May 13 Even
Father, reading M's card, Queen of Club followed by 7 of Diamond. Also read that I am his Jupiter and Cosmic card. No wonder we are here together. While I did act as Jupiter and my Cosmic card just came out. But I was bit defensive cos being pushed by CEO and GM. Like I told GM, there is nothing to dislike abt M; its just a case that they dislike, my neutrel stand become liking to them.
Father, looks like I do have some payout to do. Next Monday, will chat wit M again.
Did my evening meditation, very experiential. I was laughing and my body was dancing and even did the shoulder stand in one fluid motion. I came back.
Sixes
Have come to fulfil a special and unique purpose in their life that will involve becoming a signpost to others of a better way of life.
Some will become famous spiritual leaders and teachers, while other will practice their uplifting of souls among the members of their family or co-workers. It is those Sixes that listen to their inner voice who realise that they are here to bring others to light. They find that their life has much more meaning than just getting by day-to-day and fulfilling their personal desires and ambitions.
52 days till 2 July
Six of Heart - The Peace-maker
Their lives are intended to be that of plenty and giving, sharing their wealth of love with those around them.
They will experience the discovery of special mission in life, one that involves bringing love into the lives of others in a special way.
It is here that they find their highest fulfillment and happiness.
Six of Heart must learn to embrace the less attractive qualities in themselves and others in order to find that perfect love.
Six of heart has often be referred to as the perfect love of Christ.
It is akin to a love that surpasses all materiality and embraces the polarities of life.
Every 6 of Heart person can become aligned with this love when they accept themselves and their loves one with all their imperfection.
Soul (23 May)
Just realised that the next 52 days, I am to approve and love myself. In order to do that, I am to approve and love others too.
No wonder, my joints are swelling..and so stress...
Not easy to love myself.
Or perhaps the lesson is to love myself despite the pain.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Samyama - complete perception of truth is only possible when all points and angles of viewing disappear
May 13
A tot jus occurred to me. If I can approve and love the CEO who is unlovable. And this fit to my path, Six of diamond. It is the card of peace and intuitively knowing how to love others in a spiritual sense.
CEO
She has no parameter with her spouse and child but high parameter with others. She has fallout with all her siblings.
Like PA says, she is a unique character.
If I can guide her to set parameter with her spouse and child, she can then have some love for herself and others. Mmm, leave this for now.
As of now, m glad that we are able to see thru the issue between S and W.
External influence u r aware
Consciousness.
There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind - the understanding you have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself. Accept this great gift and share it.
Soul
I know m definitely not with my mind. I wan and can see beyond the mind. I can do so becos I don't aim to be right. I am willing to be wrong if that's the price to pay for being happy.
Osho
One can speak so long as he is journeying to the temple of truth; the moment he enters its innermost sanctuary, all words, all languages fail. At the ultimate point, one has no other way than to become silent.
Complete perception of truth is only possible when all points and angles of viewing disappear, when one is nowhere or everywhere, when one is free of all ideas and concepts, of all words and images, of all associations. Then only knowing happens, truth happen.
Soul
Father, I always lamented why I have to go thru so much challenges. Now I realised all the challenges makes me humble and also to give me Truth, to free me from the mind's perception.
If I have no challenges, my beliefs won't be shaken and I would continue to be wrong. If I have not wanted peace more than I wanted to be right, I wouldn't be willing to shake off my beliefs.
So, now I know why all the challenges for me. It is just an opportunity to dispel my beliefs and to see the Truth.
Osho
Efforts can, at the most, lead you to the soul, which is an incomplete attainment. To complete it, to attain supreme, the sadhaka will have to take a jump and give up the soul too.
Devotion is a path for the emotive ones and Discipline is path for the active ones.
Soul
I am going towards soul. As for supreme, stiil have deide.
Krishna
I will accept only that which comes uninvited, without efforts. I will be content with that which is, the true. And truth is not a thing that one can find.
Soul
Yday I woke up abt 1.40 am, less than 2 hours of sleep. I woke up cos I was affected by the drama. The man and woman accepted each other, after a long struggle and the next day the woman was killed. So sad, for all. Wonder why it affect me.
A tot jus occurred to me. If I can approve and love the CEO who is unlovable. And this fit to my path, Six of diamond. It is the card of peace and intuitively knowing how to love others in a spiritual sense.
CEO
She has no parameter with her spouse and child but high parameter with others. She has fallout with all her siblings.
Like PA says, she is a unique character.
If I can guide her to set parameter with her spouse and child, she can then have some love for herself and others. Mmm, leave this for now.
As of now, m glad that we are able to see thru the issue between S and W.
External influence u r aware
Consciousness.
There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind - the understanding you have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself. Accept this great gift and share it.
Soul
I know m definitely not with my mind. I wan and can see beyond the mind. I can do so becos I don't aim to be right. I am willing to be wrong if that's the price to pay for being happy.
Osho
One can speak so long as he is journeying to the temple of truth; the moment he enters its innermost sanctuary, all words, all languages fail. At the ultimate point, one has no other way than to become silent.
Complete perception of truth is only possible when all points and angles of viewing disappear, when one is nowhere or everywhere, when one is free of all ideas and concepts, of all words and images, of all associations. Then only knowing happens, truth happen.
Soul
Father, I always lamented why I have to go thru so much challenges. Now I realised all the challenges makes me humble and also to give me Truth, to free me from the mind's perception.
If I have no challenges, my beliefs won't be shaken and I would continue to be wrong. If I have not wanted peace more than I wanted to be right, I wouldn't be willing to shake off my beliefs.
So, now I know why all the challenges for me. It is just an opportunity to dispel my beliefs and to see the Truth.
Osho
Efforts can, at the most, lead you to the soul, which is an incomplete attainment. To complete it, to attain supreme, the sadhaka will have to take a jump and give up the soul too.
Devotion is a path for the emotive ones and Discipline is path for the active ones.
Soul
I am going towards soul. As for supreme, stiil have deide.
Krishna
I will accept only that which comes uninvited, without efforts. I will be content with that which is, the true. And truth is not a thing that one can find.
Soul
Yday I woke up abt 1.40 am, less than 2 hours of sleep. I woke up cos I was affected by the drama. The man and woman accepted each other, after a long struggle and the next day the woman was killed. So sad, for all. Wonder why it affect me.
Samyama means balance, equilibrium, to be just in the middle
May 12
Today, feel ok, not sleepy. Father, yday I asked Sadhguru for message on how to repair the rship between among my staff.
A tot came, to use P to get the ball rolling.
I think S keep on thinking W is influenced by P. S is afraid of antagonise W further.
Father, what's happening to me? Why am I not as confident before? I used to take pride in getting people together, confronting issue and etc.
Nowadays, I just don't want to. Think these issues is like going back to the past.
Yday Sadhguru says I have to continue my work continuosly. Not caring about the results. Just do it. And my Weekly Osho talked abt sharing.
Mmm. A tot came, jus like P complained of A previously, but A left. So, perhaps this case between S and W is the same.
Also, I am not sure of my own issue. Personally, I like variety and changes and hence I am more pro S rather than W. That's partly why I don't act cos I don't wan to be unfair to W. Its like the more I know, the less sure I am.
Osho
It is quite possible that one chooses a particular dimension of life to the exclusion of the rest, and attains to its wholeness. The river that flows in a single stream is as much entitled to reach the ocean as one flowing in many stream. With respect to reaching the ocean, there is no difference.
One who attains to wholeness through a single facet of his life not only negates all other facets of his own life, he also becomes instrumental in negating those aspects in the lives of many other multidimensional people.
On the other hand, one who attains to wholeness, to the absolute, through all aspects of his life, proves helpful even to all kinds of one-dimensional seekers in their journey.
Soul
Tot of me and S, we r mutlidimensional and W is one dimensional. Actually, lots of specialise Finance person is one dimensional becos its the attribute. With Finance, change is not encouraged cos it affect too many items and cause more work to reconcile.
Whereas Admin and HR is multi because of lots of possible scenarios and dealing wit people.
Let me see both their strength for their respecitve dept.
Osho
Samyama means balance, equilibrium, to be just in the middle. When the scales are equalised so that neither side outweighs the other.
It is a striking balance between indulgence and renunciation.
Such a person is neither an ascetic nor a hedonist - or he is both.
Soul (23 May )
Father, suddenly tot, perhaps thats is why I am no longer as confident before. It is difficult to be decisive when you can see the 2 scales at different ends. Also, when you can see, the responsibility seem to increased further that we have to seek clarity before we decide and act.
Osho
There are 2 kinds of discontent in love. You are discontented if u don't find your lover and you are discontented even if you find one.
When u find someone you love and who loves you, you realise that in spite of the meeting, a distance remains and nothing can be done to mitigate the pain of this separateness.
In spite of everything you do to do away with this separateness, this distance from your lover, it continues to torment you.
So, very often a person who does not find his love is not as miserable as one who finds it. One who does not find can still hope to find, but one who has found is robbed of all hope - his discontent and despair are much deeper.
Unless two lovers become divine, they cannot achieve a real unity.
A man and woman can at best be related to each other; they cannot be united and one. Only divine elements can meet and merge into each other. There is really nothing to unite or divide; nothing is separate from them.
Today card
Seven of Club
Low side is negative thinking
High side is mental and spiritual revelation, expanded consciousness.
How it manifest for u will depend on ur ability to elevate ur thinking.
52 days card
Six of Heart
Balance and peace in personal relationship.
It reveals to u a special purpose in ur life, one of helping others by sharing love with them. You may become aware of a special mission that u r to perform when this card appears. It is the card of peace and intuitively knowing how to love others in a spiritual sense.
Evenin
Today, W approached me to give feedback on S. I gave her my input and halfway thru she suddenly cry. I asked her why and she couldn't reply me. I asked her does she think m scolding her, she says nope. She doesn't know why she cry. I then able to express that she is crying cos she is feeling overwhelmed with resentment. She shared that not only she didn't like the way S worked but also S seem to gave me the impression that W is not doing her part. I told her I know her well and if I don't think she is doing well, she would have received my immediate feedback.
I told her that in d beginning, I couldn't see S's weakness but I now know he is not detailed orientated. I also told him that while S is sad abt their deteriorating working rship, he is not aware of his weakness. So, she has to learn to give feedback.
Then S came to me and I told him to wipe things clean. I apologised that in d beginning I interpreted W as more defensive but then last week I also realised S contributing factor. So, I want him to realise that.
Father, I think I fulfill my higher purpose today.
Also, six of heart, very appropriate following six of diamond.
Today spoke to P and suddenly she says CEO is difficult to be loved. I told her that's because she gave all to her family and not receiving and hence she is forcing us to give her love from the office. I told her that she lacked love inside.
I was saying my RA affirmation is to approve and love myself and to teach others too.
Then P says in CEO's case, the love is zero, so I have a good working case. If I can guide her to approve and love myself, RA would be cured...ha ha.
Today, feel ok, not sleepy. Father, yday I asked Sadhguru for message on how to repair the rship between among my staff.
A tot came, to use P to get the ball rolling.
I think S keep on thinking W is influenced by P. S is afraid of antagonise W further.
Father, what's happening to me? Why am I not as confident before? I used to take pride in getting people together, confronting issue and etc.
Nowadays, I just don't want to. Think these issues is like going back to the past.
Yday Sadhguru says I have to continue my work continuosly. Not caring about the results. Just do it. And my Weekly Osho talked abt sharing.
Mmm. A tot came, jus like P complained of A previously, but A left. So, perhaps this case between S and W is the same.
Also, I am not sure of my own issue. Personally, I like variety and changes and hence I am more pro S rather than W. That's partly why I don't act cos I don't wan to be unfair to W. Its like the more I know, the less sure I am.
Osho
It is quite possible that one chooses a particular dimension of life to the exclusion of the rest, and attains to its wholeness. The river that flows in a single stream is as much entitled to reach the ocean as one flowing in many stream. With respect to reaching the ocean, there is no difference.
One who attains to wholeness through a single facet of his life not only negates all other facets of his own life, he also becomes instrumental in negating those aspects in the lives of many other multidimensional people.
On the other hand, one who attains to wholeness, to the absolute, through all aspects of his life, proves helpful even to all kinds of one-dimensional seekers in their journey.
Soul
Tot of me and S, we r mutlidimensional and W is one dimensional. Actually, lots of specialise Finance person is one dimensional becos its the attribute. With Finance, change is not encouraged cos it affect too many items and cause more work to reconcile.
Whereas Admin and HR is multi because of lots of possible scenarios and dealing wit people.
Let me see both their strength for their respecitve dept.
Osho
Samyama means balance, equilibrium, to be just in the middle. When the scales are equalised so that neither side outweighs the other.
It is a striking balance between indulgence and renunciation.
Such a person is neither an ascetic nor a hedonist - or he is both.
Soul (23 May )
Father, suddenly tot, perhaps thats is why I am no longer as confident before. It is difficult to be decisive when you can see the 2 scales at different ends. Also, when you can see, the responsibility seem to increased further that we have to seek clarity before we decide and act.
Osho
There are 2 kinds of discontent in love. You are discontented if u don't find your lover and you are discontented even if you find one.
When u find someone you love and who loves you, you realise that in spite of the meeting, a distance remains and nothing can be done to mitigate the pain of this separateness.
In spite of everything you do to do away with this separateness, this distance from your lover, it continues to torment you.
So, very often a person who does not find his love is not as miserable as one who finds it. One who does not find can still hope to find, but one who has found is robbed of all hope - his discontent and despair are much deeper.
Unless two lovers become divine, they cannot achieve a real unity.
A man and woman can at best be related to each other; they cannot be united and one. Only divine elements can meet and merge into each other. There is really nothing to unite or divide; nothing is separate from them.
Today card
Seven of Club
Low side is negative thinking
High side is mental and spiritual revelation, expanded consciousness.
How it manifest for u will depend on ur ability to elevate ur thinking.
52 days card
Six of Heart
Balance and peace in personal relationship.
It reveals to u a special purpose in ur life, one of helping others by sharing love with them. You may become aware of a special mission that u r to perform when this card appears. It is the card of peace and intuitively knowing how to love others in a spiritual sense.
Evenin
Today, W approached me to give feedback on S. I gave her my input and halfway thru she suddenly cry. I asked her why and she couldn't reply me. I asked her does she think m scolding her, she says nope. She doesn't know why she cry. I then able to express that she is crying cos she is feeling overwhelmed with resentment. She shared that not only she didn't like the way S worked but also S seem to gave me the impression that W is not doing her part. I told her I know her well and if I don't think she is doing well, she would have received my immediate feedback.
I told her that in d beginning, I couldn't see S's weakness but I now know he is not detailed orientated. I also told him that while S is sad abt their deteriorating working rship, he is not aware of his weakness. So, she has to learn to give feedback.
Then S came to me and I told him to wipe things clean. I apologised that in d beginning I interpreted W as more defensive but then last week I also realised S contributing factor. So, I want him to realise that.
Father, I think I fulfill my higher purpose today.
Also, six of heart, very appropriate following six of diamond.
Today spoke to P and suddenly she says CEO is difficult to be loved. I told her that's because she gave all to her family and not receiving and hence she is forcing us to give her love from the office. I told her that she lacked love inside.
I was saying my RA affirmation is to approve and love myself and to teach others too.
Then P says in CEO's case, the love is zero, so I have a good working case. If I can guide her to approve and love myself, RA would be cured...ha ha.
Input more than output
May 11
Father, I am sleepy. Noticed that I have been sleep for past 2 weeks. This 2 days, I have to take a 5 min doze in the car.
Father, I have gained weight. I guess this show that my work stress level has reduced and yet I have been eating double since I started meditation. These 2 days didn't finish my breakfast cos the amount is bigger than my pre-meditation and stress period.
I will eat according to what my body need. The hatha yoga, swim and walk has helped me loads but its time to do my part to eat consciously as I am no longer facing stress at work. Input is more than output. Stop when I am full.
This mornin woke up, the motivation to do meditation is back, thanks to Cloud of Unknowing.
Osho
1. Issue - Silence
It will be easy for u to rest inside, to plumb the depths of your own inner silence to the point where it meets the silence of the universe.
Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of ur life.
Soul
Yeap, I am encountering it. This morning was a nice one, I just go into silence.
Of cos, part of me says why no outer impact. Perhaps this card tell me jus the savour the silence and be patient.
This few days in my awareness - the conflicting thoughts I have of my partner. Me, wanting and not wanting, such confusion, no wonder such manifestation of rship that I don't want.
Jus looked at my face. It looks nice and firm and little lines and not puff up like previously. So, there is benefits.
2. Internal influence that u r unable to see - Flowering
Your blissfulness, your benediction, your ecstasy should not be contained within you like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to the friends but to the strangers too. Not bothered whether it is accepted or not.
You might feel like a garden of flowers right now, showered with blessings from everywhere.
Spread your joy around for all to share.
Soul
Coincidentally I changed my blog name to Joy.
3. External influence of which you are aware - Consciousness
This flower that has become aware of itself need not come back to life because life is nothing but a school in which to learn. He has learned the lesson, he is now beyond delusions. He will move from the known for the first time not into the unknown, but into the unknowable.
The influence of mind is generally either ridiculous or oppressive and need to be mastered.
There is a deep clarity, detached, rooted in the deep stillness that lies at the core of ur being.
There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind - the understanding you have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself.
Accept this great gift, and share it.
Soul
I am slowly but surely seeing the mechanics of my mind.
I used to be proud of my mind and then 2 years back, was sad about the shittiness of my mind. After meditation, I start to see that it does has strength and weakness too.
And now, I am seeing the mechanics of mind. The contradictary thoughts that causes confusion and resulted in manifestation that we don't want.
Today tot of d partnership in d drama. I tot, while its pleasurable tot, it is not correct timing as I wan to focus on hatha, moments later the tot just flew cos I didn't hold on to it. Mmmm, this is similar to my training for samyama meditation.
Looks like there is benefits.
4. What is needed for resolution - Existence
You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Once u r clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.
We forgot that we are part of Existence as we pursue our own private agenda and believe we must fight to get what we want.
Now is the time to look at whether u r allowing yourself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling "at home" wherever u r.
If u r at home, savour it.
If u r not, its time to ake a break.
5. Resolution; The understanding - Politics
All but the most innocent and sincere of us have a politician lurking somewhere in our minds. In fact the mind is political.
Soul
I am now looking at my own political mind especially with regards to partner.
Father, I am sleepy. Noticed that I have been sleep for past 2 weeks. This 2 days, I have to take a 5 min doze in the car.
Father, I have gained weight. I guess this show that my work stress level has reduced and yet I have been eating double since I started meditation. These 2 days didn't finish my breakfast cos the amount is bigger than my pre-meditation and stress period.
I will eat according to what my body need. The hatha yoga, swim and walk has helped me loads but its time to do my part to eat consciously as I am no longer facing stress at work. Input is more than output. Stop when I am full.
This mornin woke up, the motivation to do meditation is back, thanks to Cloud of Unknowing.
Osho
1. Issue - Silence
It will be easy for u to rest inside, to plumb the depths of your own inner silence to the point where it meets the silence of the universe.
Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of ur life.
Soul
Yeap, I am encountering it. This morning was a nice one, I just go into silence.
Of cos, part of me says why no outer impact. Perhaps this card tell me jus the savour the silence and be patient.
This few days in my awareness - the conflicting thoughts I have of my partner. Me, wanting and not wanting, such confusion, no wonder such manifestation of rship that I don't want.
Jus looked at my face. It looks nice and firm and little lines and not puff up like previously. So, there is benefits.
2. Internal influence that u r unable to see - Flowering
Your blissfulness, your benediction, your ecstasy should not be contained within you like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to the friends but to the strangers too. Not bothered whether it is accepted or not.
You might feel like a garden of flowers right now, showered with blessings from everywhere.
Spread your joy around for all to share.
Soul
Coincidentally I changed my blog name to Joy.
3. External influence of which you are aware - Consciousness
This flower that has become aware of itself need not come back to life because life is nothing but a school in which to learn. He has learned the lesson, he is now beyond delusions. He will move from the known for the first time not into the unknown, but into the unknowable.
The influence of mind is generally either ridiculous or oppressive and need to be mastered.
There is a deep clarity, detached, rooted in the deep stillness that lies at the core of ur being.
There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind - the understanding you have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself.
Accept this great gift, and share it.
Soul
I am slowly but surely seeing the mechanics of my mind.
I used to be proud of my mind and then 2 years back, was sad about the shittiness of my mind. After meditation, I start to see that it does has strength and weakness too.
And now, I am seeing the mechanics of mind. The contradictary thoughts that causes confusion and resulted in manifestation that we don't want.
Today tot of d partnership in d drama. I tot, while its pleasurable tot, it is not correct timing as I wan to focus on hatha, moments later the tot just flew cos I didn't hold on to it. Mmmm, this is similar to my training for samyama meditation.
Looks like there is benefits.
4. What is needed for resolution - Existence
You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Once u r clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.
We forgot that we are part of Existence as we pursue our own private agenda and believe we must fight to get what we want.
Now is the time to look at whether u r allowing yourself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling "at home" wherever u r.
If u r at home, savour it.
If u r not, its time to ake a break.
5. Resolution; The understanding - Politics
All but the most innocent and sincere of us have a politician lurking somewhere in our minds. In fact the mind is political.
Soul
I am now looking at my own political mind especially with regards to partner.
In this world, we only find that which we seek
May 10
Father, surprisingly yday Sathsang, I was laughing loads during quiet moment. On the 2nd meditation, I only have sadness to release and some fears.
Osho
Man lives by ego and woman by jealousy. Really jealousy is the passive form of ego, and ego is the active form of jealousy.
Love does not proclaim its gift, proclamation is the way of the ego.
Soul
Looks like I am still far behind and that's fine. When I acted beyond the normal compassion threshold, I would tell the other person that they are lucky or blessed to have met me.
(May 23 - This is becos I think God loves them so much to have send them to me. Whereas God doesn't love me as much, I am not as lucky as them as I have to struggle on my own. Aiyah, perhaps its because I got direct connection and hence God need not send anyone to save me.)
Osho
Everyone is responsible for what he is. And everyone has to begin his journey of transformation as an individual, on his own. No one else can walk for him. And once he is started on his journey, all the forces in existence come rushing to his aid.
In this world, we only find that which we seek. Our own desires and longings and prayers come back to us, just like our own sound echoes back by the hills and valley.
Soul
Tot of my passion to be a Transformational leader. The ball is rolling.
Osho
Outwardly people may complain against his condition, but inwardly he is not only reconciled to his condition, he is at ease with it. If by chance, his condition disappear, he will begins to miss it.
Soul
Yeap, loads of people is like d boy who cries wolves. Me included. Previously, I used to lament on challenges and all is gone, I got worried cos not sure of my worth/value and start to find new job to conquer. Those period is over.
(May 23 - a tot came to me. Perhaps I dont want people to help me as I am too egoic and wants to help myself. Perhaps, while I complain that no one seems to want to help me, I myself dont want to be helped. I do have an issue with value, when I achieve without others' people help, its my own and hence my value increased....as I m not helpless
Mmmm...another perspective...just the same as me without a partner. While one part of me wants a partner, the other part worries that I lose my standing, I lose my power, i lose my value as I may have to compromise my growth...)
Osho
When love fails to achieve intimacy at the subtler levels, it craves physical intimacy. Love can be so silent and subtle that physical distances in time and space don't matter for it; it remains even in aloneness.
Soul
Interesting
Osho
Victory and defeat in life are like the warp and woof with which a piece of cloth is woven. To wave the cloth of life, the warp and woof of victory and defeat, success and failure, gain and loss, right and wrong, are essential. Life is made of these opposites, of 2 sides of a coin.
It is possible that a defeat becomes a stepping stone to victory. It is also possible victory may serve as a jumping board to fall into abysmal defeat.
The ultimate judgement one's life depends not on a count of wins and losses, but on the final summation of one's whole life story.
In fact, one who is not ready to face defeats in life should give up all thoughts of victory.
Soul
Yeap, the journey ups and downs.
Last week, I tot I was done and yet I finally showed up.
Yeap, am ready to face defeat in pursuing my Passion in this lifetime.
Osho
Krishna accepts both ups and downs of life unconditionally, he is choiceless. Choicelessness is the door to bliss, ecstasy.
Lao Tzu says Be like the winds; move with the winds, go wherever they take you. And don't choose.
Soul
The wind is taking me to accept my path in following my Passion. Just follow.
May 10 Eve
Father, jus finished watching the drama. First tot, how nice to hav a partner that can protect u. Second tot, I am not meant to hav one cos like P says I am meant for greater things and besides I lost my power then. Third tot, is ok, just accept that for now I want a partner to take care of me.
Father, surprisingly yday Sathsang, I was laughing loads during quiet moment. On the 2nd meditation, I only have sadness to release and some fears.
Osho
Man lives by ego and woman by jealousy. Really jealousy is the passive form of ego, and ego is the active form of jealousy.
Love does not proclaim its gift, proclamation is the way of the ego.
Soul
Looks like I am still far behind and that's fine. When I acted beyond the normal compassion threshold, I would tell the other person that they are lucky or blessed to have met me.
(May 23 - This is becos I think God loves them so much to have send them to me. Whereas God doesn't love me as much, I am not as lucky as them as I have to struggle on my own. Aiyah, perhaps its because I got direct connection and hence God need not send anyone to save me.)
Osho
Everyone is responsible for what he is. And everyone has to begin his journey of transformation as an individual, on his own. No one else can walk for him. And once he is started on his journey, all the forces in existence come rushing to his aid.
In this world, we only find that which we seek. Our own desires and longings and prayers come back to us, just like our own sound echoes back by the hills and valley.
Soul
Tot of my passion to be a Transformational leader. The ball is rolling.
Osho
Outwardly people may complain against his condition, but inwardly he is not only reconciled to his condition, he is at ease with it. If by chance, his condition disappear, he will begins to miss it.
Soul
Yeap, loads of people is like d boy who cries wolves. Me included. Previously, I used to lament on challenges and all is gone, I got worried cos not sure of my worth/value and start to find new job to conquer. Those period is over.
(May 23 - a tot came to me. Perhaps I dont want people to help me as I am too egoic and wants to help myself. Perhaps, while I complain that no one seems to want to help me, I myself dont want to be helped. I do have an issue with value, when I achieve without others' people help, its my own and hence my value increased....as I m not helpless
Mmmm...another perspective...just the same as me without a partner. While one part of me wants a partner, the other part worries that I lose my standing, I lose my power, i lose my value as I may have to compromise my growth...)
Osho
When love fails to achieve intimacy at the subtler levels, it craves physical intimacy. Love can be so silent and subtle that physical distances in time and space don't matter for it; it remains even in aloneness.
Soul
Interesting
Osho
Victory and defeat in life are like the warp and woof with which a piece of cloth is woven. To wave the cloth of life, the warp and woof of victory and defeat, success and failure, gain and loss, right and wrong, are essential. Life is made of these opposites, of 2 sides of a coin.
It is possible that a defeat becomes a stepping stone to victory. It is also possible victory may serve as a jumping board to fall into abysmal defeat.
The ultimate judgement one's life depends not on a count of wins and losses, but on the final summation of one's whole life story.
In fact, one who is not ready to face defeats in life should give up all thoughts of victory.
Soul
Yeap, the journey ups and downs.
Last week, I tot I was done and yet I finally showed up.
Yeap, am ready to face defeat in pursuing my Passion in this lifetime.
Osho
Krishna accepts both ups and downs of life unconditionally, he is choiceless. Choicelessness is the door to bliss, ecstasy.
Lao Tzu says Be like the winds; move with the winds, go wherever they take you. And don't choose.
Soul
The wind is taking me to accept my path in following my Passion. Just follow.
May 10 Eve
Father, jus finished watching the drama. First tot, how nice to hav a partner that can protect u. Second tot, I am not meant to hav one cos like P says I am meant for greater things and besides I lost my power then. Third tot, is ok, just accept that for now I want a partner to take care of me.
I am connected
May 9
Father, U came thru. The last 1 week I was on a down mode, not sure of where I am, not sure of what I can offer, not sure of my connection to U. I must have been real down for You to send me Your team of Messenger.
Firstly, yday afternoon before I went to the Meetup, Sadhguru's msg was people looking for guru and my first tot was I can be but I immediately dismissed it. But when I went there, I tot, yeah I could be one. I have some good offering. These people are not shining thru and hence I think they still don't know themselves. I tot of my offering of Personal Self Discovery in the personal sense and not from universal sense. I think before we can know the Universe's Self, we must first know the Personal's self. Wit that, I start to re-energise and read 7thunder book.
Then suddenly tot of changing my blog name. I have use a word of what I don't want, that is suffering together with what I want, which is blessing.
The Cloud explains that this is the misconception and hence further propel me to think that perhaps my blog name is not right now. Besides if I wan to be a published author, I must come out.
Father, 12 May is the end of my 52 days of Six of Diamond period. And when I received the Osho card that says my Mind is finally mastered and Consciousness shines thru, I tot that is too much. How can it be, when I am feeling down and hardly connect during meditation, and only little joyfulness shines thru. The card even says that once I have Consciousness, all the politics in my mind will be dissolved.
Yeap, I am ready to come out. Joy Ong.
Just now when I was walking in the park, tot of my chronic disease that is there to facilitate my role of approving and loving myself and to guide others to do so as well.
Father, as usual, you are the real Strategist. You must really love me for You to give me the impetus to approve myself. You must also think that I can have the connection wit You to guide others to approve themselves too.
Afternoon
J is 8 of diamond. I have so many 8 of diamonds with me.
1. My close friend - fellow journey
2. My staff
3. My fellow meditator
4. My close friend.
5. My colleague.
Father, U came thru. The last 1 week I was on a down mode, not sure of where I am, not sure of what I can offer, not sure of my connection to U. I must have been real down for You to send me Your team of Messenger.
Firstly, yday afternoon before I went to the Meetup, Sadhguru's msg was people looking for guru and my first tot was I can be but I immediately dismissed it. But when I went there, I tot, yeah I could be one. I have some good offering. These people are not shining thru and hence I think they still don't know themselves. I tot of my offering of Personal Self Discovery in the personal sense and not from universal sense. I think before we can know the Universe's Self, we must first know the Personal's self. Wit that, I start to re-energise and read 7thunder book.
Then suddenly tot of changing my blog name. I have use a word of what I don't want, that is suffering together with what I want, which is blessing.
The Cloud explains that this is the misconception and hence further propel me to think that perhaps my blog name is not right now. Besides if I wan to be a published author, I must come out.
Father, 12 May is the end of my 52 days of Six of Diamond period. And when I received the Osho card that says my Mind is finally mastered and Consciousness shines thru, I tot that is too much. How can it be, when I am feeling down and hardly connect during meditation, and only little joyfulness shines thru. The card even says that once I have Consciousness, all the politics in my mind will be dissolved.
Yeap, I am ready to come out. Joy Ong.
Just now when I was walking in the park, tot of my chronic disease that is there to facilitate my role of approving and loving myself and to guide others to do so as well.
Father, as usual, you are the real Strategist. You must really love me for You to give me the impetus to approve myself. You must also think that I can have the connection wit You to guide others to approve themselves too.
Afternoon
J is 8 of diamond. I have so many 8 of diamonds with me.
1. My close friend - fellow journey
2. My staff
3. My fellow meditator
4. My close friend.
5. My colleague.
Happiness means to be truly ourselves; to achieve our Destiny
May 8
Meetup conducted. There were 3 persons that has personal offerings.
1. Hatha Yoga and Pranic Healer
2. Physical Wellness
3. Expression via dance.
Listening to them, I sense that they don't know who they are yet. Tot of my start up services - Self Discovery.
The Cloud of Unknowing
Why meditate?
To come to the full self-knowledge which is here called humility. And to be happy.
The work itself teaches us the true meaning of happiness and the necessity for abandoning all our false ideas about happiness. Happiness is not merely the satisfaction of our desires. It is the transcendence of all desire.
Happiness consists in realising the essential goodness of our nature and then in being good.
Goodness consists of much more than moral behaviour; it is the fulfillment of our nature. A good shoemaker, for eg, is one who makes the best shoes possible with the leather he has been provided with. So, the life of a good person, according to Aristotle, does not need pleasure as a sort of appendage but contains pleasure in itself.
The goal of life is to become fully alive, fully and truly ourselves. In doing that we discover we are made to be happy.
Soul
That's is exactly how I feel. I always believe we are meant to be happy and in order to do that we can accept whatever state we are in, be it 'good' or 'bad'. And by discovering ourself, knowing and following our Passion, we can then be happy.
Father, thank you. I was bit down recently and not doing my practice out of joy. While Sadhguru did ask me not to judge and preservere, part of me tot that is jus him wanting me to continue on his path rather than my own calling. While I preservere becos of discipline, my heart was not in it. Guess that's why u brought in The Cloud of Unknowing, a break of 8 years since I last read. Infact, I didn't read the front text cos I was not meditating back then. What I did was read the poem and cry non-stop. Most time, didn't even understand why I cry cos at time I don't even know the meanings. It has always been a mysterious book to me. Something that help me to pass through my depression, my darkest period.
I always believe we are meant to be happy. That's why I cannot accept that God wants us to suffer. That's part of the reason why I don't like religion that quotes we are here to suffer and to be grateful that we live.
When I discover it was my unconscious that was causing unhappiness, I open all doors. That's why I says that only when we are unhappy/suffering, we would take action to explore and discover to root cause and undo it; hence my blog sufferingisblessing.
Mmm, recall V asked me to change the name of blog to make it sound positive cos he cannot believe suffering is blessing. I named this blog suffering cos I tot this would be the most likely google word if I want to get help. That was 2 years back. Now perhaps I wan a change.
Below is some names I tot of:
1. Happiness is our Right
2. Meant for Happiness
3. HappyJoyJoy.
4. Bring back Joy
5. Joyfulness
6. Right to be Happy.
The Cloud of Unknowing
Christianity has often equated blessedness with suffering or a sense of sinful unworthiness.
Even today when the religion's capacity to manipulate guilt is greatly diminished, there is a strong inner resistance to accepting the freedom and availability of happiness. Perhaps we wonder, today especially, if we have the right to be happy. With our heightened and constantly stimulated awareness of the problems and tragedies of the world around us, it can seem that if we are happy, we are depriving someone elese of their happiness. The ego forgets that there is more than enough bliss to go around. Meditation frees us to share in the boundlessness of divine joy.
Happiness is fullness and although we all have different capacities, my happiness can neither diminish nor be diminished by your happiness.
And in any case, what use are we to others if we cannot share their problems and face our own with an essential happiness. We do not so much have a right to be happy, rather we have a duty to be happy. It is a duty written into our deepest nature.
Soul
Father, how can this be??? How can I be pondering about an issue and the next moment I am reading it.
Firstly You corrected my perception on sufferingisblessing. And then even give me a stronger version than my title "right to be happy"
I have always prescribe that people be happy cos we owe it to ourselves.
The duty to be happy is similar to Sadhguru's msg about it is a crime that we are not joyful.
So, definitely a call for me to change my blog name.
A tot came to me. To call my blog; Joy Ong.
2nd tot nope cos I don't want to be known.
3rd tot but u have always been described as Happy Go Lucky person. So, the name Joy is correct.
Father, there is a persistent tot for me to call the blog Joy Ong but I am afraid. I am not sure about this.
A voice came, but if u afraid to come out, how can u be the Transformational Leader in 2 years time? Joy Ong is a good branding and u can start ur own column.
Another tot, remember a new potential meditator called you by the name Joy and at first u were stunned and moments later u tot that's you, so apt name cos u now so joyful.
Mmm, Ong is such a common name in this world. Even today, met a IndianThai with surname Ong. Beside I always call myself with my given name, so don't have to change now.
The Cloud of Unknowing
Contemplation is a movement from a lay to a religious state. No one life is totally active or totally contemplative and the only specific he would take his book away from are those who are reading it only for curiousity.
At the end of the book when he discusses the signs that have drawn u to this work, he says basically that you are called if you feel a serious attraction to it.
Then he says, if you do begin, do not give up because many people do give up just at the point of making a breakthrough.
Soul
I cried and cried when I saw this. Jus half an hour ago, I says Father brought me this book to get me to stay motivated on meditation. And now the message is crystalised, carved in stone.
Somehow, I am connected and You came when U know I needed help. This book was written in 14th century and yet it called to me. And I also thanked 7thunder card for telling me in order to resolve my karmic baggage, I need to pursue a spiritual path. And this given me the course and I am in it.
This book was published in 1997. That's the year I started on the journey.
Father, I will rename my blog; Joy Ong. I will be a Transformational leader in 2 years time. I will publish my book. Like the CEO says, to plan for my future.
Amen.
Meetup conducted. There were 3 persons that has personal offerings.
1. Hatha Yoga and Pranic Healer
2. Physical Wellness
3. Expression via dance.
Listening to them, I sense that they don't know who they are yet. Tot of my start up services - Self Discovery.
The Cloud of Unknowing
Why meditate?
To come to the full self-knowledge which is here called humility. And to be happy.
The work itself teaches us the true meaning of happiness and the necessity for abandoning all our false ideas about happiness. Happiness is not merely the satisfaction of our desires. It is the transcendence of all desire.
Happiness consists in realising the essential goodness of our nature and then in being good.
Goodness consists of much more than moral behaviour; it is the fulfillment of our nature. A good shoemaker, for eg, is one who makes the best shoes possible with the leather he has been provided with. So, the life of a good person, according to Aristotle, does not need pleasure as a sort of appendage but contains pleasure in itself.
The goal of life is to become fully alive, fully and truly ourselves. In doing that we discover we are made to be happy.
Soul
That's is exactly how I feel. I always believe we are meant to be happy and in order to do that we can accept whatever state we are in, be it 'good' or 'bad'. And by discovering ourself, knowing and following our Passion, we can then be happy.
Father, thank you. I was bit down recently and not doing my practice out of joy. While Sadhguru did ask me not to judge and preservere, part of me tot that is jus him wanting me to continue on his path rather than my own calling. While I preservere becos of discipline, my heart was not in it. Guess that's why u brought in The Cloud of Unknowing, a break of 8 years since I last read. Infact, I didn't read the front text cos I was not meditating back then. What I did was read the poem and cry non-stop. Most time, didn't even understand why I cry cos at time I don't even know the meanings. It has always been a mysterious book to me. Something that help me to pass through my depression, my darkest period.
I always believe we are meant to be happy. That's why I cannot accept that God wants us to suffer. That's part of the reason why I don't like religion that quotes we are here to suffer and to be grateful that we live.
When I discover it was my unconscious that was causing unhappiness, I open all doors. That's why I says that only when we are unhappy/suffering, we would take action to explore and discover to root cause and undo it; hence my blog sufferingisblessing.
Mmm, recall V asked me to change the name of blog to make it sound positive cos he cannot believe suffering is blessing. I named this blog suffering cos I tot this would be the most likely google word if I want to get help. That was 2 years back. Now perhaps I wan a change.
Below is some names I tot of:
1. Happiness is our Right
2. Meant for Happiness
3. HappyJoyJoy.
4. Bring back Joy
5. Joyfulness
6. Right to be Happy.
The Cloud of Unknowing
Christianity has often equated blessedness with suffering or a sense of sinful unworthiness.
Even today when the religion's capacity to manipulate guilt is greatly diminished, there is a strong inner resistance to accepting the freedom and availability of happiness. Perhaps we wonder, today especially, if we have the right to be happy. With our heightened and constantly stimulated awareness of the problems and tragedies of the world around us, it can seem that if we are happy, we are depriving someone elese of their happiness. The ego forgets that there is more than enough bliss to go around. Meditation frees us to share in the boundlessness of divine joy.
Happiness is fullness and although we all have different capacities, my happiness can neither diminish nor be diminished by your happiness.
And in any case, what use are we to others if we cannot share their problems and face our own with an essential happiness. We do not so much have a right to be happy, rather we have a duty to be happy. It is a duty written into our deepest nature.
Soul
Father, how can this be??? How can I be pondering about an issue and the next moment I am reading it.
Firstly You corrected my perception on sufferingisblessing. And then even give me a stronger version than my title "right to be happy"
I have always prescribe that people be happy cos we owe it to ourselves.
The duty to be happy is similar to Sadhguru's msg about it is a crime that we are not joyful.
So, definitely a call for me to change my blog name.
A tot came to me. To call my blog; Joy Ong.
2nd tot nope cos I don't want to be known.
3rd tot but u have always been described as Happy Go Lucky person. So, the name Joy is correct.
Father, there is a persistent tot for me to call the blog Joy Ong but I am afraid. I am not sure about this.
A voice came, but if u afraid to come out, how can u be the Transformational Leader in 2 years time? Joy Ong is a good branding and u can start ur own column.
Another tot, remember a new potential meditator called you by the name Joy and at first u were stunned and moments later u tot that's you, so apt name cos u now so joyful.
Mmm, Ong is such a common name in this world. Even today, met a IndianThai with surname Ong. Beside I always call myself with my given name, so don't have to change now.
The Cloud of Unknowing
Contemplation is a movement from a lay to a religious state. No one life is totally active or totally contemplative and the only specific he would take his book away from are those who are reading it only for curiousity.
At the end of the book when he discusses the signs that have drawn u to this work, he says basically that you are called if you feel a serious attraction to it.
Then he says, if you do begin, do not give up because many people do give up just at the point of making a breakthrough.
Soul
I cried and cried when I saw this. Jus half an hour ago, I says Father brought me this book to get me to stay motivated on meditation. And now the message is crystalised, carved in stone.
Somehow, I am connected and You came when U know I needed help. This book was written in 14th century and yet it called to me. And I also thanked 7thunder card for telling me in order to resolve my karmic baggage, I need to pursue a spiritual path. And this given me the course and I am in it.
This book was published in 1997. That's the year I started on the journey.
Father, I will rename my blog; Joy Ong. I will be a Transformational leader in 2 years time. I will publish my book. Like the CEO says, to plan for my future.
Amen.
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