Dec 3
Woke up around 6 am and slept back.
Truly glad that I am blessed to have off days and can sleep later. Had a dream, Y and wife was there too. Can see me looking at Y's wife as Y gave her some writing. Part of me was envious in the dream, the other part knew that we are not right for each other.
Woke up upon alarm at 7.05 am. and feeling thankful again.
This few days, I just feel thankful for what I have now, my off days, my financial security, my shrine.
These two weeks, left hand is swelling and so is left back ankle. Truly need Angamardhana.
Yesterday sat with the Shrine, closer to sannidhi and the energy was awesome.
I just sat and head shakes non stop automatically.
i didn't even have time to 'think', head just went off shaking.
When the shaking stop, went into a deep meditation.
Yesterday evening Shoonya was good too, real deep.
Did guru pooja followed by cat stretch.
It was not effortless and I just focus on slightly deeper breathing.
Surya Kriya was good.
Breathing meditation was lovely.
Shakti was good, I was laughing at the Kapala Bhakti session. Towards the end, laughter and singing. It just flow out. I can't help it.
Shambavi started well with good preparatory steps. Cat stretch was quite effortless.
After the cat stretch my 2 small nephews came in and create ruckus.
So, wasn't able to have my own space. but still laughter happens.
My nephews thought i was hilarious with my head shaking during aum chanting.
Towards the end, a silent contentment...had to end cos my nephews now playing loudly.
Again, feeling thankful that I am out of the rat race.
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Angamardhana for my health
Dec 2
Woke up fresh at 4 am, eventhough slept around 11 pm.
The 20 odd minutes spent sitting with the shrine before sleep was good. Head shaking non stop.
Can see body has expanded especially the thigh without Angamardhana. Water retention also increased.
These last two weeks
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch with nice deep breathe.
Three cycle of Surya kriya was good but feet alignment bit out.
Breathing meditation was nice.
Shakti was bit painful, can't sit the whole session. Had to take one rest, must be due to the increased weight on thigh.
Now I know why I was able to sit whole session. Only started to do so after a few months of Angamardhana and with arrival of Sannidhi. Looks like another reason why I need to start Angarmadhana by this Saturday.
Angamardhana is needed for my health.
Shambavi was good. Sat longer in silent contentment. Feeling so at ease, didn't want to wake up.
Woke up fresh at 4 am, eventhough slept around 11 pm.
The 20 odd minutes spent sitting with the shrine before sleep was good. Head shaking non stop.
Can see body has expanded especially the thigh without Angamardhana. Water retention also increased.
These last two weeks
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch with nice deep breathe.
Three cycle of Surya kriya was good but feet alignment bit out.
Breathing meditation was nice.
Shakti was bit painful, can't sit the whole session. Had to take one rest, must be due to the increased weight on thigh.
Now I know why I was able to sit whole session. Only started to do so after a few months of Angamardhana and with arrival of Sannidhi. Looks like another reason why I need to start Angarmadhana by this Saturday.
Angamardhana is needed for my health.
Shambavi was good. Sat longer in silent contentment. Feeling so at ease, didn't want to wake up.
Benefits of Angamardhana
Nov 30
Woke up at 5 plus am.
Slept back and tot wait for alarm at 6.30 am.
When I woke up from the sunlight, it was 7.05 am.
Checked my phone and noticed that the alarm is not switched on.
Walked in the park. Feels good, the grass and leaves looked so green.
As I walked in the park, tot of yesterday program; of how a quick session of Hata Yoga brings about transformative difference.
Those with initial resistance, just melt away.
Truly feel fulfilled in organising the event.
Motivated to organise more.
Next round will be the media.
Tot of sharing in next Sathsang, asking others to promote too.
Truly opening up myself, coming out in the open for Isha in the corporate.
Finally realised that it was Angamardhana that energise me.
Fat or cellulite coming back after one month of not doing Angamardhana and lymph massage are painful once more.
Time to get back to Angamardhana next week.
My back, lower spine is nearly healed.
This one month of back pain has given me two insights
1) cannot do plough back on its own as it caused my energy to be disjointed
2) Angamardhana not onlye helps my fitness, it helps my lymph nodes, it helps in discharge of toxic (easier to pass motion), it reduces my cellulite and facilitate blood flow.
One month without Angamardhana, more joints problem arise.
My left foot joints is not good.
Glad I had a walk, releases it. But didn't do the staircase as that may aggravate it.
Benefits of Angamardhana
“Angamardhana” means gaining complete mastery over the limbs, organs, and other parts of the body. True to its name, this practice revitalizes the body on all levels including the muscles, circulatory system, skeletal structure, nervous system, and the basic energy system.
Soul
Thats true.
Woke up at 5 plus am.
Slept back and tot wait for alarm at 6.30 am.
When I woke up from the sunlight, it was 7.05 am.
Checked my phone and noticed that the alarm is not switched on.
Walked in the park. Feels good, the grass and leaves looked so green.
As I walked in the park, tot of yesterday program; of how a quick session of Hata Yoga brings about transformative difference.
Those with initial resistance, just melt away.
Truly feel fulfilled in organising the event.
Motivated to organise more.
Next round will be the media.
Tot of sharing in next Sathsang, asking others to promote too.
Truly opening up myself, coming out in the open for Isha in the corporate.
Finally realised that it was Angamardhana that energise me.
Fat or cellulite coming back after one month of not doing Angamardhana and lymph massage are painful once more.
Time to get back to Angamardhana next week.
My back, lower spine is nearly healed.
This one month of back pain has given me two insights
1) cannot do plough back on its own as it caused my energy to be disjointed
2) Angamardhana not onlye helps my fitness, it helps my lymph nodes, it helps in discharge of toxic (easier to pass motion), it reduces my cellulite and facilitate blood flow.
One month without Angamardhana, more joints problem arise.
My left foot joints is not good.
Glad I had a walk, releases it. But didn't do the staircase as that may aggravate it.
Benefits of Angamardhana
“Angamardhana” means gaining complete mastery over the limbs, organs, and other parts of the body. True to its name, this practice revitalizes the body on all levels including the muscles, circulatory system, skeletal structure, nervous system, and the basic energy system.
Soul
Thats true.
Produce yourself (reborn) or children
Nov 29 eve
The secrets of Osho
Through sex, you reproduce more bodies like u. Sex is creative; it gives birth to more children just like u, u reproduce urself.
When ur energy moves through the sahasrar, the seventh chakra, u reproduce urself; that is what resurrection is. That is what meant by Jesus when he says, 'Be reborn'. Then u become mother and father to urself. The meeting of ur sun and moon inside releases ur energy toward the head.
The secrets of Osho
Through sex, you reproduce more bodies like u. Sex is creative; it gives birth to more children just like u, u reproduce urself.
When ur energy moves through the sahasrar, the seventh chakra, u reproduce urself; that is what resurrection is. That is what meant by Jesus when he says, 'Be reborn'. Then u become mother and father to urself. The meeting of ur sun and moon inside releases ur energy toward the head.
Fear of swimming is back
Nov 29
Woke up around 6 am. Slept back cos not time yet. Went into a dream and woke up by alarm. Didn't jump out of bed, just taking my time. Took 5 minutes.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Not normal but deep breathe cos nose is blocked. After cat stretch nose better.
Breathing was good. Wish I can do longer.
Shakti was good cos got back my slow rhythm for Kapala Bhakti.
Shambavi was good especially Cat stretch. Able to do normal breathing and hold much longer.
Went to the pool
Fear of the pool is truly Back. Couldn't even do breast stroke. Had to go back to free style. Can't even do whole lap, got to stop intermittently.
Woke up around 6 am. Slept back cos not time yet. Went into a dream and woke up by alarm. Didn't jump out of bed, just taking my time. Took 5 minutes.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Not normal but deep breathe cos nose is blocked. After cat stretch nose better.
Breathing was good. Wish I can do longer.
Shakti was good cos got back my slow rhythm for Kapala Bhakti.
Shambavi was good especially Cat stretch. Able to do normal breathing and hold much longer.
Went to the pool
Fear of the pool is truly Back. Couldn't even do breast stroke. Had to go back to free style. Can't even do whole lap, got to stop intermittently.
Life is more than me
Nov 28 eve
The secrets of yoga by Osho
That's is the ego's effort, to be self contained. To become absolutely independent of all, that is the ego trip, the ultimate ego trip.
U cannot become self contained. U can become the whole contained but not self contained. How can you divide urself from the universe, separate? U cannot exist even for a single moment.
Only a person who come to realise, "I am not, the whole is", can live moment to moment. The future is not yet there and if this moment the whole has been protecting me, mothering me, helping me, then the whole will take care of tomorrow also. It will take care. And if the whole decides that I m not needed, and I dissolve - perfectly okay, because who am I to object?
This is what a religious man is: a deep surrender, a total surrender to the whole. Then he lives moment to moment. He does not live, he allows God to live through him. He becomes a vehicle. Then one is spiritual.
Drop memory and imagination. Be herenow.
From facebook
https://www.facebook.com/sacredrebellion/posts/377798329055804
Compliments and Criticism.
I've been seeing that when people compliment me I don't feel much any more. I've also been seeing that when I get given feedback from the people I live / work / am friends with, I'm able to hear it without feeling particularly wounded or hurt.
And I've got really curious about the link between these two things.
So here's what I'm thinking. As we grow and develop, the part of us that's not seeking for approval emerges more and more. The part of us that's not buoyed up by being liked or approved of can grow stronger, and this means that we can accept and willingly seek out the learning and how we might do things better.
Because we know it's not about us. We know that life is trying to refine itself, and maybe there's no reason to seek our OK'ness outside of us through other humans.
Life is about something other than us feeling good, getting praise or being told by another human being that we're doing alright. Life is more about truthfulness; whatever it looks like and however it feels, the truth matters more.
Soul
Life is more than me
The secrets of yoga by Osho
That's is the ego's effort, to be self contained. To become absolutely independent of all, that is the ego trip, the ultimate ego trip.
U cannot become self contained. U can become the whole contained but not self contained. How can you divide urself from the universe, separate? U cannot exist even for a single moment.
Only a person who come to realise, "I am not, the whole is", can live moment to moment. The future is not yet there and if this moment the whole has been protecting me, mothering me, helping me, then the whole will take care of tomorrow also. It will take care. And if the whole decides that I m not needed, and I dissolve - perfectly okay, because who am I to object?
This is what a religious man is: a deep surrender, a total surrender to the whole. Then he lives moment to moment. He does not live, he allows God to live through him. He becomes a vehicle. Then one is spiritual.
Drop memory and imagination. Be herenow.
From facebook
https://www.facebook.com/sacredrebellion/posts/377798329055804
Compliments and Criticism.
I've been seeing that when people compliment me I don't feel much any more. I've also been seeing that when I get given feedback from the people I live / work / am friends with, I'm able to hear it without feeling particularly wounded or hurt.
And I've got really curious about the link between these two things.
So here's what I'm thinking. As we grow and develop, the part of us that's not seeking for approval emerges more and more. The part of us that's not buoyed up by being liked or approved of can grow stronger, and this means that we can accept and willingly seek out the learning and how we might do things better.
Because we know it's not about us. We know that life is trying to refine itself, and maybe there's no reason to seek our OK'ness outside of us through other humans.
Life is about something other than us feeling good, getting praise or being told by another human being that we're doing alright. Life is more about truthfulness; whatever it looks like and however it feels, the truth matters more.
Soul
Life is more than me
Osho tarot cards still true
Nov 28 aft
This week Osho tarot
1. The Issue
Receptivity
When you listen, you become just a passage, a passivity, a receptivity, a womb: you become feminine. And to arrive one has to become feminine. You cannot reach God as aggressive invaders, conquerors. You can reach God only...or it will be better to say God can reach you only when you are receptive, a feminine receptivity. When you become yin, a receptivity, the door is open - and you wait. Listening is the art for becoming passive.
2. Internal Influences
Letting Go
To choose this card is a recognition that something is finished, something is completing. Whatever it is--a job, a relationship, a home you have loved, anything that might have helped you to define who you are--it is time to let go of it, allowing any sadness but not trying to hold on. Something greater is awaiting you, new dimensions are there to be discovered. You are past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work. Go with it--it represents liberation.
3. External influences that you are aware
Flowering
The Queen of Rainbows is like a fantastic plant that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. She is very sexual, very alive, and full of possibilities. She snaps her fingers to the music of love, and her zodiac necklace is placed in a way that Venus lies over her heart. The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. She is not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks - she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love. Flowers fall on her from above, in harmony with her own flowering, and the waters of emotion swirl playfully beneath the flower on which she sits. You might feel like a garden of flowers right now, showered with blessings from everywhere. Welcome the bees, invite the birds to drink your nectar. Spread your joy around for all to share.
4. Whats needed for resolution?
Slowing Down
Talking or silent, moving, unmoving, the essence is at ease. The essence is at ease: that is the key word. The essence is at ease: that is the key statement. Do whatsoever you are doing, but at the deepest core remain at ease, cool, calm, centered.
The Knight of Rainbows is a reminder that, just like this tortoise, we carry our home with us wherever we go. There is no need to hurry, no need to seek shelter elsewhere. Even as we move into the depths of the emotional waters, we can remain self-contained and free from attachments. It is a time when you are ready to let go of any expectations you have had about yourself or other people, and to take responsibility for any illusions you might have been carrying. There is no need to do anything but rest in the fullness of who you are right now. If desires and hopes and dreams are fading away, so much the better. Their disappearance is making space for a new quality of stillness and acceptance of what is, and you are able to welcome this development in a way you have never been able to before. Savor this quality of slowing down, of coming to rest and recognizing that you are already at home.
Soul
Amen
5.1. Resolution
Abundance
Zorba the Buddha" who can drink wine, dance on the beach and sing in the rain, and at the same time enjoy the depths of understanding and wisdom that belong to the sage. In one hand he holds a lotus, showing that he respects and contains within himself the grace of the feminine. His exposed chest (an open heart) and relaxed belly show that he is at home with his masculinity as well, utterly self-contained. The four elements of earth, fire, water and sky all conjunct at the King of Rainbows who sits atop the book of the wisdom of life.
If you are a woman, the King of Rainbows brings the support of your own male energies into your life, a union with the soul mate within.
This week Osho tarot
1. The Issue
Receptivity
When you listen, you become just a passage, a passivity, a receptivity, a womb: you become feminine. And to arrive one has to become feminine. You cannot reach God as aggressive invaders, conquerors. You can reach God only...or it will be better to say God can reach you only when you are receptive, a feminine receptivity. When you become yin, a receptivity, the door is open - and you wait. Listening is the art for becoming passive.
2. Internal Influences
Letting Go
To choose this card is a recognition that something is finished, something is completing. Whatever it is--a job, a relationship, a home you have loved, anything that might have helped you to define who you are--it is time to let go of it, allowing any sadness but not trying to hold on. Something greater is awaiting you, new dimensions are there to be discovered. You are past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work. Go with it--it represents liberation.
3. External influences that you are aware
Flowering
The Queen of Rainbows is like a fantastic plant that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. She is very sexual, very alive, and full of possibilities. She snaps her fingers to the music of love, and her zodiac necklace is placed in a way that Venus lies over her heart. The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. She is not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks - she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love. Flowers fall on her from above, in harmony with her own flowering, and the waters of emotion swirl playfully beneath the flower on which she sits. You might feel like a garden of flowers right now, showered with blessings from everywhere. Welcome the bees, invite the birds to drink your nectar. Spread your joy around for all to share.
4. Whats needed for resolution?
Slowing Down
Talking or silent, moving, unmoving, the essence is at ease. The essence is at ease: that is the key word. The essence is at ease: that is the key statement. Do whatsoever you are doing, but at the deepest core remain at ease, cool, calm, centered.
The Knight of Rainbows is a reminder that, just like this tortoise, we carry our home with us wherever we go. There is no need to hurry, no need to seek shelter elsewhere. Even as we move into the depths of the emotional waters, we can remain self-contained and free from attachments. It is a time when you are ready to let go of any expectations you have had about yourself or other people, and to take responsibility for any illusions you might have been carrying. There is no need to do anything but rest in the fullness of who you are right now. If desires and hopes and dreams are fading away, so much the better. Their disappearance is making space for a new quality of stillness and acceptance of what is, and you are able to welcome this development in a way you have never been able to before. Savor this quality of slowing down, of coming to rest and recognizing that you are already at home.
Soul
Amen
5.1. Resolution
Abundance
Zorba the Buddha" who can drink wine, dance on the beach and sing in the rain, and at the same time enjoy the depths of understanding and wisdom that belong to the sage. In one hand he holds a lotus, showing that he respects and contains within himself the grace of the feminine. His exposed chest (an open heart) and relaxed belly show that he is at home with his masculinity as well, utterly self-contained. The four elements of earth, fire, water and sky all conjunct at the King of Rainbows who sits atop the book of the wisdom of life.
If you are a woman, the King of Rainbows brings the support of your own male energies into your life, a union with the soul mate within.
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