Aug 19
Father, today practice is fine. But m feeling bit sleepy. Guess tired frm d meetings and un-solicited counseling.
Father, wasn't good wit sis. Guess I was feeling tired and feeling bit resentful that I have to solve her problem too. Also, I have tell her the issue repeatedly and she is ignoring it and the incidents continues.
Anyway, just send her an sms;
M sorry, I was very tired yday and my comm is out of line. But hope u do get d msg that being a teacher is opposite frm a mother. U have always acted as a teacher to ur children, they don't have a mother :(
Heal Ur life
"Love" to me is appreciation to such a degree that it fills my heart to bursting and overflows. Love can go to any direction.
If we deny our good in any way, it is an act of not loving ourselves.
Lack of self-worth is another expression of not loving ourselves.
Our partner is tired and grouchy, we wonder what we have done wrong to cause it.
He takes us out once or twice and never calls again, we think something must be wrong with us.
We are afraid to ask for a raise
Our bodies do not match those in magazine and we feel inferior. We don't "make the sale" or "get the part", and we are sure that we are "not good enough".
We can't make decisions because we are sure they will be wrong.
Soul
Father, mine is an issue of not good enough, hence not lovable. I tot any challenges in d company is due to me, any dates that didn't work out is due to me.
Heal ur life
Anyone who gives a service or creates a one-of-a-kind product can charge any price. People with wealth love to pay a lot for what they get. It gives the item more value.
Soul
I have a great Insight and now need to work on my delivery. Father, I want to retire with good financial standing from corporate world by end 45. I want to be a full time counselor, writer for self-transformation.
Heal Ur life
When we feel frightened or insecure or "not good enough", many of us will put on extra weight for protection.
When we begin to love and approve of ourselves, its amazing how weight just disappeared from our bodies.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
When you give up, Help comes (2)
Aug 18 Even
Father, my commn wit sis is not so good. Her valuation is being a teacher and not a mother, her children has lost track of right and wrong, begin to steal. I have told her repeatedly and this time I said in frustration.
Today chose my website template. Not sure why, I went for the science category instead of personal category. Hurray, I found my site. Its like finding a treasure from ancient time. There is scroll with feather nip and a time clock.
Father, ur guidance is correct. Just keep both positive.
Father, seems to have lost it with Cloud of Unknowing, not able to connect, unlike many years ago.
Osho - Nanak
The conscious mind is a very small segment compared to the unconscious. The ratio is one to nine. It is like the ice berg floating on the water, one-tenth is above and nine-tenth is below.
When u try with ur conscious mind, u never profit. The imperceptible gain will occur only when ur conscious effort reaches its last gasp and u r completely worn out; u will give up but the effort will continue in the unconscious. Though u give up the unconscious never gives up.
The conscious is useful inasmuch as it carries u up to the unconscious. One day the explosion takes place and suddenly u found God before u.
Then u will feel that its only his Grace and compassion that brought u so far.
You have long since given up all effort and accepted defeat when suddenly the destination appeared; so it was not ur effort, the sacred
Father, my commn wit sis is not so good. Her valuation is being a teacher and not a mother, her children has lost track of right and wrong, begin to steal. I have told her repeatedly and this time I said in frustration.
Today chose my website template. Not sure why, I went for the science category instead of personal category. Hurray, I found my site. Its like finding a treasure from ancient time. There is scroll with feather nip and a time clock.
Father, ur guidance is correct. Just keep both positive.
Father, seems to have lost it with Cloud of Unknowing, not able to connect, unlike many years ago.
Osho - Nanak
The conscious mind is a very small segment compared to the unconscious. The ratio is one to nine. It is like the ice berg floating on the water, one-tenth is above and nine-tenth is below.
When u try with ur conscious mind, u never profit. The imperceptible gain will occur only when ur conscious effort reaches its last gasp and u r completely worn out; u will give up but the effort will continue in the unconscious. Though u give up the unconscious never gives up.
The conscious is useful inasmuch as it carries u up to the unconscious. One day the explosion takes place and suddenly u found God before u.
Then u will feel that its only his Grace and compassion that brought u so far.
You have long since given up all effort and accepted defeat when suddenly the destination appeared; so it was not ur effort, the sacred
Be the Fool (innocent and free from Past)
Aug 18
Father, this mornin was surprising. I tot of doing asanas as my elbow and knee is in pain, but body did suria namaskara. My mind says to change, but a tot came, regardless of the situation, I shld do 3 rounds of suria. Anyway, I did the whole 12 cycles and it was effortless and there was no pain.
When I was meditating, tot of GM came in. And I tot perhaps I have inadvertently raise her anger by informing her abt CEO's comment. Tot of my previous situation wit ex-PA who insisted on keeping me informed of CEO's view of me becos she was frustrated that she has to listen to CEO's nagging. It did drive me away frm CEO. Then when we were not on speaking term, my rship wit CEO improves.
GM said she has drafted resignation, then again tot of ex-PA, same tactic. GM, same card with ex-PA, so their karmic interaction with CEO is the same.
So, I have decided not to share with her even if I am frustrated and will tell her not to ask me either. Since her decision is to stay, she shld not be unduly bothered abt CEO's perception of her. Ironic, I m back to being middle man, keeping the peace among the family.
I am glad I managed to calm CEO down and allay her fear. I told her my motto now; life is not easy, don't make it difficult. I also shared abt bosses are also requires to be patient when facing their staff.
But I admit I was also surprised at my quick turnaround. She was accusing me of conspiracy and then still seek my input. My original decision was to play cool and not offer anything. But she was open and being vulnerable about her insecurities and I can't help but allay her fear and keep her in perspective.
I do have a gift. Tot of my Osho- creativity card. Just be open to what want to be expressed through u. Remember we don't possess our creations, they don't belong to us.
True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.
Also tot of V saying he thinks I will make an awesome Life Coach or Executive Coach for CEO.
Mmm, that exactly what I have been doing for CEO.
Mmm, so reflective of my 6 card this year, abt keeping peace among co-workers.
Jus now tot of C. First tot to give her the sms ; A not so friendly reminder. Pls send my cd. You are wasting my time and hurting our friendship.
Then second tot, let's wait till d website is out, send her the link and tell her that I now need the cd. Just send, if not tell me to buy a new one on my own. Don't hold me back from pursuing my Destiny.
Yday, when I read thru my Vision book. Realised that loads has materialised. Looks like law of attraction is working.
What is the Truth for me?
Fundamentally everyone is a good person. They changed to the extent where love is absent and fear arise.
So, less fear or more love; more good person or more loving person.
Looking at the Fool card
A fool is one who goes on trusting. He doesn't allow situation to corrupt him. His action may appear foolish to others and even to himself, if analysed with a rational mind.
Zero place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.
Soul - tot of my rship wit CEO. I have offered my support and counsel but she stabbed me later. This has happen a few times. Yday morning, I decided not to help her anymore. Let her rot. But yday evening, she asked for help, and I gave again.
I am seldom affected by situation. My view or personality doesn't fluctuate according to circumstances or people.
Just tot, yea, new approach wit GM too.
Father, this mornin was surprising. I tot of doing asanas as my elbow and knee is in pain, but body did suria namaskara. My mind says to change, but a tot came, regardless of the situation, I shld do 3 rounds of suria. Anyway, I did the whole 12 cycles and it was effortless and there was no pain.
When I was meditating, tot of GM came in. And I tot perhaps I have inadvertently raise her anger by informing her abt CEO's comment. Tot of my previous situation wit ex-PA who insisted on keeping me informed of CEO's view of me becos she was frustrated that she has to listen to CEO's nagging. It did drive me away frm CEO. Then when we were not on speaking term, my rship wit CEO improves.
GM said she has drafted resignation, then again tot of ex-PA, same tactic. GM, same card with ex-PA, so their karmic interaction with CEO is the same.
So, I have decided not to share with her even if I am frustrated and will tell her not to ask me either. Since her decision is to stay, she shld not be unduly bothered abt CEO's perception of her. Ironic, I m back to being middle man, keeping the peace among the family.
I am glad I managed to calm CEO down and allay her fear. I told her my motto now; life is not easy, don't make it difficult. I also shared abt bosses are also requires to be patient when facing their staff.
But I admit I was also surprised at my quick turnaround. She was accusing me of conspiracy and then still seek my input. My original decision was to play cool and not offer anything. But she was open and being vulnerable about her insecurities and I can't help but allay her fear and keep her in perspective.
I do have a gift. Tot of my Osho- creativity card. Just be open to what want to be expressed through u. Remember we don't possess our creations, they don't belong to us.
True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.
Also tot of V saying he thinks I will make an awesome Life Coach or Executive Coach for CEO.
Mmm, that exactly what I have been doing for CEO.
Mmm, so reflective of my 6 card this year, abt keeping peace among co-workers.
Jus now tot of C. First tot to give her the sms ; A not so friendly reminder. Pls send my cd. You are wasting my time and hurting our friendship.
Then second tot, let's wait till d website is out, send her the link and tell her that I now need the cd. Just send, if not tell me to buy a new one on my own. Don't hold me back from pursuing my Destiny.
Yday, when I read thru my Vision book. Realised that loads has materialised. Looks like law of attraction is working.
What is the Truth for me?
Fundamentally everyone is a good person. They changed to the extent where love is absent and fear arise.
So, less fear or more love; more good person or more loving person.
Looking at the Fool card
A fool is one who goes on trusting. He doesn't allow situation to corrupt him. His action may appear foolish to others and even to himself, if analysed with a rational mind.
Zero place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.
Soul - tot of my rship wit CEO. I have offered my support and counsel but she stabbed me later. This has happen a few times. Yday morning, I decided not to help her anymore. Let her rot. But yday evening, she asked for help, and I gave again.
I am seldom affected by situation. My view or personality doesn't fluctuate according to circumstances or people.
Just tot, yea, new approach wit GM too.
My website Joy Ong (4)
Aug 17 Eve
Finally did it, purchased the website; joyong.org. Was thinking perhaps shld do like V,
joy@ong.org, then the name will be obvious.
But on the other hand, since m not ready to go open per se. Perhaps its good. People will mistake it for jo yong instead of joy ong.
Father, like I told GM, the abnormal CEO pushes us to evaluate ourselves. GM again says that she drafted resignation letter and again said that she will resign if CEO doesn't behave herself. Mmmm, she is sounding more and more like the ex-PA. Anyway, I have told her previously that she is like the boy who cried wolf. After a while people doesn't believe her. Guess that's why PD react like that to her.
As for me, earlier spend 2 hours making CEO feels relaxed. So tiring. Anyway, like I told GM, I need to prepare my commn skill. Need not be so expressive nor so frontal.
Just now, after Shakti. I cried and cried immediately. So long never cried so much. I cried wrapping my arms around myself, saying no one loves me. I cried a long while. Then I start to sing and dance. Later, did the plough back and this time, even open up my 2 legs wide open, like a chinese acrobat. Amazing. Cannot believe I did that.
Anyway, thanks to CEO, perhaps its good preparation for me for this saturday workshop and she accelerated the purchase of domain. Amen.
Tot of C. Really something like ending. She and I was supposed to be partner but she dropped out. Guess, its meant to be. We r both too independent to be on partnership.
Father, U really helped me so much. Although not sure on the 50 percent social contribution. Max payout is less than 3000 dollar per mth. Bit disappointed. Perhaps m meant to work first and do my website concurrently.
Now to check my Passion Book and Checklist
(Sept 8 - Father, it is true 9 of Heart, within my current circle of close friends, none of them is with me and my rship with C has strained a lot and I can see it ending. At least, P and V is still with me)
Finally did it, purchased the website; joyong.org. Was thinking perhaps shld do like V,
joy@ong.org, then the name will be obvious.
But on the other hand, since m not ready to go open per se. Perhaps its good. People will mistake it for jo yong instead of joy ong.
Father, like I told GM, the abnormal CEO pushes us to evaluate ourselves. GM again says that she drafted resignation letter and again said that she will resign if CEO doesn't behave herself. Mmmm, she is sounding more and more like the ex-PA. Anyway, I have told her previously that she is like the boy who cried wolf. After a while people doesn't believe her. Guess that's why PD react like that to her.
As for me, earlier spend 2 hours making CEO feels relaxed. So tiring. Anyway, like I told GM, I need to prepare my commn skill. Need not be so expressive nor so frontal.
Just now, after Shakti. I cried and cried immediately. So long never cried so much. I cried wrapping my arms around myself, saying no one loves me. I cried a long while. Then I start to sing and dance. Later, did the plough back and this time, even open up my 2 legs wide open, like a chinese acrobat. Amazing. Cannot believe I did that.
Anyway, thanks to CEO, perhaps its good preparation for me for this saturday workshop and she accelerated the purchase of domain. Amen.
Tot of C. Really something like ending. She and I was supposed to be partner but she dropped out. Guess, its meant to be. We r both too independent to be on partnership.
Father, U really helped me so much. Although not sure on the 50 percent social contribution. Max payout is less than 3000 dollar per mth. Bit disappointed. Perhaps m meant to work first and do my website concurrently.
Now to check my Passion Book and Checklist
(Sept 8 - Father, it is true 9 of Heart, within my current circle of close friends, none of them is with me and my rship with C has strained a lot and I can see it ending. At least, P and V is still with me)
My website Joy Ong (3)
Aug 17
Father, did my suria namaskara. Quite effortless. The pain on left shoulder is gone. Thank U. The pain on right elbow has lessen. I think the recovery rate is slower because of the displaced elbow.
Been meeting him yday evening and this morning. Just like a new car. When u r not keen, u didn't realise its there. But when u bought ur car, suddenly u see it everywhere.
This mornin tot of C and d cards. Anyway, I haven't pay for it yet. For now jus read the books. Who knows, m meant to interpret the books first. As for her procastination and delay, I know is for me to go ahead with my web.
Not sure if got audience on my web. At least there is me.
Will link the following - Osho, 7thunder, Heal ur Life, Isha, humanmetrics
For recommendation, ACIM, Radical Forgiveness, Passion Book, The Law of Attraction, The Power of Now/New Earth
Father, yeap I will start a new path from my experience.
Osho
1. Creativity
Whatsoever u do, u do it joyfully, lovingly, if ur act of doing is not purely economical, then it is creative.
If u have something growing out of it within u, if it gives u growth, it is spiritual, it is creative, it is divine. You become more divine as u become more creative.
Techniques, expertise and knowledge are just tools; the key is to abandon oneself to the energy that fuels the birth of all things.
Be open to what wants to be expressed through u. Remember we don't possess our creations; they do not belong to us. True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.
Soul
Thanks for the encouragement. Yeap, got the ball rolling. Reading my 7 years card spurs me (42 to 48). Ironically, I bought the Passion book and started my Passion List when I was 42. My Top 1 passion is to be a Transformation Leader.
(Sept 8 - my ultimate is to have Self-Mastery)
2. Internal influence that u r unable to see - Thunderbolt.
A man and a woman are leaping from a tower being burned, destroyed, blown apart, because they have no choice.
After the fire, the earth is replenished. If u allow it, u will emerge from the wreckage stronger and more available for new experience. After the fire, earth is replenished. Try to watch the destruction with detachment, almost as if it were happening to somebody else. Say yes to the process by meeting it halfway.
Soul
Thanks for the support.
Father, I too have no choice. I know m not keen on my current career. I am doing it for the money. And with my RA, that's my priority and hence I wan to heal myself. But I know I don't want to follow others. I know I want to set my own path and lead others too. So, the only alternative is to create my own domain.
(Sept 8 - Tamil teacher said be a Seeker)
3. External influence of which u r aware - The Rebel
Every genius who has known something of the inner is bound to be a little difficult to be absorbed, he is going to be an upsetting force. The masses don't want to be disturbed, eventhough they may be in misery; they are in misery but they are accustomed to the misery. And anybody who is not miserable looks like a stranger.
The enlightened man is the greatest stranger in the world; he does not to belong to anybody. No organisation confines him, no community, no society, no nation.
Rebel is clearly the master of his own destiny. He has broken the chains of society's repressive conditioning and opinions. He has formed himself by embracing all the colours of the rainbow, emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky.
His very way of being is rebellious - not because he is fighting against anybody or anything, but because he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it.
The Rebel challenges us to be courageous enough to take responsibility for who we are and to live
our truth.
Soul
Father, thanks for ur encouragement. Last weekend, saw the eagle in his majestic flight and got an eagle Osho result card. This morning saw the rainbow in all its full colours.
The 7 years card say my pluto challenge is King of Spade - to take charge and fight my way thru to be a King.
When I saw the word genius, I wanted to remove and changed it to person. Then I stop myself, I m quite smart, why look down on myself, why cannot accept that I may be a genius.
Yeap, like I said I don't wan to join anyone. I want to walk my own path and let others to know they too can find their own.
4. What is needed for resolution - Existence
You are not accidental. Existence needs u. Without u, something is missing in existence and nobody can replace. This give u tremendous joy, a fulfillment that u r related to Existence, and existence cares for u.
Once u r clean and clear, u can see tremendous love falling on u from all dimensions.
Home is not a physical place, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance.
Soul
Thanks for the reminder. Today when I tot of C. I remind myself, its meant to be. When I tot whether my domain is successful, I also tot its an opening and I just walked, results is not up to me. Father will guide me.
5. The resolution - The Fool.
A fool is one who goes on trusting, a fool is one who goes on trusting against all of his experience. You deceive him, and he trusts u; and u deceive him again and he trusts u, on and on.
You will say he is a fool, he does not learn. His trust is tremendous, his trust is so pure that nobody can corrupt it.
Don't try to create knowledge around u. Whatsoever experience comes to u, let it happen and then go on dropping. Go on cleaning ur mind continuously, go on dying to the past, so u remain in the present, herenow, as if just born, just a babe.
Moment to moment, and with every step, the Fool leaves the past behind. He carries nothing more than his purity, innocence and trust. He is in harmony with all that surrounds him. His intuition is functioning at its peak. At this moment, the Fool has the support of the Universe to make this jump into the unknown. Adventure await him in the river of life.
This card indicate that if u trust ur intuition right now, ur feeling of the 'rightness' of things, u cannot go wrong. Your actions may appear foolish to others, or even to urself, if u try to analyse them wit the rational mind. But the 'zero' place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experiences.
Soul
Father, thank U. Its all coming together. Thanks to my Ace of Diamond, I can start and later let Queen of Diamond takes over.
The korean drama's main msg is the Fool. The lady goes on trusting against all contradictions and finally found her love is waiting for her. She says she may seem weak but that's also her strong point, the ability to trust against all odds. She says she has no choice becos she cannot bear to part with him.
I too had no choice cos I cannot bear to tear away from my dream to be a Self-Master and hence I will continue to walk my Path, not knowing the outcome.
Afternoon
I told GM about my plan to exit from corporate world via social contribution. I will set my own path. Frankly I am still cautious cos not sure if I am good enough.
She replied that I will be successful cos fundamentally I am a good person. So, it is not important whether I am good enough or not.
Father, thank U. Another encouragement.
Father, did my suria namaskara. Quite effortless. The pain on left shoulder is gone. Thank U. The pain on right elbow has lessen. I think the recovery rate is slower because of the displaced elbow.
Been meeting him yday evening and this morning. Just like a new car. When u r not keen, u didn't realise its there. But when u bought ur car, suddenly u see it everywhere.
This mornin tot of C and d cards. Anyway, I haven't pay for it yet. For now jus read the books. Who knows, m meant to interpret the books first. As for her procastination and delay, I know is for me to go ahead with my web.
Not sure if got audience on my web. At least there is me.
Will link the following - Osho, 7thunder, Heal ur Life, Isha, humanmetrics
For recommendation, ACIM, Radical Forgiveness, Passion Book, The Law of Attraction, The Power of Now/New Earth
Father, yeap I will start a new path from my experience.
Osho
1. Creativity
Whatsoever u do, u do it joyfully, lovingly, if ur act of doing is not purely economical, then it is creative.
If u have something growing out of it within u, if it gives u growth, it is spiritual, it is creative, it is divine. You become more divine as u become more creative.
Techniques, expertise and knowledge are just tools; the key is to abandon oneself to the energy that fuels the birth of all things.
Be open to what wants to be expressed through u. Remember we don't possess our creations; they do not belong to us. True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.
Soul
Thanks for the encouragement. Yeap, got the ball rolling. Reading my 7 years card spurs me (42 to 48). Ironically, I bought the Passion book and started my Passion List when I was 42. My Top 1 passion is to be a Transformation Leader.
(Sept 8 - my ultimate is to have Self-Mastery)
2. Internal influence that u r unable to see - Thunderbolt.
A man and a woman are leaping from a tower being burned, destroyed, blown apart, because they have no choice.
After the fire, the earth is replenished. If u allow it, u will emerge from the wreckage stronger and more available for new experience. After the fire, earth is replenished. Try to watch the destruction with detachment, almost as if it were happening to somebody else. Say yes to the process by meeting it halfway.
Soul
Thanks for the support.
Father, I too have no choice. I know m not keen on my current career. I am doing it for the money. And with my RA, that's my priority and hence I wan to heal myself. But I know I don't want to follow others. I know I want to set my own path and lead others too. So, the only alternative is to create my own domain.
(Sept 8 - Tamil teacher said be a Seeker)
3. External influence of which u r aware - The Rebel
Every genius who has known something of the inner is bound to be a little difficult to be absorbed, he is going to be an upsetting force. The masses don't want to be disturbed, eventhough they may be in misery; they are in misery but they are accustomed to the misery. And anybody who is not miserable looks like a stranger.
The enlightened man is the greatest stranger in the world; he does not to belong to anybody. No organisation confines him, no community, no society, no nation.
Rebel is clearly the master of his own destiny. He has broken the chains of society's repressive conditioning and opinions. He has formed himself by embracing all the colours of the rainbow, emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky.
His very way of being is rebellious - not because he is fighting against anybody or anything, but because he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it.
The Rebel challenges us to be courageous enough to take responsibility for who we are and to live
our truth.
Soul
Father, thanks for ur encouragement. Last weekend, saw the eagle in his majestic flight and got an eagle Osho result card. This morning saw the rainbow in all its full colours.
The 7 years card say my pluto challenge is King of Spade - to take charge and fight my way thru to be a King.
When I saw the word genius, I wanted to remove and changed it to person. Then I stop myself, I m quite smart, why look down on myself, why cannot accept that I may be a genius.
Yeap, like I said I don't wan to join anyone. I want to walk my own path and let others to know they too can find their own.
4. What is needed for resolution - Existence
You are not accidental. Existence needs u. Without u, something is missing in existence and nobody can replace. This give u tremendous joy, a fulfillment that u r related to Existence, and existence cares for u.
Once u r clean and clear, u can see tremendous love falling on u from all dimensions.
Home is not a physical place, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance.
Soul
Thanks for the reminder. Today when I tot of C. I remind myself, its meant to be. When I tot whether my domain is successful, I also tot its an opening and I just walked, results is not up to me. Father will guide me.
5. The resolution - The Fool.
A fool is one who goes on trusting, a fool is one who goes on trusting against all of his experience. You deceive him, and he trusts u; and u deceive him again and he trusts u, on and on.
You will say he is a fool, he does not learn. His trust is tremendous, his trust is so pure that nobody can corrupt it.
Don't try to create knowledge around u. Whatsoever experience comes to u, let it happen and then go on dropping. Go on cleaning ur mind continuously, go on dying to the past, so u remain in the present, herenow, as if just born, just a babe.
Moment to moment, and with every step, the Fool leaves the past behind. He carries nothing more than his purity, innocence and trust. He is in harmony with all that surrounds him. His intuition is functioning at its peak. At this moment, the Fool has the support of the Universe to make this jump into the unknown. Adventure await him in the river of life.
This card indicate that if u trust ur intuition right now, ur feeling of the 'rightness' of things, u cannot go wrong. Your actions may appear foolish to others, or even to urself, if u try to analyse them wit the rational mind. But the 'zero' place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experiences.
Soul
Father, thank U. Its all coming together. Thanks to my Ace of Diamond, I can start and later let Queen of Diamond takes over.
The korean drama's main msg is the Fool. The lady goes on trusting against all contradictions and finally found her love is waiting for her. She says she may seem weak but that's also her strong point, the ability to trust against all odds. She says she has no choice becos she cannot bear to part with him.
I too had no choice cos I cannot bear to tear away from my dream to be a Self-Master and hence I will continue to walk my Path, not knowing the outcome.
Afternoon
I told GM about my plan to exit from corporate world via social contribution. I will set my own path. Frankly I am still cautious cos not sure if I am good enough.
She replied that I will be successful cos fundamentally I am a good person. So, it is not important whether I am good enough or not.
Father, thank U. Another encouragement.
My website Joy Ong (2)
Aug 16 Even
Father, finally did it. Purchased a domain; JoyOng.org
I like it, especially the org behind seem to make the domain more stable. Three O, good foundation.
I am not sure where this will lead, but I will do my part.
My aim is to share my inner journey so that others too can do their own. As for my income, it will be from my book, personal counseling and also adv from the rest.
With this web, I can do my Q & A that I wanted to do, share my Insight writings, upload blog and also share my discoveries.
As for my side income, will be my partial pay. Will check the social contribution website.
WC says I always get what I want. So, might as well wish for the best. To have a stable income (without working) so I can continue with my inner journey, to lead others and also to live comfortably, able to eat gourmet food costing 200 dollars a meal at least once a fortnight, can spend costing 50 dollars a meal without any tot. Yea, I can live comfortably with 50% payout from social contribution. Since I don't have any commitment, this will help. It shld be tax free, right?? Will chk.
Osho - Nanak
Seek truth first. Do nothing before that. For whatever u do before that is bound to be false. Only one thing is worth doing; recognise truth! Then u may do anything. For once u know truth, it begins to act from within u.
(Sept 9 - Father, I think this could be me what is true for me. What is my destiny and work towards it, never lose focus due to fear of being not good enough)
Father, finally did it. Purchased a domain; JoyOng.org
I like it, especially the org behind seem to make the domain more stable. Three O, good foundation.
I am not sure where this will lead, but I will do my part.
My aim is to share my inner journey so that others too can do their own. As for my income, it will be from my book, personal counseling and also adv from the rest.
With this web, I can do my Q & A that I wanted to do, share my Insight writings, upload blog and also share my discoveries.
As for my side income, will be my partial pay. Will check the social contribution website.
WC says I always get what I want. So, might as well wish for the best. To have a stable income (without working) so I can continue with my inner journey, to lead others and also to live comfortably, able to eat gourmet food costing 200 dollars a meal at least once a fortnight, can spend costing 50 dollars a meal without any tot. Yea, I can live comfortably with 50% payout from social contribution. Since I don't have any commitment, this will help. It shld be tax free, right?? Will chk.
Osho - Nanak
Seek truth first. Do nothing before that. For whatever u do before that is bound to be false. Only one thing is worth doing; recognise truth! Then u may do anything. For once u know truth, it begins to act from within u.
(Sept 9 - Father, I think this could be me what is true for me. What is my destiny and work towards it, never lose focus due to fear of being not good enough)
I think I am not good enough??
Aug 16
Father, Thank U. My shoulder is recovering and today I did all the asanas. Hope tomorrow can do suria namaskara.
Father, my plough back and the lifting leg up is so effortless, thank U.
Also, my body finally accepted the 4.30 am wake up call. Yday, I slept abt 11 pm and woke up around 4 am.
On Sunday, despite the pain on my shoulder, I woke up around 6.15 am, before the alarm. And during evening nap, I put 2 hours and I woke up 15 min earlier, again before the alarm.
Father, noted my arms swell back. Didn't I love myself. But at least, no noticeable effects from d trip to outstation.
Heal Ur life
Tots and words create our future experiences. The words we speak are indicative of our inner tots.
And if the words doesn't match the experiences described, the person are either not in touch with what is really going on or are lying.
1. I should.
2. I could.
Father, I can't recall any 'Should'
Except I should be healed.
The rest shld be could.
I should be eating healthily - nope
I should earn money from all d advices given to people - yes
I should be in r ship - yes
I should be married - yes
I should be appreciative of my life - I am
I should be contented - yes
I should be pursuing my dream to be a Transformation Leader - yes
I should not be afraid - yes
I should have self-mastery by now - yes, but will be a long time
I should have been able to influence people to do meditation - part of me not keen cos I wan to be alone
I should have reduced the size of my arms - yes, but I still have not catch hold of it.
I should be writing more - Yes.
Father, apart from the health, the rest I didn't pursue cos I think I am not good enough.
Father, why I think that?
Outwardly, I think I am better than most? Why inwardly, I still don't think m good enough? Why am I still envious of others? Why why??
Heal Ur life
The Universe totally supports every tot we choose to think and to believe.
When we are little, we learn how to feel about ourselves and about life by the reactions of the adults around us.
Soul
Suddenly tot of me 'begging' for food. Compromising myself for good food, a taste of comfort. Even when I am displeased or not happy, I brushed it aside for the sake of good food.
Father, while I have experienced joy. There is still a part of me that thinks m not good enough for rship, for marriage, for being a transformation leader that get paid well.
Father, how can this be. I tot only that my issue is unlovability. Looks like the real issue is I think m not good enough and hence I become unlovable especially for people I perceive better off than me.
Father, Thank U. My shoulder is recovering and today I did all the asanas. Hope tomorrow can do suria namaskara.
Father, my plough back and the lifting leg up is so effortless, thank U.
Also, my body finally accepted the 4.30 am wake up call. Yday, I slept abt 11 pm and woke up around 4 am.
On Sunday, despite the pain on my shoulder, I woke up around 6.15 am, before the alarm. And during evening nap, I put 2 hours and I woke up 15 min earlier, again before the alarm.
Father, noted my arms swell back. Didn't I love myself. But at least, no noticeable effects from d trip to outstation.
Heal Ur life
Tots and words create our future experiences. The words we speak are indicative of our inner tots.
And if the words doesn't match the experiences described, the person are either not in touch with what is really going on or are lying.
1. I should.
2. I could.
Father, I can't recall any 'Should'
Except I should be healed.
The rest shld be could.
I should be eating healthily - nope
I should earn money from all d advices given to people - yes
I should be in r ship - yes
I should be married - yes
I should be appreciative of my life - I am
I should be contented - yes
I should be pursuing my dream to be a Transformation Leader - yes
I should not be afraid - yes
I should have self-mastery by now - yes, but will be a long time
I should have been able to influence people to do meditation - part of me not keen cos I wan to be alone
I should have reduced the size of my arms - yes, but I still have not catch hold of it.
I should be writing more - Yes.
Father, apart from the health, the rest I didn't pursue cos I think I am not good enough.
Father, why I think that?
Outwardly, I think I am better than most? Why inwardly, I still don't think m good enough? Why am I still envious of others? Why why??
Heal Ur life
The Universe totally supports every tot we choose to think and to believe.
When we are little, we learn how to feel about ourselves and about life by the reactions of the adults around us.
Soul
Suddenly tot of me 'begging' for food. Compromising myself for good food, a taste of comfort. Even when I am displeased or not happy, I brushed it aside for the sake of good food.
Father, while I have experienced joy. There is still a part of me that thinks m not good enough for rship, for marriage, for being a transformation leader that get paid well.
Father, how can this be. I tot only that my issue is unlovability. Looks like the real issue is I think m not good enough and hence I become unlovable especially for people I perceive better off than me.
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