Insecurity with money

June 9
Woke up feeling tired and decided to skip hata yoga as I got Angamardhana guided practice today.
Yesterday night didn't sit with shrine nor take tumeric. Can see the difference.
Energy is down.
My right elbow is painful,swell much that I can't even touch my throat to put vibhuthi.
It's been a long time since I faced such pain. I recalled even those years with regular Arava medication my elbow was swelling too.

Yesterday evening and This morning while doing Shakti can see tots coming in. I m truly Three in Mercury.
Tots of no empty car park for guests. No one can come to my condo.
Tots of having to pay monthly maintenance.
Tots of my condo's flooring bit drab.

I then tell myself that I have money and can afford to pay the monthly maintenance and change into timber flooring.
As for car park it's okay. It's more important that my place is lovely.
The night view is lovely. The pool looks good and well maintained.

These two weeks Shoonya not great. Couldn't get in quickly or deeply. Just now even tot I fall.

Jun 9 eve

Just finished guided Angamardhana practice. I learned some corrections. Today for the first time my sitting asanas with both leg up straight hold for so long effortlessly.
Didn't do the jumping cos right elbow pain.
During the Shavasana I find myself talking to my blood cell. Telling them I m safe and they need not be on defensive. Also told the joints to ease up. Pain lessen.Was pondering whether to take the steroid but decided against it as I have faced such swelling before a few years ago.