Pain goes off when we are conscious

Jul 2 aft
Bit of tots Z came in. I just accept the facticity of loss. I have truly done all I could. At least there was no regrets on my part.
Just have to sit this tide of sadness over.

Father, now reading my dream of Self Mastery. I m a seeker cos I don't want my subconscious to lead my life. I am just a seeker of MySelf.
I m not seeking for certainty. I m just seeking to know all my subconscious in order I can lead my life consciously.
So need not feel judged when L said I m insecure and need certainty. True to a certain extent. But that fear brought me so far and that seeking is part of my destiny.

The Power of Now

Your first chance is to surrender each moment to the reality of that moment. Knowing that what is cannot be undone - because it already is - you say yes to what is or accept what isn't.
Then you do what you have to do, whatever the situation requires. If you abide in this state of acceptance, you create no more negativity, no more suffering, no more unhappiness. You then live in a state of non-resistance, a state of grace and lightness, free of struggle.

Whenever you are unable to do so, either becos you are not generating enough conscious presence to prevent some habitual or unconscious resistance or because the conditions is so extreme as to be absolutely unacceptable to you - then you are creating some form of pain, suffering.
It may look as if the situation is creating the suffering, but ultimately this is not so - your resistance is.

Now here is your second chance at surrender. If you cannot accept what is outside, then accept what is inside.
If you cannot accept the external condition, accept the internal condition.
This means; Do not resist the pain. Allow it to be there. Surrender to the grief, despair, fear, loneliness or whatever form the suffering takes.
Embrace it.
When there is no way out, there is still always a way through. So don't turn away from the pain. Feel it fully.
Then see how the miracle of surrender transmutes deep suffering into deep peace.
This is your crucifixion. Let it become your resurrection and ascension

Soul
Thanks..I am here Now

The Power of Now
Give your attention to the feeling, not to the person, event or situation that seems to have caused it. Don't let the mind use the pain to create a victim identity for yourself out of it.
Feeling sorry for yourself and telling others your story will keep you stuck in suffering.
Since it is impossible to get away from the feeling, the only possibility of change is to move into it, otherwise nothing will change.
Refrain from labelling it.
At first when you go into the feeling, be intensely alert. At first, it may seem like a dark and terrifying place, but when the urge to turn away from it comes, observe it but don't act on it.
just keep putting your attention on the pain, grief, fear, the dread, loneliness, whatever it is.
Stay alert, stay present - present with your whole Being, with every cell of your body.
As you do so, you are bringing light into this darkness. This is the flame of your consciousness.


Soul
Thats why I went for win win situation.
I now realised thats the reason why I reacted so when S called me
She was enacting her own drama...and I know I did too..
That's why I can't bear listening to her drama. How can I; when I need energy to stop my own drama. That's why I snapped.
Anyway, her call was a msg for me to snapped out of my victim mode drama.