Exhausted - going for a retreat in Ashram

Jul 22

Woke up around 5 plus to toilet.
Then slept back and woke up upon alarm.
Feel tired today...actually exhausted.
Throat also not too good and I think I accidentally slightly sprained my neck yesterday.

Early this Monday draw my Osho Tarot cards and got Exhaustion.
I was surprised.
Alas, it was exhaustion over the renovation.
With my friend away, I had to take charge on renovation decision.
Monday was on the issue of wooden doors, luckily my friend came on-line and took charge of this.
Tuesday spent time looking for the recirculation fan as no one knows how and where to get.
Alas found it yesterday evening. Even then faced issue on whether can install or not.

Truly exhaustive.

This is the portrait of one whose whole life energy has been depleted in his efforts to keep fueling the enormous and ridiculous machine of self-importance and productivity. He has been so busy "keeping it all together" and "making sure everything runs smoothly", that he has forgotten to really rest. No doubt he can't allow himself to be playful. To abandon his duty for a trip to the beach could mean the whole structure might come tumbling down. The message of this card is not just about being a workaholic, though. It is about all the ways in which we set up safe but unnatural routines for ourselves and, by doing so, keep the chaotic and spontaneous away from our doors. Life isn't a business to be managed, it's a mystery to be lived. It's time to tear up the time-card, break out of the factory, and take a little trip into the uncharted. Your work can flow more smoothly from a relaxed state of mind.

Soul
At least finally got my air ticket to Ashram booked.
Then got the replacement of wooden door decided..and then got the fan.
Today still busy with fan..but at least we are going somewhere.
On the custom made cabinets, I told them to hold on till the Main ID, my friend come back next week.

Then the last 2 days was worried about my Assistant..finally can see that his lack of details.  The thing that puzzle me is that he is okay that he is judged to be of not being good enough. He can ignored feedback..whereas I can't even ignored my own.
Me too affected whereas he not affected at all. Guess thats where the main difference between Ace and Tens.


My Daily Card
The Three of Diamonds

The Three of Diamonds signifies that indecision or worry about some money matter may be a large part of your experience when this card is present. This card has such a strong creative energy associated with it that if we don't find some productive, creative outlet for its energies, we will inevitably feel afraid and indecisive. The key is to find ways to express ourselves when this card shows up.
It could also mean getting two opportunities for work at one time or having to split our time between two projects or money-making deals. Often variety can be a blessing allowing us to explore other areas. Usually, however, lack of focus brings lack of achievement or lack of detail in one project or the other. Knowing this may help you avoid wasting this invaluable creative force.

Soul
true.
All about money this few days.
At first had some dilemma on whether I should get the special fan for cosy corner.
Then I remember G had a cosy corner and my sister cosy corner not used got too hot. So decision made.
3 Fans in total
Finally nailed it. Got the special Fan salesman to brief my Contractor on how and where to install.
So construction on schedule.
I feel the Universe helped me on this.
All these while I have ponder over this type of fan.
And saw it in the high class resort.
Amazingly without any background, just based on googling I found the same supplier and they are not even on retailing yet.
Father...truly thanks to U.