A new beginning

Jul 10
Today Shambavi after the yoga session was great. I can now do Suria Namaskara with awareness. I was laughing loads.
After Shambavi, laughter came loads and then tears come. I cried for thankfulness.

Today is my third day and still on salad. Somehow the rest of Indian food is not good. But I had a nice western dessert yesterday. Had three servings.

Was on my therapy and tots of Z came. He was my first lover and he is not the last. As I was thinking what I was envious of, is actually the physical bonding. I m not envious of the traditional family style and his financials focusing on capital commitment.
Yea, true we met. But I have grown and he has not. So, the break up is imminent. Instead of judging him for his lack of communication. I should be thankful instead. Father, alas happy tots are coming.
This is a new beginning for me.

Dhynalinga is an eye opening. Even outside the hall, I can go into meditative mode, without any focus. It just came. When I m in, I know I went in deep. Amen. Today for the first time I bought a light of lamp for Dhynalinga.

Afternoon
It was cold and I tot of skipping Teetakhoon. But I went and it was freezing. There was an old lady who swam there and I tot I should at least last as long as her. We stayed nearly ten minutes.
Then I went into Dhynalinga and just sitting outside, I fell into meditation mode. I went in and just open up and look at Dhynalinga lovingly. I felt loving energy from IT. So peaceful and then I close eyes and went into meditation. I plan to stay for one ring but alas stayed two rings. Feeling so good don't want to wake up.