Take the 1st step and ur mind will mobilise all its forces to ur aid

Nov 30 Afternoon

Mmm, don't hav to stay at hotel in outstation. Can stay at ex-staff's house n that's great. Father, so many things r in place. I m so blessed.
Yeap, that's how I felt, truly blessed. Its like my path is garland with flowers n everything is smooth.
Jus chk the schedule - wil hav a chance to experience the Maherishi event. Since I arrive midnite, wil be awake till the morning. A good thing, something unexpected. We'll, at least can share the experience. Father, thanks for ur blessing.

Osho
1. Issue - Nothingness
Nothingness to nothingness is the whole journey. Why, in the middle, becoming so worried, so anxious, so ambitious - why create such despair.
Being in the gap can be disorienting and even scary cos nothing to hold on, no sense of direction, not even a hint of what choices and possibilities might be ahead.
Something sacred is to be borne.

Soul - mmm, I was feelin this. I know my leaving my past, but not sure what's d future n now feeling in limbo. Not in control. While I know what's my path, going there is the issue cos way out of my league n also no idea on the outcome - very high risk
Suddenly an answer, high risk high return.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Guidance
Once u have awaken ur intrinsic buddha, ur life will shower blessings, benediction, so radiant wit good, godliness, more than u can possibly conceive.
However we may sometimes be reluctant to trust this guide when it comes to us, because we so used to takin our cues from the outside than from the inside.
This card tells u that u can trust the inner guidance you r being given. In following the inner guide, u will feel more whole, more integrated, as if u r moving outwards from the center of ur being.
If u go with it, this beam of light will carry u exactly where u need to go.

Soul - thanks for the affirmation. Like I said I hesitated, worried cos its way out of my league. Something that I couild only dream out n my control antenna is being triggered.

3. External influence that u r aware
Possibilities
Don't be content easily. Those who remain content easily remain small. The smallness is ur own imposition upon ur freedom, ur unlimited possibilities, ur unlimited potential.
The eagle flying effortlessly through the sky, very grand and self-contained. This card indicates that u r at a point where a world of possibilities is open to u.
Because u r in tune wit ur own nature, u understand that existence is providing u wit exactly what u need.

Soul - my tot - Everything is possible. Also reminder that there are millions of channel n I need not be in control. Like I said its out of my league, let Universe direct. Like meditation n isha yoga - amazing experience, I was guided like a baby n d experience was tremendous despite my baby steps. Amazing, astounding year.

4. What is needed for resolution.
New Vision
The figure in this card is being born anew, emerging from his earthbound roots and growing wings to fly into the unbounded.
Ur inner being, when it opens, firstly experiences 2 dimensions, the height and depth. And then slowly, slowly, as this become ur established situation, u start looking around, spreading into other part.
The human being contains both the manifest and unmanifest
Now u r presented wit an opportunity to see life in all its dimensions, from the depths to the heights.

Soul - not sure what this signify except maybe sharing Me.
Everything is now possible. My past result has no bearing on my present.

5. Resolution - the understanding
The miser - expansion and sharing
Ur target is an open being, so don't cling on.
Like a well that is sealed up and become stagnant from disuse, our treasures become tarnished and worthless if we refuse to share them.
Whatever u r holding on, remember u can't take it wit u.
Loosen ur grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.
　
Evenin
Father, my ego stil playin tot of CEO threatening me out of d blue n then later call up to say thank u. Tot of PA n what she must have faced. M happy that she got a severance payout as it will leave her good for sometime n she can find other not so challenging boss.
Tot of shld I advise CEO not to reinstate d pay for d director cos otherwise rock the equilibrium again. Aiyah again thinkin it be good she leave, then perhaps part of my projection, its better if I can leave. Well, she is staying put for the next 2 yrs, so jus be here. As for me, focus on d Passion and not the running.
Jus now while meditating, tot of using Facebook to organise a group of people that writes, think n share - jus like Benjamin Franklin. His approach on communication is like mine. Or perhaps I shld say like my 1st love.
I was supposed to reach this book sometimes in late 2000 and then in 2005, but somehow I didn't read it n it came now, jus when m exploring all possibilities.
Mmm, since I cannot get pay increment, can I get to work 4 days a week then.

The secret of the ages
Open the channels between ur mind and Universal Mind and there is no limit to the riches that will come pouring in.
Concentrate ur tots on the particular thing u r most interested in, and ideas in abundance wil come flooding down, opening a dozen ways of winning the goal u r striving for.

Soul - jus like my Osho card
　
The secret of ages
Don't let one success - no matter how great - satisfy u. The Law of Creation, u know, is the Law of Growth. You can't stand still, u must go forward. Seek new worlds to conquer.
Success or failure is merely a state of mind.
Believe u cannot do a thing - and you can't.
Know that u can do it - and u will.
You must see urself doing it.
It is absolutely necessary for every man to believe in himself, before he can make the most of himself.
All of us have something to sell. It may be our goods, it may be our abilities, it may be our services. You hav to believe in urself to make ur buyer take stock in u at par and accrued interest.
For ur mind to function, u have to be charged wit good cheer and optimism. No one ever did a good piece of work while in negative frame of mind. Your best work is always done when u r feeling happy and optimistic.
A happy disposition is the result - not the cause of happy, cheery thinking.
Health and prosperity are the results primarily of optimistic thinking.

Soul - while m happy, m not positive especially abt my rship.

The secret of ages
The richness of life is within you.
No one has failed so long as he can begin again. Start right in and do all those things u feel u have it in u to do. Ask permission of no man.
Take the first step and ur mind will mobilise all its forces to ur aid.
But the first essential is that u begin.
Once the battle is started, all that is within and without will come to ur assistance, if u attack in ernest and meet each obstacle wit resolution. But u hav to start things.
The Lord helps them that help themselves.
Superconscious mind has all the power, but ur conscious mind the watchman at the gate. It has to open the door. It has to press the spring that releases the infinite energy.
　
Soul - tot of Sadhguru saying joyful mind.