Finally closing chapter on Z

May 23
Chapter closed on Z.

Osho
Be more alert, aware, receptive and u will come to know immense mysteries surrounding u.
When one feels surrounded by mysteries, a deep gratefulness arises in the heart. The gratefulness is the only authentic prayer.

Soul
Exactly. That's why I said to my Shrine. I m happy. Let me be happy for Z and wife. Just as I m happy for C's long awaited marriage.

I also just learned to be happy for my friends in Isha core team. Let me be happy with their path. Let me not be envious. I always tot they won't let me be. Now I realised subconsciously I don't let them be. Rather I was fearful of our different path. 
It took me a long while but I think can finally understood Seven of Hearts.

Evening
Alas chapter closed on Z. Went to visit his house.
At first I was a bit shy and avoided his eyes when we chat.
Later I gather my courage, open up, see him in in the eye and can see that he is not what I want.
He has become fatter.
In his house There were no recollection of the past experience. I can be in his house like a normal guest. Had dinner in his house. House nicely renovated and decorated; much better than his old decor. I m happy for him.
There is no longer envious feeling of people with good looking accommodation since I be having my own nice condo in August.
I am able to see them both as good looking couple who is meant for each other.