify his value and as a result becomes a threat to others and in the end got spurned.
What he wants is to have emotional power but instead he used his mental power and locked his emotion.
Mmm, if u want to have emotional power over others, u firstly need to feel ur own emotion, then u can feel others emotion and then u can make them emotional over u.
Sadhguru
If u r aware in a certain way, u can activate the system in such a way that if u sit here it is an enormous pleasure.
Once simply sitting and breathing is such a great pleasure, u will become very genial, flexible, wonderful because all the time u r in a great state within urself. No hangover. Mind becomes sharper than before.
Cosmic Reward - acceptance of ending (3)
Jun 22 Aft
Father, did shoonya. Go in only half way. Had pleasurable tots of Z which I hold for moments and released.
Father, this matter with K. She is doing herself in. Her this action tells me that she won't do well in her new company. Anyway, I just smiled and told her its her life.
I was happy to learnt that we only have one IE and that's in Nov. So less time for contact with Z.
The Science of Mind
What the world needs is spiritual conviction, followed by spiritual experience.
Prayer has power, not through repetition, but by belief and acceptance.
Have no fear of tomorrow; enjoy today. Refuse to carry the corpse of a mistaken yesterday. What untold misery is suffered through the burdens imposed by our yesterdays and the bitter prospects of our tomorrow!
The good of the present day is too often sandwiched between these two impossible situations. The day in which we live is sufficient. We are to live today as though God were in His Heaven, while all is well with our souls.
Soul
Tot of sending to Z again.
Self Healing must come first of all
If we think we can guide our brothers aright, while our own feet still walk in darkness, we are mistaken. We must clarify our own vision, then we shall become as lights, lighting the way for others.
We cannot see Reality until our eyes are open; until the light of eternal Truth has struck deeply into our souls.
Soul
Yea, Z hides us. I too hide my writing. I have not found an answer yet. So, I cannot guide him nor expect him to open up.
The Science of Mind
If one labors under a great burden of past mistakes, he devitalises his body and if the condemnation is great enough - it might render the body incapable of moving.
Soul
Me, seldom have dreams. But when I do dream, its the misplace of my car and I cannot move. Only the last time, just before I broke up with Z, I too cannot find my car but this time
I transform myself into a half human/animal that can run very fast. The only thing is that when I was running the landscape transformed into deserted hill and I couldn't find my way. But I didn't despair, I ran to the highest peak to find my way. As I turn to run towards the direction I wanted, I spotted another half human/animal like me. At first I tot it wanted to attack me, but later I got a msg that my mom is looking for me and I think that could be my mom.
Tot of Z. He too cannot move. Like he said he was too badly damaged.
The Science of Mind
We should never lose sight of the fact that the soul is on the pathway of an endless and ever expanding experience, and that only by expansion can it evolve.
Accepting the lessons and experience of the past, and taking the best from everything, we should press boldly forward, looking ever for the Truth, and ever ascending higher and higher into the heavens of reality.
Father, did shoonya. Go in only half way. Had pleasurable tots of Z which I hold for moments and released.
Father, this matter with K. She is doing herself in. Her this action tells me that she won't do well in her new company. Anyway, I just smiled and told her its her life.
I was happy to learnt that we only have one IE and that's in Nov. So less time for contact with Z.
The Science of Mind
What the world needs is spiritual conviction, followed by spiritual experience.
Prayer has power, not through repetition, but by belief and acceptance.
Have no fear of tomorrow; enjoy today. Refuse to carry the corpse of a mistaken yesterday. What untold misery is suffered through the burdens imposed by our yesterdays and the bitter prospects of our tomorrow!
The good of the present day is too often sandwiched between these two impossible situations. The day in which we live is sufficient. We are to live today as though God were in His Heaven, while all is well with our souls.
Soul
Tot of sending to Z again.
Self Healing must come first of all
If we think we can guide our brothers aright, while our own feet still walk in darkness, we are mistaken. We must clarify our own vision, then we shall become as lights, lighting the way for others.
We cannot see Reality until our eyes are open; until the light of eternal Truth has struck deeply into our souls.
Soul
Yea, Z hides us. I too hide my writing. I have not found an answer yet. So, I cannot guide him nor expect him to open up.
The Science of Mind
If one labors under a great burden of past mistakes, he devitalises his body and if the condemnation is great enough - it might render the body incapable of moving.
Soul
Me, seldom have dreams. But when I do dream, its the misplace of my car and I cannot move. Only the last time, just before I broke up with Z, I too cannot find my car but this time
I transform myself into a half human/animal that can run very fast. The only thing is that when I was running the landscape transformed into deserted hill and I couldn't find my way. But I didn't despair, I ran to the highest peak to find my way. As I turn to run towards the direction I wanted, I spotted another half human/animal like me. At first I tot it wanted to attack me, but later I got a msg that my mom is looking for me and I think that could be my mom.
Tot of Z. He too cannot move. Like he said he was too badly damaged.
The Science of Mind
We should never lose sight of the fact that the soul is on the pathway of an endless and ever expanding experience, and that only by expansion can it evolve.
Accepting the lessons and experience of the past, and taking the best from everything, we should press boldly forward, looking ever for the Truth, and ever ascending higher and higher into the heavens of reality.
Cosmic Reward - acceptance of ending (2) - lovability
Jun 22
Woke up and tot glad I didn't listen to my mind and call him. Its a false thing. A tot came, "I am not even my mind".
Did my practices and it was good, just little tot of Z which I released. Then took a 10 min nap thereafter.
Did have a tot that Z wanted to hide us because we on touch/go and he has no plans to marry me. Bit sadness coming in but I stopped it. I knew he wants me.
Suddenly have a tot on why I need other people validation of my lovability. Why can't I validate myself. Then suddenly I had a tot what if measurement of lovability is not how much others love me but is how much I love myself.
Lovability is about how much u love yourself. It is not how much others love u. How much others can love is is a measure of their own lovability, their self love. U can only love other the level u can love urself. How much u can give others is how much u have given to urself.
And I was holding on to Z because I tot having him is a measure of my lovability.
When u have love urself, u will find ur same level partner who can love u the way u love urself.
That's why we broke up because I want an available partner and Z is not available.
The Science of Mind
Ignorance stays with us until the day of enlightenment, until our vision toward the Spirit broadens and casts out the image of a no longer useful littleness.
What we now experience we may cease experiencing if we have the will and the imagination to set our vision in an opposite direction and hold it there. It is the office of the imagination to set the vision. The will should hold it in place until the creative genius of the inner life transforms the image of limitation and transmutes it into liberty under law.
We should daily practice correct thinking. We should decide what we wish to have happen in our lives.
Since we see that personality is what one does with his individuality, we should turn within, as have all the great mystics who have blessed the world with their presence - we should turn within and FIND GOD; and we should have a sense of Real Presence when we do turn inward the One and Only Presence in the entire Universe.
Soul
Another msg for meditation and right thinking.
The Science of Mind
There is no ultimate reality to evil. No devil, no damnation outside of one's state of thought, no punishment outside of that self-inflicted through ignorance, and no salvation outside of conscious co-operation with the Infinite. Consequently, the answer to every problem is in man own consciousness.
Soul
I know and that's why my dream is Self-Mastery. I know once I got myself right, everything will flow.
The Science of Mind
The great mystic like Jesus have taught that as we consciously enter into the One, the One enters into and becomes us.
Soul
Again, meditation.
Woke up and tot glad I didn't listen to my mind and call him. Its a false thing. A tot came, "I am not even my mind".
Did my practices and it was good, just little tot of Z which I released. Then took a 10 min nap thereafter.
Did have a tot that Z wanted to hide us because we on touch/go and he has no plans to marry me. Bit sadness coming in but I stopped it. I knew he wants me.
Suddenly have a tot on why I need other people validation of my lovability. Why can't I validate myself. Then suddenly I had a tot what if measurement of lovability is not how much others love me but is how much I love myself.
Lovability is about how much u love yourself. It is not how much others love u. How much others can love is is a measure of their own lovability, their self love. U can only love other the level u can love urself. How much u can give others is how much u have given to urself.
And I was holding on to Z because I tot having him is a measure of my lovability.
When u have love urself, u will find ur same level partner who can love u the way u love urself.
That's why we broke up because I want an available partner and Z is not available.
The Science of Mind
Ignorance stays with us until the day of enlightenment, until our vision toward the Spirit broadens and casts out the image of a no longer useful littleness.
What we now experience we may cease experiencing if we have the will and the imagination to set our vision in an opposite direction and hold it there. It is the office of the imagination to set the vision. The will should hold it in place until the creative genius of the inner life transforms the image of limitation and transmutes it into liberty under law.
We should daily practice correct thinking. We should decide what we wish to have happen in our lives.
Since we see that personality is what one does with his individuality, we should turn within, as have all the great mystics who have blessed the world with their presence - we should turn within and FIND GOD; and we should have a sense of Real Presence when we do turn inward the One and Only Presence in the entire Universe.
Soul
Another msg for meditation and right thinking.
The Science of Mind
There is no ultimate reality to evil. No devil, no damnation outside of one's state of thought, no punishment outside of that self-inflicted through ignorance, and no salvation outside of conscious co-operation with the Infinite. Consequently, the answer to every problem is in man own consciousness.
Soul
I know and that's why my dream is Self-Mastery. I know once I got myself right, everything will flow.
The Science of Mind
The great mystic like Jesus have taught that as we consciously enter into the One, the One enters into and becomes us.
Soul
Again, meditation.
Cosmic Reward - acceptance of ending
Jun 21 Aft
The Power of Intention
The law of manifestation is like the law of flotation and u must contemplate it working for u instead of contemplating it not working.
What u r feeling is a function of how u r thinking, what u r contemplating and how ur inner speech is being formulated. Feelings are clues about ur destiny and potential and they r seeking the full expression of life through u.
Your task is to contemplate the energies of life, love, beauty and kindness.
1. Be creative
I consider meditating and practising Japa essential in the quest to realign urself with the power of intention.
2. Be kind
Cheerful kindness is a much higher energy than sadness or malevolence and it makes the manifestation of ur desire possible.
Its through giving that we receive. Its through acts of kindness directed toward others that our immune system are strengthened and even our serotonin levels increased!
3. Be love
Being in a state of love is absolutely necessary for u to reconnect to intention.
Love is cooperation rather than competition.
4. Be beauty
As u awaken to ur divine nature, you'll begin to appreciate beauty in everything u see, touch and experience.
5. Be ever-expansive
By being in an ever-expanding state and growing intellectually, emotionally.
Soul
I am in the right direction. I can now see beauty even in grass.
Jun 21 Eve
Was updating my blog on endings and reading INTP and ESTJ. I had a tot to call Z, as if I have recovered and ask him about why he have to hide me, to seek analogy of me hiding my writing.
Anyway, I didn't call. I think with regards to this, don't act on my tots. If my true intention is to find about the hiding, then I will call by 15 July, 1 month anniversary of our break up. Have to get through the attachment mode.
(Jul 22 - Finally called him on Jul 20 and we had a chat. The reason why he wanted to hide me is because our relationship is only a fling for him and he doesn't want people to look at him unkindly when we broke off.)
The Power of Intention
6. Be abundant
Intention is endlessly abundant. Repeat to urself u r unlimited because u emanated from the inexhaustible supply of intention. Emerson said "The ancestor to every action is a tot".
7. Be receptive
The universal mind is ready to respond to anyone who recognises their true relationship to it. It will reproduce whatever conception of itself u impress upon it.
Being receptive mean allowing ur "senior partner" to handle ur life for u. "I accept the guidance and assistance of the same force that created me, I let go of my ego and I trust in this wisdom to move at its own peaceful pace. I make no demands on it.
You practice meditation because it allows u to reconnect to ur Source. By being peaceful, quite and receptive, u pattern urself in the image of Go, u regain the power of ur Source.
Connect to the power that created u, know that u r that power, commune with that power intimately and meditate to allow that growth of awareness to take place.
Soul
No wonder I couldn't connect with the book a few years ago. Because it was prescribing meditation and law of attraction, something I only found recently.
Soul
Suddenly tot of Integration. Earlier my mind tot of me becoming friend with Z. But now I realised its the acceptance of ending with Z. No more internal conflict.
Its true we were great but its over. I now need emotional and committed rship which he cannot offer. I no longer take it as me being unlovable but as him lacking the confidence to take up our rship. And it also acts as a mirror to me not taking up my writing.
And my idea of marriage differs from him. I am not keen in having children per se but m willing to compromise to one child.
Like Sadhguru says, one person can opt to use the rship to grow but the other doesn't opt to and that's when the rship is over openly.
For the past 2 weeks was I don't want the rship to end but I cannot let it continue.
Now it I don't want a hidden rship and I cannot let it continue. The don't and can't is now slowly but surely joining space.
Hiding, no growth.
The Power of Intention
The law of manifestation is like the law of flotation and u must contemplate it working for u instead of contemplating it not working.
What u r feeling is a function of how u r thinking, what u r contemplating and how ur inner speech is being formulated. Feelings are clues about ur destiny and potential and they r seeking the full expression of life through u.
Your task is to contemplate the energies of life, love, beauty and kindness.
1. Be creative
I consider meditating and practising Japa essential in the quest to realign urself with the power of intention.
2. Be kind
Cheerful kindness is a much higher energy than sadness or malevolence and it makes the manifestation of ur desire possible.
Its through giving that we receive. Its through acts of kindness directed toward others that our immune system are strengthened and even our serotonin levels increased!
3. Be love
Being in a state of love is absolutely necessary for u to reconnect to intention.
Love is cooperation rather than competition.
4. Be beauty
As u awaken to ur divine nature, you'll begin to appreciate beauty in everything u see, touch and experience.
5. Be ever-expansive
By being in an ever-expanding state and growing intellectually, emotionally.
Soul
I am in the right direction. I can now see beauty even in grass.
Jun 21 Eve
Was updating my blog on endings and reading INTP and ESTJ. I had a tot to call Z, as if I have recovered and ask him about why he have to hide me, to seek analogy of me hiding my writing.
Anyway, I didn't call. I think with regards to this, don't act on my tots. If my true intention is to find about the hiding, then I will call by 15 July, 1 month anniversary of our break up. Have to get through the attachment mode.
(Jul 22 - Finally called him on Jul 20 and we had a chat. The reason why he wanted to hide me is because our relationship is only a fling for him and he doesn't want people to look at him unkindly when we broke off.)
The Power of Intention
6. Be abundant
Intention is endlessly abundant. Repeat to urself u r unlimited because u emanated from the inexhaustible supply of intention. Emerson said "The ancestor to every action is a tot".
7. Be receptive
The universal mind is ready to respond to anyone who recognises their true relationship to it. It will reproduce whatever conception of itself u impress upon it.
Being receptive mean allowing ur "senior partner" to handle ur life for u. "I accept the guidance and assistance of the same force that created me, I let go of my ego and I trust in this wisdom to move at its own peaceful pace. I make no demands on it.
You practice meditation because it allows u to reconnect to ur Source. By being peaceful, quite and receptive, u pattern urself in the image of Go, u regain the power of ur Source.
Connect to the power that created u, know that u r that power, commune with that power intimately and meditate to allow that growth of awareness to take place.
Soul
No wonder I couldn't connect with the book a few years ago. Because it was prescribing meditation and law of attraction, something I only found recently.
Soul
Suddenly tot of Integration. Earlier my mind tot of me becoming friend with Z. But now I realised its the acceptance of ending with Z. No more internal conflict.
Its true we were great but its over. I now need emotional and committed rship which he cannot offer. I no longer take it as me being unlovable but as him lacking the confidence to take up our rship. And it also acts as a mirror to me not taking up my writing.
And my idea of marriage differs from him. I am not keen in having children per se but m willing to compromise to one child.
Like Sadhguru says, one person can opt to use the rship to grow but the other doesn't opt to and that's when the rship is over openly.
For the past 2 weeks was I don't want the rship to end but I cannot let it continue.
Now it I don't want a hidden rship and I cannot let it continue. The don't and can't is now slowly but surely joining space.
Hiding, no growth.
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