Jan 9
Shakti chalana Kriya
Woke up before alarm, there was a loud noise coming from neighbour hot water system.
Later woke up finally upon alarm at 7 am, saw the sky still very dark. Decide to doze back but body is fresh, so woke up at 7.16 am.
Just feel so blessed that I need not work today. Amen.
Did Angamardhana. The squatting down postures still not okay. Couldn't lift my feet out yet. The lying down postures were good, almost effortless. The hero posture also very good, no more pain. Was singing and dancing.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya with good alignment.
Breathing meditation was lovely. Sat for a long while. Had to stop so can do other practices.
Shakti was great today. Quite focused on Kapala Bhakti. The amazing thing was there was no pain on my feet. It is normally totally numb by end of the session as I no longer do rest in between posture. Today, it was not numb, infact both feets feels quite light. It was incredible, as if I haven't been sitting on the
Shambavi was good. Can see that when I do my left baby rock, my buttock is moving.
Try to correct it but still moving a bit. The slight correction helps in getting deeper into meditation mode.
Lovely Shambavi
Amen
Today card.
My Daily Card
The Four of Clubs
The Four of Clubs is the card of mental satisfaction and stability. Whenever this card appears, you can bet that you will experience some mental peace for a while. Any sort of mental occupation you may be involved in will benefit from this stabilizing and practical influence.
This is a good time to make plans for the future since you are thinking clearer than ever. This card brings organizational ability and the ability to achieve a solid foundation of knowledge about a particular subject. Just watch out for a tendency towards fixed mental attitudes that might alienate you from others.
Soul
Amen..
Now getting mostly 4.
Just as I felt bit anxious when I first has less work to do. I was feeling worried that I lost my valuation, my worth.
Then after one or two months, I got comfortable. Main thing is not to fill it back with the past or antother activity.
So the same here, I truly not keen in volunteering. The only reason I volunteer is because I enjoy spending times with my Isha friends.
So, for now, just focus back on my writing and website.
Resist the urge to go back to the past.
Amen.
Just feel so blessed that I got 2 days off to do whatever I want.
Doing sadhana is important to me.
Doing my pooja is important to me.
Amen, feeling so blessed.
Friday, January 30, 2015
Saturday, January 24, 2015
North Node in Taurus - loyalty in relationship
Jan 8
Didn't sleep well. The special foot cream cause some itchiness when I put them on my knees. Also my nephew cries.
So at 3.48 am alarm, I woke up reluctantly. Body was fine despite not sleeping well. But mind was chatting. Wanted to doze but body is awake. So just got up after 3 or 4 minutes of pondering. Main thing was I didn't do Angamardhana on last Tuesday so should not miss this too.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angamardhana was quite good especially the lying down asanas. Also hero postures no longer painful.
Surya Kriya good feet alignment.
Breathing was okay.
Shakti was good and focused.
Shambavi was nice.
North node in Taurus by Jan Spiller
Loyalty in rship
Loyalty and commitment are very important to them.
They are learning that loyalty between two people in a rship is based on both people being loyal to themselves. They need to establish a bond of loyalty to self before they can expect to be loyal to another in a healthy way. For example, loyalty to self implies honestly communicating; "I don't feel comfortable with this" rather than invalidating personal needs to adapt to the partner. It implies taking a position of integrity - based on an inner feeling of what is correct - standing in one place, rather than standing in different places depending on where the most validation seems likely.
Through living their own values, these folks allow the right person to respond to them and support them. This means being willing to risk losing their partner. If they remain true to themselves, honestly revealing what their inner conflict level is telling them, either the person will validate them by coming closer or the other will leave and make room for someone more appropriate.
This is one of the most effective ways they can take care of the needy part within; discovering for themselves what their needs are, acknowledging that those needs are important and then clearly communicating those needs to see how the other person responds.
The idea is to move the give-and-take of rships out of the realm of expectations and into the realm of open disclosure, verbalising what is important as the rship progresses. Then they can determine whether both partners want to meet each other needs and make each other happy on the consistent basis that they need.
Soul
Amen.
I did do that with Y and we ended separate way soon cos Y is not into me due to different race and I m much older than him. Found out that his mother is just two years older than me. She married young.
North node in Taurus
Sometimes they are afraid to reveal what they need for fear of appearing selfish. Actually when they don't reveal what they want, they deprive of their partner of the opportunity to make them happy. Also if they don't communicate their boundaries and let others know what they need, people begin to lose respect for them.
Soul
With Z, I communicate my boundary of no children and need for financial security but I didn't communicate I want to be married to him back then.
Never mind, after my experience with Y, I knew Z not meant for me. Apart from physical compatibility I need mental compatibly for long term rship.
Didn't sleep well. The special foot cream cause some itchiness when I put them on my knees. Also my nephew cries.
So at 3.48 am alarm, I woke up reluctantly. Body was fine despite not sleeping well. But mind was chatting. Wanted to doze but body is awake. So just got up after 3 or 4 minutes of pondering. Main thing was I didn't do Angamardhana on last Tuesday so should not miss this too.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angamardhana was quite good especially the lying down asanas. Also hero postures no longer painful.
Surya Kriya good feet alignment.
Breathing was okay.
Shakti was good and focused.
Shambavi was nice.
North node in Taurus by Jan Spiller
Loyalty in rship
Loyalty and commitment are very important to them.
They are learning that loyalty between two people in a rship is based on both people being loyal to themselves. They need to establish a bond of loyalty to self before they can expect to be loyal to another in a healthy way. For example, loyalty to self implies honestly communicating; "I don't feel comfortable with this" rather than invalidating personal needs to adapt to the partner. It implies taking a position of integrity - based on an inner feeling of what is correct - standing in one place, rather than standing in different places depending on where the most validation seems likely.
Through living their own values, these folks allow the right person to respond to them and support them. This means being willing to risk losing their partner. If they remain true to themselves, honestly revealing what their inner conflict level is telling them, either the person will validate them by coming closer or the other will leave and make room for someone more appropriate.
This is one of the most effective ways they can take care of the needy part within; discovering for themselves what their needs are, acknowledging that those needs are important and then clearly communicating those needs to see how the other person responds.
The idea is to move the give-and-take of rships out of the realm of expectations and into the realm of open disclosure, verbalising what is important as the rship progresses. Then they can determine whether both partners want to meet each other needs and make each other happy on the consistent basis that they need.
Soul
Amen.
I did do that with Y and we ended separate way soon cos Y is not into me due to different race and I m much older than him. Found out that his mother is just two years older than me. She married young.
North node in Taurus
Sometimes they are afraid to reveal what they need for fear of appearing selfish. Actually when they don't reveal what they want, they deprive of their partner of the opportunity to make them happy. Also if they don't communicate their boundaries and let others know what they need, people begin to lose respect for them.
Soul
With Z, I communicate my boundary of no children and need for financial security but I didn't communicate I want to be married to him back then.
Never mind, after my experience with Y, I knew Z not meant for me. Apart from physical compatibility I need mental compatibly for long term rship.
Friday, January 23, 2015
Sadhguru on Devi (Linga Bhairavi)
Jan 7 eve
Soul
Just did my pooja. No tears just feel good. Soaking in Sadhguru presence.
Then after pooja, did one cycle of Devi Struthi. Go on the posture and immediately tears flowed. I start to cry for quite some time. Me missing for my unknown partner, guess the last two days of meeting two friends with their partners brought out the longing in me.
After the tears, feel okay.
Did cat stretch followed by a short breathing meditation. Then did Samyama meditation. I still got it. Only did for 15 min though. Have stopped doing Samyama for about a year ever since I got my shrine.
Alas finished with Bhuta Shuddi. Feels good. Feel I m back. Truly missed my evening sadhana the last two days.
Amen.
Sadhguru on Devi
If you are deeply in love with a strong energy form, there is a certain sweetness in your life. No matter what happens to you, this devotion will create a steady pleasantness within.
When you try to keep your mind unwavering on a simple textbook for a few minutes, your mind goes into so many places.
But if you fall in love with the person next door, your mind is always on that – without effort.
Bhakti is just like that, without effort, you have fallen deeply in love with a strong energy form. Now, this human being is no more human, he will live as the Divine.
Soul
Just did my pooja. No tears just feel good. Soaking in Sadhguru presence.
Then after pooja, did one cycle of Devi Struthi. Go on the posture and immediately tears flowed. I start to cry for quite some time. Me missing for my unknown partner, guess the last two days of meeting two friends with their partners brought out the longing in me.
After the tears, feel okay.
Did cat stretch followed by a short breathing meditation. Then did Samyama meditation. I still got it. Only did for 15 min though. Have stopped doing Samyama for about a year ever since I got my shrine.
Alas finished with Bhuta Shuddi. Feels good. Feel I m back. Truly missed my evening sadhana the last two days.
Amen.
Sadhguru on Devi
If you are deeply in love with a strong energy form, there is a certain sweetness in your life. No matter what happens to you, this devotion will create a steady pleasantness within.
When you try to keep your mind unwavering on a simple textbook for a few minutes, your mind goes into so many places.
But if you fall in love with the person next door, your mind is always on that – without effort.
Bhakti is just like that, without effort, you have fallen deeply in love with a strong energy form. Now, this human being is no more human, he will live as the Divine.
North Node in Taurus - when we are 'full', we can be objective
Jan 7 aft
North node in Taurus
If they get in touch with what is really important to them and clearly represent those values, they will attract people who truly resonate with them.
They need stability not crisis. To achieve this in the context of rship. If the partner says something that they are not comfortable with, they can let her know; "I am not comfortable with that.
In this way, they make the other people aware of their boundaries, giving the partner an opportunity to accommodate them and come into alignment with what they need. As the rships evolves, it will become apparent whether this or not this person is an appropriate partner.
Soul
Yes. Instead of always letting others evaluate me, I must set my boundary and evaluate them.
North node in Taurus
To achieve successful long term rships, they need first to recognise that their energy is enough - they can live off their own energy. As long as they feel incomplete they will continue to attract people who also have low self esteem.
But without untamed neediness driving them, they can take the time to discover whose energy will actually increase them and bring them joy.
Soul
Amen.
North node in Taurus
If they get in touch with what is really important to them and clearly represent those values, they will attract people who truly resonate with them.
They need stability not crisis. To achieve this in the context of rship. If the partner says something that they are not comfortable with, they can let her know; "I am not comfortable with that.
In this way, they make the other people aware of their boundaries, giving the partner an opportunity to accommodate them and come into alignment with what they need. As the rships evolves, it will become apparent whether this or not this person is an appropriate partner.
Soul
Yes. Instead of always letting others evaluate me, I must set my boundary and evaluate them.
North node in Taurus
To achieve successful long term rships, they need first to recognise that their energy is enough - they can live off their own energy. As long as they feel incomplete they will continue to attract people who also have low self esteem.
But without untamed neediness driving them, they can take the time to discover whose energy will actually increase them and bring them joy.
Soul
Amen.
The past is over, sometimes we cling on
Jan 7
Visited Y and his wife at their home.
I was surprised but there is no sadness.
Just happy to see them together.
Also knowing that Y was never meant to be.
Came back feeling bit tired, light the shrine but didn't spend time with them.
Sleep immediately and woke up at 7 am upon alarm.
But I was feeling bit sleep. So just slept back and let body decides.
Woke up at 7.37 am.
Sang guru pooja followed by Yogaasanas.
I am now getting much better on the lying down (front) asanas. I can hold the posture much longer.
The lying down (back) with legs lifted up was already good and now I can hold the two feet at 45 degree at 20 breathe count. Amazing.
As for the 61 point awareness meditation...so lovely.
Just using my awareness to touch my body...feel pleasurable...so ease..
Shakti was good...but suddenly tots of local Isha meeting this week, again I was not invited.
Feeling of being left out, being snubbed come to pix. Feeling of anger towards P for snubbing me. Tots that she deliberately keep me out and etc...Many negative tots..
Tots of P being my friend but don't even share about this or tell me that she exclude me...But then I remember, she is not my close friend..she is not..with that the feeling of being hurt just melt off..
I only remembered that I truly don't want to join the local Isha.
My intention of going is more for friendship..and fear of losing validation..which was already lost anyway. Time to accept that it is truly over with local Isha.
All these tots during Kapala Bhakti...so despite the many tots..I was singing at the end.
Shambavi was good...
Toward the end sitting in silent contentment..and then I cried a bit..feeling lost..but also feeling loved...
Amen.
This just another affirmation that it has ended.
Today card
My Daily Card
The Nine of Spades
The Nine of Spades can be a card of loss and disappointment. However, the true nature of the card reveals that its presence in your life for any period of time does not have to be a disaster. In actuality, the Nine of Spades represents making a completion of some importance. Whether this is the end of a certain occupation, way of life, or way of being with your health and body will depend upon the position of the card and the circumstances in your life at the time. But rest assured that some important aspect of your life is coming to an end when this potent card shows up.
This is also one of the death cards and indeed, when this card shows up there will be a death in your life of some kind. We go through many mini-deaths in the course of our lifetime and just like the snake shedding its skin, arrive at a new and better place each time we do so. Therefore the Nine of Spades is not a card to be feared but instead a card to be welcomed. It always has the ability to clear away all the unwanted and useless debris in our life and put us back on a new course where we are much more enlivened and satisfied.
Soul
Amen.
Visited Y and his wife at their home.
I was surprised but there is no sadness.
Just happy to see them together.
Also knowing that Y was never meant to be.
Came back feeling bit tired, light the shrine but didn't spend time with them.
Sleep immediately and woke up at 7 am upon alarm.
But I was feeling bit sleep. So just slept back and let body decides.
Woke up at 7.37 am.
Sang guru pooja followed by Yogaasanas.
I am now getting much better on the lying down (front) asanas. I can hold the posture much longer.
The lying down (back) with legs lifted up was already good and now I can hold the two feet at 45 degree at 20 breathe count. Amazing.
As for the 61 point awareness meditation...so lovely.
Just using my awareness to touch my body...feel pleasurable...so ease..
Shakti was good...but suddenly tots of local Isha meeting this week, again I was not invited.
Feeling of being left out, being snubbed come to pix. Feeling of anger towards P for snubbing me. Tots that she deliberately keep me out and etc...Many negative tots..
Tots of P being my friend but don't even share about this or tell me that she exclude me...But then I remember, she is not my close friend..she is not..with that the feeling of being hurt just melt off..
I only remembered that I truly don't want to join the local Isha.
My intention of going is more for friendship..and fear of losing validation..which was already lost anyway. Time to accept that it is truly over with local Isha.
All these tots during Kapala Bhakti...so despite the many tots..I was singing at the end.
Shambavi was good...
Toward the end sitting in silent contentment..and then I cried a bit..feeling lost..but also feeling loved...
Amen.
This just another affirmation that it has ended.
Today card
My Daily Card
The Nine of Spades
The Nine of Spades can be a card of loss and disappointment. However, the true nature of the card reveals that its presence in your life for any period of time does not have to be a disaster. In actuality, the Nine of Spades represents making a completion of some importance. Whether this is the end of a certain occupation, way of life, or way of being with your health and body will depend upon the position of the card and the circumstances in your life at the time. But rest assured that some important aspect of your life is coming to an end when this potent card shows up.
This is also one of the death cards and indeed, when this card shows up there will be a death in your life of some kind. We go through many mini-deaths in the course of our lifetime and just like the snake shedding its skin, arrive at a new and better place each time we do so. Therefore the Nine of Spades is not a card to be feared but instead a card to be welcomed. It always has the ability to clear away all the unwanted and useless debris in our life and put us back on a new course where we are much more enlivened and satisfied.
Soul
Amen.
Having empathy
Jan 6 eve
Just had an unexpected counselling session with my colleague.
A few weeks ago, I hold back sharing my feedback on her not showing up at meeting. Not sure how to share without hurting her feelings especially since I can't see her good side.
Today, as she was going thru some work stuff with me. I suddenly see that her appearing as 'uncertain' is not 'true'. She just thinking out aloud and she need to have the whole pix before she feel okay on giving her point of view.
I told her that I understand her and in her line of work and at her seniority, she is required to give her point of view, as that is the saleable factor,
I also said that her situation further compounded as she looks so confident and hence people already had an expectation of her giving them a point of view and when she didn't, it become double disappointment.
I can then shared that her strength is viewed as weakness due to her line of work. She just need to present herself in the right way, give her point of view, but qualify it if necessary. Hope she can make her way through.
Just had an unexpected counselling session with my colleague.
A few weeks ago, I hold back sharing my feedback on her not showing up at meeting. Not sure how to share without hurting her feelings especially since I can't see her good side.
Today, as she was going thru some work stuff with me. I suddenly see that her appearing as 'uncertain' is not 'true'. She just thinking out aloud and she need to have the whole pix before she feel okay on giving her point of view.
I told her that I understand her and in her line of work and at her seniority, she is required to give her point of view, as that is the saleable factor,
I also said that her situation further compounded as she looks so confident and hence people already had an expectation of her giving them a point of view and when she didn't, it become double disappointment.
I can then shared that her strength is viewed as weakness due to her line of work. She just need to present herself in the right way, give her point of view, but qualify it if necessary. Hope she can make her way through.
North Node in Taurus - waiting for mate
Jan 6
Woke up around 3 am, throat was too dry. Slept back and woke upon alarm at 4.30 am but feeling sleepy so I slept back and wake up 4.53 am.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Then later one cycle of Surya Kriya. Breathing meditation was good.
Shakti was deep and focused. Shambavi was nice.
North node in Taurus
Other sensual experiences that are good 'karma' for these folks include giving or receiving a massage or being pampered with a manicure, facial, body wrap and etc. When they spend time giving themselves physical rewards and sensual pleasure, they won't need much from others.
Soul
Always enjoyed massage, facial and manicure.
The gang all wanted to do sadhana on Sunday morning. I told them nope cos that's my Sabbatical day. Besides I enjoy the walk in the park and having breakfast with my mom.
Yesterday was full moon, so switched the Cd on Sadhguru shatakam. So nice. Then I chant Linga Struthi for 3 cycles as promised. Later I did the lying down posture and tears fall unexpectedly. Then I knew I was feeling sad that my partner not with me. I cried for my partner and wished he already has a Linga yantra and when we combined, we have the whole ashram with us. Tears flowed.
Then a tot came. I am glad that I have my shrine. Besides if I wanted Linga yantra, I can get on my own. Need not depend on anyone for what I want. With that the tears stopped.
North node in Taurus
They are born looking for their soul mates. Their challenge in this life time is to focus less on bonding and more on building their own values - then they will attract the right mate.
Soul
That's explain my wish for a partner despite passing my prime age, despite everything.
North node in Taurus
From past lives, these folks are accustomed to giving everything and having the other reciprocate. But in this incarnation, much to the native's surprise, it's not in their charts for others to take care of them in the same co-dependent way. This is the universe's way of helping them to break abusive co-dependency and learn to be more self-contained.
Soul
No wonder life time challenge of Seven of Hearts.
So true. I gave to Z, Y and P. Alas no return.
North node in Taurus
Deep in their hearts, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel with through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment.
To have this dream come true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them whole, only then they can attract the right partner.
Soul
A tall order.
North node in Taurus
They feel acutely lonely sometimes, aching for their mate. They long for the comfort of consistent, dependable companionship and this is a lifetime where loyal companionship is their birthright. But as with everything else in this incarnation, they must earn it.
As they work to experience their own wholeness and direction and become a powerful river in their own right, they can merge with another powerful river that is going in the same direction and together they can flow to the sea.
Soul
Sounds hopeful but I m way pass my prime age.
For now my shrine is the loyal companion.
Woke up around 3 am, throat was too dry. Slept back and woke upon alarm at 4.30 am but feeling sleepy so I slept back and wake up 4.53 am.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Then later one cycle of Surya Kriya. Breathing meditation was good.
Shakti was deep and focused. Shambavi was nice.
North node in Taurus
Other sensual experiences that are good 'karma' for these folks include giving or receiving a massage or being pampered with a manicure, facial, body wrap and etc. When they spend time giving themselves physical rewards and sensual pleasure, they won't need much from others.
Soul
Always enjoyed massage, facial and manicure.
The gang all wanted to do sadhana on Sunday morning. I told them nope cos that's my Sabbatical day. Besides I enjoy the walk in the park and having breakfast with my mom.
Yesterday was full moon, so switched the Cd on Sadhguru shatakam. So nice. Then I chant Linga Struthi for 3 cycles as promised. Later I did the lying down posture and tears fall unexpectedly. Then I knew I was feeling sad that my partner not with me. I cried for my partner and wished he already has a Linga yantra and when we combined, we have the whole ashram with us. Tears flowed.
Then a tot came. I am glad that I have my shrine. Besides if I wanted Linga yantra, I can get on my own. Need not depend on anyone for what I want. With that the tears stopped.
North node in Taurus
They are born looking for their soul mates. Their challenge in this life time is to focus less on bonding and more on building their own values - then they will attract the right mate.
Soul
That's explain my wish for a partner despite passing my prime age, despite everything.
North node in Taurus
From past lives, these folks are accustomed to giving everything and having the other reciprocate. But in this incarnation, much to the native's surprise, it's not in their charts for others to take care of them in the same co-dependent way. This is the universe's way of helping them to break abusive co-dependency and learn to be more self-contained.
Soul
No wonder life time challenge of Seven of Hearts.
So true. I gave to Z, Y and P. Alas no return.
North node in Taurus
Deep in their hearts, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel with through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment.
To have this dream come true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them whole, only then they can attract the right partner.
Soul
A tall order.
North node in Taurus
They feel acutely lonely sometimes, aching for their mate. They long for the comfort of consistent, dependable companionship and this is a lifetime where loyal companionship is their birthright. But as with everything else in this incarnation, they must earn it.
As they work to experience their own wholeness and direction and become a powerful river in their own right, they can merge with another powerful river that is going in the same direction and together they can flow to the sea.
Soul
Sounds hopeful but I m way pass my prime age.
For now my shrine is the loyal companion.
North Node in Taurus - appreciation
Jan 5 aft 1
North node in Taurus
Grounding
They spent so many incarnations enmeshed in the bonded energy field between themselves and others that they have lost touch with their sense of physical grounding. Being in touch with their bodies and enjoying the physical aspect of life.
Appreciation
They need to consciously evoke the feeling of appreciation. This practice alone will make a significant difference in their lives. Their consciousness was geared to crisis management and they have an addiction to excitement. Their desire was never satisfied, always wanting more.
Soul
Mmm. That's the Ace of Diamonds.
Now I am grounded. Especially after stopping plough back (queen of asanas). Sadhguru said when once changed the sequence of asanas, the person becomes disjointed and can't feel grateful for anything good that happen in their life. they always feel a lack...and keep searching.
Thank to Sannidhi, I have stopped
I feel much more grounded. I feel more appreciative of the life I have now.
Anyway, on Pe's house, above my budget. Don't want to hold for such big commitment now that I m semi retired.
North node in Taurus
To balance overactive desire in this incarnation they need to exercise the antidote, which is appreciation for what they already have. As they feel gratitude for what life has already brought them, they relax and feel peaceful and loved. The energy of appreciation pulls them back into themselves and when they are centered in this way, they open to life bringing them more.
As they take time to appreciate what they do have - with openness and feeling - they begin to experience the fullness of love inside them, which replaces the agitation they have so often felt.
Soul
Mmmm. That's Law of Attraction. Time for Kapalvriksha.
Thank Amen.
North node in Taurus
Grounding
They spent so many incarnations enmeshed in the bonded energy field between themselves and others that they have lost touch with their sense of physical grounding. Being in touch with their bodies and enjoying the physical aspect of life.
Appreciation
They need to consciously evoke the feeling of appreciation. This practice alone will make a significant difference in their lives. Their consciousness was geared to crisis management and they have an addiction to excitement. Their desire was never satisfied, always wanting more.
Soul
Mmm. That's the Ace of Diamonds.
Now I am grounded. Especially after stopping plough back (queen of asanas). Sadhguru said when once changed the sequence of asanas, the person becomes disjointed and can't feel grateful for anything good that happen in their life. they always feel a lack...and keep searching.
Thank to Sannidhi, I have stopped
I feel much more grounded. I feel more appreciative of the life I have now.
Anyway, on Pe's house, above my budget. Don't want to hold for such big commitment now that I m semi retired.
North node in Taurus
To balance overactive desire in this incarnation they need to exercise the antidote, which is appreciation for what they already have. As they feel gratitude for what life has already brought them, they relax and feel peaceful and loved. The energy of appreciation pulls them back into themselves and when they are centered in this way, they open to life bringing them more.
As they take time to appreciate what they do have - with openness and feeling - they begin to experience the fullness of love inside them, which replaces the agitation they have so often felt.
Soul
Mmmm. That's Law of Attraction. Time for Kapalvriksha.
Thank Amen.
North Node in Taurus - taking back their power.
Jan 5 aft
Jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
Honouring needs.
They have denied and postponed their own needs in so many incarnations that now their neediness is over energised.
They cannot hope to experience truth and harmony in human rships if they do not demonstrate this neediness in their own lives.
This includes no sins of omissions ( for example letting what someone says pass by without acknowledging feeling of hurt, or pretending to be in agreement.
Soul
Definitely now more expressive.
Suddenly tot that not only I suppressed in personal. I also suppressed in professional in terms of remuneration.
North node in Taurus
To discern and build healthy new patterns of behavior, they must release the old. Self-revelation will enable others to see who they really are, discern their needs and help them further their aims.
They can see clearly how others "shoot themselves in the foot", but they can't see how they themselves do it. Worse, they strongly resist feedback about their own subconscious
motivated.
To progress in this lifetime, they must bring into awareness - and release - subconscious guilt and self defeating behavior.
Part of their resistance to help stems from the fact that they are accustomed to being the ones doing the helping. They are to allow others to empower them for a change.
Soul
This year 2014/15 Ruling denotes the change. The new me.
Long Range
Ace of Clubs
U will have strong desire for knowledge of some kinds and that new plans, ideas and form of communication could have a major impact on u.
This is a powerful indicator of new beginnings in many areas of ur life.
Ur natural curiosity is heightened this year and this could lead u into many new ideas, concepts, beliefs and ways of communicating. With all the passion of this 'one energy', try to stay relaxed.
Pluto
Queen of Spades
Somehow connected to ur result card you are attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within, a greater level of organisational ability or both. Self mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It is knowing u can have everything u want, not by changing the world but by changing yourself.
U will have to work hard this year and possibly doing work that u find somewhat distasteful.
Affirmation
I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, ideas, and concepts of the world. I become the master of myself.
Result
Nine of Clubs
Much of ur challenges is to let go of outworn ideas, projects, plans or way of communicating. This is a year of completion that may at times seem like disappointing endings.
The Nine of Clubs says that u are completing a major chapter in ur life and it is time to move on to greener pastures.
Be open to spiritual wisdom in all forms, as this will help make change easier.
Affirmation
I complete projects this year and let go of the past. I broaden my understanding by releasing old ways of thinking.
Environment
Three of Hearts
Benefits will come this year through broadening the scope of ur personal or social relationships. A desire to express urself and ur feelings will bring many good things into ur life. This could be the year that u successfully add to ur list of personal contacts.
Remember to say what u feel.
North node in Taurus
A major turning point is when they focus time and energy on projects that are important to themselves, not being diverted by what they think is important to another person.
They are here to take back their power. When they stand in their power, they can afford to be loving and helpful to others.
There are no more battles to fight, noting more to give up, no part of themselves that has to be thrown away.
This is a building lifetime: building a sense of comfort through their connection with themselves.
Soul
Yes, my final cut with Local Isha was in this year. I begin to promote ISHA hata and Isha kriya on my own this year. No pressure, just doing my way and time.
Jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
Honouring needs.
They have denied and postponed their own needs in so many incarnations that now their neediness is over energised.
They cannot hope to experience truth and harmony in human rships if they do not demonstrate this neediness in their own lives.
This includes no sins of omissions ( for example letting what someone says pass by without acknowledging feeling of hurt, or pretending to be in agreement.
Soul
Definitely now more expressive.
Suddenly tot that not only I suppressed in personal. I also suppressed in professional in terms of remuneration.
North node in Taurus
To discern and build healthy new patterns of behavior, they must release the old. Self-revelation will enable others to see who they really are, discern their needs and help them further their aims.
They can see clearly how others "shoot themselves in the foot", but they can't see how they themselves do it. Worse, they strongly resist feedback about their own subconscious
motivated.
To progress in this lifetime, they must bring into awareness - and release - subconscious guilt and self defeating behavior.
Part of their resistance to help stems from the fact that they are accustomed to being the ones doing the helping. They are to allow others to empower them for a change.
Soul
This year 2014/15 Ruling denotes the change. The new me.
Long Range
Ace of Clubs
U will have strong desire for knowledge of some kinds and that new plans, ideas and form of communication could have a major impact on u.
This is a powerful indicator of new beginnings in many areas of ur life.
Ur natural curiosity is heightened this year and this could lead u into many new ideas, concepts, beliefs and ways of communicating. With all the passion of this 'one energy', try to stay relaxed.
Pluto
Queen of Spades
Somehow connected to ur result card you are attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within, a greater level of organisational ability or both. Self mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It is knowing u can have everything u want, not by changing the world but by changing yourself.
U will have to work hard this year and possibly doing work that u find somewhat distasteful.
Affirmation
I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, ideas, and concepts of the world. I become the master of myself.
Result
Nine of Clubs
Much of ur challenges is to let go of outworn ideas, projects, plans or way of communicating. This is a year of completion that may at times seem like disappointing endings.
The Nine of Clubs says that u are completing a major chapter in ur life and it is time to move on to greener pastures.
Be open to spiritual wisdom in all forms, as this will help make change easier.
Affirmation
I complete projects this year and let go of the past. I broaden my understanding by releasing old ways of thinking.
Environment
Three of Hearts
Benefits will come this year through broadening the scope of ur personal or social relationships. A desire to express urself and ur feelings will bring many good things into ur life. This could be the year that u successfully add to ur list of personal contacts.
Remember to say what u feel.
North node in Taurus
A major turning point is when they focus time and energy on projects that are important to themselves, not being diverted by what they think is important to another person.
They are here to take back their power. When they stand in their power, they can afford to be loving and helpful to others.
There are no more battles to fight, noting more to give up, no part of themselves that has to be thrown away.
This is a building lifetime: building a sense of comfort through their connection with themselves.
Soul
Yes, my final cut with Local Isha was in this year. I begin to promote ISHA hata and Isha kriya on my own this year. No pressure, just doing my way and time.
North Node in Taurus - focus on the positive manifestation
Jan 5
Woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am. Feeling bit off but body seems okay. No pains.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angarmadhana was okay but the lying down posture was good. These days my legs feel much lighter. It is quite effortless to lift my legs. Guess the yogaasanas are good for me.
Surya Kriya was fine.
Shakti was good. Focused and deep.
Shambavi was good too. Able to have time to sit longer.
Mmm. Tot of buying the single storey house. But price not cheap. Not really in my range.
North node in Taurus
They sometimes lives on the dark side, suspecting others' motive and projecting evil (looking for it) on those around them. They will learn much about themselves by viewing the evil they see in others as a reflection of their own subconscious. Also when they look for evil, they become vulnerable to negative energy that holds them back.
To avoid being victimised by this tendency, their best bet is to stop focusing on the dark side I others and pay attention to the strength they are building in their own lives.
They need to be like a horse with blinders, focusing on the possible things they want to manifest. As they use their powerful psyches to focus on the Light, they will attract positive forces.
They will win if they remain true to the boundaries of their own comfort zone.
Soul
Mmm.
Thats my Seven of Clubs.
Ignore the negative, stay positive on my manifestation.
Woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am. Feeling bit off but body seems okay. No pains.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angarmadhana was okay but the lying down posture was good. These days my legs feel much lighter. It is quite effortless to lift my legs. Guess the yogaasanas are good for me.
Surya Kriya was fine.
Shakti was good. Focused and deep.
Shambavi was good too. Able to have time to sit longer.
Mmm. Tot of buying the single storey house. But price not cheap. Not really in my range.
North node in Taurus
They sometimes lives on the dark side, suspecting others' motive and projecting evil (looking for it) on those around them. They will learn much about themselves by viewing the evil they see in others as a reflection of their own subconscious. Also when they look for evil, they become vulnerable to negative energy that holds them back.
To avoid being victimised by this tendency, their best bet is to stop focusing on the dark side I others and pay attention to the strength they are building in their own lives.
They need to be like a horse with blinders, focusing on the possible things they want to manifest. As they use their powerful psyches to focus on the Light, they will attract positive forces.
They will win if they remain true to the boundaries of their own comfort zone.
Soul
Mmm.
Thats my Seven of Clubs.
Ignore the negative, stay positive on my manifestation.
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
North Node in Taurus - life path is to stand on their own
Jan 3 aft
Astrology for the Soul by Jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
The Achilles heel they need to be aware of its seeking worth through others, which can lead them into the trap of an unending search for soul mate.
Soul
Good reminder.
North node in Taurus
The challenge is to establish their own energy system and figure out who they are as individuals.
The bottom line is that at some point they must stop being enmeshed with others and involved in others' business and simply walk their own way.
Soul
It took me years, I walked away from cooperate career, from Local Isha. Now finally just be me.
I invited a few friends for pooja. All said nope. The old me would have reacted. The new me now okay with it. I invited cos I tot they will want to have Sannidhi energy. If they don't want, it has nothing to do with me.
Astrology for the Soul by Jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
The Achilles heel they need to be aware of its seeking worth through others, which can lead them into the trap of an unending search for soul mate.
Soul
Good reminder.
North node in Taurus
The challenge is to establish their own energy system and figure out who they are as individuals.
The bottom line is that at some point they must stop being enmeshed with others and involved in others' business and simply walk their own way.
Soul
It took me years, I walked away from cooperate career, from Local Isha. Now finally just be me.
I invited a few friends for pooja. All said nope. The old me would have reacted. The new me now okay with it. I invited cos I tot they will want to have Sannidhi energy. If they don't want, it has nothing to do with me.
I love you, Water
Jan 3
Woke up before 6 am, feeling wanting to sleep more.
Woke up upon alarm at 6.40 am. no more dozing for me. Its is not me.
Went to the pool. Feeling bit apprehensive but remind myself that I can chant Brahmananda to overcome my fear.
In the first half lap, just slowing swimming.
Then fear arise, and I start to chant Brahmananda...and laughter came.
I haven't laugh for the past 3 months in the pool since the fear of water came back after nearly 10 years.
Swam for another half lap, feeling much better..and then when I rested I chant Brahmanda a bit, suddenly an overwhelming feeling came over me. I felt such much love for the water. I told the water that I love them.
I love water. I am afraid of them but I love them.
I cried loads in the people and others are watching first. So, I got to stop and start to swim again.
this time I felt the swirl of the water caressing my body..I am enjoying them, savouring them. the water so pleasurable.
I chant again at next stop and tears fell again..crying loads. Never cried so much in the water.
This time crying because I am so grateful for the experience of loving the water.
didn't expect my fear of the water turn out to be my love.
Just as I fear Sadhguru, accepted it and finally fell in love with it.
Similar with the water..
Amen.
I love you, water
My Daily Card
The Five of Hearts
The Five of Hearts speaks of changes and restlessness in your heart which can manifest in many ways. At the deepest level, you will probably be feeling a dissatisfaction with your current relationship or home situation and desire some sort of change.
When this card appears there is always the chance of a separation or divorce with someone you love, but there is an equal possibility that you will be taking a trip or moving to a new home. The highest manifestation of this card is that of going out and meeting new people, telling others about what you are doing and who you are. You can make important contacts when this card is around.
Soul
today going to a party. Be meeting some new people.
Hope to be able to promote Isha hata yoga
Woke up before 6 am, feeling wanting to sleep more.
Woke up upon alarm at 6.40 am. no more dozing for me. Its is not me.
Went to the pool. Feeling bit apprehensive but remind myself that I can chant Brahmananda to overcome my fear.
In the first half lap, just slowing swimming.
Then fear arise, and I start to chant Brahmananda...and laughter came.
I haven't laugh for the past 3 months in the pool since the fear of water came back after nearly 10 years.
Swam for another half lap, feeling much better..and then when I rested I chant Brahmanda a bit, suddenly an overwhelming feeling came over me. I felt such much love for the water. I told the water that I love them.
I love water. I am afraid of them but I love them.
I cried loads in the people and others are watching first. So, I got to stop and start to swim again.
this time I felt the swirl of the water caressing my body..I am enjoying them, savouring them. the water so pleasurable.
I chant again at next stop and tears fell again..crying loads. Never cried so much in the water.
This time crying because I am so grateful for the experience of loving the water.
didn't expect my fear of the water turn out to be my love.
Just as I fear Sadhguru, accepted it and finally fell in love with it.
Similar with the water..
Amen.
I love you, water
My Daily Card
The Five of Hearts
The Five of Hearts speaks of changes and restlessness in your heart which can manifest in many ways. At the deepest level, you will probably be feeling a dissatisfaction with your current relationship or home situation and desire some sort of change.
When this card appears there is always the chance of a separation or divorce with someone you love, but there is an equal possibility that you will be taking a trip or moving to a new home. The highest manifestation of this card is that of going out and meeting new people, telling others about what you are doing and who you are. You can make important contacts when this card is around.
Soul
today going to a party. Be meeting some new people.
Hope to be able to promote Isha hata yoga
Sadhguru on reviving Shambavi Maha Mudra (Inner Engineering)
Jan 2
Cried loads during pooja. Cried feeling bit guilty cos earlier I wanted to opt out of pooja. Feeling lazy to drive out to get Thulasi leaves.
Both plants that my friend gave me died. So now got to buy the leaves again.
When I was crying I felt Sadhguru touching my head. Tears slowed down bit.
A good session. Thanks to Sadhguru for bringing me to my sense.
Sang one cycle of Linga Struthi. Then did the posture, just laughter.
Did Cat stretch followed by Bhuta Shuddi.
Shoonya. Went in deep Shoonya.
Sadhguru
When you first came to the Isha Yoga or the Inner Engineering program, the process was a bigger experience for you than anything you had ever known. I have not waned – you have waned. I am still the same, still exuding the same thing. Initially, the process overwhelmed you in the sense that it took away what you consider as “myself.” Look carefully at what it is that you consider as “myself.” Your personality is actually just a bundle of likes and dislikes.
Sit with me today the same way you did on the first day. Even now, I am the same – nothing has changed. It is just that only those who can keep their nose clean can breathe easy. The air is not getting crummy – you just got to blow out the stuff that got stuck in the airway. That is all it takes. You will be amazed as you were amazed then, when you first came to the program and suddenly everything lit up. The lighting is not from outside. It is just that there is someone here who made you willing to blow your nose. And you did. On that day, if I told you to sit in a certain way, you did so. But now you are selective.
If you do one thing, you do not do the other, and vice versa. Therefore, sadhana has vanished. One thing about sadhana is, it is not a device that you can build – it is a device that you can make use of. There are so many devices like this in your life. You definitely cannot build a watch for yourself, can you? Even if I give you 10 years, you cannot build a watch that shows the time. But probably, in 10 minutes, you can learn how to use a watch, no matter how complex it is. The same goes for almost every little thing. Can you make your own spectacles? The whole world would get distorted.
The way we teach, the sadhana always comes with the Inner Engineering process as a basis. We have never taught Shambhavi or Shoonya meditation alone. To teach Shambhavi, we spend seven days with you. To teach Shoonya meditation, we spend four days with you. But now because you have become a “senior” meditator, you think these things are not needed for you. Without this basis, without removing the soot from your mind, the process would not have worked the way it first did.
Soul
I need IE again
Sadhguru
Now once again, you have limited yourself through your thought process and your emotions. So, every time before you do Shambhavi, give yourself a crash course of Inner Engineering for two or three minutes and implement it each day. Even today, it will work. Or another option is, if it was such magic, you definitely remember how you sat with me on that day. Just sit like that with me right now. In the next 10 minutes, I will still have you trembling with nameless ecstasies, even today, because the fundamentals have not changed.
Now once again, you have limited yourself through your thought process and your emotions. So, every time before you do Shambhavi, give yourself a crash course of Inner Engineering for two or three minutes and implement it each day. Even today, it will work. Or another option is, if it was such magic, you definitely remember how you sat with me on that day. Just sit like that with me right now. In the next 10 minutes, I will still have you trembling with nameless ecstasies, even today, because the fundamentals have not changed.
Your mind is stuffed up – too many opinions, too many ideas, too many likes and dislikes. Fundamentally, what we taught you in Inner Engineering or Isha Yoga is to sit here in an unprejudiced way, without an opinion about anything – simply willing to look at life the way it is. The whole process is towards being able to be just a piece of life, not some other nonsense that you are trying to make yourself believe to be. If you sit here as a piece of life, you will experience that madness even today.
Cried loads during pooja. Cried feeling bit guilty cos earlier I wanted to opt out of pooja. Feeling lazy to drive out to get Thulasi leaves.
Both plants that my friend gave me died. So now got to buy the leaves again.
When I was crying I felt Sadhguru touching my head. Tears slowed down bit.
A good session. Thanks to Sadhguru for bringing me to my sense.
Sang one cycle of Linga Struthi. Then did the posture, just laughter.
Did Cat stretch followed by Bhuta Shuddi.
Shoonya. Went in deep Shoonya.
Sadhguru
When you first came to the Isha Yoga or the Inner Engineering program, the process was a bigger experience for you than anything you had ever known. I have not waned – you have waned. I am still the same, still exuding the same thing. Initially, the process overwhelmed you in the sense that it took away what you consider as “myself.” Look carefully at what it is that you consider as “myself.” Your personality is actually just a bundle of likes and dislikes.
Sit with me today the same way you did on the first day. Even now, I am the same – nothing has changed. It is just that only those who can keep their nose clean can breathe easy. The air is not getting crummy – you just got to blow out the stuff that got stuck in the airway. That is all it takes. You will be amazed as you were amazed then, when you first came to the program and suddenly everything lit up. The lighting is not from outside. It is just that there is someone here who made you willing to blow your nose. And you did. On that day, if I told you to sit in a certain way, you did so. But now you are selective.
If you do one thing, you do not do the other, and vice versa. Therefore, sadhana has vanished. One thing about sadhana is, it is not a device that you can build – it is a device that you can make use of. There are so many devices like this in your life. You definitely cannot build a watch for yourself, can you? Even if I give you 10 years, you cannot build a watch that shows the time. But probably, in 10 minutes, you can learn how to use a watch, no matter how complex it is. The same goes for almost every little thing. Can you make your own spectacles? The whole world would get distorted.
The way we teach, the sadhana always comes with the Inner Engineering process as a basis. We have never taught Shambhavi or Shoonya meditation alone. To teach Shambhavi, we spend seven days with you. To teach Shoonya meditation, we spend four days with you. But now because you have become a “senior” meditator, you think these things are not needed for you. Without this basis, without removing the soot from your mind, the process would not have worked the way it first did.
Soul
I need IE again
Sadhguru
Now once again, you have limited yourself through your thought process and your emotions. So, every time before you do Shambhavi, give yourself a crash course of Inner Engineering for two or three minutes and implement it each day. Even today, it will work. Or another option is, if it was such magic, you definitely remember how you sat with me on that day. Just sit like that with me right now. In the next 10 minutes, I will still have you trembling with nameless ecstasies, even today, because the fundamentals have not changed.
Now once again, you have limited yourself through your thought process and your emotions. So, every time before you do Shambhavi, give yourself a crash course of Inner Engineering for two or three minutes and implement it each day. Even today, it will work. Or another option is, if it was such magic, you definitely remember how you sat with me on that day. Just sit like that with me right now. In the next 10 minutes, I will still have you trembling with nameless ecstasies, even today, because the fundamentals have not changed.
Your mind is stuffed up – too many opinions, too many ideas, too many likes and dislikes. Fundamentally, what we taught you in Inner Engineering or Isha Yoga is to sit here in an unprejudiced way, without an opinion about anything – simply willing to look at life the way it is. The whole process is towards being able to be just a piece of life, not some other nonsense that you are trying to make yourself believe to be. If you sit here as a piece of life, you will experience that madness even today.
Ignoring my mind on sadhana
Jan 2 2015
woke up around 5 am to go to toilet.
Slept back and body woke up around 6.30 am.
But mind just want to laze a bit, just feeling lazy.
Feeling bit lethargy and tot must do Angamardhana to wake me up.
Alarm rang at 7 am but I still don't want to wake up.
Try to doze but body refuse to sleep. Then I knew its just my mind.
Can't remember the last time I feel lazy over sadhana.
At 7.06 I woke up cos I know thats just my mind.
Light up the shrine, sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch.
Then suddenly feel to let body decides whether it wants to do Angamardhana or Yogaasanas.
When I stand up, body wants to do Yogaasanas.
It was a good one. My lying down posture has improved.
Then followed by one cycle of Surya Kriya...feels good.
Did a short breathing meditation.
Shakti was good.
Shambavi was nice.
woke up around 5 am to go to toilet.
Slept back and body woke up around 6.30 am.
But mind just want to laze a bit, just feeling lazy.
Feeling bit lethargy and tot must do Angamardhana to wake me up.
Alarm rang at 7 am but I still don't want to wake up.
Try to doze but body refuse to sleep. Then I knew its just my mind.
Can't remember the last time I feel lazy over sadhana.
At 7.06 I woke up cos I know thats just my mind.
Light up the shrine, sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch.
Then suddenly feel to let body decides whether it wants to do Angamardhana or Yogaasanas.
When I stand up, body wants to do Yogaasanas.
It was a good one. My lying down posture has improved.
Then followed by one cycle of Surya Kriya...feels good.
Did a short breathing meditation.
Shakti was good.
Shambavi was nice.
Sannidhi brings harmony to my family
Jan 1 2015
Its true, my family has never been this harmonious. While we are close, we can get irritated at each other.
For the past two weeks, the harmony in my family is great. Today top it, my brother and sis in law bought a cake to celebrate her daughter advance birthday. And they even paid for the meal. My brother has seldom paid for any meal. That's was an irritation point. Alas that one dissolved too.
Sadhguru Sannidi truly brought the family together. Amen.
A few more days to go and friends coming over to help me to change the Sannidi cloth.
The man who loved Seagulls by Osho
Meditation is not a static thing. It is a balance. U will have to attain to it again and again. U will become more and more capable of attaining it, but it is not going to remain forever, like a possession in ur hands. It has to be claimed each moment - only then it is yours. U cannot rest, u cannot say, "I have meditated and I have realised that now there is no need for me to do anything more. I can rest."
Life does not believe in rest; it is a constant movement from perfection to more perfection.
Soul
Mmm, a good reminder not to rest on laurels.
The man who loved seagulls
The first type of religious people is simply immature. His religion is not religion but psychological. And when religion is psychology, it is just a dream, a wish for fulfillment, a desire. It has nothing to do with reality. This encompass 90 percent of the so-called religious people. They believe because they cannot live without belief; they believe because belief helps to feel secure. It is their dream, but it helps. In the dark night of life, in the deep struggle with existence, without such belief they will feel left alone.
The second type of religion for whom religion is not coming out of fear, but out of cleverness. They are very clever people who goes on inventing theories, who are very trained on logic. They create a religion that is just an abstraction: a beautiful piece of work, of intelligence, of intellectuality, of philosophising. But it never penetrate life, it never touches life anywhere, simply an abstract conceptualisation.
Beliefs cannot touch ur life, beliefs are devices. U hold a concept and it helps u to rationalise.
But remember .... unless religion is personal, but real, deep in ur roots, in ur guts - it is futile, is of no use.
The third type comes in - the real type. The first two types are the falsification of religion, pseudo dimensions. Cheap, very easy because they don't challenge u.
The third is difficult, arduous; it is very great challenge; it will create a turmoil in ur life - because the third, the real religion says God has to be addressed in a personal way. U have to provoke him and u have to allow him to provoke u and u have to come to terms with him. In fact, u have to struggle with him, u have to clash against him. U have to love him and u have to hate him; u have to be a friend and u have to be an enemy; u have to make ur experience of God a living experience.
Its true, my family has never been this harmonious. While we are close, we can get irritated at each other.
For the past two weeks, the harmony in my family is great. Today top it, my brother and sis in law bought a cake to celebrate her daughter advance birthday. And they even paid for the meal. My brother has seldom paid for any meal. That's was an irritation point. Alas that one dissolved too.
Sadhguru Sannidi truly brought the family together. Amen.
A few more days to go and friends coming over to help me to change the Sannidi cloth.
The man who loved Seagulls by Osho
Meditation is not a static thing. It is a balance. U will have to attain to it again and again. U will become more and more capable of attaining it, but it is not going to remain forever, like a possession in ur hands. It has to be claimed each moment - only then it is yours. U cannot rest, u cannot say, "I have meditated and I have realised that now there is no need for me to do anything more. I can rest."
Life does not believe in rest; it is a constant movement from perfection to more perfection.
Soul
Mmm, a good reminder not to rest on laurels.
The man who loved seagulls
The first type of religious people is simply immature. His religion is not religion but psychological. And when religion is psychology, it is just a dream, a wish for fulfillment, a desire. It has nothing to do with reality. This encompass 90 percent of the so-called religious people. They believe because they cannot live without belief; they believe because belief helps to feel secure. It is their dream, but it helps. In the dark night of life, in the deep struggle with existence, without such belief they will feel left alone.
The second type of religion for whom religion is not coming out of fear, but out of cleverness. They are very clever people who goes on inventing theories, who are very trained on logic. They create a religion that is just an abstraction: a beautiful piece of work, of intelligence, of intellectuality, of philosophising. But it never penetrate life, it never touches life anywhere, simply an abstract conceptualisation.
Beliefs cannot touch ur life, beliefs are devices. U hold a concept and it helps u to rationalise.
But remember .... unless religion is personal, but real, deep in ur roots, in ur guts - it is futile, is of no use.
The third type comes in - the real type. The first two types are the falsification of religion, pseudo dimensions. Cheap, very easy because they don't challenge u.
The third is difficult, arduous; it is very great challenge; it will create a turmoil in ur life - because the third, the real religion says God has to be addressed in a personal way. U have to provoke him and u have to allow him to provoke u and u have to come to terms with him. In fact, u have to struggle with him, u have to clash against him. U have to love him and u have to hate him; u have to be a friend and u have to be an enemy; u have to make ur experience of God a living experience.
Thursday, January 8, 2015
North Node in Aries - similar to INFJ
Dec 30 aft
Astrology for the Soul by Jan Spiller
North node in Aries
Owing to lack of past life experience being in touch with their individuality, they aren't always aware of their emotional response at the time they are happening. Sometimes they experience an emotion and do not recognise it until a few weeks later.
So it is to their advantage to give themselves regular "time out" on a regular basis to get in touch with what's going on inside. When they are not aware of their emotions, they often react to things in an irrational way that surprises them.
Soul
That INFJ too. So me, the self controller. But now better, more aware and expressive.
North node in Aries
They are learning to integrate negative emotions: anger, resentment and the like. This energy is healthy for them to express. It's their power that they suppressed in past lives to get along with others and now these feelings demand attention.
Soul
Mmmm. Can see this for me too. For the last two years, learning to accept the negative emotion. In my case, both anger and sadness.
Mmmm, perhaps now need to accept my fear of water.
North node in Aries
Rage, anger, the like are all part of the yang energy (the potent, assertive, leadership energy) that has been so heavily repressed.
An excellent technique to help them with this process is a regular program of physical exercise.
Soul
Mmmm, perhaps that's why Hata yoga affects me greatly.
Astrology for the Soul by Jan Spiller
North node in Aries
Owing to lack of past life experience being in touch with their individuality, they aren't always aware of their emotional response at the time they are happening. Sometimes they experience an emotion and do not recognise it until a few weeks later.
So it is to their advantage to give themselves regular "time out" on a regular basis to get in touch with what's going on inside. When they are not aware of their emotions, they often react to things in an irrational way that surprises them.
Soul
That INFJ too. So me, the self controller. But now better, more aware and expressive.
North node in Aries
They are learning to integrate negative emotions: anger, resentment and the like. This energy is healthy for them to express. It's their power that they suppressed in past lives to get along with others and now these feelings demand attention.
Soul
Mmmm. Can see this for me too. For the last two years, learning to accept the negative emotion. In my case, both anger and sadness.
Mmmm, perhaps now need to accept my fear of water.
North node in Aries
Rage, anger, the like are all part of the yang energy (the potent, assertive, leadership energy) that has been so heavily repressed.
An excellent technique to help them with this process is a regular program of physical exercise.
Soul
Mmmm, perhaps that's why Hata yoga affects me greatly.
North Node in Aries - insecure
Dec 30
Woke up before alarm rang. Try to sleep back and later woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am.
Body feels good despite sleeping around 10.45 pm.
My left wrist is painful.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by a gentle cat stretch since my wrist is painful.
Did Angamardhana but skip the leg pushing out and push up cos too much on the painful wrist.
Skip Surya Kriya too.
Did a long breathe meditation after the Angamardhana.
Shakti was good. Little tots during Kapala Bhakti
Shambavi is good too.
Aries North node by Jan Spiller
Self-love
They are learning to turn their well developed capacity for love to loving themselves. One of the reason they postpone letting others see where they stand is that they are insecure. Thus, one of their challenges is to validate and give approval to self. They need to support their sense of self by allowing themselves to be seen. Once they begin to reveal themselves to others, they build trust by seeing that self-revelation actually works.
Soul
This work for me with public.
Used to think my privacy is me not wanting to share with others May be deeper.
Now start to share about Isha and my experiences in meditation and hata yoga.
Woke up before alarm rang. Try to sleep back and later woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am.
Body feels good despite sleeping around 10.45 pm.
My left wrist is painful.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by a gentle cat stretch since my wrist is painful.
Did Angamardhana but skip the leg pushing out and push up cos too much on the painful wrist.
Skip Surya Kriya too.
Did a long breathe meditation after the Angamardhana.
Shakti was good. Little tots during Kapala Bhakti
Shambavi is good too.
Aries North node by Jan Spiller
Self-love
They are learning to turn their well developed capacity for love to loving themselves. One of the reason they postpone letting others see where they stand is that they are insecure. Thus, one of their challenges is to validate and give approval to self. They need to support their sense of self by allowing themselves to be seen. Once they begin to reveal themselves to others, they build trust by seeing that self-revelation actually works.
Soul
This work for me with public.
Used to think my privacy is me not wanting to share with others May be deeper.
Now start to share about Isha and my experiences in meditation and hata yoga.
North Node in Aries - resentment is a signal for clear self-expression
Dec 29
Woke up 3.55 am. Was feeling not so great cos woke up a few times during the night due to flu.
Have decided not to go to my cousin's wedding ceremony. It's okay, if others who are much closer can say no, okay for me too.
Besides I don't want to miss this weekend dinner. Last year I said yes and opted out last minute due to flu too. So want to recover so I can attend.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Angamardhana. It was quite good. Did one cycle of Surya kriya followed by nice breathing meditation. Shakti was quite good, focused Kapala Bhakti. Very little tots. Shambavi was good.
Alarm rang at 7.05 am, got to wake up.
Anyway, stayed on till 7.10 am.
Have adjusted my alarm to the former 3.48 am. That's the time I required to complete sadhana properly.
Aries North node
They become resentful if they think something isn't fair. If they feel resentment, its a signal to pull back and recharge. It also signals a need to express their emotion: "I seem to be feeling resentful, so I am going to take some time by myself and work it out.
Honest expression validates and strengthens their sense of identity. It also gives the other person a chance to become aware of Aries North node's need and boundaries. He cannot expect others to be as sensitive as he is. But once he openly express himself, he can tell from the other person's response how much self-assertion will be necessary.
Soul
Sound advice for me too.
That's what happen with me in local Isha. That's what happen with Z too.
A tot just came. I was seeking validation from others. Now I can see that only I can truly validate myself.
Such irony, outside others tot I self centred. Well not so.
Mind was saying that if I didn't snap and wait for Z to come back. I said nope cos I be too sad waiting. Besides if he cares he would say nope and stay in when he knows I was so sad.
Just as Y stay in to accompany his wife eventhough he wants to go for the Isha meet.
So no regrets. It was meant to be. Besides he got himself hitched within 3 months. So let's not go there.
Aries North node
They are learning to be assertive in a constructive way that promotes fairness through clear self-expression. They frequently feel let down by others.
They need to take responsibility for themselves in their interactions with others.
They truly do love to give - it's their nature. But their motive needs to be love, not creating co-dependence. Their giving must be pure, without expectation of result, in order for them to be free of disappointment in their relationships.
If they find they are giving in an imbalanced way, they can openly bargain with their partner so that both people's needs are equitably met. It's when they expect others to reciprocate, without letting them know exactly what they expect, they go off track - they need to give their silent expectations a voice!
Its their job to ensure things are fair by asserting themselves and letting others know what they expect in return for their giving. If they do this they will feel happy because they were the ones who ensured that fairness came about.
This build their confidence. Rather than being displeased with others, they will be pleased with themselves.
Soul
Truly my Seven of Hearts lesson. Now got the full answers.
Mmm going in deeper
Woke up 3.55 am. Was feeling not so great cos woke up a few times during the night due to flu.
Have decided not to go to my cousin's wedding ceremony. It's okay, if others who are much closer can say no, okay for me too.
Besides I don't want to miss this weekend dinner. Last year I said yes and opted out last minute due to flu too. So want to recover so I can attend.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Angamardhana. It was quite good. Did one cycle of Surya kriya followed by nice breathing meditation. Shakti was quite good, focused Kapala Bhakti. Very little tots. Shambavi was good.
Alarm rang at 7.05 am, got to wake up.
Anyway, stayed on till 7.10 am.
Have adjusted my alarm to the former 3.48 am. That's the time I required to complete sadhana properly.
Aries North node
They become resentful if they think something isn't fair. If they feel resentment, its a signal to pull back and recharge. It also signals a need to express their emotion: "I seem to be feeling resentful, so I am going to take some time by myself and work it out.
Honest expression validates and strengthens their sense of identity. It also gives the other person a chance to become aware of Aries North node's need and boundaries. He cannot expect others to be as sensitive as he is. But once he openly express himself, he can tell from the other person's response how much self-assertion will be necessary.
Soul
Sound advice for me too.
That's what happen with me in local Isha. That's what happen with Z too.
A tot just came. I was seeking validation from others. Now I can see that only I can truly validate myself.
Such irony, outside others tot I self centred. Well not so.
Mind was saying that if I didn't snap and wait for Z to come back. I said nope cos I be too sad waiting. Besides if he cares he would say nope and stay in when he knows I was so sad.
Just as Y stay in to accompany his wife eventhough he wants to go for the Isha meet.
So no regrets. It was meant to be. Besides he got himself hitched within 3 months. So let's not go there.
Aries North node
They are learning to be assertive in a constructive way that promotes fairness through clear self-expression. They frequently feel let down by others.
They need to take responsibility for themselves in their interactions with others.
They truly do love to give - it's their nature. But their motive needs to be love, not creating co-dependence. Their giving must be pure, without expectation of result, in order for them to be free of disappointment in their relationships.
If they find they are giving in an imbalanced way, they can openly bargain with their partner so that both people's needs are equitably met. It's when they expect others to reciprocate, without letting them know exactly what they expect, they go off track - they need to give their silent expectations a voice!
Its their job to ensure things are fair by asserting themselves and letting others know what they expect in return for their giving. If they do this they will feel happy because they were the ones who ensured that fairness came about.
This build their confidence. Rather than being displeased with others, they will be pleased with themselves.
Soul
Truly my Seven of Hearts lesson. Now got the full answers.
Mmm going in deeper
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Osho - should I remain alone or should I chase men?
Dec 28 eve
Tot of the old issue of fear of water, love of meat, and need for a partner. All coming back.
Glad that I have the chat with M. Looks like it for me to choose again.
Osho
One very lovely woman asked me, 'Osho, should I remain alone or should I chase men?
She has passed her prime, her age. Now is the time to be alone and be happy; now it is almost foolish to chase. So I told her no need. The woman understood. It is very easy when u are near me but when u go away, the problems come back, because that understanding was because of me.
Next day, she wrote a letter, 'Osho, u are right. I should not chase, but what about casual affairs? Here u go again.
Soul
When I read this it hit me those are my subconscious tots that has recently brewed.
Mmmm, perhaps I have drifted.
The secrets of yoga by Osho
Prana, the first respiration. Apana, the second, is to help to excretion; it helps to cleanse the body of all excreta. The bowel movement comes from Apana, and if u know how to work on it, u can cleanse ur bowels as nobody else can. Yogis has the cleanest bowels. Once the bowel is totally clean, once ur intestines are perfectly clean; ur whole being feel light, as if u can fly. The burden disappears.
Ordinarily ur intestines carry much rotten excreta - ur whole life, layers upon layers. Inside the inner walls of the intestine, excreta goes on accumulating dry and hard. It creates many poisons, makes you heavy. It makes u more available to gravitation. Much emphasis is given in yoga to cleanse the whole stomach so that no toxins remain in it, because they go on circulating in ur blood, in ur brain, they create a particular energy fields which is heavy, dark, black.
When the intestines are perfectly clean and clear, the aura arises around ur head. And u feel like a feather.
Soul
Angamardhana helps in bowel issue.
Taking the neem helps
Tot of the old issue of fear of water, love of meat, and need for a partner. All coming back.
Glad that I have the chat with M. Looks like it for me to choose again.
Osho
One very lovely woman asked me, 'Osho, should I remain alone or should I chase men?
She has passed her prime, her age. Now is the time to be alone and be happy; now it is almost foolish to chase. So I told her no need. The woman understood. It is very easy when u are near me but when u go away, the problems come back, because that understanding was because of me.
Next day, she wrote a letter, 'Osho, u are right. I should not chase, but what about casual affairs? Here u go again.
Soul
When I read this it hit me those are my subconscious tots that has recently brewed.
Mmmm, perhaps I have drifted.
The secrets of yoga by Osho
Prana, the first respiration. Apana, the second, is to help to excretion; it helps to cleanse the body of all excreta. The bowel movement comes from Apana, and if u know how to work on it, u can cleanse ur bowels as nobody else can. Yogis has the cleanest bowels. Once the bowel is totally clean, once ur intestines are perfectly clean; ur whole being feel light, as if u can fly. The burden disappears.
Ordinarily ur intestines carry much rotten excreta - ur whole life, layers upon layers. Inside the inner walls of the intestine, excreta goes on accumulating dry and hard. It creates many poisons, makes you heavy. It makes u more available to gravitation. Much emphasis is given in yoga to cleanse the whole stomach so that no toxins remain in it, because they go on circulating in ur blood, in ur brain, they create a particular energy fields which is heavy, dark, black.
When the intestines are perfectly clean and clear, the aura arises around ur head. And u feel like a feather.
Soul
Angamardhana helps in bowel issue.
Taking the neem helps
Kailash and Sannidhi - old urges comes back, for us to choose again.
Dec 28
Had a good sleep yesterday due to flu pill.
Woke up feeling fresh at 4 am despite sleeping at 1 am. Of course, discounting the 4 hours late afternoon nap I took due to effect from flu medication. Took awhile to sleep back.
Finally woke up upon alarm at 6.30 am.
Mind is delaying but body said okay.
I liisten to the body and woke up.
Did 2 rounds of walk plus 7 session of staircase. Sweating and feels good.
Met the a few friends I know from Kailash trip.
M was telling me of late, he has been having urges to drink liquor again. He has stopped three years ago.
He stopped when he received beating in his dream when he was in meditation retreat. I told him that the decision was not made voluntarily back then and now decision to stop liquor has to be conscious.
Mmm, suddenly I also shared that recently I too have urges to eat meat.
The other day, looking at the roast pork and grilled pork, I wonder why should I stop eating and forgo the pleasure. Anyway, I didn't eat.
I also shared about me being fearful of water, after overcoming it many years ago.
Its like going back to the past, going through my lesson again.
Perhaps that's why I keep on having memory of Z again.
For me the reason to forgo meat was due to cholesterol scare back then. Well, now I know there are better alternative for lowering cholesterol. Mmm, but my body doesn't like meat; it doesn't' digest well.
Had a good sleep yesterday due to flu pill.
Woke up feeling fresh at 4 am despite sleeping at 1 am. Of course, discounting the 4 hours late afternoon nap I took due to effect from flu medication. Took awhile to sleep back.
Finally woke up upon alarm at 6.30 am.
Mind is delaying but body said okay.
I liisten to the body and woke up.
Did 2 rounds of walk plus 7 session of staircase. Sweating and feels good.
Met the a few friends I know from Kailash trip.
M was telling me of late, he has been having urges to drink liquor again. He has stopped three years ago.
He stopped when he received beating in his dream when he was in meditation retreat. I told him that the decision was not made voluntarily back then and now decision to stop liquor has to be conscious.
Mmm, suddenly I also shared that recently I too have urges to eat meat.
The other day, looking at the roast pork and grilled pork, I wonder why should I stop eating and forgo the pleasure. Anyway, I didn't eat.
I also shared about me being fearful of water, after overcoming it many years ago.
Its like going back to the past, going through my lesson again.
Perhaps that's why I keep on having memory of Z again.
For me the reason to forgo meat was due to cholesterol scare back then. Well, now I know there are better alternative for lowering cholesterol. Mmm, but my body doesn't like meat; it doesn't' digest well.
North Node in Aries - wrongly focused on the relationship instead of the other person
Dec 25 eve
Flu again cos slept under the fan and also flu bug in the family.
North node in Aries
The growth required of them is best achieved by de-emphasising the idea that rships are necessary for their survival. They are learning to stand alone and relate to others from a new perspective. However, despite their sensitivity, these folks are often blissfully ignorant about other people, what motivates them, when they are seeking, and what kind of success they would like to achieve. Sometimes they only see the person (and themselves) on the superficial level of having immediate needs and desires that are, or are not, satisfied. They only see deeply enough into the other person's identity to manipulate him into keeping the mood harmonious. This is why people surprise or disappoint Aries North node - they never saw who the other person really was.
In many ways, Aries North node people are not relating to the other person at all - they are relating to the rship between themselves and the other person. This does not lead to truly helping their partner - or themselves to grow. The rship is not an entity; it cannot grow unless two individuals grow. Thus no matter how much time and energy these folks devote to the rships, it cannot give back to them. So they are better off examining the needs for autonomy and individual creative expression of both partners. By encouraging and inspiring the other person to achieve result of his or her own, they free both the partner and themselves to evolve as individuals.
Soul
I can see some part of these in me. Me focus on the rship and not the person.
Thats why I get disappointed.
Thats why I didn't see that Z can immediately get hitched to another gal after we broke up.
Thats why I didn't see that P can immediately blocked me from Local Isha after I said nope.
Thats why I didn't see that Y is focused on being married.
Flu again cos slept under the fan and also flu bug in the family.
North node in Aries
The growth required of them is best achieved by de-emphasising the idea that rships are necessary for their survival. They are learning to stand alone and relate to others from a new perspective. However, despite their sensitivity, these folks are often blissfully ignorant about other people, what motivates them, when they are seeking, and what kind of success they would like to achieve. Sometimes they only see the person (and themselves) on the superficial level of having immediate needs and desires that are, or are not, satisfied. They only see deeply enough into the other person's identity to manipulate him into keeping the mood harmonious. This is why people surprise or disappoint Aries North node - they never saw who the other person really was.
In many ways, Aries North node people are not relating to the other person at all - they are relating to the rship between themselves and the other person. This does not lead to truly helping their partner - or themselves to grow. The rship is not an entity; it cannot grow unless two individuals grow. Thus no matter how much time and energy these folks devote to the rships, it cannot give back to them. So they are better off examining the needs for autonomy and individual creative expression of both partners. By encouraging and inspiring the other person to achieve result of his or her own, they free both the partner and themselves to evolve as individuals.
Soul
I can see some part of these in me. Me focus on the rship and not the person.
Thats why I get disappointed.
Thats why I didn't see that Z can immediately get hitched to another gal after we broke up.
Thats why I didn't see that P can immediately blocked me from Local Isha after I said nope.
Thats why I didn't see that Y is focused on being married.
Doing my practices in front of my family - Coming out
Dec 25
Woke up 6.30 am.
Had a good sleep with sannidhi. My niece slept with me on the floor mattress while my sister and brother in law slept in my bed.
Did Bhuta Shudhi followed by cat stretch. Did one cycle of Surya Kriya followed by breathing meditation.
Shakti was good and so was Shambavi.
Did all these practices without switching on the lights. Just the oil lamp from Sannidhi and Devi Gudi and candle lamp from Dhynalinga yantra.
Now open with family on my practices.
Coming out in the open
Woke up 6.30 am.
Had a good sleep with sannidhi. My niece slept with me on the floor mattress while my sister and brother in law slept in my bed.
Did Bhuta Shudhi followed by cat stretch. Did one cycle of Surya Kriya followed by breathing meditation.
Shakti was good and so was Shambavi.
Did all these practices without switching on the lights. Just the oil lamp from Sannidhi and Devi Gudi and candle lamp from Dhynalinga yantra.
Now open with family on my practices.
Coming out in the open
Thursday, January 1, 2015
North node in Taurus - to learn to empower themselves
Dec 24 aft
Can't remember where I got this.
NORTH NODE IN TAURUS, SOUTH NODE IN SCORPIO
Through previous incarnations the soul has acquired an overemphasis of energy in the area of over reliance on the resources and values of others. Driven by an intense desire to bond and merge with a partner, Taurus North Node individuals have sacrificed their own needs and value systems as a means of empowering their partners and thereby receiving validation in return.
In order to heal this energy imbalance of the soul, a critical lesson for these individuals is to learn to empower themselves. They need to shift their focus from defining their self worth via validation from others to discovering and living in accordance with their own true needs, comfort zones and value system.
A critical lesson that needs to be learnt in this lifetime is to let go of past life behavioural patterns of exchange relationships. The stronger Taurus North Node individuals become in supporting themselves and defining their self worth via their own value system, the more likely they are to attract a spiritually fulfilling partnership with someone who is also self-empowered.
Many events in this incarnation will provide Taurus North Node individuals with the challenge of learning to effectively integrate the energy polarities of stability and self reliance (Taurus North Node) and transformation and synergistic partnership (Scorpio South)
Soul
Truly lifetime challenge of Seven of Hearts
Seven of Hearts - Unconditional Love Card
You need to learn to release and let go of expectations in your relationships.
Now understand the need for S, Z, Y and P in my life.
I met them, need them, and to let go of them.
It took me a few years, but I let go of S, my ex-staff who become friend
It took me two years, but I let go Z, my ex-lover
It took me half year, but I let go of Y.
It took me a few years, but I let go of local Isha
And now letting go of P, my ex-close friend.
Can't remember where I got this.
NORTH NODE IN TAURUS, SOUTH NODE IN SCORPIO
Through previous incarnations the soul has acquired an overemphasis of energy in the area of over reliance on the resources and values of others. Driven by an intense desire to bond and merge with a partner, Taurus North Node individuals have sacrificed their own needs and value systems as a means of empowering their partners and thereby receiving validation in return.
In order to heal this energy imbalance of the soul, a critical lesson for these individuals is to learn to empower themselves. They need to shift their focus from defining their self worth via validation from others to discovering and living in accordance with their own true needs, comfort zones and value system.
A critical lesson that needs to be learnt in this lifetime is to let go of past life behavioural patterns of exchange relationships. The stronger Taurus North Node individuals become in supporting themselves and defining their self worth via their own value system, the more likely they are to attract a spiritually fulfilling partnership with someone who is also self-empowered.
Many events in this incarnation will provide Taurus North Node individuals with the challenge of learning to effectively integrate the energy polarities of stability and self reliance (Taurus North Node) and transformation and synergistic partnership (Scorpio South)
Soul
Truly lifetime challenge of Seven of Hearts
Seven of Hearts - Unconditional Love Card
You need to learn to release and let go of expectations in your relationships.
Now understand the need for S, Z, Y and P in my life.
I met them, need them, and to let go of them.
It took me a few years, but I let go of S, my ex-staff who become friend
It took me two years, but I let go Z, my ex-lover
It took me half year, but I let go of Y.
It took me a few years, but I let go of local Isha
And now letting go of P, my ex-close friend.
Finally some stability, Four of Spades
Dec 24
Woke up at 7 am feeling slightly groggy cos wake up around 5 am with stomach ache and went to toilet. Yesterday spicy dinner didn't sit well.
Doze for 5 minutes and woke up.
Sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch.
Did Yogaasana, it was good and slow.
I now take 20 slightly deeper breathe instead of 15 and 30 shallow breathe instead of 20.
For the sitting posture, now can rest at ease with my chin on my knee.
Looking forward to this Sunday's guided practice.
Shakti was good, dancing and singing at the end. During Kapala Bhakti, some tots of Z flew in, but I was only caught for a very short period. Guess its because I saw Jack of Diamond in Saturn, his Ruling card. Also knowing I will meet him sometimes in mid Feb.
Shambavi is good.
So nice..to be with the Shrine..feels like ashram.
Amen.
(Jan 2 - a tot came in during practices, Jack of Diamonds in Saturn may mean me facing downtime in promoting Isha Hata program. Nothing to do with Z)
Today card in Mars
My Daily Card
The Four of Spades
The Four of Spades is a card of satisfaction and stability in both health, work and all affairs in general. Recovery from illness and any work-related problems can be expected under this influence. It can mean working hard and steadily, but usually this is a welcome situation, making us feel more secure and stable in our lives.
Essentially, the Four of Spades is the strongest card of security and foundation in our life.When it shows up in our reading, we will always achieve this kind of satisfaction.
Soul
Nice Four.
These days looking forward to Four.
Less of 3, 7, 5 and 9...been facing it so often in my lifetime.
Can't believe that I be 48 next year, truly been a great journey for the last 6.5 years since Isha.
Woke up at 7 am feeling slightly groggy cos wake up around 5 am with stomach ache and went to toilet. Yesterday spicy dinner didn't sit well.
Doze for 5 minutes and woke up.
Sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch.
Did Yogaasana, it was good and slow.
I now take 20 slightly deeper breathe instead of 15 and 30 shallow breathe instead of 20.
For the sitting posture, now can rest at ease with my chin on my knee.
Looking forward to this Sunday's guided practice.
Shakti was good, dancing and singing at the end. During Kapala Bhakti, some tots of Z flew in, but I was only caught for a very short period. Guess its because I saw Jack of Diamond in Saturn, his Ruling card. Also knowing I will meet him sometimes in mid Feb.
Shambavi is good.
So nice..to be with the Shrine..feels like ashram.
Amen.
(Jan 2 - a tot came in during practices, Jack of Diamonds in Saturn may mean me facing downtime in promoting Isha Hata program. Nothing to do with Z)
Today card in Mars
My Daily Card
The Four of Spades
The Four of Spades is a card of satisfaction and stability in both health, work and all affairs in general. Recovery from illness and any work-related problems can be expected under this influence. It can mean working hard and steadily, but usually this is a welcome situation, making us feel more secure and stable in our lives.
Essentially, the Four of Spades is the strongest card of security and foundation in our life.When it shows up in our reading, we will always achieve this kind of satisfaction.
Soul
Nice Four.
These days looking forward to Four.
Less of 3, 7, 5 and 9...been facing it so often in my lifetime.
Can't believe that I be 48 next year, truly been a great journey for the last 6.5 years since Isha.
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