Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Slowly but surely releasing need for validation

May 22

Today woke up at 7 am...mind said sleep more..but I don't want to.
I really want to do hata yoga.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Yogaasana.
Yogaasana was quite okay despite complete halt in Hata Yoga for the past one week.
My back is nearly healed..on the two leg up posture, I just did 15 breathe count. Others I can easily do 40 breathe count.
61 points awareness meditation, it was good..i am in awareness mode.
My nose still 'bleed' from too much sneezing, can't go for swimming. Will go Angamardhana tomorrow.

Breathing was nice..but couldn't sit long cos got to go income tax today. Want to see if I got any real money left.

Shakti is okay..still keeping to slow Kapala Bhakti..After Kapala Bhakti, mouth exercises happen again
I just tot it was okay..so was surprised that I was laughing.

Shambavi was good..immediately after removal of Bhanda lock, the mouth exercise begins. Then stillness.
I am no longer afraid..guess this mouth movement will happen for awhile..
In the closing invocation, the funny voice came.

It was during Shakti that I realised I was holding on to validation. Hence i know I will not. I am certain of my values..and validation is no longer one of them.
I can let go.
With that I quickly called my good friend and told her that media volunteer be contacting her instead as I am only in interaction.

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