Decided for happy ashram trip vs fear of lack of money

Jul 19

Yesterday was tired after the long day on site visit for Isha Hata Yoga and Devi place. Then dinner with family.
So just did my neck practices and sat in Moola mantra for just 10 minutes.
Was tired and slept around 11 pm.

Woke up around 6 am but know I don't have to get up. Slept back and woke up to heavy rain. Slept again and woke up at 8 plus am. Couldn't sleep anymore.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Surya Kriya preparatory steps.
Can do lying down posture but right knee can't do mountain pose. Just did one cycle resting mostly on left knee during mountain pose. Can feel a slight strain on the right knee. Got to rest.  May need to give it a rest for another week.

Did a short nice breathing..followed by Shambavi.
During Shambavi, tots of visit to Isha comes again.
Sept may not be good..but August should be better..Just a few days before my new journey.
Can go after the issue of mgm change in office is down.
Tots of Homoepathy came again, of working with the Resort guy.
Surprisingly after Shambavi I was singing much.

Again...i search for flights..but I pulled back.
Asking myself..why am I going?
The flight via Mumbai is too expensive..and flights to Cochin and Trichy is cheap...but then not the right time.
Cos money going out....best for me to stay and get my new condo settled..just focus on Samyama Sadhana in November.
Just because others are going..doesn't mean I too have to go.
Granted I miss Ashram..but I guess I needed the energy
Actually the issue I m facing is also money..while I do have..it is not easy for me to spend.
Logical part of me telling me not to go..

Aiyoh..this period Three of Hearts in Mercury for Destiny and Ten of Diamonds is quite true.
Definitely thinking about money matters since new condo will require much money
I tend to be in anxiety mode whenever I got to spend money.
I want to go ashram but the tot of money makes me stay back.
The tot that I am not  responsible makes me stay back.
The tot of I can use the money for others items in the new condo makes me stay back.


 This week Internal Influence
The Miser
The moment you become miserly you are closed to the basic phenomenon of life: expansion, sharing. The moment you start clinging to things, you have missed the target--you have missed. Because things are not the target, you, your innermost being, is the target--not a beautiful house, but a beautiful you; not much money, but a rich you; not many things, but an open being, available to millions of things.

This woman has created a fortress around herself, and she is clinging to all the possessions she thinks are her treasures. In fact she has accumulated so much stuff with which to adorn herself--including the feathers and furs of living creatures--that she has made herself ugly in the effort. This card challenges us to look at what we are clinging to, and what we feel we possess that is so valuable it needs to be protected by a fortress. It needn't be a big bank balance or a box full of jewels--it could be something as simple as sharing our time with a friend, or taking the risk of expressing our love to another. Like a well that is sealed up and becomes stagnant from disuse, our treasures become tarnished and worthless if we refuse to share them. Whatever you're holding on to, remember that you can't take it with you. Loosen your grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.

Soul
Yes..me holding on to the money.
Will release the money.
Now plan to go from 9 to 15 Aug..coincide with Pancha Bhuta Aradhana on 12 Aug.
Just one week in Ashram will get me back in shape.
It is more than one year since my last visit.
Especially now on Three of Hearts in Mercury.
With Homeopathy coming in daily.
The fact that Homepathy works on energy body and it relates so well with Isha tools..is just perfect combination.
I want to do something that I am passionate about..that brings glow to my face..that I truly practiced and experienced.

Today card
My Daily Card
The Six of Hearts

The Six of Hearts is a powerful influence of balance and peace in personal relationships. How it affects you will largely depend upon your current status in your love life and how responsible you have been in that area. This card will demand that all outstanding love debts be settled and will encourage you to take responsibility for your actions and words in your closest relationships. You may find that you have to make compromises and adjustments to accomplish this as well.

On a more universal level, the Six of Hearts may also reveal to you a special purpose in your life, one of helping others by sharing love with them. You may become aware of a special mission that you are to perform when this card appears. It is the card of peace and of intuitively knowing how to love others in a spiritual sense.

Soul
Not sure if it is due to Homeopathy.

Soul
Now I know why the Three of Hearts...relates to Jack of Hearts.
Destiny
Three of Hearts
Jack of hearts

Three of Hearts (indecision or variety in love and relationships, expression of feelings)
Don't be surprised if some situation comes up unexpectedly during this period that leaves u perplexed about love or friendship. U may receive two offers at once or someone new may comes in that u find immensely attractive and give u some cause to doubt ur existing rship.
This is also an influence that means immaturity in love and fickleness of the affection. Don't let ur mind run away with ur heart now. It may be hard to catch later.
Ur other Mercury card may indicate the person or situation in which u are feeling indecisive about.
The good side of this card is that u have the desire and motivation to meet new people and to express ur feelings, especially feelings of love and affection.
This is a great influence for getting socially involved and making new contacts in either work or pleasure areas.

Jack of hearts
(Making personal sacrifices for a higher good, initiation into a higher  love)
Card of spiritual sacrifice or Christ card

Soul
Yes..Homeopathy and yoga definitely considered to me,  Jack of Hearts.
Now truly needed to go to Ashram to get more clarity.