King of Spades - mastery over work

Jul 16 aft
Woke up late since I slept around 3 am yesterday.

Took a nearly cold shower. Will now aim for cold shower as advised by Sadhguru. And it is true, wetting the head actually makes it less cold.
I couldn't do hata yoga cos didn't have the mat.
So just did Shambavi. Did the preparatory steps as per Swami's instruction. Truly rock baby is to be done slowly so that the other leg doesn't shift and we can stretch our spine.
Sitting in the proper ardasidhana posture while doing Suka kriya and finale brought an ease. I can feel my spine. While I was doing aum chanting, suddenly I cried due to sadness over Z. Then I just keep repeating I love myself and body settled. In the finale, such ease. Wish I could sit much longer. Amen.

I m fine to allow the remnant of sadness over Z to be expressed. Just like Linga Bhairavi is there to enable us to express our mental drama, I too must allow it. Feelings expressed will be dissolved.

Father, now updating Blog and  read that I have 3 King of Spades. They all can work. Me don't want to work.
I recalled I had King of Spades last year and also for Pluto in Destiny for 7 years till age 48.
7 years period for Destiny (age 42 to 48)

Long Range
Queen of Spade
Self Mastery

Pluto
King of Spades (master of his work and of himself)
To accomplish a sense of mastery in ur life, perhaps even a leadership position in ur chosen line of work
U have to be a master in things u do.
U have to care more for how well the job gets done than how u will be getting paid or what the final result of ur work going to be.

Affirmation
I develop true power and authority in my life by being willing to master all that I do and take full responsibility for my own successes and failures.

Soul
I did judged them...I wonder how could they be so hard working. Why want to work hard? Alas, I am on the lazy end. They truly don't mind the work. Even my staff, who not so King at work, but definitely at home. Even followed children for their classes.
Guess they are here to remind me that my path of Self Mastery can only be achieved via overcoming my King of Spades.

 Jul 16 eve
Father, feeling bit quiet.
Did my evening walk earlier and it was quite effortless. Good release of energy.

Just now Shoonya was good. I went in deep. Did my Samyama sitting in ardasidhana. Couldn't get the right posture on meditation mat. In the end just sit on the cloth carpet floor and it felt perfectly at ease.