Another alternative view of Rheumatoid Arthritis in my body.

Jul 3 aft 3

Got this from my May blog..
A good reminder..

Gargothill
Saturn in Sun Cancer
When you express egotism of any form, some part of you feels guilty.

As the Sun rules our conscious mind, it does enough censoring on its own. It is the "adult" within us. Saturn, on the other hand, is more like the "parent" within us. We need parents to guide us when we are children, and to some degree as adults, but for the most part, we don't need to be censored indefinitely--something that seems to be the case with Saturn-Sun hard aspects, except that the censoring and parenting is coming from within.
Self-awareness to the point of real self-consciousness is a possibility.

Ideally, you eventually learn that the standards you set for yourself are too high, and that may be the reason you seem to hit brick walls.
You have a sarcastic sense of humor, a keen intelligence, and the ability to apply caution and strategy. The vitality may suffer, and troubles with the bones, teeth, and circulation may surface, especially at times of stress in your life.

Soul
The cause of my RA.
Too high a conscience...not consciousness.
Others like Ten of Clubs..don't see them having an issue with conscience.
When things go 'wrong'...they don't look at themselves.
Whereas, me anything and everything I look at myself...


Mmm..another view ..is that perhaps it is because I attack myself so much that my inner body mechanism follow suit.
I got too much conscience...too much seeking validation....attacking myself even before any other persons..
Thats why I can think of others want to 'reject' me...whereas I am rejecting myself.
The inner body defence mechanism..attacking its own good joints..is rejecting itself...