Letting go of my mind is letting go of myself

Jul 17 eve
It's been a good day. Had a nice lunch followed by coffee and dessert.
Very little tots of Z. He seems far away now. That's a great improvement.
V said my new revamped website; joyong.org looks great but just new logo. He will do one for me.
A checked out my new website and said my blog is attached; I finally open up all. I told him yes; no more hiding. Honestly the outcome I was worried is mainly about people knowing about my blog rather than it being not popular.
I now recalled my 7 years Ruling card's Pluto card, King of Spades. Just doing my thing and not let the fear of outcome deter me.

I had a deep Shoonya just now. Try to do Samyama with ardasidhana but not easy. It took me awhile to get into it. Guess the ashram's energy helps me to flow into it. Anyway, I will persevere. Now sitting on the meditation mat I bought from ashram. Truly not easy.

Osho - Krishna
If the whole existence can go without me, why cannot I go without me?
U are only an instrument in the hands of existence, nothing more. Let it do what it wants to be done through u and let go of urself.

Soul
When I read this, message I received is Why can't I let go of my mind? My mind was myself. So letting go of my mind is letting go of myself.