Midheaven in Pisces - real goal is compassion and universal love (Nine of Hearts in Jupiter)

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Midheaven in Pisces by Gargothill
“Although the sextile between Pisces and the natural (Capricorn) Midheaven suggests opportunity, a Pisces Midheaven can symbolize a difficult adjustment to the demands of the super-ego.
Ambition may be fueled by a desire to achieve success at everything, but the discipline and structure required to actually accomplish anything may be difficult to come by.
Thus, you may have a generalized will to follow the dictates of the super-ego, but a lack of will or ability to particularize this desire and act to achieve success.
The multiplicity—or universality—of goals that you face often results in your attending to none of them specifically.

This may be accompanied by confusion about your direction in life, vague and indemonstrable feelings that you should be doing something or high levels of anxiety over whether you will succeed or fail in life. Others may, therefore, see you as apathetic, disorganized or having blurred vision with respect to where you want to go in life.

However, if you are pointed in the right direction and find sufficient structure and discipline—whether internal or external— to pursue your goals, you are capable of going far. You generally will have the capacity to be guided by your intuition on your pathway to success.”

“Your tendency to progress toward wholeness often makes you a unifier, with the ability to understand other people’s “hopes and motivations. This may enable you to motivate others and simultaneously achieve your own goals.”

With your Midheaven in Pisces, you have one of the highest potentials to transcend the materialistic dictates of the super-ego.
You have a natural tendency to look for success within yourself and to believe in the power of intuition and the unknown to guide you toward right ambition and success. However, if you use these gifts and affinity for the transcendent to direct your energies more finely and subtlety toward the accumulation of material wealth and status, you are still being controlled by your super-ego.

To truly transcend the super-ego it is necessary to replace its goals and objectives with your own spiritually-defined concept of success. If you do this completely, then your whole life’s ambition will be directed toward the attainment of self-knowledge and God-consciousness. Your real goals in life will become compassion and universal Love. With perseverance, devotion and the necessary discipline, you will achieve this priceless goal.”

Soul
Thats my Jupiter card - Nine of Hearts (Universal love)

Insecurity
“Your extreme emotional sensitivity—a Piscean characteristic—is directed toward your super-ego so that you are hypersensitive about failing to achieve its dictates and goals.
Your extreme fear of failure has caused you to become neurotic with regard to success.
This may drive you to please your super-ego by succeeding at all costs, or it may paralyze you in fear that whatever you attempt will result in failure.
If succeeding at all costs is the result of your fear, you will probably not think twice about fabricating in order to achieve success, or at least the appearance of success. This may involve deceiving others or deceiving yourself. At the farthest extreme, your fear and your neurotic drive for success may push you into the only thing you feel you can succeed at—your own self-destruction.


Soul
So true..
When tots of Homeopathy arises, my tots is whether I can be good at it, whether I can be a specialist. So basically fear of failure.
And when I found out it require 4 years full time study..even worse..as it affect my money issue.



Aspecting influence-Planets Conjunct Midheaven
Functions symbolized by a planet that conjuncts the Midheaven are likely to further the achievement of your goals by allowing you to encompass greater competency or act with greater sensitivity. Or, these functions may hinder you by contributing to your confusion and vulnerability.
To the extent that all-encompassingness or being a loving, whole person  constitutes success for you, the planet will symbolize your universality and compassion. This may be helpful or problematic, depending on the planet and the other aspects to that planet.


Soul
Not sure about being loving..it no longer validates me.
But I want to do something that I am align with.
Isha Hata Yoga I am doing 6 times a week together with my meditation.
Homoepathy medication I am taking for Rheumatoid Arthritis and I want to know how can I cure or medicate myself as the monthly medication is quite pricy.