Fear came..trying to run to Ashram

Jun 19

Woke up around 5 plus am but slept back..glad that I am off today.
woke up again bright light..wonder why no alarm. Checked by phone and it is 7.18 am and all my alarm was off due to phone reset.
Too late for Bhuta Shuddi.

Proceed to guru pooja..been a long time since I sang..still remember.
Cat stretch was okay..not much pain..the left thumb pain is gone. Will delay the steroids.
Angamardhana was good..the correction truly helps.
Now doing the lying down posture correctly.
Warrior sitting posture..i was laughing and singing..and comfortably sitting.
Able to blow out breathe on kundalini. Once I sat down, tears came non stop.
I just want to be in ashram..and thats when I knew I can go.
Its been more than one year..and with my RA acting up..it is time to go.
I want to get some surge..for my next year.

Surya Kriya was okay..able to do the lying down posture.
61 points awareness meditation is good.

Shakti is good..despite 100 count of KapalaBhakti cos I got appointment.
Shambavi is nice..
Just thankful I got the tools.
At ease knowing that I will be in ashram.


Aft
Just checked schedule...it be 8 days trip.
3 days of IE Retreat volunteering plus 3 day special program..6 days with 2 days travel.
Will miss my shrine....I am truly blessed to have the shrine with me.
But yes..will go to ashram.
Last June I went to ashram, last October got my Sannidhi and now its July..
Wonder how my experience in Ashram will be.