Saturday, December 19, 2009

Mind..still shitty...but no longer in control :)

Nov 23
Father, my mind, in the quest for looking for my husband, keep on looking out everytime. Even when I m not even attracted to the guy, it will start to visualise.
Father, I don't need this. This is my weakness showing and I m judging myself. Let me not be engulfed again. It was d mind incessant need that had me conned even when I was not really attracted to d guy.
It was so illogical that I can even felt the slightest remote disappointment that d guy is married. I guess this is coming from the feeling of lack that all guys r taken. Why can't there be guys like me, successful, smart, financially independent n now looking for marriage, jus like me.
In matters of my husband, let my feeling be the guide, let my heart rule instead of my mind.
Mind - be quiet, let go on this. The mission is meant for the feeling. You can come in once feeling is in place but not before.
So, again a classic case of mind overriding all.
Remember, at least today my body stirred when I heard d guy at Kino. I am a voice gal first n face 2nd.
Father, at first want to say m scared but now I realised its just my mind working overtime that's all.

Jus now Teacher suddenly jump up wit joy. A fellow meditator said she is in bliss. For a moment, I compared my joy to her bliss. Then I shrug it off. I m not there n perhaps m not willing yet.

The secret of the Ages
Law of supply
First have something good - then advertise.
First have something that the world needs even if it be only faithful, interested service - then open up ur channels of desire, and dollars will flow to u.
And remember the more u hav to offer - the more of riches will flow to u.

Soul
Suddenly tot if I had actually advertise myself well. Nope.

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