My passion translate into a chaneg of Career for me

Dec 28
Today, didn't feel like doing meditation. I was surprised. Why? Then I recall d Bhagavad Gita. Ego gets strong whenever m goin to the next level. Thank God for samyama. Or perhaps too many days holiday n I ddint hav to wake up early. Anyway, did suria namaskara and shakti n followed by surka kriya. I think I jus barely touch d connection wit Universe, but at least I preservere.
Saw a gal reading Mitch. There is a market for my Self Help book. Look at this way, I faced my demotivation period.
This mornin while meditation, a tot came to me, if past lives, I marry for money n didn't believe in love. This life I hav to make money on my own n have to create love on my own too. And once created, it become real love.

Bhagavad Gita
A person is born wit either a spiritual or a material ego predominating, according to his actions in past.
The psychological unlces are the intoxicating delusion-creating tendencies of attachment to the senses, to material objects, and so forth; and false pride, with its narrow mindedness that tries to disuade the devotee from giving up social position, and from bearing criticism from others for 'foolishly' following the path to God. Such 'uncles' are almost fatherly in their power because they wield vast control over the human consciousness.

Soul - tell me abt it. I can't say m following path to God. I am jus following my Passion n its jus happens to be God-related. Me quitting n then doing part time, loss of excess income especially since I don't have to pay d bank back. Can use money for reno n etc, I guess this material. Anyway, becos I m not gift related, so its ok. But I faced criticism from outside cos my Passion is viewed as whimsical. Anyway, I hav already brushed off my aunt n mom on their objections.

Bhagavad Gita
Until one is WHOLLY under the influence of the independent wisdom of the soul, almost all that he is and does is a result of habit, or conditioning.
If one is bound my ego, conditioned to respond in a materialistic way to his senses, if his tots n action are under compulsion (reaction), his will is bound by karma.
The aspiring devotee reconditions his consciousness with the cultivation of spiritual qualities until these predominate as his natural habits, the aggregate of his nature. The good habits, having then fulfilled their purpose, willingly surrender their rights to the wisdom reign of the soul.

Soul - the good thing is d resistant tots comes in slow motion n d motivating tot also follow n hence I can exercise my free will to act instead of react. So, instead of judging myself still hav resistant after coming this far. At least give myself a pat on my back for able slow down my wheel of tots to enable free will to be actiioned upon.

And this is the base of self-transformation. Without d mind tots slowing down, free will can't be activated. Without free will, we will be in reaction/auto mode doing old habits/conditioning (old personality) n hence no transformation (new personality)
Father, I do hav the attributes of Self-Help Guru. I am able to decipher old words of wisdom n experience n translate it to layman.

Bhagavad Gita
Meditation is the inner war drum that rouses these good and bad habits from a long slumber of indifference and make each side willing to increase its forces in order to obtain full victory over a man's consciousnness.
When one is passively under the influence of bad habits - his materialistic nature - he does not find any noticeable resistance from his innate good habits - his soul qualities.
It is only when the devotee actively tries to cultivate good habits - concentration, calmness, peace - and marches them as soldiers toward the kingdom of soul, that fierce resistance is stirred up from bad habits - ficklessness, restlessness, disquitude.
The enthusiastic spiritual beginner, in the heat of his zeal, does not realise the power of resistance possessed by bad habits. Nor do the bad habits notice, at first, the silent invasion of good habits. It is only when the devotee "means business" and makes repeated struggles to establish the generals of good habits in the kingdom of consciousness that the general of bad habits become alarmed and make furious attempts to outs the "intruders".
Thus it was wit Arjuna (self-control of the devotee). After he had been placed by Krishna (soul perception) between the two armies of good discrimination and bad sense tendencies, Arjuna looks at the array with awe, for the members of both armies are his own dear relatives, his self-created good and bad habits.
In spite of growing power of discrimination behind the army of good habits, self control will find it hard, and often distressing, to destroy the dear old familial bad habits.

Soul - how can this be?? This mornin reading answer my question this morning. Now d guidance from God is almost immediate. Amen.
Until now, d spiritual journey is done to me. I jus fell n flow wit it. I didn't actively look for it nor change my personailty cos its spiritual predominated. For the first time, I am actively transforming n I find ego comin up out of nowhere. And I hav to used my self control to enforce. The blessing is that the ego tots come in continuous mode/ forms n hence slow n good tot comes in one or two line n can follow thru
I jus realised, at least 3 to 5 negativ tot, followed by 1 positiv tot. If one has reacted too fast, its on egoic mode. D positiv tot normally comes out last.

7 thunder card for today - 5 of Hearts
- separation from my ego
- separation from my personality
- separation from my current career
Meeting new people, telling others about what u r doing and who u are. You can make important contacts when this card is present.

Soul - the FD jus left. Amazingly, she studied to be a life coach n I hav helped her out in her issue at office.
I shared wit her abt my Passion. I ask her wld she google the website. She said nope, cos her issue is personal - no direct answer. Besides she need to be comfortable wit d person before she can share
I told her abt d website n also tot of Befriender (which m not sure)
She says I need to frame out what are my services by writing my Profile n she will see if she can buy it.
I also share wit her that I hav not start anything yet, tot of doing only in April once I go part time. I told her that's what I do when I change job.
She says m now having a career change n not jus job change n hence I need to work out on what is my target market.
I told her that only last week I realised its a career change.
We talked abt a counselling diploma. She said take it more for 'marketing' purpose.
She shared abt another colleague not hav any practice on hair styling. The colleague is 40 years old, quit his job, pay lots of money to do a 6 mths course to learn hair styling.
I said m so humbled, the colleague that used to irritate me for lack of 'services' has such courage n it motivates me.
Unlike this overseas colleague, I already know I have the skill. I only now need to market it.
So, website may not be so appropriate yet. Just use my blog first n FD said to market my services by word of mouth. Perhaps she can market my services
She said m between Career coach n Life Coach n my target is cateer people.
She said m friendly, approachable n she felt I be great in my career.
She also shared her brother changin from mass comm to be a teacher.
She too wanted to do biz, but unfortunately all takes cash.
When she was talkin abt her children n husband, I felt the envy came up. Then I jus focus on her beauty n envy dissolves.
And I shared abt me.
Amazing.

Evening
Father, jus now I felt bit of connection durin meditation. Where is d joy? I now need to connect more than ever n it seems d ego is strong.
Looking at Sadghuru, so blissful.
The limited and the limitless
Where is the line, unless u draw one.
The illusion of the limited is the source of longing and painm
A taste of the unlimited leaves u drenched in divine bliss
Makes the pleasure and pain of life sweeter by the million.