Learning to express to my family

May 30

Changed the shrine cloth with the help of 3 meditators.
They said the energy space is different from the yoga studio's sannidhi.
One of the meditator, D, said the Sannidhi is very powerful.
So glad I can share.
during the pooja, I just be myself..releasing the energy that I received from Sannidhi.
Everytime I released, I can hear D goes off into another zone too.
So glad to have my sannidhi.

May 30 eve
Yesterday during practices, as tots of television scene that I watched came i, I tot of my sis..she likes to watch crime scene drama series. She must be having lots of awful scene in her mind.

When I shared about my RA pills being taken off cos my body rejects it, there were no response from the sisters. They just ignored my message. These days.it does happens...but I am learning to share regardless of their response. My duty is to share and express. How they take it or not take it..is their business. My business is to express. No more keeping it to myself.
Then as we were driving out for lunch, sister shared about a lady who has RA but was cured when she was converted into Christian. She said it was miracle healing and hope that I see to Christ too.
I said I can believed that this to happen as her friend believed in it. But I don't.
She then said that she believed my RA is a sign that God wants to humble me. God gives me this sickness to humble me into accepting Christ.
I was shocked at that. She believed in a suffering God that cause wrath. I no longer do.
I believed my sickness was because I was suppressing myself and energy is blocked. I now know that I got intense emotion. So, doing Kriya releases it.

My body...the last one.
Loving Hata yoga.
Just now did Surya Kriya in the park with a group of meditators.
In the first set, I couldn't lie down to do the posture. Then in the second half of first set, I was able to do it. Finally release the harden elbow joints.
The first one was difficult but get easier.
So despite the initial difficulty..it was a good one.
It has been many months since I did 3 cycle of Surya Kriya.
Looks like its key for the tight elbow.

Just did afternoon Shoonya. Needed a rest before I go cafe.
It was a deep Shoonya..then followed by just being there with the shrine.
so nice..don't want to leave.
Truly glad I have the shrine.