Thursday, October 8, 2015

Rejection is a call for redirection

Aug 2 aft 5

Got this...quite appropriate.
Corporate is gone...


http://consciouslifenews.com/rejection-be-blessing/1178430/
We should not take rejection personally.
In other words, when we experience rejection it is actually the universe saving us time and trouble when something is not in alignment with our destination. 
We may not see it at the time and pine for what we think we ‘lost out’ on but we need to realign with the truth that it wasn’t meant to be in the first place and something else that is a frequential match is on the way. 
Sometimes we are so hung up on the rejection that we miss the opportunity that the rejection made way for. 

Embracing Rejection
Try to face rejection with the renewed optimism that it is a divining rod that could possibly lead you to that bountiful spring!
Allow yourself to be a little vulnerable when you need to test the waters of a prospective desire.  If rejected then allow yourself to hold your head high as you stride over to the next possible potential.
Rejection ultimately leads to refining your true path.


Let Me Give You a Personal Example:
“Rejection ultimately leads to refining your true path.”Back in 2002 my hubby and I were going through some financial strain.  We had both left our jobs to pursue working for ourselves and, after a year, it wasn’t going well.
We were toying with the idea of going to work in the UK but it was a daunting idea for both of us.  After much consideration, we decided to ask for our old jobs back.  Both of us left on great terms with our employers and both companies assured us that if we should ever need our jobs back, they would be there for us.
Well, as synchronicity would have it, neither one of us got our jobs back.

We were really shocked and surprised but what it actually did for us was push us into going overseas.  We eventually did take the plunge and we enjoyed a 3 year working holiday which saw us return with enough money to buy our first property cash.

If we had not been rejected, we wouldn’t have had the joy of living and working abroad in a country that boasted so many unique and rich historical treasures.  We wouldn’t have met the most amazing people, travelled all over England and Scotland and we most likely wouldn’t have bought any property.

Sadhguru - allow everything about you to fall off

Aug 2 aft 4

Was updating my blog for early July and saw this.

Sadhguru
A spiritual person should be 100 times more intense than the most ambitious person in the world. Only then u can conquer inner nature.

I m telling you, Kriya by itself is not going to do anything. It is not the Kriya which is going to transform u. It is the intensity. Only when u are intense, the Kriya is a tremendous support. It intensifies u more and more. This is the whole purpose of doing the purpose of doing the practices.

Step by step, every day u can peel yourself off.
Everything disappears, and what is perfectly real, only that stays.
Everything that can fall off, let it fall off.
U are spending too much of ur life just to hold onto those things which are about to fall off.
U are spending all ur life just trying to support things which are always trying to fall.
What is going to fall, let it fall, let everything fall down.

There is something which cannot fall down. U will approach that very quickly when u allow these things to fall.


Soul
Not sure where I got this.

All these went off
Morning sleep went off
Resistance to detailed reporting
Laziness on fitness went off - now on Angamardhana for the past 1 and half year...license to eat
Resistance to spending money on renovation
Resistance to having a big car
Meat went off..
Coffee went off.
Milk went off
Validation of Isha volunteering went off
Resistance to capital commitment for own condo
Leisure breakfast with reading went off
Arava medication went off
Resistance to Neem and tumeric
Resistance to Rudrash and copper snake ring went off
Corporate work validation went off
Decaf coffee may go off
Alternative medicine

And today this message is quite apt when the other Homeopathy doctor said I shouldn't stretch myself by going back to school in a new field when I am already 48 years old and suffering from RA.
Stress is the greatest key to inflaming RA.
She said I should be considering full retirement..


Soul
Well, thats her..
For me..I knew that everything happens for a reason.
It is normally difficult for me to change..to start new things especially anything that involves my financial security.
My mind will go into major resistance..torn among options..pulling my teeth.
But once I decided, I can let go...thats my second karma card of Nine of Diamonds.
Once I am in..I am truly in I will persevere..
I had so much resistance to Isha..and but I never stopped..slowly deepen...I am a slow one..

Now on Ace of Diamonds
But I already let go of the high profile corporate job.
It is time for new beginnings
I knew it is hard work..but I have Isha tools..I got Devi with me..

Rheumatoid Arthritis NSAID (Arava)

Aug 2 aft 3
Rheumatoid Arthritis NSAID (Arava) medication rejected by my body..for my good health


Now updating blog and saw this article on Diet for Autoimmune diseases
This seems to reiterate what the Allopathy and Homeopathy doctor was telling me earlier
Instead of being sad..I should be happy that my body is intelligent and I can finally hear its message and follwoing it.

Just like these few days I ate the leafy green..I ate it cos I know it is good for me. While I am eating I can feel body liking it.
I can't say my tongue like it but I am now eating for my body.

https://www.drmcdougall.com/health/education/health-science/featured-articles/articles/diet-only-hope-for-arthritis/

It’s the Whole Diet
The importance of the overall diet cannot be overemphasized.
Proper foods keep the intestinal barriers strong and the immune system in a fighting condition.
Those foods are whole starches, vegetable, and fruits.
In addition to being free of animal products, the diet must be low in fat of all kinds — vegetable oil (even olive oil, corn, safflower, and flaxseed oil) and animal fat.

Soul
Here. I said no to meat..but okay to pork lard..guess must now stop this reasoning.

https://www.drmcdougall.com/health/education/health-science/featured-articles/articles/diet-only-hope-for-arthritis/
It’s the Whole Diet
When it comes to blaming individual foods, dairy products seem to be the most troublesome foods, causing the most common and severe reactions. Many reports indicate grains, such as corn and wheat can also aggravate of symptoms. The truth seems to be almost any food can cause trouble, but few people react to vegetable foods.

Soul
Luckily lactose intolerant but still do take milk in some local coffee.
But these few weeks knowing that coffee reduces the impact of my Homeopathy medication..I am less enthusiatic even for decaf coffee.


https://www.drmcdougall.com/health/education/health-science/featured-articles/articles/diet-only-hope-for-arthritis/
It’s the Whole Diet
My experience and this research has lead me to prescribe for the past 22 years a starch-based diet with the addition of fruits, and vegetables (low-fat and devoid of all animal products).

If no improvement is seen within 2 weeks, I suggest wheat and corn be eliminated.

The final step is to follow an elimination diet based on the foods least likely to cause problems, such as sweet potatoes and brown rice with the addition of noncitrus fruits, and green and yellow vegetables. All thoroughly cooked.

Water is the beverage. If improvement is found (usually within 1 to 2 weeks), then foods are added back one at a time to see if there is an adverse reaction. (A complete description of this diet can be found in The McDougall Program — 12 days to Dynamic Health).

Nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs should be stopped, and if necessary, replaced by aspirin or nabumetone (Relafen).Other medications are reduced and/or discontinued as the symptoms improve.

Soul
So glad that my Arava medication was stopped by my body.
Otherwise my doctor won't be releasing it from me.
On steriods i am not taking so it is fine.

Nine of Diamonds

Aug 2 aft 1
Nine of Diamonds

Their Supporting Karma Card (+KC), the Nine of Diamonds, naturally encourages their sharing of abundance. If in alignment with a spiritual path, Queen of Diamonds people express their generosity through supporting humanitarian causes, assisting family members and donating to charities.

Cosmic reward card - Nine of diamond
To let go and complete a major chapter in the evolution of their soul and personality.
This entails a lot of giving to others and a willingness to release both people and material things from their life when the time comes.
If they have not heeded the call to give and let go of others, money, rships and love, their life can be filled with disappointment and remorse.

Nine of Diamond - universal values (The Givers)
Once overcome their challenges, they are philanthropic, generous, happy and productive.
Have the opportunity to experience first-hand the heightened consciousness that comes from living a 'universal' life.
They are great at promoting things they believe in.
They r great talkers and communicator.
Many become counsellors, if not professionally, at least wit friends.

One of the challenges is to develop and use their charm and power to do good work.
Many of them are destined to make great contributors to the world, often by leading others to a higher form of knowledge and learning.
They must develop an awareness of the universal laws being manifested in their life.
Those who take a thoughtful approach to the events of their life will realise that for each thing they supposedly lose, new avenues are opening and they are getting more in touch with the cosmic flow.
When they truly release their attachments, spiritual gifts are showered down upon them.
They realise the beauty of releasing things in their life that are holding them back from a new and more beautiful life that is just now emerging.
They begin to identify with a much larger image of themselves, one that includes the need of others as well as their own.
The result is that they are happy and enlightened, having made the transition to a more universal approach to life.
The universal, rather than personal point of view is the ultimate destination.

Last year destiny prepares me for this year Ten of Spades

Aug 2 2015

My last year card already showed the way
2014/15 Ruling

Pluto
Queen of Spades
Somehow connected to ur result card you are attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within, a greater level of organisational ability or both. Self mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It is knowing u can have everything u want, not by changing the world but by changing yourself.
U will have to work hard this year and possibly doing work that u find somewhat distasteful.  Spades are work and the Queen using her work as karma yoga, a tool to purify her tots and emotions.
This is the goal u have set for urself and u must have good reason for why u want this. Keep this uppermost in ur mind as u progress through the year. U will no doubt have to make changes within and outside of urself  to achieve this goal.

Affirmation
I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, ideas, and concepts of the world. I become the master of myself.

Result
Nine of Clubs
Much of ur challenges is to let go of outworn ideas, projects, plans or way of communicating. This is a year of completion that may at times seem like disappointing endings.
The Nine of Clubs says that u are completing a major chapter in ur life and it is time to move on to greener pastures.
Be open to spiritual wisdom in all forms, as this will help make change easier.

Affirmation
I complete projects this year and let go of the past. I broaden my understanding by releasing old ways of thinking.

Environment
Three of Hearts
Benefits will come this year through broadening the scope of ur personal or social relationships. A desire to express urself and ur feelings will bring many good things into ur life. This could be the year that u successfully add to ur list of personal contacts.
U could meet a new lover or two or merely makes some new friends that bring fun and diversity into ur romantic or social life.
Remember to say what u feel.

Displacement
Six of Clubs
This card can have a powerful and positive effects on ur career and work. This could be the year that u become much better known or recognised for ur contribution.
This could be a vital time to devote some of ur resources to advertising or to getting into the media because success in these areas is almost certain. All in all, this should be a hallmark year where work is concerned.

Finally this card points to a need for more focus on one's purpose in life. This could be a year when circumstances cause u to reflect on ur life and make a sincere effort to finding the path best for u. Once that path is found, u are obligated on a spiritual level to follow it to the best of ur ability, regardless of external circumstances.
Following the path u have set for urself or just finding path that is meant for u, may be one the significant challenge of this year.

Soul
No wonder Ten of Clubs and Ten of Spades...in 2015/16

Soul
Last year was the ending..with the unexpected RA pain in June 2015 and followed by recovery of RA pain with Homeopathy in early July. Concluded with me saying no to the high profile job offer in late July. Confirmed ending of corporate growth.
No wonder I had the new beginning at the start of this year in July.


This could be a year when circumstances cause u to reflect on ur life and make a sincere effort to finding the path best for u. Once that path is found, u are obligated on a spiritual level to follow it to the best of ur ability, regardless of external circumstances.
Following the path u have set for urself or just finding path that is meant for u, may be one the significant challenge of this year.

Soul
So true..now

Oct 9
Alas..my journey just started....

Monday, October 5, 2015

Three of Hearts in Mercury

Aug 2 aft

Truly Three of Hearts in Mercury with Jack of Hearts as Indirect.
Never expected this.
Never looked for this.
But it came when I am ready.
And it comes when I finally said not to bigger corporate career. Just turn down the offer to join former sister company. More lucrative more money, more profile..but won't make me happy...and won't be conducive for my RA. Even before I tot of taking the offer I was already thinking to do for a few years just for the money to settle my condo.
Well, Need not let my fear of financial security to lead my life.
Now want to be guided by what makes me happy.


Mercury 3 July to 23 Aug
Destiny
Three of Hearts
Jack of hearts

Three of Hearts (indecision or variety in love and relationships, expression of feelings)
Don't be surprised if some situation comes up unexpectedly during this period that leaves u perplexed about love or friendship. U may receive two offers at once or someone new may comes in that u find immensely attractive and give u some cause to doubt ur existing rship.
This is also an influence that means immaturity in love and fickleness of the affection. Don't let ur mind run away with ur heart now. It may be hard to catch later.
Ur other Mercury card may indicate the person or situation in which u are feeling indecisive about.
The good side of this card is that u have the desire and motivation to meet new people and to express ur feelings, especially feelings of love and affection.
This is a great influence for getting socially involved and making new contacts in either work or pleasure areas.

Jack of hearts
(Making personal sacrifices for a higher good, initiation into a higher  love)
Card of spiritual sacrifice or Christ card

Soul
Well this calling into Homeopathy ..definitely like a Jack of Hearts.
Wellness for myself...but sacrifice in terms of monetary terms and time.


Today card.
My Daily Card
The Two of Clubs

The Two of Clubs means conversation, communication, sharing ideas and cooperation on a communication level. However, it is also known as the card of fear and arguing. When it is present you may feel compelled to talk to others and to establish lines of communication.

Look deeper into yourself and you may discover an inner conflict between your desire to be alone and to be with others. Talking to others may shed more light on who you are. Just make sure that you are being honest with yourself.

Soul
Now that I know I require full time study...
And this study requires me to be on collaborator mode..
And one thing that the doctor point out..I am too excited..
Mmm...maybe time to start on Isha Kriya..
Especially I got Three of Hearts in Mercury this year.

http://thecardsoflife.com/destiny-cards/queen-of-diamonds-person/

Queen of Diamonds


With so many Threes in the their life script, the Queen of Diamonds is bursting with innovative ideas and the drive to see them through. Their Three of Spades card in Mars is a motivator. They may have several different careers in quest for their true expression, but none of that energy is wasted as they build on their experiences from one to the next. They are also influenced by a Three of Clubs in Venus and a Three of Diamonds Challenging Karma Card (-KC). Three Threes is a powerful combination for variety and creativity as well as contributing to worry and indecision.

Soul
True..I feel my corporate stint and also my journey in Isha will help me in my Wellness centre.
I am already good in promoting Isha tools such as hata yoga, meditation, yantras and even those mantras cd.
I am good in promoting 7thunder cards.
Whatever that I have experience greatly I can easily promote.
So Homeopathy is my next one.
I want to learn to cure myself.
I have always said last is body...

So many Threes..need Isha Kriya.
My friend meditator P used to be quite agitated in her conversation..but now has mellowed much. Even able to respond to messages..
She was a Nine of Clubs ruling and since Isha Kriya can help her so much..definitely can help a Three like me.


http://thecardsoflife.com/destiny-cards/queen-of-diamonds-person/
Having a Queen of Spades in Neptune suggests access to intuition and spiritual guidance. Channeling all that creative energy into a strong work ethic nearly assures success after mid-life. There’s a natural ability to synthesize the wisdom gained from a variety of careers and experiences and put it all to good use.

Soul
Yes..I am on the right track to wellness.

http://thecardsoflife.com/destiny-cards/queen-of-diamonds-person/
The Five of Diamonds in Uranus suggests that finances may go through ups and downs throughout life. The Queen of Diamonds makes the most of these transitions by making the necessary changes and taking on a new challenge in the spirit of freedom of movement. Blessed with endless creativity, it sees them through to the next opportunity.

Soul
Yes..now another cycle..through my change of values.
Dropping corporate career to something that fit in my new values..of yoga and energy opening.
I knew Isha volunteering not for me as I want to do something independently on my own.
I am not the type that follows rules and regulation.
I always know I want to do something apart from Isha but never knew what it was.
Until the break down of NSAID medication in me, my first flare of major RA pain, my miraculous recovery of RA pain.
Next step recovery of RA as I believed that if Homeopathy provides only long term medication for chronic illness then no difference with Allopathy medication.


http://thecardsoflife.com/destiny-cards/queen-of-diamonds-person
Queen of Diamonds people enjoy the finer things in life, are able to generate the resources to attain them, but often stress over cash flow and financial reserves. They are keen business people and are quite talented at promoting themselves and their services.

Soul
true..i know i m good in promoting good.

http://thecardsoflife.com/destiny-cards/queen-of-diamonds-person
Their Supporting Karma Card (+KC), the Nine of Diamonds, naturally encourages their sharing of abundance. If in alignment with a spiritual path, Queen of Diamonds people express their generosity through supporting humanitarian causes, assisting family members and donating to charities.

Soul
My Jupiter is in Nine of Hearts




Saturday, October 3, 2015

Finding out more information on homeopathy

Aug 2

Woke up fresh before 6 am despite sleeping at 1.30 am yesterday night on full stomach.

Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by morning walk.

Body aching a bit after doing my first Angamardhana after a lapse of 6 weeks. Yes, the buttock and thigh muscle for the lying down posture.

Did 2 cycle of walk, no staircase today.
Feeling good, still on Homeopathy and wanted Universe to give me more information on Homeopathy.
Will need to find out from more Homeopathy cos my current Homeopathy doctor not giving me any lead I can use.
Then I remember the Homeopathy contact that I got from my colleague N. Perhaps I can call on the said doctor, M

It was the most enlightening call that I had a long time.

Firstly, she said I need to take a local 4 year course with another half year practitioner in India. Otherwise I can't practice locally. Also found out that my current doctor also not legal, and hence will take up the 4.5 years course to make himself legal. The doctor I talked to is now in her final year of study. Both of them full fledged doctor and now taking up homeopathy. M said it is not a lucrative, relatively unknown, not good market perception. Too many low educated persons practising homeopathy and hence Govt has enforced a ruling to legalise only licensed practitioner.
The good news is that the only one licensed is the university, located half an hour drive from my house.
And perhaps I need not trouble myself to learn about German language..that be additional stress.


Then we discussed about my RA.
It didn't start well cos I was too enthuse and voice bit fast and she said that for an RA patient, my first thing to do is to talk slowly with a calm mind. And I shouldn't be get myself stressed into taking Homeopathy as I should be focusing on healing myself.
She then said that while she is glad my RA pain has reduced but there is no such cure as yet for RA and it can flare at any point.
As an RA patient, I must learn that stress is not good for me, I must learn to speak slowly and calmly as she can hear my excited voice.
(While it was bit condescending, I hold myself back and tot perhaps I should do Isha Kriya...and it is true..my mind do get away with me.)

We spoke of the complete autoimmune blood test and also hormone test and even the upper and lower colon scope test that I should be doing.
She also said that there are bad side effects from NSAIDs medication like Arava since I have been taking them for 7 years. She said those drugs got side effects.

Did share with her about Isha yoga and when she was talking about food. I suddenly shared that I am off meat and can't drink coffee and been on decaf. But of late, body also not keen on decaf. I told her I was sad that my body has turned on me, she was so excited to hear this. She said my body is already turning on a healing mode. My body is now rejecting food that is not good for me. I told her I was sad and she said I needed two tight slap. There are very few people whose body can turn on the road of recovery. She said I am so lucky that I am on track on the yoga path and now seeing the result.
I said things start to change around 3 years ago but I ignored all the purging.
But recently, the body feeling is coming as I know I feel ill if I take something not good. I told her about my involuntary letting go of meat..of coffee...and now only drink decaf on some days.
She said to cut it off completely, as decaf is also not good for me.

She said stress, meat, coffee and white sugar should be off for me. I am naturally lactose intolerant
I told her that I read about it and I already lost meat and coffee and I can't afford to lose sugar. But of late body is saying no to white sugar.
I even shared that yesterday when I had the not sweet dessert my body was fine. But when I ate a small piece of cup cake, firstly I can see my tongue body doesn't like it. After I finished the small cup cake, I don't feel good good. I feel bit down.
She is so estatic and she said so happy to hear this from me.
She felt a connection to me. We spoke nearly one hour and I emailed her my contact as she wants to send me a web link on how body recovery leads to intelligent food decision.
I said thanks cos I need it as friends said I m losing rather than gaining since my body rejecting food.

Father, after talking to her..I find myself even more keen on Homeopathy.
Or rather more determined.
Just checked the university web link and send email for more information.
Honestly, if local course, then at least won't be so pricey and dropping out of corporate world and doing full time studying may not be so daunting since money is mus issue.


Saw facebook and saw this:
Its okay to start over.
Its okay to rebuild
Its okay to be scared.


Soul
Truly what I am experiencing.
Msg a friend also from corporate finance who quit her job and went into a full time child psychology course. Would like to know how she came to the final decision.

This period..learning to speak to more people. Need to find out more.

Truly Three of Hearts in Mercury.

Mercury 3 July to 23 Aug
Destiny
Three of Hearts
Jack of hearts

Three of Hearts (indecision or variety in love and relationships, expression of feelings)
Don't be surprised if some situation comes up unexpectedly during this period that leaves u perplexed about love or friendship. U may receive two offers at once or someone new may comes in that u find immensely attractive and give u some cause to doubt ur existing rship.
This is also an influence that means immaturity in love and fickleness of the affection. Don't let ur mind run away with ur heart now. It may be hard to catch later.
Ur other Mercury card may indicate the person or situation in which u are feeling indecisive about.
The good side of this card is that u have the desire and motivation to meet new people and to express ur feelings, especially feelings of love and affection.
This is a great influence for getting socially involved and making new contacts in either work or pleasure areas.

Jack of hearts
(Making personal sacrifices for a higher good, initiation into a higher  love)
Card of spiritual sacrifice or Christ card

Soul
Well this calling into Homeopathy ..definitely like a Jack of Hearts.
Wellness for myself...but sacrifice in terms of monetary terms and time.


Today card.
My Daily Card
The Two of Clubs

The Two of Clubs means conversation, communication, sharing ideas and cooperation on a communication level. However, it is also known as the card of fear and arguing. When it is present you may feel compelled to talk to others and to establish lines of communication.

Look deeper into yourself and you may discover an inner conflict between your desire to be alone and to be with others. Talking to others may shed more light on who you are. Just make sure that you are being honest with yourself.

Soul
Now that I know I require full time study...
And this study requires me to be on collobaraty mode..
And one thing that the doctor point out..I am too excited..
Mmm...maybe time to start on Isha Kriya..
Especially I got Three of Hearts in Mercury this year,


Awesome Guru Purnima

Jul 31

Sadhguru
The first full moon of Dakshinayana is Guru Pournami, when the Adiyogi actually started teaching, and when the first Guru was born. This is about transcendence and liberation, a possibility that human beings never knew, and still most do not know. It does not matter what your genetics are, who your father was, or what limitations you are born with or acquired, you can transcend all of that, “If you are willing to strive.”

It was the best Guru Purnima.
Energy just flow to me when I sat down in the hall. Couldn't stop laughing.
Seeing Sadhguru on video couldn't stop crying. Feel his presence more when he is silent.
Guru meditation was awesome. Felt I was at another level. Loud voice came out and so did some of the strangers voices.

There was a short video he said if the day the mention of Guru, tears just came. U need not worry about how u earn a living. U just be.
This speaks to me as I m going to explore Homeopathy.
Also going to learn German language. I already can see how to position and promote my Homeopathy Center. My target markets is the expat community. Build network with Homeopathy community in Germany; hence urgency for German language.

Finally able to do Surya Kriya properly

Aug 1

Woke up fresh around 6 plus am. Decided to wake up and do Sadhana.

Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by preparatory for Surya Kriya.
A very good one, my best Surya Kriya in all these years. Able to do slowly. The mountain pose is great cos for the first time I m able to use my shoulder and elbow to support my body. Able to lying down posture quite effortlessly due to stronger elbow joints. Bit stiff but no more pain.
I m ready for Angamardhana.

Did a quick breathing.

Did Shakti. It was awesome. First time doing a slow 7 breathe counts. Just being in the presence of my breathe.
Kapala Bhakti was bit fast.
Did slow breathing count at the end. My slowest.
In the end a deep silence settled within.
Followed by chanting of Gurur Brahma.

Did a quick preparatory for Shambavi but no time for Fluttering breathe as alarm has rang. So a quick one.

Went for my Angamardhana. I was surprise that I did good despite a 6 weeks no practice. The squatting posture was good. Even able to do jumping albeit slower.
 Only the lying down posture I was rusty.

Went to lunch with V and wife. Told them of my sudden interest in Homeopathy for my retirement plan Wellness centre. They too amazed at my miraculous recovery.
V said I can do online course. Both also agree that learning Germany language will be helpful.

So idea is sound.
Now the hard work of learning.
On the promotion I m not so worried.

Guess I m resistant towards hard work, investment in education.

I used to study hard so I need not have to study. But now need to go back to the books. Not only the technical but also the language.




Two of Clubs

Jul 31 aft

Soul
Well, I am definitely looking into it.
Just  checked out some internet news..yes..many against Homeopathy. No wonder the doctor asked others to read his articles before coming to see him.Homeopathy doctor said it is tough battle...as there is a lack of positive communication. It took a few years for them to build their clientile and mostly only rich one can afford their medication, so the base is low.

Suddenly recalled my next 7 years card..which is all about communication.

Destiny Age 49 to 55

Long range
Two of Clubs (communications, fear and arguing)
Partnership involved in some Mercury related activities that will play a major role.
Mercury rules written and spoken words and all kinds of mental activities
Studying, teaching, writings, publishing and advertising all falls under his jurisdiction.
Watch out for impatience and a quick temper to get the best results.
U will be wanting to share tots and ideas with other and thus will probably attract a lot of other people in ur life.

Environment
Seven of Hearts (learning unconditional love and non attachment in rships)
This could be the year that u have a real experience of unconditional love.
As u allow others to be who they are, u also allows urself to be urself, and in this way, u will be able to experience a new sense of personal freedom.
To be totally free means having no attachments to others and no worries about whether or not they love us.
It also means having a knowing that there will always be enough love in our life, because it comes from within.

Soul
Yes..a tough battle..now fighting the public..
And since I have to invest money into education..the more I may be defensive.
At least the Homeopathy doctor has his own medical cert to back up his homeopathy cert.
I got nothing...
But I got something he doesnt' have..I am good promoter.. and I can attract people.
He definitely lacked charisma..

Father..tough battle..ahead..
The only thing keeping me going is that I m keen on wellness centre.
I am excited of healing myself..I am excited of learning new things..
I want to do something with my mind.

Displacement
Five of Spades (change in lifestyle or living location, a long trip or change of job)

It is likely that u will move to a new home this year or change jobs. U could even do both under this powerful card of changes.
Expect some significant changes in ur life styles, ones that will lead u to a fuller expression of ur life force in the current cycle.
The actual changes may entail a lot of work and energy on ur part  and at times you may feel burdened by them. But this is ur time to make the move.
Make ur adjustments and get on with it.
Spades represents our lifestyle - the things that we actually do each and every day.
This powerful Five tells u that somehow ur lifestyle will change this year in a significant way.
Flow with the changes as best as u can, and u will be led to a better place for urself and those u love.

Ace of Spades

Jul 31

Woke up fresh this morning around 6.11 am
Went to toilet and try to sleep back but can't seem to.
Decided to wake up before 6.30 am and do my Sadhana

Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by Cat stretch.
My misaligned muscle/bones bit painful. Never use to bother me as the pain from RA joints was more than the misaligned muscle or perhaps back then the pain prevent me from moving my elbow properly. Now that there is no pain and when I straightened my elbow, the misaligned muscle/bone at the elbow( with me since I was around 4 years old) bit painful. This could be a part that is blocking the energy.
Want to remove this.

Did a slow cat stretch with a deeper breathing...

Yogaasaanas was good..Love the standing postures...deep into it.
The standing tree posture was effortless.
Laughing at the lifting one leg posture. Now learning to breathe in deeply and slowly for the two legs posture
Able to do lying down posture quite well.
61 points awareness meditation was quite dreamy...just so contented with my body..and lost awareness.

Breathing meditation was lovely..just go into my deep presence...feeling my inner presence..and sensing body as just a casing. Sat for a long while..didn't want ot move.
Shakti was bit fast..cos I was having slight menses and I am excited to meet up the Homeopathy doctor. Did a short  Kapala Bhakti cycle but bit too fast. Still I was singing Gurur Brahma in the end.

Shambavi was nice. Feeling my inner presence in stillness.
Later singing Gurur Brahma in the end.

Went to see the doctor..
He already mixed my medicine and even gave me a free supply of sinus medication. Showed me the  video which makes sense. He said while my sinus is better it hasn't' cured. Well, I admit I still got left 40% blockage. But I had live with it for so long..and with RA, this wasn't top priority especially since I don't have other sympthons.
Anyway, it is free so I just take his offer.

He also prescribed the cholesterol medication as required by my doctor. Well, 50 bucks so just take it as he himself is taking it.

Anyway, I already messaged my old friend A who had sinus problem. Maybe he will benefit from this.

He asked why I am asking for Homeopathy courses. He said he can conduct if I found others who are keen. I said I m keen to explore this as part of my retirement plan. I told him I had a vision of having a wellness centre that combines Isha hata yoga in my double story link house upper floor and ground floor is Homeopathy medication.

But I am not sure if Homeopathy is for me as I used to sleep in Biology classes in higher secondary school. I am also not sure if I am just having a flash since I was miraculously cured from RA joints pain.

The doctor told me that he and his brother were certified doctors who is near retirement. He has Phd and can easily do lecturing after retirement but thats mean he has to teach. He doesn't want that. So he spend a few hundred thousand doing Homeopathy course in Germany. Since he was a full fledged doctor he was exempted for 2 years and only did 2 and half years.
He came back nearly 8 years ago and it was not an easy start as no one believes in homeopathy. He did it not out of money..he did it because he is happy in helping others. He said he is so happy when I messaged him that my RA pain was 80% gone in a few days.

I told him i m also not doing this for money. I just turned down a big corporate job..I want to find something that fit with my life style of yoga and wellness seems to be it.
I also shared about my visit to the 6 star resorts, the owner who wanted to have a wellness sanctuary and the construction/fishing/fruit trees caretaker.
It is all about passion to do whatever needed in the change of career.
I am not sure if I am really passionate.

He said this journey is not easy...because not many believed in homeopathy.
I said I am promoter and I know I can easily promote Homeopathy as I am cured from it.
My issue is now to gather the knowledge.
He said I can start to learn at the side..and to sell Homeopathy medicine as I can get the supply from him. I said I want to have the proper knowledge and I am willing to invest time to learn.
He said i can learn from single remedy and then further expand.
Yes, I told him thats my tot too..to start from RA and then Osteoarthritis and later Ezcema

today card in Saturn
My Daily Card
The Ace of Spades

The Ace of Spades means a SECRET of some kind. This card was the emblem for many of the secret societies of old, being the 'key to the mysteries'. As such, it represents the 'truth that lies behind the veil of illusion'. So, it has often been the symbol for the study and pursuit of esoteric knowledge and mystical wisdoms.

The Ace of Spades is also one of the traditional cards for death, change and transformation. With this mystical card in your spread, it is certain that you will go through some sort of death and rebirth, or at the least, some important and powerful changes.

Another facet of the Ace of Spades is the desire for work. Since all Aces represent new beginnings, the Ace of Spades can come up when we are preparing to launch a new job or occupation.

Soul
Well, I am definitely looking into it.
Homeopathy doctor said it is tough battle...as there is a lack of positive communication. It took a few years for them to build their clientele and mostly only rich one can afford their medication, so the base is low.

Suddenly recalled my next 7 years card..which is all about communication.
Then checked out some internet news..yes..many against Homeopathy. No wonder the doctor asked others to read his articles before coming to see him.

Destiny Age 49 to 55

Long range
Two of Clubs (communications, fear and arguing)
Partnership involved in some Mercury related activities that will play a major role.
Mercury rules written and spoken words and all kinds of mental activities
Studying, teaching, writings, publishing and advertising all falls under his jurisdiction.
Watch out for impatience and a quick temper to get the best results.
U will be wanting to share tots and ideas with other and thus will probably attract a lot of other people in ur life.

North Node in the eleventh house

Jul 30 aft 1

North node in the eleventh house life issues include friendships, your relationship to groups who work toward a cause, and your hopes and dreams. It also has to do with your adopted (step, or foster) children, and receiving love in new ways.

Something you should know. An eleventh house soul mission is often revealed through a painful blow to the ego around a love affair. If this happens, know that this was meant to open you up to a more rational view. By willingly seeking a relationship of equals, your love life will also bloom.

Soul
Well the break up with Z definitely was a big blow to my ego; hence it was so difficult for me to accept that it happens
Seven of Hearts life time challenge.
Well, can't say Z was my equal after Y. Even Y not my equal.

Osho tarot cards - true

Jul 30 aft
My Daily Card
The King of Spades

The King of Spades is the final, and most powerful card in the deck, representing both mastery of one's environment and one's self. Whenever this card appears you can bet that you will experience good fortune and results.

It is especially good for legal matters and business but can be applied to any area of life for success. It is truly the card of 'success in all things' but brings the most blessings to those who are ready and willing to take responsibility for their life and work and who can take a leadership position in their work. Remember this is a King we are talking about and every King has a kingdom.

Be prepared to take a leadership role and to live by your own wisdom when this potent card appears. Success is yours for the taking, but you have to stand up and claim it.


soul
Today I took charge.
I go for what makes me happy instead of what I am fearful of.
Whats makes me happy is said no to the job.
Others may have a better time if I take up the job..but I will be the unhappy one.
No more going for validation by others..just need my own validation.
No more making myself sad.


This week card
Issue - Integration
The conflict is in man. Unless it is resolved there, it cannot be resolved anywhere else. The politics is within you; it is between the two parts of the mind. A very small bridge exists. If that bridge is broken through some accident, through some physiological defect or something else, the person becomes split, the person becomes two persons and the phenomenon of schizophrenia or split personality happens. 

If the bridge is broken - and the bridge is very fragile - then you become two, you behave like two persons.

Soul
I am finally integrated.
Saying no to the past..saying no to what used to validate me.

2. Internal influences that you are unaware
Control
Controlled persons are always nervous because deep down turmoil is still hidden. If you are uncontrolled, flowing, alive, then you are not nervous. There is no question of being nervous - whatsoever happens, happens. You have no expectations for the future, you are not performing.

Soul
Saying no to fear of financial security
Saying no to what makes me unhappy.
Saying yes to to the unknown, to the uncertain..saying yes to Devi.


4. What’s needed for resolution?
Miser

The moment you start clinging to things, you have missed the target--you have missed. Because things are not the target, you, your innermost being, is the target--not a beautiful house, but a beautiful you; not much money, but a rich you; not many things, but an open being, available to millions of things.


Whatever you're holding on to, remember that you can't take it with you. Loosen your grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.

Soul
No more letting fear of financial security guides my life.
No more letting fear guide me

5. Resolution

Existence
You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That's what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss you. The stars and sun and moon, the trees and birds and earth - everything in the universe will feel a small place is vacant which cannot be filled by anybody except you. 

This gives you a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that you are related to existence, and existence cares for you. Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.
This naked figure sits on the lotus leaf of perfection, gazing at the beauty of the night sky. She knows that "home" is not a physical place in the outside world, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance. The stars, the rocks, the trees, the flowers, fish and birds - all are our brothers and sisters in this dance of life. We human beings tend to forget this, as we pursue our own private agendas and believe we must fight to get what we need. But ultimately, our sense of separateness is just an illusion, manufactured by the narrow preoccupations of the mind. 

Now is the time to look at whether you are allowing yourself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling "at "home" wherever you are. If you are, be sure to take time to savor it so it can deepen and remain with you. If on the other hand you've been feeling like the world is out to get you, it's time to take a break. Go outside tonight and look at the stars.

Soul
No more fighting to secure myself
I let the Universe secure me
I let Devi protect me
No need to protect myself.

Decision no more from fear based

Jul 30

Yesterday again receive offer to join the ex-company. The one I quit as I couldn't handle the work pressure and long hours and domineering boss.
For a moment, I tot I may accept the offer due to me wanting more money.
Tot of working for a few years so can pay off my condo loan commitment.
Drove back and when I reached home, I knew that I am not happy if I go.
I m only considering due to fear of financial security,
I just sit with the Devi, listening to Sadhguru chant and transported to Devi's temple.

Had a good sleep, woke up before alarm around 4 plus.
When I woke up I knew that I want to make my decision on being happy, not ruled by fear.
I want money and Devi will bring me new ways to make money.
So will tell my boss that I won't be going for the potential offer.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
My right elbow is bit painful due to the 'odd muscle growth'. All these years I tot it was due to the wrongly joint of ulna and radius but Homeopathy doctor said it is due to abnormal growth. He said I m lucky that I can move my hand normally.
Yogaasanas was quite good. Laughing during the one leg lifting up. On the two legs, managed to breathe longer. As for the rest, I didn't hold up too well.
Plough back is very good
61 points awareness meditation..was bit off..can't focus..just feel good.

Breathing meditation was something else. I was aware of my inner presence. I felt my body was a casing. The presence is ground.

Shakti was good...but bit fast on Kapala Bhakti.
Singing opening invocation at the end of Shakti.

Shambavi is quite okay.
Just feeling the silence presence within.

So glad that I read the age 49 to 55.
I am ready to leave my fear of financial security.

Displacement in Age 49 to 55 (Ruling)
Nine of Spades (loss of jobs, poor health, death, a major ending of some component of our lifestyle)

This is likely to be a crucial year for u in which a major chapter of ur life comes to an end. Some aspects of ur life has reached a point of fulfilment and now must be swept away to make room for new cycle of growth and opportunity.
Be prepared and open to endings in most any area and you will be less likely to suffer the disappointment and frustration generally associated with this card.

Often health matters comes into play with this powerful card. If u have any negative habits that affect ur health adversely, there is a very good chance that these habits will have to be cleared out by this year. In many cases, it can be a matter of life or death - get rid of the bad habits or else.
But for those who are aware of themselves, there will be no surprises and the endings will be seen as the next stage in their evolutionary journey.

Another common manifestation of this card is loss of job or the death of one more people close to us. In any of these cases, regardless of how unfair they may seems to us at the time, whatever is lost was not really a part of us that was good for us anymore.
It is only the fear of the unknown that keeps us clinging on to jobs, rships and other things that we know inside are not good for us. We would rather suffer with the familiar than have to face an uncertain future.

But when the Nine of Spades come along, major housecleaning will occur. Just what areas of ur life are affected, whether it be work, health, lifestyle or rships, will depend upon ur personal circumstances. Life is an always-changing phenomenon and though we are attached to things the way they are, everything must evolve and grow eventually.
This year marks important graduation year for u.
U have come a long way with things they way they are and have now progressed far enough that u are ready for a new future.
All that remains is to clear out the old to make way for the new.

Soul
I am so glad that I m going to Ashram.
Devi will guide me to whatever new ways to make money.





Sadhguru - sadhana is to provoke your energies

Jul 29

Soul
Bit disappointed that Y doesn't allow his brass Sannidhi to be borrowed. He said can only removed during house shift. Then must do the full moon Pooja. I recalled Ashram said it is good to have Pooja on those days but not mandatory. Also he was the one that said Sannidhi not good to be shared. For me, Sannidhi is also a tool.

I m so glad I decided not to be attached to my Sannidhi. After yesterday Pooja I knew that Sadhguru will be with me wherever I am. My experience of Sathsang becoming more awesome after Sannidhi. My aim is to be a consecrated body myself.
So seeing Y so attached to Sannidhi makes me glad that I made decisions to go to local Guru purnima.

http://www.ishafoundation.org/us/blog/yoga-for-flexibility-of-body-and-mind/
Sadhguru

Since you are not willing to surrender your will, we are prodding you through this sadhana [spiritual practices] to provoke your energies. That is why the path of asana and kriya. Since you are not able to do it by yourself, just activate creation itself in a certain way. If it begins to move, it settles everything. It is like a flood; your centuries-old world is wiped away in only a few hours of fury. So your sadhana is not about getting somewhere. It is just a way, a method to unleash a flood so enormous that it wipes away your petty creations and leaves you as the Creator intended you to be.”