Tuesday, July 30, 2013

My world is shinning again

Jul 21
I had a good sleep. Woke up 6.45 am for walk in the park. My first tot I m finally freed. The sunlight is shinning once again.

The first round of walk was not easy I found myself stretching. Then second round I suddenly recalled to savour my aloneness, i become happy and the walk become easy again.

Finally looking at my this week Osho card.
1. Postponement.
The woman in this picture is living in gray landscape, full of unreal, cut out clouds. Through the window frame, she can see colours and light and aliveness and although she would like to move through the frame - as we can see by the rainbow colours appearing in her garment - she can't quite manage to do it. There is still too much "what if" activity in her mind. The one and only result of postponing things is a dull and depressing feelings of incompletion and stuck-ness. The relief and expansiveness u will feel once u put aside all the dithering tots that are preventing u from acting now will make u wonder why u waited so long.

Soul
Yea, a small part of me still holding on to Z.
Anyway, its done.  Yesterday Osho on Gautama and Yashodhara helps to give me the final closure. I can now move on and thankful that Z got married so fast and hence accelerated closure. I m also thankful that I received many 'helps'.

2. Internal influence
Consciousness
Consciousness shows a vast Buddha figures. His head is pure emptiness. He represents the consciousness that is available to all who become a master of the mind and can use it as the servant it is meant to be. When u choose this card, it means that there is crystal clarity. The understanding u have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself.

Soul
Guess thats my dream, Self Mastery is actually Mastery over the mind.
Amen. 

3. External influence
We are the world.
When u celebrate, the whole existence participates with u. Only in celebration do we go beyond the circle of birth and death.
When we combine our tremendous inner wealth to create a treasure of love and wisdom that is available to all, we are linked together in the exquisite pattern of eternal creation.

Soul
Me doing volunteering for myself.
Me savouring and celebrating my aloneness. Me changing my attention to what I gained instead of what I lost.
Me focusing on my website and had an idea of guiding others to use the website.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Control
The image of King of Clouds reminds us to take a deep breathe, loosen our neckties and take it easy. There is much more to life than to be on top of things. 

5. Resolution
Innocence
The innocence that comes from a deep experience of life is childlike, but not childish. The innocence of children is beautiful but ignorant. It will be replaced by mistrust and doubt as the child grows and learns that the world can be dangerous and threatening place. But the innocence of a life lived fully has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life.

Soul
Amen. I truly experienced Z till the very last moment.
Now its over.

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