Ardhasidharna - silence my mind

Jul 14
Just came back from a long walk at the lake.
Flashes of Z being married flash my mind but hurt no longer there.
I have decided that my mind is mine to use. If not needed, need switch it on. It is operating on compulsive past.

I just want to go being the new me, Joy. My new name is truly engrained and everyone says that it suits me so well.

And I found a new tool to silence my compulsive mind; to sit in ardhasidharna. I have bought the mat also. Somehow with the spine comfortably erect; it keep my mind silence.

A silence in my mind. This trip affirms my new name; new me.  Everyone said my name Joy is so me.
The old uncle said I m blessed as I found my bliss body. He said I m now nearer to enlightenment. I laughed when I heard that. Today teacher/swami said I laughed because I experience my bliss body. These moments of bliss will come more often once I keep my sadhana.
I m glad I have taken meat out of my diet.

Evening
Just got back from dinner. I met another swami and I got to ask my question on ardhasidharna. I told swami that i suddenly experienced an ease sitting in ardhasidharna. I have been doing my practices for years and yet this is the first time I find such an ease. I also shared I have recently done Surya kriya and change of diet. He said the ease can only be experienced when I m doing my practices well.
He asked me to sit ardhasidharna with yoga mudra and do breathe meditation after Surya Kriya.
Father, thank you. I asked for answers and U send ur messenger.

Linga Bhairavi also called out to me. Suddenly the lady who guided me on aura cleansing saw me. She sat with me. We spoke a bit on our experience on Linga. She then shared that its great to be at the temple at 6.25 am. Linga is calling out to me.