Facing my money issue..feeling lack

May 20
Woke up intermittently yesterday coughing and nose blocked.
Woke up in the morning upon alarm at 7 am. Body is good but I slept back cos no plan to do Hata Yoga.
Must be because of Sannidhi...the energy helps.
Now at cafe, after another batch of antibiotic.

Did Bhuta Shuddi.
As I start on Bhuta, suddenly tot of the former office unreasonableness come in, defensive tots arises. It went on and on..In the end I told myself not worth it and it stop.
Besides today I m not feeling well, so no the right time to act.

Shakti was quite good despite stopping a few times for phelgm and cough.
There were some tots of housekeeping costs. Family to share in it and etc.

Shambavi..contented silence..followed by mouth 'exercise'.  Recently the mouth seems to move on its own.


This week Osho.
1.          The Issue
Inner Voice
There are times in our lives when too many voices seem to be pulling us this way and that. Our very confusion in such situations is a reminder to seek silence and centering within. Only then are we able to hear our truth.

soul
True..the office matter still not settled..
The condo is settling soon...so at least I have my peace..but then tots of expenditure comes in.
I am reminding myself to keep cool and to tell myself I truly have the money.
Yes..I am keeping 2 house..but at least I don't plan to pay the monthly 500 now that I am paying for the house expenses.
Also going forward..I don't see myself coming back for dinner.
I normally have dinner after my sadhana...so lets see..
I actually prefer light sandwiches..or even fruits.
Will need a smart TV. Most likely won't take the local paid broadcast TV but do online TV instead like my sisters.
Yea..too many voices...

2. Internal Influences that you are unable to see

Ordinariness
You are facing a time now when this easy, natural and utterly ordinary approach to the situations you encounter will bring far better results than any attempt on your part to be brilliant, clever, or otherwise extra-ordinary. Forget all about making headlines by inventing the latest widget, or dazzling your friends and colleagues with your unique star quality. The special gift you have to offer now is presented best by just taking things easily and simply, one step at a time.


Soul
Good la..


3. 3. External influences that you are aware
Past lives
This is a wake-up call; the events in your life are trying to show you a pattern as ancient as the journey of your own soul.

Soul
Not sure..but at least I am sick as I was back in 2012.

4. Whats needed for resolution?
Laziness
This gentleman clearly thinks he's got it made. He sits in his big over-stuffed chair, wearing his sunglasses, shaded by his umbrella, with his pink slippers and his piña colada in his hand. He doesn't have the energy to get up and do anything because he thinks he's done it already. He hasn't yet turned to see the mirror cracking around him on his right, a sure sign that the place he thinks he's finally arrived at is about to shatter and dissolve before his very eyes. The message this card brings is that this poolside resort is not your final destination. The journey isn't over yet, as that white bird flying into the vastness of the sky is trying to show. Your complacency might have arisen from a real sense of achievement, but now it's time to move on. No matter how fuzzy the slippers, how tasty the piña colada, there are skies upon skies still waiting to be explored.

Soul
Not sure...
Yesterday boss message about us taking over sister company financials..not sure if it is true..
So many things in dilemma..


5. Resolution
Creativity
 From the alchemy of fire and water below to the divine light entering from above, the figure in this card is literally 'possessed by' the creative force. Really, the experience of creativity is an entry into the mysterious. Technique, expertise and knowledge are just tools; the key is to abandon oneself to the energy that fuels the birth of all things. 

This energy has no form or structure, yet all the forms and structures come out of it. It makes no difference what particular form your creativity takes - it can be painting or singing, planting a garden or making a meal. The important thing is to be open to what wants to be expressed through you. Remember that we don't possess our creations; they do not belong to us. True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.

Soul
Despite me being sick...at least I tot about the Isha volunteering..corporate reachout...