Feb 17
Slept late....this morning woke up from noise downstairs. Someone looking for mom.
Slept back and woke up upon alarm at 7 am but unwilling.
Doze bit and woke up at 7.05 am.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angamardhana was flexible, but couldn't do the squatting posture as my right feet toes was swelling. So did all the others. Was sweating much from the standing posture.
Able to sit on hero posture without any prop. And there is no pain, only slightly stretched. Was singing.
Did one cycle of Surya Kriya..it was not so great cos right feet was swelling.
Quite focused on the 61 point awareness meditation.
Breathing meditation was lovely...just want to sit in it..
Shakti was good despite the hurting feet. I couldn't do the 150 Kapala Bhakti.
I was singing at the end.
Shambavi was good. Just start from Suka Kriya..it was good.
I was singing Asatoma.
I also recalled some crying..crying because I will meet Z soon and have to see my past.
Crying cos I want this karmic experience to be over.
Later a tot occurred to me..not one of my romantic partner was right because I wasn't myself.
I need to be fully myself..thats my karmic challenge of North Node in Taurus.
Thats me moving from my Ruling of Ace of Diamonds to Destiny Queen of Diamonds
Astrology for Soul by Jan Spiller
North Node is to shift their focus toward turning within themselves to connect with the wealth of reassurance and peace in their own nature. Thus the bonding they need for security and a sense of self-worth can happen within themselves.
Remembering my song for North Node in Taurus by Jan Spiller
They can only achieve a sense of completeness within themselves - it will never come as the by-products of a relationship, even with a soul mate.
My guy got sick, needed attention
So I put on my nurse's hat....
My heart fell when he called it "distraction"
Thats not where I was at!
And I remembered:
Seeky ye first, the kingdom of heaven
And I turned within ....
And before too long, my heart felt strong
The outside got in order again!
So seek ye first.....
Because inside of you's the kingdom of heaven!
Saturday, February 28, 2015
Saturn period...keep calm by focus on the gaps between the thoughts
Feb 16 eve
Just found out that Z is coming to the event.
In the earlier week was bit disappointed he didn't come cos want to show off the new me. Then later when I accepted he didn't show I feel good that I be facing a new year without any melodrama. Last year it was Y. But found out late evening that he is coming. Didn't see his wife name and mind start to imagine unnecessarily.
I was watching television for a few hours. Didn't want to think about it. Bit worried cos Saturn in Jack of Diamonds, Z's Ruling card. Earlier tot it was due to loan arrangement but that has been signed off today. As for the sales agreement, they found the land title so things should even be faster and hence that leave him.
Destiny
Jack of Diamonds (financial success through salesmanship or creativity, initiation into higher values)
Three of Spades
This card can represent a businessman or associate with whom u have obligations or problems. This can be a karmic rship, one that requires hard work and patience for success.
Creative projects to make money may seem a burden to you but this is necessary part of establishing urself and ur future success. U will have success now but u will need to work hard for it.
Be on the lookout for Diamonds suit especially those who are younger or may be approaching you from either a romantic or creative view point. These are likely to be burdensome.
Soul
Anyway, maybe my Ruling will help me.
Saturn 28 Jan to 21 Mar
Ruling
King of Spades
Three of Spades
King of Spades (great success in work through taking responsibility, fulfilment of goals.
Though Saturn is typically the most difficult time of the year, the presence of the King of Spades in this position promises that u will be able to overcome any difficulties that may arise, especially those related to health or work. This powerful card also casts a favourable influence over ur entire year, giving u better chances in every area of ur life. For sure, ur health will be good this year, mostly from taking matters into ur own hand.
Be on the lookout for men of the Spades suits, especially those older or who may be in position of authority or responsibility. These are likely to prove troublesome or burdensome in some way during this period.
Yoga the science of living by Osho
Don't pay attention to the tots. Focus urself on the gap between the tots, not on the tots. Focus urself when the road is vacant and nobody is passing. Change ur gestalt.
Focus on the gaps and suddenly u will become aware that gaps are there and tots are disappearing and in that gaps the first glimpse of samadhi will be attained. And that taste is needed in order to go on. If u know this gap can become permanent, if this gap is my nature, then this bliss will be available as a continuum
Soul
Yes. On the gap.
Just found out that Z is coming to the event.
In the earlier week was bit disappointed he didn't come cos want to show off the new me. Then later when I accepted he didn't show I feel good that I be facing a new year without any melodrama. Last year it was Y. But found out late evening that he is coming. Didn't see his wife name and mind start to imagine unnecessarily.
I was watching television for a few hours. Didn't want to think about it. Bit worried cos Saturn in Jack of Diamonds, Z's Ruling card. Earlier tot it was due to loan arrangement but that has been signed off today. As for the sales agreement, they found the land title so things should even be faster and hence that leave him.
Destiny
Jack of Diamonds (financial success through salesmanship or creativity, initiation into higher values)
Three of Spades
This card can represent a businessman or associate with whom u have obligations or problems. This can be a karmic rship, one that requires hard work and patience for success.
Creative projects to make money may seem a burden to you but this is necessary part of establishing urself and ur future success. U will have success now but u will need to work hard for it.
Be on the lookout for Diamonds suit especially those who are younger or may be approaching you from either a romantic or creative view point. These are likely to be burdensome.
Soul
Anyway, maybe my Ruling will help me.
Saturn 28 Jan to 21 Mar
Ruling
King of Spades
Three of Spades
King of Spades (great success in work through taking responsibility, fulfilment of goals.
Though Saturn is typically the most difficult time of the year, the presence of the King of Spades in this position promises that u will be able to overcome any difficulties that may arise, especially those related to health or work. This powerful card also casts a favourable influence over ur entire year, giving u better chances in every area of ur life. For sure, ur health will be good this year, mostly from taking matters into ur own hand.
Be on the lookout for men of the Spades suits, especially those older or who may be in position of authority or responsibility. These are likely to prove troublesome or burdensome in some way during this period.
Yoga the science of living by Osho
Don't pay attention to the tots. Focus urself on the gap between the tots, not on the tots. Focus urself when the road is vacant and nobody is passing. Change ur gestalt.
Focus on the gaps and suddenly u will become aware that gaps are there and tots are disappearing and in that gaps the first glimpse of samadhi will be attained. And that taste is needed in order to go on. If u know this gap can become permanent, if this gap is my nature, then this bliss will be available as a continuum
Soul
Yes. On the gap.
Four of Diamonds - at ease
Feb 16 aft
Today feel such ease..a feeling that everything is settling down.
The shifting dilemma and homefront restrictions is now over.
Today I be signing the offer letter for loan arrangement to purchase the condo.
My Daily Card in Mercury
The Four of Diamonds
The Four of Diamonds means a solid sense of values that attracts enough money to meet our security needs and then some. When we know exactly what it is we want, we tend to attract those things to us more quickly. Thus, when this card shows up, it usually means that we have gotten clear about what we want and then we get it. Satisfaction and prosperity are indicated here and you may have a good foundation upon which you can begin building a financial future. Managing your resources could come into focus in a greater way when this card is present and this card can give you the ability to handle financial matters with a clear mind
Today feel such ease..a feeling that everything is settling down.
The shifting dilemma and homefront restrictions is now over.
Today I be signing the offer letter for loan arrangement to purchase the condo.
My Daily Card in Mercury
The Four of Diamonds
The Four of Diamonds means a solid sense of values that attracts enough money to meet our security needs and then some. When we know exactly what it is we want, we tend to attract those things to us more quickly. Thus, when this card shows up, it usually means that we have gotten clear about what we want and then we get it. Satisfaction and prosperity are indicated here and you may have a good foundation upon which you can begin building a financial future. Managing your resources could come into focus in a greater way when this card is present and this card can give you the ability to handle financial matters with a clear mind
You are Shambo
Feb 16 eve
You are Shambho #ShivaShiva
You are Shambho. You're the universal
godfather/godmother.
You give yourself so effortlessly and are like an embodiment of love to those who know you well.
You're the one doling out free hugs and baking cupcakes to brighten up everyone's day and save the world, one step at a time.
Some people wonder how you do it all, but its just you, because you know that compassion and love make the world go round.
Soul
Got this from the Isha foundation self test.
I like this cos Shambo chant is now my daily chant, always on soundcloud.
You are Shambho #ShivaShiva
You are Shambho. You're the universal
godfather/godmother.
You give yourself so effortlessly and are like an embodiment of love to those who know you well.
You're the one doling out free hugs and baking cupcakes to brighten up everyone's day and save the world, one step at a time.
Some people wonder how you do it all, but its just you, because you know that compassion and love make the world go round.
Soul
Got this from the Isha foundation self test.
I like this cos Shambo chant is now my daily chant, always on soundcloud.
Body knows what to do
Feb 16
Woke up 3 am feeling very hot. Slept back and woke up upon alarm at 3.43 am. Doze bit cos feeling tired since I slept around 11 plus pm.
Did Bhuta Shuddi and the pot water taste wrong due to oxidation from the lemon juice.
Did cat stretch, right elbow is okay Started with Angamardhana standing posture, start to belch and later feeling like to wanting to vomit. Ran to the bathroom and vomited water only. Must be the 'bad' water. Body rejected.
So, decided to take a rest and do 3 cycle of Surya Kriya instead. Getting much better at mountain pose. For the first time feeling at ease on mountain pose in all the 3 cycle.
61 point awareness meditation was not great. I was tired and distracted.
Breathing meditation was lovely. Sat for a longer period since I got more time.
Shakti was good but my right feet toes was swelling, so not comfortable. Have to take a rest.
Shared with my sisters the happenings yesterday. They happy with the turn of events
Woke up 3 am feeling very hot. Slept back and woke up upon alarm at 3.43 am. Doze bit cos feeling tired since I slept around 11 plus pm.
Did Bhuta Shuddi and the pot water taste wrong due to oxidation from the lemon juice.
Did cat stretch, right elbow is okay Started with Angamardhana standing posture, start to belch and later feeling like to wanting to vomit. Ran to the bathroom and vomited water only. Must be the 'bad' water. Body rejected.
So, decided to take a rest and do 3 cycle of Surya Kriya instead. Getting much better at mountain pose. For the first time feeling at ease on mountain pose in all the 3 cycle.
61 point awareness meditation was not great. I was tired and distracted.
Breathing meditation was lovely. Sat for a longer period since I got more time.
Shakti was good but my right feet toes was swelling, so not comfortable. Have to take a rest.
Shared with my sisters the happenings yesterday. They happy with the turn of events
Help on the way
Feb 15
A surprising turn of event. Uncle and aunt came for dinner. At first they were not supportive of our shift to condo. After dinner I just showed them the condo from far. They insist we drive up near to see the condo. As they drive up, they began to like the surrounding area leading to condo. When we go near they said it is really a nice place and encouraged us to shift. Told us to renovate the condo nicely to enjoy the space much better.
They asked how we knew the place. They said a good buy. Mom begin to feel proud and said it was her decision to buy within half hour after viewing.
So the shift is now imminent and mom now has no reservations to shift.
Universe helping mom to make decision.
A surprising turn of event. Uncle and aunt came for dinner. At first they were not supportive of our shift to condo. After dinner I just showed them the condo from far. They insist we drive up near to see the condo. As they drive up, they began to like the surrounding area leading to condo. When we go near they said it is really a nice place and encouraged us to shift. Told us to renovate the condo nicely to enjoy the space much better.
They asked how we knew the place. They said a good buy. Mom begin to feel proud and said it was her decision to buy within half hour after viewing.
So the shift is now imminent and mom now has no reservations to shift.
Universe helping mom to make decision.
Osho - being total
Feb 14 aft
Yoga the science of living by Osho
U are a contradiction whenever you are following anything outer, just following a discipline. It is not true; u are not in it.
Remember, whatsoever u do - if u are doing it at all - do it totally. If u don't want to do it at all, don't do it - then don't do it totally.
The totalness has to be remembered because that totalness is the most significant thing. If u continuously go on doing things in which u are contradictory, inconsistent, in which part of u moves and another part doesn't move, u are destroying ur inner flowering.
Soul
Now can finally understand Osho tarot totality card.
I used to get this a lot during my volunteering days. Now I know it's a message for me to let go because of my contradictions.
As Pe said giving unwillingly will taint the giving.
Yoga the science of living by Osho
U are a contradiction whenever you are following anything outer, just following a discipline. It is not true; u are not in it.
Remember, whatsoever u do - if u are doing it at all - do it totally. If u don't want to do it at all, don't do it - then don't do it totally.
The totalness has to be remembered because that totalness is the most significant thing. If u continuously go on doing things in which u are contradictory, inconsistent, in which part of u moves and another part doesn't move, u are destroying ur inner flowering.
Soul
Now can finally understand Osho tarot totality card.
I used to get this a lot during my volunteering days. Now I know it's a message for me to let go because of my contradictions.
As Pe said giving unwillingly will taint the giving.
Neem and Tumeric before sadhana
Feb 14
Today woke up around 6 am with slight throat pain. Yesterday ate some fried stuff. Luckily smart enough to take some tumeric and honey before I slept.
Laze bit and woke up at 6.50 am.
Went downstairs to eat tumeric and neem for throat.
Feel better.
Today receptivity is heightened.
From the preparatory steps for Surya Kriya to Shambavi. Everything is heightened
Surya Kriya was good
Shakti was focused, very little tots.
Shambavi was abridged, start from Suka Kriya as family waiting me for breakfast.
Decided to skip swimming as throat is not great, don't want to contaminate, also time with family is more important than pool.
Now that I am on Angamardhana, no longer need to have the pool for exercise..but perhaps still feeling fearful of the water.
Today, settlement. Mom already told big brother that we are shifting out.
Sis in law accepting it and even gave tips on renovation.
So its on.
Truly Six of Diamonds, everything is settling down.
Long Range
Six of Diamonds
This is a very steadying influence and when it shows up in long range. This can be good if u are in good financial shape when the years begin.
This powerful karma card insures that any imbalances in ur financial picture will be evened out during this year.
It is wise to be totally responsible under this influence as dishonest dealings are likely to receive immediate pay-back.
On the other hand, if you recognise the inherent potential in this powerful card, u could get well ahead by always doing more than u were paid for in all ur business and financial dealings. As u sow, so shall u reap.
Soul
Will invest in my rental apartment. Actually can do the rental myself.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Soul
Yes, getting my new condo...out of the blue.
Truly that was sent by Akash
And with the bonus..is good.
My money in the emloyee funds, much more than what I thought it be...but only thing can't withdraw now..
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
Soul
I know the partnership with HSBC will be good.
Funny..once I decided to change my main bank from local bank to HSBC..everything falls in place.
Thanks to Akash and Sadhguru for sending HSBC to me.
I am now settled..less worry about future..
After the unexpected new condo and new bank...I know now whats right for me will happen..its like falling in love..
it like my journey in Isha.
Whatever meant for me will come to me, will stay with me
Whatever not meant for me, will leave...
For the first time in my life..I can let go of my need to be in control of my life.
Akash knows better..
Environment
Five of Diamonds
Favourable changes in ur work or business will bring blessings this year. Any travel connected with work or making money will also be a source of benefits.
It would be wise to think about ways that u can expand of change ur current money making enterprises with this influence.
In addition, any travel, moves or changes will tend to have a positive result. A change in ur values toward greater expansion is bringing rewards and blessings.
Soul
Didn't expect to shift into new condo...but its happening now.
Today woke up around 6 am with slight throat pain. Yesterday ate some fried stuff. Luckily smart enough to take some tumeric and honey before I slept.
Laze bit and woke up at 6.50 am.
Went downstairs to eat tumeric and neem for throat.
Feel better.
Today receptivity is heightened.
From the preparatory steps for Surya Kriya to Shambavi. Everything is heightened
Surya Kriya was good
Shakti was focused, very little tots.
Shambavi was abridged, start from Suka Kriya as family waiting me for breakfast.
Decided to skip swimming as throat is not great, don't want to contaminate, also time with family is more important than pool.
Now that I am on Angamardhana, no longer need to have the pool for exercise..but perhaps still feeling fearful of the water.
Today, settlement. Mom already told big brother that we are shifting out.
Sis in law accepting it and even gave tips on renovation.
So its on.
Truly Six of Diamonds, everything is settling down.
Long Range
Six of Diamonds
This is a very steadying influence and when it shows up in long range. This can be good if u are in good financial shape when the years begin.
This powerful karma card insures that any imbalances in ur financial picture will be evened out during this year.
It is wise to be totally responsible under this influence as dishonest dealings are likely to receive immediate pay-back.
On the other hand, if you recognise the inherent potential in this powerful card, u could get well ahead by always doing more than u were paid for in all ur business and financial dealings. As u sow, so shall u reap.
Soul
Will invest in my rental apartment. Actually can do the rental myself.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Soul
Yes, getting my new condo...out of the blue.
Truly that was sent by Akash
And with the bonus..is good.
My money in the emloyee funds, much more than what I thought it be...but only thing can't withdraw now..
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
Soul
I know the partnership with HSBC will be good.
Funny..once I decided to change my main bank from local bank to HSBC..everything falls in place.
Thanks to Akash and Sadhguru for sending HSBC to me.
I am now settled..less worry about future..
After the unexpected new condo and new bank...I know now whats right for me will happen..its like falling in love..
it like my journey in Isha.
Whatever meant for me will come to me, will stay with me
Whatever not meant for me, will leave...
For the first time in my life..I can let go of my need to be in control of my life.
Akash knows better..
Environment
Five of Diamonds
Favourable changes in ur work or business will bring blessings this year. Any travel connected with work or making money will also be a source of benefits.
It would be wise to think about ways that u can expand of change ur current money making enterprises with this influence.
In addition, any travel, moves or changes will tend to have a positive result. A change in ur values toward greater expansion is bringing rewards and blessings.
Soul
Didn't expect to shift into new condo...but its happening now.
Whatever meant to be happens effortlessly
Feb 13 eve
Did Sannidhi pooja, it was unexpectedly powerful. I tot my full stomach would make me less receptive but energy was good.
Yesterday decision was made on the financial arrangement and today I make it official. And loan agreement be signed next week.
As I was thanking Akash, a tot came.
With the right partner, it just fall into place and arrangement is immediate. Just as we bought the condo in half an hour. Just as this bank was not in my list but was recommended and I even didn't want it in the beginning but towards the end I knew it was the right one.
Tot came on Z. He and wife was the right one as they met and engaged in a very short time. He was not the right one for me.
Did Sannidhi pooja, it was unexpectedly powerful. I tot my full stomach would make me less receptive but energy was good.
Yesterday decision was made on the financial arrangement and today I make it official. And loan agreement be signed next week.
As I was thanking Akash, a tot came.
With the right partner, it just fall into place and arrangement is immediate. Just as we bought the condo in half an hour. Just as this bank was not in my list but was recommended and I even didn't want it in the beginning but towards the end I knew it was the right one.
Tot came on Z. He and wife was the right one as they met and engaged in a very short time. He was not the right one for me.
Awesome yogaasanas - universe answered
Feb 12
An awesome Yogasanas guided practice at the yoga studio. I was laughing loads and at few points singing and at one point want to dance with joy. Overwhelmingly grateful to Sadhguru for the amazing experience.
During the standing posture, the body was able to bend so fluidly. Going beyond my normal threshold.
In the trikoasanas, can feel my body turning and going down to reach my toes...amazing..the body moving on its own, it was not me directing it.
When I was doing my 61 points, the name of the bank to get my loan just appeared. And a calmness settled in. For the past 2 days was in bit of dilemma on which bank to choose. Again the right bank just came to me. This bank was not given by the agent. It was just mentioned by an ex colleague and I follow up and now it is the right one. Just like my new condo.
An awesome Yogasanas guided practice at the yoga studio. I was laughing loads and at few points singing and at one point want to dance with joy. Overwhelmingly grateful to Sadhguru for the amazing experience.
During the standing posture, the body was able to bend so fluidly. Going beyond my normal threshold.
In the trikoasanas, can feel my body turning and going down to reach my toes...amazing..the body moving on its own, it was not me directing it.
When I was doing my 61 points, the name of the bank to get my loan just appeared. And a calmness settled in. For the past 2 days was in bit of dilemma on which bank to choose. Again the right bank just came to me. This bank was not given by the agent. It was just mentioned by an ex colleague and I follow up and now it is the right one. Just like my new condo.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Awesome isha hata yoga
Feb 11
Yesterday night as I slept continuously dreaming of someone attacking me sexually. Even while I was dreaming I didn't believe it and try to shake it off but dream continue. In the end I woke myself up and said that's the fear. I was feeling edgy but I m fine. So I slept back and no dreams,
Woke up fresh before alarm at 4.35 am.
Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by Surya Kriya preparatory steps. Did one cycle of Surya Kriya followed by 61 points awareness meditation and Bhanda locks. A good one. Love the 61 points meditation, being aware of every points.
Did Yogaasanas and it was awesome. I was able to breathe much longer and easier. I m so much better in the Trikoasana. Laughter erupted at every single asanas for standing and lying down posture. In the one leg standing posture, I start to cry. So overwhelmingly filled with gratitude for the experience from Sadhguru.
Breathing meditation was good.
Shakti was focused with minimal tots. I was laughing and singing in the end.
Yesterday decided that I need to communicate to my team about my dissatisfaction with their work. Also to see where I can help them. I know Surya Kriya can do wonders. It evaporated the anger in T and now N. So I know it can do wonder for my staff, J and M.
My team said they all find it difficult to communicate with their immediate boss, P. So will send him too.
Feb 11 eve
Just did my physical release. Been too long. Felt at ease now. Guess that's my edginess was and hence the dream. Tot of Z who said it is more responsible for us to do our own physical release rather than to be find others due to compulsions.
Yesterday night as I slept continuously dreaming of someone attacking me sexually. Even while I was dreaming I didn't believe it and try to shake it off but dream continue. In the end I woke myself up and said that's the fear. I was feeling edgy but I m fine. So I slept back and no dreams,
Woke up fresh before alarm at 4.35 am.
Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by Surya Kriya preparatory steps. Did one cycle of Surya Kriya followed by 61 points awareness meditation and Bhanda locks. A good one. Love the 61 points meditation, being aware of every points.
Did Yogaasanas and it was awesome. I was able to breathe much longer and easier. I m so much better in the Trikoasana. Laughter erupted at every single asanas for standing and lying down posture. In the one leg standing posture, I start to cry. So overwhelmingly filled with gratitude for the experience from Sadhguru.
Breathing meditation was good.
Shakti was focused with minimal tots. I was laughing and singing in the end.
Yesterday decided that I need to communicate to my team about my dissatisfaction with their work. Also to see where I can help them. I know Surya Kriya can do wonders. It evaporated the anger in T and now N. So I know it can do wonder for my staff, J and M.
My team said they all find it difficult to communicate with their immediate boss, P. So will send him too.
Feb 11 eve
Just did my physical release. Been too long. Felt at ease now. Guess that's my edginess was and hence the dream. Tot of Z who said it is more responsible for us to do our own physical release rather than to be find others due to compulsions.
Our mind is lazy
Feb 10 eve
Today while doing a short Samyama meditation, I observed both mind and breathe, able to see I m not them.
Yoga the science of living by Osho
The mind always tries to make u satisfied wherever u are; the mind goes on saying there is nothing to life. Trying to convince u that u have arrived. The mind does not allow u to become divinely discontent. And it can always find rationalisations. Don't listen to the mind. Mind is basically lazy. Mind just want to settle, to make ur home anywhere, don't be wanderer.
To be a sanyasi means to become a wanderer in consciousness. Climb high, climb far, ur goal the sky, ur aim the star. And don't listen to the mind.
Soul
Been resting, guess that's my mind.
Yoga the science of living by Osho
Yoga believes in effort, in tremendous effort. One has to become worthy. One has to earn God; u have to pay the cost.
Soul
Yes, tremendous effort.
Today while doing a short Samyama meditation, I observed both mind and breathe, able to see I m not them.
Yoga the science of living by Osho
The mind always tries to make u satisfied wherever u are; the mind goes on saying there is nothing to life. Trying to convince u that u have arrived. The mind does not allow u to become divinely discontent. And it can always find rationalisations. Don't listen to the mind. Mind is basically lazy. Mind just want to settle, to make ur home anywhere, don't be wanderer.
To be a sanyasi means to become a wanderer in consciousness. Climb high, climb far, ur goal the sky, ur aim the star. And don't listen to the mind.
Soul
Been resting, guess that's my mind.
Yoga the science of living by Osho
Yoga believes in effort, in tremendous effort. One has to become worthy. One has to earn God; u have to pay the cost.
Soul
Yes, tremendous effort.
Another breakthrough - able to sit in Hero posture effortlessly
Feb 10
Woke up before alarm at 3 plus. Doze while waiting for alarm to ring at 3.45 am.
Sat on the toilet bowl, tots going thru my mind on the rental apartment. Again money issue. Reminds myself that it's time to invest in it so can get more rental. So brush it off.
Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by by cat stretch. Able to hold the postures. Angamardhana was good. Quite effortless. Sat effortlessly in Hero posture with cushion. Wanted to get up to end the session but suddenly after removing the cushion I sat back. It wasn't a conscious decision, it just happened. When I sat without cushion, immediately laughter exploded. I feel such joy. Later I was singing and dancing. Such a breakthrough, finally able to sit on Hero posture without cushion and best of all there is no pain, just slightly stretching.
Did preparatory for Surya Kriya. Alignment quite good. Forgot to do 61 points and the Locks.
Shakti was good with little tots. Shambavi was good too but alarm rang while I just got into Fluttering. So it was an abrupt ending. Feel bit sleepy.
Virgo North node by Jan Spiller
They need to have more faith in what they want to do - and faith, for them is best built through action. Faith is a gift from their past lives. Through their experiences with surrender and seeing the larger vision, they gained faith in the moment to moment unfolding of daily living. In this lifetime, they know innately that "all is well and everything is happening as it should," and they gain peace of mind and confidence from remembering this.
Soul
Need this.
Suddenly flow of money going out. Wish the apartment rental issue didn't surface same time as me purchasing the condo. But guess this is my money issue.
Anyway Six of Diamonds settlement issue.
Surprisingly my body itch for last one month has stopped.
Woke up before alarm at 3 plus. Doze while waiting for alarm to ring at 3.45 am.
Sat on the toilet bowl, tots going thru my mind on the rental apartment. Again money issue. Reminds myself that it's time to invest in it so can get more rental. So brush it off.
Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by by cat stretch. Able to hold the postures. Angamardhana was good. Quite effortless. Sat effortlessly in Hero posture with cushion. Wanted to get up to end the session but suddenly after removing the cushion I sat back. It wasn't a conscious decision, it just happened. When I sat without cushion, immediately laughter exploded. I feel such joy. Later I was singing and dancing. Such a breakthrough, finally able to sit on Hero posture without cushion and best of all there is no pain, just slightly stretching.
Did preparatory for Surya Kriya. Alignment quite good. Forgot to do 61 points and the Locks.
Shakti was good with little tots. Shambavi was good too but alarm rang while I just got into Fluttering. So it was an abrupt ending. Feel bit sleepy.
Virgo North node by Jan Spiller
They need to have more faith in what they want to do - and faith, for them is best built through action. Faith is a gift from their past lives. Through their experiences with surrender and seeing the larger vision, they gained faith in the moment to moment unfolding of daily living. In this lifetime, they know innately that "all is well and everything is happening as it should," and they gain peace of mind and confidence from remembering this.
Soul
Need this.
Suddenly flow of money going out. Wish the apartment rental issue didn't surface same time as me purchasing the condo. But guess this is my money issue.
Anyway Six of Diamonds settlement issue.
Surprisingly my body itch for last one month has stopped.
Awesome Sathsang
Feb 9
What an awesome Sathsang. From the Shambavi to Brahmananda to Special meditation, all so powerful.
I was laughing, crying and dancing. Body move non stop. Felt a bit of ache yesterday evening but body okay now.
Body woke up at 4 plus before alarm. Skip Angamardhana since sleeping late.
In the video Sadhguru said not many people have the intelligence to do sadhana when their life is comfortable. Many people only do sadhana when life is difficult. He wished that whichever type of life that helps us in doing Sadhana.
Yesterday sharing of HataYoga was good. Didn't plan but I felt overwhelmed with gratitude and tears fell. After my sharing another lady followed up and asked everyone to upgrade.
Did opening invocation and then suddenly guru pooja was uttered. So I sang guru pooja too. Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by preparatory steps. Butterfly has improved. Left baby rock has also improved. Cat stretch was good. Body more nimble and right elbow swelling has reduced.
Surya Kriya was good. Breathing meditation was lovely. Shakti was quite focused. Very little tots.
Shambavi was great.
Amen.
What an awesome Sathsang. From the Shambavi to Brahmananda to Special meditation, all so powerful.
I was laughing, crying and dancing. Body move non stop. Felt a bit of ache yesterday evening but body okay now.
Body woke up at 4 plus before alarm. Skip Angamardhana since sleeping late.
In the video Sadhguru said not many people have the intelligence to do sadhana when their life is comfortable. Many people only do sadhana when life is difficult. He wished that whichever type of life that helps us in doing Sadhana.
Yesterday sharing of HataYoga was good. Didn't plan but I felt overwhelmed with gratitude and tears fell. After my sharing another lady followed up and asked everyone to upgrade.
Did opening invocation and then suddenly guru pooja was uttered. So I sang guru pooja too. Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by preparatory steps. Butterfly has improved. Left baby rock has also improved. Cat stretch was good. Body more nimble and right elbow swelling has reduced.
Surya Kriya was good. Breathing meditation was lovely. Shakti was quite focused. Very little tots.
Shambavi was great.
Amen.
Feeling uncertain with money
Feb 6
So much medication that I m groggy. Couldn't get into the space during Sannidhi's Pooja.
Did one cycle of Linga's chant but partially chanting in silence. Just couldn't chant. Lie down in Devi posture and tears fell.
Later Shoonya was light too. Couldn't get into breathing meditation and was about to give up but suddenly went in. Sat for awhile. Have not taken RA pills for 2 days and left hand fingers are swelling. Got to take tonight.
Now that my younger brother and family has shifted, house is so quiet. So the right decision that mom and I shifting to condo.
Just received mail on bonus provision. My astrology said news of money coming in this month. I said nope cos bonus only known in mid year. Alas it may be right. Hope can get 4 months instead of 3 months. Will be timely for new condo renovation.
Destiny Saturn period.
Jack of Diamonds (financial success through salesmanship or creativity, initiation into higher values)
This card can represent a businessman or associate with whom u have obligations or problems. This can be a karmic rship, one that requires hard work and patience for success.
Creative projects to make money may seem a burden to you but this is necessary part of establishing urself and ur future success. U will have success now but u will need to work hard for it.
Be on the lookout for Diamonds suit especially those who are younger or may be approaching you from either a romantic or creative view point. These are likely to be burdensome.
Three of Clubs (creativity, expression of ideas or through writing)
Worry and fear of the future could be ur major concerns this year, especially in this period. This worry could relate to somehow to an illness of a family member or urself.
Take special care of ur health and diet.
U have a lot of creative energy and in order to stay in a positive frame of mind, u would be better off if u found some way to express this creativity in a positive way.
Though creative projects may be difficult, proceed.
Soul
So true. Now I think at the minimum will need one thousand on utilities and maintenance.
Telling myself not to be afraid of the future.
So much medication that I m groggy. Couldn't get into the space during Sannidhi's Pooja.
Did one cycle of Linga's chant but partially chanting in silence. Just couldn't chant. Lie down in Devi posture and tears fell.
Later Shoonya was light too. Couldn't get into breathing meditation and was about to give up but suddenly went in. Sat for awhile. Have not taken RA pills for 2 days and left hand fingers are swelling. Got to take tonight.
Now that my younger brother and family has shifted, house is so quiet. So the right decision that mom and I shifting to condo.
Just received mail on bonus provision. My astrology said news of money coming in this month. I said nope cos bonus only known in mid year. Alas it may be right. Hope can get 4 months instead of 3 months. Will be timely for new condo renovation.
Destiny Saturn period.
Jack of Diamonds (financial success through salesmanship or creativity, initiation into higher values)
This card can represent a businessman or associate with whom u have obligations or problems. This can be a karmic rship, one that requires hard work and patience for success.
Creative projects to make money may seem a burden to you but this is necessary part of establishing urself and ur future success. U will have success now but u will need to work hard for it.
Be on the lookout for Diamonds suit especially those who are younger or may be approaching you from either a romantic or creative view point. These are likely to be burdensome.
Three of Clubs (creativity, expression of ideas or through writing)
Worry and fear of the future could be ur major concerns this year, especially in this period. This worry could relate to somehow to an illness of a family member or urself.
Take special care of ur health and diet.
U have a lot of creative energy and in order to stay in a positive frame of mind, u would be better off if u found some way to express this creativity in a positive way.
Though creative projects may be difficult, proceed.
Soul
So true. Now I think at the minimum will need one thousand on utilities and maintenance.
Telling myself not to be afraid of the future.
Feeling at ease
Feb 4
Woke up around 3 plus am. Body is okay cos had flu pill. Thanks to Sannidhi.
Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by cat stretch. Angarmadhana is good. Hero posture was quite effortless.
Did preparatory for Surya Kriya. It was good too.
Shakti was good too and so was Shambavi.
Now more settled on the condo. Looks like mom truly wants to let go.
Feb 4 aft
Just met all the bankers. Throughly Two of Diamonds Results
Woke up around 3 plus am. Body is okay cos had flu pill. Thanks to Sannidhi.
Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by cat stretch. Angarmadhana is good. Hero posture was quite effortless.
Did preparatory for Surya Kriya. It was good too.
Shakti was good too and so was Shambavi.
Now more settled on the condo. Looks like mom truly wants to let go.
Feb 4 aft
Just met all the bankers. Throughly Two of Diamonds Results
Yoga - science of living
Feb 3
Yoga - science of living by Osho
Discipline is significant, is needed, but not the kind that is adopted, that is external to one's own being. That can only be an imposition and will function as a block to one's growth.
But there is the discipline that is the outcome, the flowering of an organic process. It grows out of a deep intimacy with one 's body-mind; out of having worked with rather than against oneself.
It is a discipline not of controlling oneself but being more conscious of oneself - in thinking, feeling, doing.
Yoga is not a belief system. It is a methodology, a scientific methodology how to attain the fantastic.
Soul
Amen
Yoga - science of living by Osho
Discipline is significant, is needed, but not the kind that is adopted, that is external to one's own being. That can only be an imposition and will function as a block to one's growth.
But there is the discipline that is the outcome, the flowering of an organic process. It grows out of a deep intimacy with one 's body-mind; out of having worked with rather than against oneself.
It is a discipline not of controlling oneself but being more conscious of oneself - in thinking, feeling, doing.
Yoga is not a belief system. It is a methodology, a scientific methodology how to attain the fantastic.
Soul
Amen
Two of Diamond - financial arrangement
My Daily Card
The Two of Diamonds
The Two of Diamonds signifies that a money partnership of some kind will be playing a role in your life. This could be a standard business partnership or something out of the ordinary, but it will certainly have something related to money as the end result.
Whether this 'joining of financial interests' becomes an asset or a liability depends largely upon the surrounding circumstances and the position of this card.
We often need the association of others in order to achieve our financial goals. The Two of Diamonds will encourage us to develop relationships that are mutually beneficial between ourselves and others in our business and financial life. The most success comes with this card when we adopt a Win-Win attitude towards all our business dealings.
Soul
Coincidentally giving documents for my new condominium loan.
Suddenly tot, thats my Result card for the year..
2014/15 Destiny
Long Range
Six of Diamonds
This is a very steadying influence and when it shows up in long range. This can be good if u are in good financial shape when the years begin.
This powerful karma card insures that any imbalances in ur financial picture will be evened out during this year.
It is wise to be totally responsible under this influence as dishonest dealings are likely to receive immediate pay-back.
On the other hand, if you recognise the inherent potential in this powerful card, u could get well ahead by always doing more than u were paid for in all ur business and financial dealings. As u sow, so shall u reap.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Soul
Thats me..went to Kailash in August..then buy Sannidhi in October and now buy new Condo in Jan...
Sannidhi truly accelerates.
Tot I can withdraw from employee funding..but alas can only withdraw two years later. So got to dig further into my personal deposits.
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
Soul
Yea...my new loan commitment.
The last time I have housing loan was a couple of years ago.
Environment
Five of Diamonds
Favourable changes in ur work or business will bring blessings this year. Any travel connected with work or making money will also be a source of benefits.
It would be wise to think about ways that u can expand of change ur current money making enterprises with this influence.
In addition, any travel, moves or changes will tend to have a positive result. A change in ur values toward greater expansion is bringing rewards and blessings.
Soul
Never knew it can happen. Never plan for it. Even if I shift will be when my mom pass away.
Mom want to shift to new condo and so do I...
Displacement
Six of Hearts.
Becoming more conscious of our actions in the area of personal relationship ls.
It is entirely possible that some fated events occur in ur life this year as a result of ur actions in the past in ur personal relationships.
These events may not be to ur liking. They may even seems unfair as far as u are concerned, as if what is happening is something that u do not deserve. These are likely to be difficult situation during ur Saturn period and they will involve some key relationships. However this event are fair and just, the result of something u did in the past, be it in this lifetime or one prior to now.
Sometimes this card has been known to attract a karmic relationship that returns for us to settle some unfinished business. If someone new and significant comes into ur life this year, it is likely to be the cause. Be attentive to what is going on between you - what are the real issues that u are dealing with in this relationship?
Issues will revolve around finances and having an awareness of personal responsibility in matters of love and family. It is up to u to explore any situations that come up and to be open to learning more about fairness. Keep an open mind and be willing to give whatever is asked of u if you wish to get the most from this powerful influence.
On the brighter side, this card gives u extraordinary powers of mental concentration this year, which should bring u more success in ur business or job.
Soul
Now I know...thats my big brother coming back to our life, staying in my house.
He trying to assert his authority with my mom and family.
Trying to show that he is the authority..whereas we haven't been referring to him since the day he got married.
I can finally see him as he is..his criticism of everyone and everything is just to elevate himself as he feel insecure.
Now his criticism no longer works on me...
He now have a hold on mom...and prevent us from shifting. But I know mom will go with me.
The Two of Diamonds
The Two of Diamonds signifies that a money partnership of some kind will be playing a role in your life. This could be a standard business partnership or something out of the ordinary, but it will certainly have something related to money as the end result.
Whether this 'joining of financial interests' becomes an asset or a liability depends largely upon the surrounding circumstances and the position of this card.
We often need the association of others in order to achieve our financial goals. The Two of Diamonds will encourage us to develop relationships that are mutually beneficial between ourselves and others in our business and financial life. The most success comes with this card when we adopt a Win-Win attitude towards all our business dealings.
Soul
Coincidentally giving documents for my new condominium loan.
Suddenly tot, thats my Result card for the year..
2014/15 Destiny
Long Range
Six of Diamonds
This is a very steadying influence and when it shows up in long range. This can be good if u are in good financial shape when the years begin.
This powerful karma card insures that any imbalances in ur financial picture will be evened out during this year.
It is wise to be totally responsible under this influence as dishonest dealings are likely to receive immediate pay-back.
On the other hand, if you recognise the inherent potential in this powerful card, u could get well ahead by always doing more than u were paid for in all ur business and financial dealings. As u sow, so shall u reap.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Soul
Thats me..went to Kailash in August..then buy Sannidhi in October and now buy new Condo in Jan...
Sannidhi truly accelerates.
Tot I can withdraw from employee funding..but alas can only withdraw two years later. So got to dig further into my personal deposits.
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
Soul
Yea...my new loan commitment.
The last time I have housing loan was a couple of years ago.
Environment
Five of Diamonds
Favourable changes in ur work or business will bring blessings this year. Any travel connected with work or making money will also be a source of benefits.
It would be wise to think about ways that u can expand of change ur current money making enterprises with this influence.
In addition, any travel, moves or changes will tend to have a positive result. A change in ur values toward greater expansion is bringing rewards and blessings.
Soul
Never knew it can happen. Never plan for it. Even if I shift will be when my mom pass away.
Mom want to shift to new condo and so do I...
Displacement
Six of Hearts.
Becoming more conscious of our actions in the area of personal relationship ls.
It is entirely possible that some fated events occur in ur life this year as a result of ur actions in the past in ur personal relationships.
These events may not be to ur liking. They may even seems unfair as far as u are concerned, as if what is happening is something that u do not deserve. These are likely to be difficult situation during ur Saturn period and they will involve some key relationships. However this event are fair and just, the result of something u did in the past, be it in this lifetime or one prior to now.
Sometimes this card has been known to attract a karmic relationship that returns for us to settle some unfinished business. If someone new and significant comes into ur life this year, it is likely to be the cause. Be attentive to what is going on between you - what are the real issues that u are dealing with in this relationship?
Issues will revolve around finances and having an awareness of personal responsibility in matters of love and family. It is up to u to explore any situations that come up and to be open to learning more about fairness. Keep an open mind and be willing to give whatever is asked of u if you wish to get the most from this powerful influence.
On the brighter side, this card gives u extraordinary powers of mental concentration this year, which should bring u more success in ur business or job.
Soul
Now I know...thats my big brother coming back to our life, staying in my house.
He trying to assert his authority with my mom and family.
Trying to show that he is the authority..whereas we haven't been referring to him since the day he got married.
I can finally see him as he is..his criticism of everyone and everything is just to elevate himself as he feel insecure.
Now his criticism no longer works on me...
He now have a hold on mom...and prevent us from shifting. But I know mom will go with me.
Invocation - Asatoma Sadgamaya
Jan 30
Today sadhana was awesome. Unbelievable. So great that I cried a few times out of gratitude. Tears just flow.
Thanks to Sadhguru, the Isha Hata Yoga is truly amazing.
Today, my song is Asatoma Sadgamaya. This song burst out whenever I felt so overwhelmed.
Sang this a couple of times today.
Woke up at 7 am...yesterday forgot to put cloth over Sannidhi, can sense the energy in the room.
Did Bhuta Shuddi despite being late cos tonight I can't do.
Start preparatory steps (butterfly, baby rock and cat stretch) for Surya Kriya and did one cycle. Awesome..
Did the 61 points meditation..it was so good..just sensing my body with awareness...touch ing my body with my awareness.
Did the Bhanda lock.
Then followed by Yogaasanas...it was awesome.......
Half way I was so overwhelmed that Asatoma just came...
Breathing meditation is so lovely...so sweet.,,,just being aware of the breathe...not participating at all.
Alas understand what awareness means...
Shakti was good too....singing Asatoma at the end.
Shambavi was great. Now doing proper Arashidharna for the Suka Kriya. Able to have my spine straight and Suka Kriya is so thrilling...Aum chanting with spine straight and later Fluttering Breathe...
So awesome...
What a great Shambavi..
tears fell and again Asatoma come out..
Amen
Today sadhana was awesome. Unbelievable. So great that I cried a few times out of gratitude. Tears just flow.
Thanks to Sadhguru, the Isha Hata Yoga is truly amazing.
Today, my song is Asatoma Sadgamaya. This song burst out whenever I felt so overwhelmed.
Sang this a couple of times today.
Woke up at 7 am...yesterday forgot to put cloth over Sannidhi, can sense the energy in the room.
Did Bhuta Shuddi despite being late cos tonight I can't do.
Start preparatory steps (butterfly, baby rock and cat stretch) for Surya Kriya and did one cycle. Awesome..
Did the 61 points meditation..it was so good..just sensing my body with awareness...touch ing my body with my awareness.
Did the Bhanda lock.
Then followed by Yogaasanas...it was awesome.......
Half way I was so overwhelmed that Asatoma just came...
Breathing meditation is so lovely...so sweet.,,,just being aware of the breathe...not participating at all.
Alas understand what awareness means...
Shakti was good too....singing Asatoma at the end.
Shambavi was great. Now doing proper Arashidharna for the Suka Kriya. Able to have my spine straight and Suka Kriya is so thrilling...Aum chanting with spine straight and later Fluttering Breathe...
So awesome...
What a great Shambavi..
tears fell and again Asatoma come out..
Amen
Meditation is not static, not a possession
Jan 29 eve
Reading the Man who loves Seagulls by Osho.
It is a very good book.
the Man who loves Seagulls by Osho.
Meditation is not a static thing. It is a balance. U will have to attain it again and again and again. U will be more capable of attaining it but it is not going to remain forever, like a possession in ur hands. It has to be claimed each moment - only then it is yours.
U cannot rest, u cannot say "I have meditated and I have realised that now there is no need for me to do anything more. I can rest.
Life does not believe in rest; it is a constant movement from perfection to more perfection.
Soul
Consistent Sadhana.
Reading the Man who loves Seagulls by Osho.
It is a very good book.
the Man who loves Seagulls by Osho.
Meditation is not a static thing. It is a balance. U will have to attain it again and again and again. U will be more capable of attaining it but it is not going to remain forever, like a possession in ur hands. It has to be claimed each moment - only then it is yours.
U cannot rest, u cannot say "I have meditated and I have realised that now there is no need for me to do anything more. I can rest.
Life does not believe in rest; it is a constant movement from perfection to more perfection.
Soul
Consistent Sadhana.
Sadhguru on Akash
Jan 29 eve
Sadhguru on Akash
If you know how to get the cooperation of akash into your life, this will be a blessed life.
One simple process you can do for this is, after sunrise, before the sun crosses an angle of thirty degrees, look up at the sky once and bow down to akash for holding you in place today.
After the sun crosses thirty degrees, sometime during the day – anytime – look up and bow down again.
After the sun sets, once again look up and bow down, not to some god up there, just to the empty space for holding you in place for today. Just do this.
Life will change dramatically.
when you hit a peak experience, have you noticed, even without your awareness, your body looks up in gratitude? Somewhere there is recognition; there is an intelligence here which recognizes that.
Do this process consciously three times a day. If you get cooperation from akash, life will happen in magical ways. An intelligence that you have never thought possible will become yours.
Soul
I did 3 times but I think the one after 30 degree is missing. But still I know Akash is there for me. Maybe the condo was a gift from him.
Sadhguru on Akash
If you know how to get the cooperation of akash into your life, this will be a blessed life.
One simple process you can do for this is, after sunrise, before the sun crosses an angle of thirty degrees, look up at the sky once and bow down to akash for holding you in place today.
After the sun crosses thirty degrees, sometime during the day – anytime – look up and bow down again.
After the sun sets, once again look up and bow down, not to some god up there, just to the empty space for holding you in place for today. Just do this.
Life will change dramatically.
when you hit a peak experience, have you noticed, even without your awareness, your body looks up in gratitude? Somewhere there is recognition; there is an intelligence here which recognizes that.
Do this process consciously three times a day. If you get cooperation from akash, life will happen in magical ways. An intelligence that you have never thought possible will become yours.
Soul
I did 3 times but I think the one after 30 degree is missing. But still I know Akash is there for me. Maybe the condo was a gift from him.
Sunday, February 22, 2015
Authentic life, authentic person
Jan 29 aft
From facebook. Either from rebellesociety or tiny buddha.
To live in your truth is a truly beautiful thing. Living your life from an authentic place (what is authentic for you in this moment) means that you are actively creating a life that you desire. It means you are most likely feeling more joy than pain, and more expansion than contraction.
An Authentic Life = A Purposeful Life
Living authentically also means that you are living a life on purpose. Which is why I think living authentically is so important. You came here with a role to play, and the closer you are to living what is truest for you, the closer you will be to fulfilling that purpose.
It is in this walking out of your purpose that you will feel the greatest sense of satisfaction within your life. Which is really the whole point! The more on purpose you are, the better you will feel.
Here are ten habits of people who are living on purpose to help inspire you to step more into your truth and live a life closer to the one that you desire.
1. The Opinions of Others Don’t Not Throw Them Off Of Their Course:
There will always be people who think what you are doing is wrong. We all have conditioned ideas about how we ‘should’ behave, what kinds of things we should and should not do, what kind of jobs we should have, and so on. Those who are living their truths will be able to listen to people around them without being thrown off course by criticism or questioning. They are tuned into their own center and that is what leads and directs them.
2. They Can Compassionately See Others Points Of View:
Those who are living in their truth can openly and honestly listen to others, and fully hear what they have to say. They tend to be more interested in getting to know the person that they are speaking with as a unique individual, rather than needing to justify their own opinions and thoughts based on what the person they are speaking with is saying.
3. They Do Not Need Others To Agree With Them To Feel Secure:
They are happy to agree to disagree. Again they are living their lives from their internal compass, which means not everyone who they talk to has too agree with what they are doing or what they feel is the truth. They realize that truth can be very individual and subjective, and they are OK with that.
4. They Make Their Own Choices:
Those who are living authentically will totally ask for help when needed, and will take the opinions of those they respect into consideration, but at the end of the day they make their own choices. They take what they have heard, and then tune into themselves and choose from within.
5. They Take Responsibility For Themselves:
When you are living your most high truth, you are no longer sitting in the seat of blame. Those walking this walk will understand that they ALWAYS have a choice, and that anything that happens to them in their lives was based on the choices that they made. They also understand that they have the choice of how they react to what others in their lives do. They never play the victim card, because they understand that at the end of the day they are sovereign, and it is no one else’s job to do anything for them. They steer their own ships and make no excuses for what happens.
6. They Don’t Compromise On What They Need:
Authentic people understand that getting their needs met is not something to apologize for. These people understand that when living in a world with others one needs to approach life with compassion and ease for all, and they understand how to create an environment around themselves where they can get their needs met in a way that is most harmonious for everyone. There is always a way to get things done peacefully, and that is how an authentic person meets their needs. They also do not play the martyr, sacrificing themselves for other people, because they understand that in the long run doing so doesn’t really help anyone.
7. They Understand That Being “Selfish” Isn’t “Selfish” At All:
Those who are walking in their truth fully understand that one cannot give from an empty cup. These people take time every day to get their cups filled by doing the things they know nurture and replenish them. They never feel guilty for taking care of themselves, because they understand that they are as valuable and worthy of love and attention as anyone else, and that they are then more effective givers when they have what they need.
8. They Take Time Every Day To Tune Into Themselves:
This is one of the biggest things that sets those who are living in their truths apart from those who are not. When you are walking in your truth, you are taking time every single day to pause and check in with yourself. You can’t walk in your truth if you don’t know what your truth is! Spending time in quiet contemplation of some sort every day sets these people up for a truth based life.
9. They Nourish And Care For Their Bodies:
They understand that their bodies are not only their vehicles here on earth, but are fine tuned machines that can help them to navigate pretty much all situations. These people know that their bodies are a tool they can use in the quest to live their most authentic lives, and they are aware of how beneficial it is to truly take care of their bodies. Nourishing their physical selves is an act of self-love that pours over into the rest of their lives.
10. They Don’t Judge Others:
Finally, Those who are living in their truths are gracious and compassionate towards everyone else – whether the person they are interacting with is also living their truth or not. These people understand that everyone is on their unique journey, and that judgment and condemnation of others really doesn’t help anyone. Because authentic people are so secure in what they are doing, they tend to be naturally less judgmental of what others are doing. You will feel a sense of welcoming and acceptance when you are around an authentic person.
From facebook. Either from rebellesociety or tiny buddha.
To live in your truth is a truly beautiful thing. Living your life from an authentic place (what is authentic for you in this moment) means that you are actively creating a life that you desire. It means you are most likely feeling more joy than pain, and more expansion than contraction.
An Authentic Life = A Purposeful Life
Living authentically also means that you are living a life on purpose. Which is why I think living authentically is so important. You came here with a role to play, and the closer you are to living what is truest for you, the closer you will be to fulfilling that purpose.
It is in this walking out of your purpose that you will feel the greatest sense of satisfaction within your life. Which is really the whole point! The more on purpose you are, the better you will feel.
Here are ten habits of people who are living on purpose to help inspire you to step more into your truth and live a life closer to the one that you desire.
1. The Opinions of Others Don’t Not Throw Them Off Of Their Course:
There will always be people who think what you are doing is wrong. We all have conditioned ideas about how we ‘should’ behave, what kinds of things we should and should not do, what kind of jobs we should have, and so on. Those who are living their truths will be able to listen to people around them without being thrown off course by criticism or questioning. They are tuned into their own center and that is what leads and directs them.
2. They Can Compassionately See Others Points Of View:
Those who are living in their truth can openly and honestly listen to others, and fully hear what they have to say. They tend to be more interested in getting to know the person that they are speaking with as a unique individual, rather than needing to justify their own opinions and thoughts based on what the person they are speaking with is saying.
3. They Do Not Need Others To Agree With Them To Feel Secure:
They are happy to agree to disagree. Again they are living their lives from their internal compass, which means not everyone who they talk to has too agree with what they are doing or what they feel is the truth. They realize that truth can be very individual and subjective, and they are OK with that.
4. They Make Their Own Choices:
Those who are living authentically will totally ask for help when needed, and will take the opinions of those they respect into consideration, but at the end of the day they make their own choices. They take what they have heard, and then tune into themselves and choose from within.
5. They Take Responsibility For Themselves:
When you are living your most high truth, you are no longer sitting in the seat of blame. Those walking this walk will understand that they ALWAYS have a choice, and that anything that happens to them in their lives was based on the choices that they made. They also understand that they have the choice of how they react to what others in their lives do. They never play the victim card, because they understand that at the end of the day they are sovereign, and it is no one else’s job to do anything for them. They steer their own ships and make no excuses for what happens.
6. They Don’t Compromise On What They Need:
Authentic people understand that getting their needs met is not something to apologize for. These people understand that when living in a world with others one needs to approach life with compassion and ease for all, and they understand how to create an environment around themselves where they can get their needs met in a way that is most harmonious for everyone. There is always a way to get things done peacefully, and that is how an authentic person meets their needs. They also do not play the martyr, sacrificing themselves for other people, because they understand that in the long run doing so doesn’t really help anyone.
7. They Understand That Being “Selfish” Isn’t “Selfish” At All:
Those who are walking in their truth fully understand that one cannot give from an empty cup. These people take time every day to get their cups filled by doing the things they know nurture and replenish them. They never feel guilty for taking care of themselves, because they understand that they are as valuable and worthy of love and attention as anyone else, and that they are then more effective givers when they have what they need.
8. They Take Time Every Day To Tune Into Themselves:
This is one of the biggest things that sets those who are living in their truths apart from those who are not. When you are walking in your truth, you are taking time every single day to pause and check in with yourself. You can’t walk in your truth if you don’t know what your truth is! Spending time in quiet contemplation of some sort every day sets these people up for a truth based life.
9. They Nourish And Care For Their Bodies:
They understand that their bodies are not only their vehicles here on earth, but are fine tuned machines that can help them to navigate pretty much all situations. These people know that their bodies are a tool they can use in the quest to live their most authentic lives, and they are aware of how beneficial it is to truly take care of their bodies. Nourishing their physical selves is an act of self-love that pours over into the rest of their lives.
10. They Don’t Judge Others:
Finally, Those who are living in their truths are gracious and compassionate towards everyone else – whether the person they are interacting with is also living their truth or not. These people understand that everyone is on their unique journey, and that judgment and condemnation of others really doesn’t help anyone. Because authentic people are so secure in what they are doing, they tend to be naturally less judgmental of what others are doing. You will feel a sense of welcoming and acceptance when you are around an authentic person.
Awareness is stillness
Jan 29
Woke up at 7.05 am upon alarm.
Did preparatory for Surya Kriya but went ahead to Yogaasanas.
Today Yogaasanas not so great..for the standing posture. Lying down posture is good.
Yoga mudra is much better now.
Learning to do Bhanda Lock.
Then proceed to Surya Kriya...good.
Did two times of 61 point meditation. Both time I am fully aware, noticing the sensation.
Nowadays I can see what awareness mean...just detached and observed.
Breathing meditation is lovely. I was detached from my breathe. Just observing. In that observation, a certain stillness arise in me.
Shakti is good
Shambavi nice.
Saturn period starting today.
A hiccup, as I can't withdraw from my employee funding account. So will have to increase the loan repayment period.
Good news is that I got more money than I thought I have....so need not worry about future.
Yesterday much discussion on mom staying back with my brother while I shift out alone.
Looks like my big brother doing a good job in discouraging mom to stay back. Giving her all sorts of reasons why she shouldn't shift.
Anyway...I let it be.
Woke up at 7.05 am upon alarm.
Did preparatory for Surya Kriya but went ahead to Yogaasanas.
Today Yogaasanas not so great..for the standing posture. Lying down posture is good.
Yoga mudra is much better now.
Learning to do Bhanda Lock.
Then proceed to Surya Kriya...good.
Did two times of 61 point meditation. Both time I am fully aware, noticing the sensation.
Nowadays I can see what awareness mean...just detached and observed.
Breathing meditation is lovely. I was detached from my breathe. Just observing. In that observation, a certain stillness arise in me.
Shakti is good
Shambavi nice.
Saturn period starting today.
A hiccup, as I can't withdraw from my employee funding account. So will have to increase the loan repayment period.
Good news is that I got more money than I thought I have....so need not worry about future.
Yesterday much discussion on mom staying back with my brother while I shift out alone.
Looks like my big brother doing a good job in discouraging mom to stay back. Giving her all sorts of reasons why she shouldn't shift.
Anyway...I let it be.
Breakthrough in Hata Yoga - finally forehead can touch my knee in standing posture
Jan 28
Yesterday breakthrough. I can finally touch my forehead to knees on standing posture.
I must have break certain karmic issue by buying the condo.
By letting go of my dream of waiting for prince charming.
I am already nearly half century in age..the buck stop here.
Was hoping mom shift together. But alas she won't. I know its due to her worrying about my younger brother and big brother.
Alas, never mind I shift out. Its time for me to have my own space.
I didn't barrage on brother. This time I just prayed he got a job back in his place and goes off faster.
Anyway, a few more months to go. What will be will be.
Sannidhi has brought me the lovely condo. Whatever meant to be will be.
Yesterday breakthrough. I can finally touch my forehead to knees on standing posture.
I must have break certain karmic issue by buying the condo.
By letting go of my dream of waiting for prince charming.
I am already nearly half century in age..the buck stop here.
Was hoping mom shift together. But alas she won't. I know its due to her worrying about my younger brother and big brother.
Alas, never mind I shift out. Its time for me to have my own space.
I didn't barrage on brother. This time I just prayed he got a job back in his place and goes off faster.
Anyway, a few more months to go. What will be will be.
Sannidhi has brought me the lovely condo. Whatever meant to be will be.
Sadhguru on music vs mantra
Jan 27 eve 1
Sadhguru
Music is an arrangement of sounds to generate certain sweetness. Music is a fine arrangement, but still it is like the water flowing.
A mantra is not that beautiful aesthetically but it is much more effective.
I want you to try this out: Sounds of Isha has released a CD called Vairagya, which has five mantras: Nirvana Shatakam, Guru Paduka Stotram, Brahmananda Swarupa, Aum Namah Shivaya, and Shambho (“the auspicious one”).
This was released with a specific purpose. Listen to the CD over and over a few times, listening to each one of the mantras – each one runs for ten minutes.
Figure out which mantra really draws you. This isn’t about choosing a mantra like: “Oh, I enjoy this mantra. What have you chosen? Okay, let me also choose that.” It is not done like that.
Just listen and listen. When you feel that one of them is really grabbing you, you just go by that. Keep it going all the time – in your car, in your home, on your iPad, iPod, phone, everywhere. There are one-hour versions of each of these also. Simply keep them going on and on for some time.
After some time it will become so much a part of your system and it will set a certain ambience for you. Mantra is not consciousness but mantra sets the right kind of ambience. Sound will set the right kind of ambience within this physiological, psychological framework and also in the atmosphere. One can make use of this.
Soul
My mantra is Shambo..it helps to create the right ambience for me
Sadhguru
Music is an arrangement of sounds to generate certain sweetness. Music is a fine arrangement, but still it is like the water flowing.
A mantra is not that beautiful aesthetically but it is much more effective.
I want you to try this out: Sounds of Isha has released a CD called Vairagya, which has five mantras: Nirvana Shatakam, Guru Paduka Stotram, Brahmananda Swarupa, Aum Namah Shivaya, and Shambho (“the auspicious one”).
This was released with a specific purpose. Listen to the CD over and over a few times, listening to each one of the mantras – each one runs for ten minutes.
Figure out which mantra really draws you. This isn’t about choosing a mantra like: “Oh, I enjoy this mantra. What have you chosen? Okay, let me also choose that.” It is not done like that.
Just listen and listen. When you feel that one of them is really grabbing you, you just go by that. Keep it going all the time – in your car, in your home, on your iPad, iPod, phone, everywhere. There are one-hour versions of each of these also. Simply keep them going on and on for some time.
After some time it will become so much a part of your system and it will set a certain ambience for you. Mantra is not consciousness but mantra sets the right kind of ambience. Sound will set the right kind of ambience within this physiological, psychological framework and also in the atmosphere. One can make use of this.
Soul
My mantra is Shambo..it helps to create the right ambience for me
Sadhguru on Shambo
Jan 27 eve
Sadhguru: An important aspect of Shiva is called as Shambho. Normally, Shambho, or this aspect of the root energy is worshipped by only people who are in the spiritual path, because the word Shambho means “the auspicious one”.
The most auspicious thing that can happen to you is to realize yourself, is to reach the highest within yourself. We think, unfortunately, that getting married is auspicious, getting a promotion is auspicious, building a new house is auspicious.
The most auspicious thing that can happen to you in your life is that you reach the peak within yourself.
Shambho is the form in which we are able to call him down to us here very easily, in that form he seems to respond to us much better than any other form. Shambho has been a very dominant aspect in the Isha Yoga Center. To begin the Isha Yoga Center, to nurture it and to take it to the ultimate state also, this Shambho is going to play a very important role.
Shambho is an auspicious and very gentle form of Shiva, which is rare.
Shiva is usually wild; a crazy man he is, but this is a very gentle form of Shiva, a beautiful form of Shiva. These forms were established by people, so that others could make use of it. They are made into such eternal forms, they are always; if you are willing you can bring them down into your experience.
The sound Shambho is very, very significant. In many ways this space (referring to the Isha Yoga Center) is engineered around that sound. The power of this sound and the capability of this sound to liberate a being from one dimension of entanglement and move him to a different state of freedom is something phenomenal, especially because everything that we have done here is engineered around this particular reverberation.
Soul
No wonder I am so in touch with Shambo.
Have already put this in my mobile Soundscloud. Listening to Shambo in my car daily and at night before I spent time with my shrine.
Sadhguru: An important aspect of Shiva is called as Shambho. Normally, Shambho, or this aspect of the root energy is worshipped by only people who are in the spiritual path, because the word Shambho means “the auspicious one”.
The most auspicious thing that can happen to you is to realize yourself, is to reach the highest within yourself. We think, unfortunately, that getting married is auspicious, getting a promotion is auspicious, building a new house is auspicious.
The most auspicious thing that can happen to you in your life is that you reach the peak within yourself.
Shambho is the form in which we are able to call him down to us here very easily, in that form he seems to respond to us much better than any other form. Shambho has been a very dominant aspect in the Isha Yoga Center. To begin the Isha Yoga Center, to nurture it and to take it to the ultimate state also, this Shambho is going to play a very important role.
Shambho is an auspicious and very gentle form of Shiva, which is rare.
Shiva is usually wild; a crazy man he is, but this is a very gentle form of Shiva, a beautiful form of Shiva. These forms were established by people, so that others could make use of it. They are made into such eternal forms, they are always; if you are willing you can bring them down into your experience.
The sound Shambho is very, very significant. In many ways this space (referring to the Isha Yoga Center) is engineered around that sound. The power of this sound and the capability of this sound to liberate a being from one dimension of entanglement and move him to a different state of freedom is something phenomenal, especially because everything that we have done here is engineered around this particular reverberation.
Soul
No wonder I am so in touch with Shambo.
Have already put this in my mobile Soundscloud. Listening to Shambo in my car daily and at night before I spent time with my shrine.
Throat chakra - finally opened up
Jan 27
Woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am.
Body is not so great. I lie back and promptly slept and wake up 4.16 am. Wanted to doze further till 4.40am but body is awake. So woke up.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Preparatory steps and cat stretch. Did one cycle of Surya kriya and it was good. Also remember to do the Bhanda lock.
Breathing was lovely.
Shakti was good too. Little tots during Kapala Bhakti. Only tots was on my new condo.
Shambavi was good. So nice sitting in silent contentment.
Suddenly tot me buying and shifting to new condo. Truly unexpected. Must be Kailash that accelerate.
So glad that I was able to handle big brother resistance. All the other family support me in my shift. They know they will need to adjust their life but they know its time for me to have my own life too.
Alas I gave myself what I want. No longer waiting for Prince Charming to give me.
The Throat Chakra inspires creative communication…
ASSOCIATED ISSUES; lies, rebellion, unable to speak truth, communication, relationship/trust problems, learning to say no, speaking out, and worry or grief.
ASSOCIATED BODY PARTS; throat, neck, arms, hands, thyroid gland, and cervical plexus.
The Throat chakra is the center of creative expression.
Soul
Didn't realise arms are part of throat chakra too. Arms has reduced in size since Anga. But can still reduce further.
Throat chakra
When we know what we want and openly express these desires our ability to manifest is intensified. The balanced energies easily support our truths and we are capable of incredible creative expression.
Soul
Handled mom and big brother. Also handled my subsconcious fear of paying the price. For once going for what I want.
Throat chakra
An Unbalanced Under-active Throat Chakra has the opposite effect on us making it extremely difficult to communicate with others, and incapable of clearly expressing our thoughts when we do. Experiencing inner turmoil and likely avoiding the truth staring us in the face also indicates an over-active throat chakra.
When you can’t clearly communicate to yourself what you want in life, then you can’t expect to experience an ideal outcome. An under-active throat chakra can be truly detrimental to our well being, and we probably wouldn’t even be capable of recognizing this until after balancing techniques were applied.
Soul
About 2 months ago, after yogaasaanas guided practice in the studio, we did 61 point awareness meditation. It suddenly happens..I become aware of my throat point and feel it opens up and flowers..and tears fall.
Ever since that day..I am now able to speak more..
Woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am.
Body is not so great. I lie back and promptly slept and wake up 4.16 am. Wanted to doze further till 4.40am but body is awake. So woke up.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Preparatory steps and cat stretch. Did one cycle of Surya kriya and it was good. Also remember to do the Bhanda lock.
Breathing was lovely.
Shakti was good too. Little tots during Kapala Bhakti. Only tots was on my new condo.
Shambavi was good. So nice sitting in silent contentment.
Suddenly tot me buying and shifting to new condo. Truly unexpected. Must be Kailash that accelerate.
So glad that I was able to handle big brother resistance. All the other family support me in my shift. They know they will need to adjust their life but they know its time for me to have my own life too.
Alas I gave myself what I want. No longer waiting for Prince Charming to give me.
The Throat Chakra inspires creative communication…
ASSOCIATED ISSUES; lies, rebellion, unable to speak truth, communication, relationship/trust problems, learning to say no, speaking out, and worry or grief.
ASSOCIATED BODY PARTS; throat, neck, arms, hands, thyroid gland, and cervical plexus.
The Throat chakra is the center of creative expression.
Soul
Didn't realise arms are part of throat chakra too. Arms has reduced in size since Anga. But can still reduce further.
Throat chakra
When we know what we want and openly express these desires our ability to manifest is intensified. The balanced energies easily support our truths and we are capable of incredible creative expression.
Soul
Handled mom and big brother. Also handled my subsconcious fear of paying the price. For once going for what I want.
Throat chakra
An Unbalanced Under-active Throat Chakra has the opposite effect on us making it extremely difficult to communicate with others, and incapable of clearly expressing our thoughts when we do. Experiencing inner turmoil and likely avoiding the truth staring us in the face also indicates an over-active throat chakra.
When you can’t clearly communicate to yourself what you want in life, then you can’t expect to experience an ideal outcome. An under-active throat chakra can be truly detrimental to our well being, and we probably wouldn’t even be capable of recognizing this until after balancing techniques were applied.
Soul
About 2 months ago, after yogaasaanas guided practice in the studio, we did 61 point awareness meditation. It suddenly happens..I become aware of my throat point and feel it opens up and flowers..and tears fall.
Ever since that day..I am now able to speak more..
Osho Tarot - Trust - I jumped
Jan 26 mor
Last week card really true.
1. The Issue
Comparison
Comparison brings inferiority, superiority. When you don't compare, all inferiority, all superiority, disappears. Then you are, you are simply there.Let's face it, there is always going to be somebody who is more beautiful, more talented, stronger, more intelligent, or apparently happier than you are. And conversely, there will always be those who are less than you in all these ways. The way to find out who you are is not by comparing yourself with others, but by looking to see whether you are fulfilling your own potential in the best way you know how.
Soul
I stopped comparing to what the others would do with their money, with their investment.
I focus on what I want, not what other want.
2. Internal influence you are unable to see
Awareness
The veil of illusion, or maya, that has been keeping you from perceiving reality as it is, is starting to burn away. The fire is not the heated fire of passion, but the cool flame of awareness. As it burns the veil, the face of a very delicate and childlike buddha becomes visible. The awareness that is growing in you now is not the result of any conscious "doing", nor do you need to struggle to make something happen. Any sense you might have had that you've been groping in the dark is dissolving now, or will be dissolving soon. Let yourself settle, and remember that deep inside you are just a witness, eternally silent, aware and unchanged. A channel is now opening from the circumference of activity to that center of witnessing. It will help you to become detached, and a new awareness will lift the veil from your eyes.
Soul
Yes, the Ace of Diamond finally cross over to my Destiny Queen of Diamonds.
Finally fulfilling my needs instead of waiting for Prince Charming.
3. External influences that you are aware
Maturity
This figure stands alone, silent and yet alert. The inner being is filled with flowers--that carry the quality of springtime and regenerate wherever he goes. This inner flowering and the wholeness that he feels affords the possibility of unlimited movement. He can move in any direction--within and without it makes no difference as his joy and and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. He has come to a time of centeredness and expansiveness--the white glow around the figure is his protection and his light. All of life's experiences have brought him to this time of perfection. When you draw this card, know well this moment carries a gift--for hard work well done. Your base is solid now and success and good fortune are yours for they are the outcome of what has already been experienced within.
Soul
Finally going for what I want instead of focusing on the price to pay.
4. Whats needed for resolution?
Trust
Now is the moment to be a bungee jumper without the cord! And it is this quality of absolute trust, with no reservations or secret safety nets, that the Knight of Water demands from us. There is a tremendous sense of exhilaration if we can take the jump and move into the unknown, even if the idea scares us to death. And when we take trust to the level of the quantum leap, we don't make any elaborate plans or preparations. We don't say, "Okay, I trust that I know what to do now, and I'll settle my things and pack my suitcase and take it with me." No, we just jump, with hardly a thought for what happens next. The leap is the thing, and the thrill of it as we free-fall through the empty sky. The card gives a hint here, though, about what waits for us at the other end - a soft, welcoming, yummy pink, rose petals, juicy...c'mon!
Soul
Thats what I did.
My mom also jumped and asked me to jump. We booked the condo within minutes of viewing it. We both fell in love with it.
At first I was hesitant because of the maintenance but mom said go for it. Its a golden location.
Didn't expect she is so adamant in the condo.
Didn't expect that she want to shift in asap.
So alas can now enjoy the living space that I want , with the awesome balcony view and swimming pool and my coffee machine..and a place for my shrine.
5. Resolution
The Miser
The moment you become miserly you are closed to the basic phenomenon of life: expansion, sharing. The moment you start clinging to things, you have missed the target--you have missed. Because things are not the target, you, your innermost being, is the target--not a beautiful house, but a beautiful you; not much money, but a rich you; not many things, but an open being, available to millions of things.
This woman has created a fortress around herself, and she is clinging to all the possessions she thinks are her treasures. In fact she has accumulated so much stuff with which to adorn herself--including the feathers and furs of living creatures--that she has made herself ugly in the effort. This card challenges us to look at what we are clinging to, and what we feel we possess that is so valuable it needs to be protected by a fortress. It needn't be a big bank balance or a box full of jewels--it could be something as simple as sharing our time with a friend, or taking the risk of expressing our love to another. Like a well that is sealed up and becomes stagnant from disuse, our treasures become tarnished and worthless if we refuse to share them. Whatever you're holding on to, remember that you can't take it with you. Loosen your grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.
Soul
Yes, finally releasing the Fixed deposit to buy the condo.
Finally releasing the need to have much money to feel secure.
Money is meant to be enjoyed...
Also realised that Fixed deposit no longer give me the security that I tot I needed.
Alas,,,buying the Condo...I feel released.
Last week card really true.
1. The Issue
Comparison
Comparison brings inferiority, superiority. When you don't compare, all inferiority, all superiority, disappears. Then you are, you are simply there.Let's face it, there is always going to be somebody who is more beautiful, more talented, stronger, more intelligent, or apparently happier than you are. And conversely, there will always be those who are less than you in all these ways. The way to find out who you are is not by comparing yourself with others, but by looking to see whether you are fulfilling your own potential in the best way you know how.
Soul
I stopped comparing to what the others would do with their money, with their investment.
I focus on what I want, not what other want.
2. Internal influence you are unable to see
Awareness
The veil of illusion, or maya, that has been keeping you from perceiving reality as it is, is starting to burn away. The fire is not the heated fire of passion, but the cool flame of awareness. As it burns the veil, the face of a very delicate and childlike buddha becomes visible. The awareness that is growing in you now is not the result of any conscious "doing", nor do you need to struggle to make something happen. Any sense you might have had that you've been groping in the dark is dissolving now, or will be dissolving soon. Let yourself settle, and remember that deep inside you are just a witness, eternally silent, aware and unchanged. A channel is now opening from the circumference of activity to that center of witnessing. It will help you to become detached, and a new awareness will lift the veil from your eyes.
Soul
Yes, the Ace of Diamond finally cross over to my Destiny Queen of Diamonds.
Finally fulfilling my needs instead of waiting for Prince Charming.
3. External influences that you are aware
Maturity
This figure stands alone, silent and yet alert. The inner being is filled with flowers--that carry the quality of springtime and regenerate wherever he goes. This inner flowering and the wholeness that he feels affords the possibility of unlimited movement. He can move in any direction--within and without it makes no difference as his joy and and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. He has come to a time of centeredness and expansiveness--the white glow around the figure is his protection and his light. All of life's experiences have brought him to this time of perfection. When you draw this card, know well this moment carries a gift--for hard work well done. Your base is solid now and success and good fortune are yours for they are the outcome of what has already been experienced within.
Soul
Finally going for what I want instead of focusing on the price to pay.
4. Whats needed for resolution?
Trust
Now is the moment to be a bungee jumper without the cord! And it is this quality of absolute trust, with no reservations or secret safety nets, that the Knight of Water demands from us. There is a tremendous sense of exhilaration if we can take the jump and move into the unknown, even if the idea scares us to death. And when we take trust to the level of the quantum leap, we don't make any elaborate plans or preparations. We don't say, "Okay, I trust that I know what to do now, and I'll settle my things and pack my suitcase and take it with me." No, we just jump, with hardly a thought for what happens next. The leap is the thing, and the thrill of it as we free-fall through the empty sky. The card gives a hint here, though, about what waits for us at the other end - a soft, welcoming, yummy pink, rose petals, juicy...c'mon!
Soul
Thats what I did.
My mom also jumped and asked me to jump. We booked the condo within minutes of viewing it. We both fell in love with it.
At first I was hesitant because of the maintenance but mom said go for it. Its a golden location.
Didn't expect she is so adamant in the condo.
Didn't expect that she want to shift in asap.
So alas can now enjoy the living space that I want , with the awesome balcony view and swimming pool and my coffee machine..and a place for my shrine.
5. Resolution
The Miser
The moment you become miserly you are closed to the basic phenomenon of life: expansion, sharing. The moment you start clinging to things, you have missed the target--you have missed. Because things are not the target, you, your innermost being, is the target--not a beautiful house, but a beautiful you; not much money, but a rich you; not many things, but an open being, available to millions of things.
This woman has created a fortress around herself, and she is clinging to all the possessions she thinks are her treasures. In fact she has accumulated so much stuff with which to adorn herself--including the feathers and furs of living creatures--that she has made herself ugly in the effort. This card challenges us to look at what we are clinging to, and what we feel we possess that is so valuable it needs to be protected by a fortress. It needn't be a big bank balance or a box full of jewels--it could be something as simple as sharing our time with a friend, or taking the risk of expressing our love to another. Like a well that is sealed up and becomes stagnant from disuse, our treasures become tarnished and worthless if we refuse to share them. Whatever you're holding on to, remember that you can't take it with you. Loosen your grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.
Soul
Yes, finally releasing the Fixed deposit to buy the condo.
Finally releasing the need to have much money to feel secure.
Money is meant to be enjoyed...
Also realised that Fixed deposit no longer give me the security that I tot I needed.
Alas,,,buying the Condo...I feel released.
Isha Hata Yoga truly helps
Jan 26
Didn't sleep that well yesterday. Slept around 11.17 pm after my short time with the shrine.
Waken up at 1 plus am by nephew cries. Took awhile to sleep back. Then woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am. These two days learning not to jump out.
Savour the awareness and get up using the Shavasana way. Mind wonder a bit and said maybe I should skip Angamardhana since I didn't have a restful sleep. Then I observed my body and can see that it is alert and not tired. So ignored the mind and get up 5 minutes later.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Cat stretch. Angarmadhana was good. Did preparatory steps for Surya Kriya. Surya Kriya was good albeit alignment was out. At the end head was shaking non stop.
Breathing meditation was good. Now able to separate the observation of breathe and actual breathe motion. Breathing as per body and then just observed without participation of the breathe.
Shakti was good. Able to sit well. Little tots too.
Shambavi was good too. Just stretch my legs using the preparatory steps of Butterfly and baby rock. Then proceed to cat Stretch and full Shambavi.
It was so nice. Wish I can sit longer.
Getting the right hata yoga sequence have an impact.
Didn't sleep that well yesterday. Slept around 11.17 pm after my short time with the shrine.
Waken up at 1 plus am by nephew cries. Took awhile to sleep back. Then woke up upon alarm at 3.48 am. These two days learning not to jump out.
Savour the awareness and get up using the Shavasana way. Mind wonder a bit and said maybe I should skip Angamardhana since I didn't have a restful sleep. Then I observed my body and can see that it is alert and not tired. So ignored the mind and get up 5 minutes later.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Cat stretch. Angarmadhana was good. Did preparatory steps for Surya Kriya. Surya Kriya was good albeit alignment was out. At the end head was shaking non stop.
Breathing meditation was good. Now able to separate the observation of breathe and actual breathe motion. Breathing as per body and then just observed without participation of the breathe.
Shakti was good. Able to sit well. Little tots too.
Shambavi was good too. Just stretch my legs using the preparatory steps of Butterfly and baby rock. Then proceed to cat Stretch and full Shambavi.
It was so nice. Wish I can sit longer.
Getting the right hata yoga sequence have an impact.
Queen of Diamonds in Destiny - finally giving myself what I want.
Jan 25
Got the green light from the owner, so the purchase of condominum is on.
For the first time I focus in what I want to have instead of the price to pay.
Break my karma.
Moving from Ace to Queen, enjoying the finer pleasure in life.
Now I know why I was okay to play second fiddle to bosses who truly enjoy the finer pleasure of life. I hope they will give me instead of me giving myself.
I also was hoping that my romantic partner will offer me the luxury in life.
When I first went with Z, he gave me his name card being head of his company. Alas there is no employee only him. He has no money. But he is keen on luxury, but spending beyond his means, getting himself heavily committed financially.
Finally, I am no longer waiting for anyone to give me. The bucks stopped here and I give to myself.
I can give myself things that I wanted to savour and enjoy.
Alas, finally plan to get myself the coffee machine that I wanted.
A tot on Y, with her Destiny in Seven of Diamonds and Ruling in Five of Clubs. She always changed her mind. Her destiny is to be intensely focused in something that she valued and work on it. Her Ruling is a rolling stone that gathers no moss. Its because of her Fives in Ruling and hence she is flexible and her body is flexible too.
Today in the park, mom wants to take care of brother and asked me to delay the move to condo.
As I was walking, my mind start to be negative and start to feel defensive on brother. Remembering the time he asked money for me for the current house. His current penthouse that can't accommodate us going there and he now expects us to be there for him and etc.
Then suddenly, a tot came. Why focus on the imagined negative intent of others, why not focus on positive manifestation. With that, I focus on him getting his new job in his current hometown so mom need not worry about him and we can shift out.
Went for late breakfast with sister and I shared with her about mom's concern. Both sister and brother in law said it is time for mom to retire. She should not have to take care of all our meals. And as for brother, we should not worry, he can take care of himself. It be better if he shift to a place near his current office as daily petrol and toll costs is quite heavy.
So, all set to go. I am shifting to my new place in couple of months.
Giving myself the swimming pool and awesome view and coffee machine that I always wanted.
Got the green light from the owner, so the purchase of condominum is on.
For the first time I focus in what I want to have instead of the price to pay.
Break my karma.
Moving from Ace to Queen, enjoying the finer pleasure in life.
Now I know why I was okay to play second fiddle to bosses who truly enjoy the finer pleasure of life. I hope they will give me instead of me giving myself.
I also was hoping that my romantic partner will offer me the luxury in life.
When I first went with Z, he gave me his name card being head of his company. Alas there is no employee only him. He has no money. But he is keen on luxury, but spending beyond his means, getting himself heavily committed financially.
Finally, I am no longer waiting for anyone to give me. The bucks stopped here and I give to myself.
I can give myself things that I wanted to savour and enjoy.
Alas, finally plan to get myself the coffee machine that I wanted.
A tot on Y, with her Destiny in Seven of Diamonds and Ruling in Five of Clubs. She always changed her mind. Her destiny is to be intensely focused in something that she valued and work on it. Her Ruling is a rolling stone that gathers no moss. Its because of her Fives in Ruling and hence she is flexible and her body is flexible too.
Today in the park, mom wants to take care of brother and asked me to delay the move to condo.
As I was walking, my mind start to be negative and start to feel defensive on brother. Remembering the time he asked money for me for the current house. His current penthouse that can't accommodate us going there and he now expects us to be there for him and etc.
Then suddenly, a tot came. Why focus on the imagined negative intent of others, why not focus on positive manifestation. With that, I focus on him getting his new job in his current hometown so mom need not worry about him and we can shift out.
Went for late breakfast with sister and I shared with her about mom's concern. Both sister and brother in law said it is time for mom to retire. She should not have to take care of all our meals. And as for brother, we should not worry, he can take care of himself. It be better if he shift to a place near his current office as daily petrol and toll costs is quite heavy.
So, all set to go. I am shifting to my new place in couple of months.
Giving myself the swimming pool and awesome view and coffee machine that I always wanted.
North Node in Taurus - soul mate
Jan 24 aft 1
North node in Taurus
Deep in their hearts, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel with through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment.
To have this dream come true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them whole, only then they can attract the right partner.
Soul
For the first time, I think I can now be on my own.
Got the sannidhi, have a shrine on my own.
Me getting my dream condo is the second thing.
I m truly getting to what I want..no longer waiting for prince charming.
No longer hoping others know what I want, give me what I want.
I now give myself what I want.
Amen.
A tot came to me.
With my younger brother out of the way, now got my big brother.
Instead of lamenting why he is here.
I think perhaps is for me to make a stand that, I no longer want to give to others anymore. I want to give myself.
Perhaps similar lesson for my mom too.
Perhaps she too want out from taking care of family. Years of taking care of dad and children.
Now still on children...
Will ask her tomorrow.
Once we shift out may be time for her to just retire from big family cooking.
Just enjoy food instead..
As for me, big brother presence, actually sets in the forgiveness for the past. I can now see him without the fear. I can see his fears. I can now see his constant criticism of me was his way of puffing himself up. He was truly insecure.
Finally laid the past to rest.
Displacement
Six of Hearts
Becoming more conscious of our actions in the area of personal relationship ls.
It is entirely possible that some fated events occur in ur life this year as a result of ur actions in the past in ur personal relationships.
These events may not be to ur liking. They may even seems unfair as far as u are concerned, as if what is happening is something that u do not deserve. These are likely to be difficult situation during ur Saturn period and they will involve some key relationships. However this event are fair and just, the result of something u did in the past, be it in this lifetime or one prior to now.
Sometimes this card has been known to attract a karmic relationship that returns for us to settle some unfinished business.
Issues will revolve around finances and having an awareness of personal responsibility in matters of love and family. It is up to u to explore any situations that come up and to be open to learning more about fairness. Keep an open mind and be willing to give whatever is asked of u if you wish to get the most from this powerful influence.
Displacement in Ruling
Six of Clubs
This card can have a powerful and positive effects on ur career and work. This could be the year that u become much better known or recognised for ur contribution.
This could be a vital time to devote some of ur resources to advertising or to getting into the media because success in these areas is almost certain. All in all, this should be a hallmark year where work is concerned.
Finally this card points to a need for more focus on one's purpose in life. This could be a year when circumstances cause u to reflect on ur life and make a sincere effort to finding the path best for u. Once that path is found, u are obligated on a spiritual level to follow it to the best of ur ability, regardless of external circumstances.
Following the path u have set for urself or just finding path that is meant for u, may be one the significant challenge of this year.
Soul
so true..so much Six these year.
Everything is coming together..
I am now ready to embark on my own needs.
No longer waiting for others.
North node in Taurus
Deep in their hearts, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel with through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment.
To have this dream come true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them whole, only then they can attract the right partner.
Soul
For the first time, I think I can now be on my own.
Got the sannidhi, have a shrine on my own.
Me getting my dream condo is the second thing.
I m truly getting to what I want..no longer waiting for prince charming.
No longer hoping others know what I want, give me what I want.
I now give myself what I want.
Amen.
A tot came to me.
With my younger brother out of the way, now got my big brother.
Instead of lamenting why he is here.
I think perhaps is for me to make a stand that, I no longer want to give to others anymore. I want to give myself.
Perhaps similar lesson for my mom too.
Perhaps she too want out from taking care of family. Years of taking care of dad and children.
Now still on children...
Will ask her tomorrow.
Once we shift out may be time for her to just retire from big family cooking.
Just enjoy food instead..
As for me, big brother presence, actually sets in the forgiveness for the past. I can now see him without the fear. I can see his fears. I can now see his constant criticism of me was his way of puffing himself up. He was truly insecure.
Finally laid the past to rest.
Displacement
Six of Hearts
Becoming more conscious of our actions in the area of personal relationship ls.
It is entirely possible that some fated events occur in ur life this year as a result of ur actions in the past in ur personal relationships.
These events may not be to ur liking. They may even seems unfair as far as u are concerned, as if what is happening is something that u do not deserve. These are likely to be difficult situation during ur Saturn period and they will involve some key relationships. However this event are fair and just, the result of something u did in the past, be it in this lifetime or one prior to now.
Sometimes this card has been known to attract a karmic relationship that returns for us to settle some unfinished business.
Issues will revolve around finances and having an awareness of personal responsibility in matters of love and family. It is up to u to explore any situations that come up and to be open to learning more about fairness. Keep an open mind and be willing to give whatever is asked of u if you wish to get the most from this powerful influence.
Displacement in Ruling
Six of Clubs
This card can have a powerful and positive effects on ur career and work. This could be the year that u become much better known or recognised for ur contribution.
This could be a vital time to devote some of ur resources to advertising or to getting into the media because success in these areas is almost certain. All in all, this should be a hallmark year where work is concerned.
Finally this card points to a need for more focus on one's purpose in life. This could be a year when circumstances cause u to reflect on ur life and make a sincere effort to finding the path best for u. Once that path is found, u are obligated on a spiritual level to follow it to the best of ur ability, regardless of external circumstances.
Following the path u have set for urself or just finding path that is meant for u, may be one the significant challenge of this year.
Soul
so true..so much Six these year.
Everything is coming together..
I am now ready to embark on my own needs.
No longer waiting for others.
North Node in Taurus - honouring their own needs
Jan 24 aft
Was updating my blog and saw this.
Jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
Honouring needs.
They have denied and postponed their own needs in so many incarnations that now their neediness is over energised.
They cannot hope to experience truth and harmony in human rships if they do not demonstrate this neediness in their own lives.
This includes no sins of omissions (for example letting what someone says pass by without acknowledging feeling of hurt, or pretending to be in agreement.)
Soul
I ignored more than just the hurt in rship.
I ignored my need for luxurious items. My need for a coffee machine, for a nice lovely home that I can savour. I wanted a pool too.
I was waiting for my younger brother to shift out.
In a way I was holding on to the family. Because I have mom with me, I carry the responsibility together with her.
And now for big brother, I am no longer willing to wait for him.
He has a lovely big penthouse outstation that doesn't even have guest room for us to stay.
Here I am expected to house everyone.
I know mom is bit torn. She wants to take care but I also know she is tired.
Maybe time for her to rest instead of cooking for everyone else.
She now in her mid seventies..time for her to rest.
Well, its time I give myself what I want.
I know mom be reluctant.
I can afford to keep two places..or maybe I don't have to.
North node in Taurus
A major turning point is when they focus time and energy on projects that are important to themselves, not being diverted by what they think is important to another person.
They are here to take back their power. When they stand in their power, they can afford to be loving and helpful to others.
There are no more battles to fight, noting more to give up, no part of themselves that has to be thrown away.
This is a building lifetime: building a sense of comfort through their connection with themselves.
Soul
Yeap, I am finally taking back my power,
Such irony..Others tot I am self centred..actually in reality i am not.
Its because I have given so much that I tend to be careful for any further requests.
I didn't realise that I was also holding back with my family.
I really wanted a nice place
Thats my envious feeling when I saw G's duplex condo with fantastic sea view and nice swimmming pool and A's lovely kitchen with nice dinning open out to garden.
Amen.
I am finally giving myself what I want.
North node in Taurus
To balance overactive desire in this incarnation they need to exercise the antidote, which is appreciation for what they already have. As they feel gratitude for what life has already brought them, they relax and feel peaceful and loved. The energy of appreciation pulls them back into themselves and when they are centered in this way, they open to life bringing them more.
As they take time to appreciate what they do have - with openness and feeling - they begin to experience the fullness of love inside them, which replaces the agitation they have so often felt.
Soul
I am there now.
Was updating my blog and saw this.
Jan Spiller
North node in Taurus
Honouring needs.
They have denied and postponed their own needs in so many incarnations that now their neediness is over energised.
They cannot hope to experience truth and harmony in human rships if they do not demonstrate this neediness in their own lives.
This includes no sins of omissions (for example letting what someone says pass by without acknowledging feeling of hurt, or pretending to be in agreement.)
Soul
I ignored more than just the hurt in rship.
I ignored my need for luxurious items. My need for a coffee machine, for a nice lovely home that I can savour. I wanted a pool too.
I was waiting for my younger brother to shift out.
In a way I was holding on to the family. Because I have mom with me, I carry the responsibility together with her.
And now for big brother, I am no longer willing to wait for him.
He has a lovely big penthouse outstation that doesn't even have guest room for us to stay.
Here I am expected to house everyone.
I know mom is bit torn. She wants to take care but I also know she is tired.
Maybe time for her to rest instead of cooking for everyone else.
She now in her mid seventies..time for her to rest.
Well, its time I give myself what I want.
I know mom be reluctant.
I can afford to keep two places..or maybe I don't have to.
North node in Taurus
A major turning point is when they focus time and energy on projects that are important to themselves, not being diverted by what they think is important to another person.
They are here to take back their power. When they stand in their power, they can afford to be loving and helpful to others.
There are no more battles to fight, noting more to give up, no part of themselves that has to be thrown away.
This is a building lifetime: building a sense of comfort through their connection with themselves.
Soul
Yeap, I am finally taking back my power,
Such irony..Others tot I am self centred..actually in reality i am not.
Its because I have given so much that I tend to be careful for any further requests.
I didn't realise that I was also holding back with my family.
I really wanted a nice place
Thats my envious feeling when I saw G's duplex condo with fantastic sea view and nice swimmming pool and A's lovely kitchen with nice dinning open out to garden.
Amen.
I am finally giving myself what I want.
North node in Taurus
To balance overactive desire in this incarnation they need to exercise the antidote, which is appreciation for what they already have. As they feel gratitude for what life has already brought them, they relax and feel peaceful and loved. The energy of appreciation pulls them back into themselves and when they are centered in this way, they open to life bringing them more.
As they take time to appreciate what they do have - with openness and feeling - they begin to experience the fullness of love inside them, which replaces the agitation they have so often felt.
Soul
I am there now.
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Six of Diamonds - settlement of old dreams
Jan 24
Contentment
Yesterday card was Ten of Hearts.
My Yesterday's Card
The Ten of Hearts
The Ten of Hearts literally means 'Ten Hearts'. Hearts represent people, so this card speaks about activities involving large numbers of people that you have a love connection with. It is sort of like the Ten of Clubs but it will deal more with family, circles of friends, or with the audiences of musicians, artists and other performers. In its highest manifestation, the Ten of Hearts brings much success with the public and groups of people.
To get the most out of this card, plan your advertising and promotional campaign when it is present. At the very least, this card represents a social occasion such as a party where you are well received and have a wonderful time. It can also represent a marriage or other large family gathering.
Soul
Well, at least I found my dream home.
And amazingly mom love the place and wanted to shift in too.
Like my boss said, I deserved it.
Today card
My Daily Card
The Six of Diamonds
Whenever this powerful stabilizing influence is present in your cards you can bet there will be some sort of settling of accounts. Though this usually takes the form of financial debts being paid or repaid, it can manifest in payments of other forms of 'value'. The Six of Diamonds will also encourage you to make compromises where money is concerned and to take full responsibility for all your debts and actions that involve exchange of value.
Soul
Thats what I feel now. Contented and settled.
Thanks to Sadhguru and Akash.
Everything coming together.
I am now able to give myself what I need to be happy.
I no longer wait for Prince Charming.
Today have a good time at the pool. My panic fear has reduced much.
Today no panic attack.
I was able to swim comfortably for half lap.
Even when other people were there, I can still swim.
Today chanting Brahmanda at the pool.
And laughter is back.
Amen, I love the water.
Feeling so contented.
Contentment
Yesterday card was Ten of Hearts.
My Yesterday's Card
The Ten of Hearts
The Ten of Hearts literally means 'Ten Hearts'. Hearts represent people, so this card speaks about activities involving large numbers of people that you have a love connection with. It is sort of like the Ten of Clubs but it will deal more with family, circles of friends, or with the audiences of musicians, artists and other performers. In its highest manifestation, the Ten of Hearts brings much success with the public and groups of people.
To get the most out of this card, plan your advertising and promotional campaign when it is present. At the very least, this card represents a social occasion such as a party where you are well received and have a wonderful time. It can also represent a marriage or other large family gathering.
Soul
Well, at least I found my dream home.
And amazingly mom love the place and wanted to shift in too.
Like my boss said, I deserved it.
Today card
My Daily Card
The Six of Diamonds
Whenever this powerful stabilizing influence is present in your cards you can bet there will be some sort of settling of accounts. Though this usually takes the form of financial debts being paid or repaid, it can manifest in payments of other forms of 'value'. The Six of Diamonds will also encourage you to make compromises where money is concerned and to take full responsibility for all your debts and actions that involve exchange of value.
Soul
Thats what I feel now. Contented and settled.
Thanks to Sadhguru and Akash.
Everything coming together.
I am now able to give myself what I need to be happy.
I no longer wait for Prince Charming.
Today have a good time at the pool. My panic fear has reduced much.
Today no panic attack.
I was able to swim comfortably for half lap.
Even when other people were there, I can still swim.
Today chanting Brahmanda at the pool.
And laughter is back.
Amen, I love the water.
Feeling so contented.
Universe gave me the right property, its meant to be
Jan 23
What an amazing day.
Have been disturbed and in dilemma for the past two weeks over the purchase of house. It all started with purpose of investment and then tot of retirement home. Then confusion over investment and staying. Finally resolved that I can rent out current property.
Firstly wanted a house and others said I should get condo. Then dilemma on location and pricing and etc.
So much in my mind that on Wednesday pooja I prayed to Sadhguru to let me have peace. A tot came, just as I was in dilemma over Linga yantra and sannidhi, I rest my case and answer came. So with that I was at peace.
Yesterday I had some free time at office and I just google for some property near my current house. Suddenly a condo caught my eyes. But it was 1550 sq ft and I tot I should only be entitled to 1000 sq ft since I be staying alone in a few years time. Spoke to my boss and she said that's a right size and she asked me to focus on security.
I was excited cos I can have 1550; I deserved my space. Since I can't have house at least I can have a big condo.
I called and set appointment today. Saw the place and love it. The amazing thing was my mom love it too, even more than me. She was okay with the size and love the fantastic view and good location.
We went back home and my sis said good place. My mom asked me to call the agent immediately. She said that's a golden space and I should buy before other grasp it. Infact agent told us she had a prior buyer whose loan got rejected.
Called the agent and paid Ernest money.
The next amazing thing was that mom said we should shift in. She loves the awesome skyline in the purchased condo. I am happy. Then a few hours later she changed her mind cos my elder brother is with us and suggest I rent out instead.
Anyway be at least 6 to 9 months before I can take possession of condo. So by that time my brother may leave.
But if he doesn't and my mom wants to stay in current house then I may want to shift. I don't want to have tenant staying in the amazing place. I can afford to stay at the place. I can afford to keep two house.
I deserve a nice luxurious space of my own. I want to savour decaf coffee at the awesome balcony. I want to swim in the pool. Just don't want tenant to spoil the space. Reminds me of friend G's luxury condo. I remembered I used to dream of owning and old elegant spacious condo with awesome view in a low density area.
Father. Yes. The purchase of this property is like falling in love with the right one and things just flow. Reminds me of the love story between J and wife.
Finally a love story happens with me.
Perhaps the same can happen with a romantic partner. When the right one comes along it will just clicked. I finally got myself am awesome love story.
What an amazing day.
Have been disturbed and in dilemma for the past two weeks over the purchase of house. It all started with purpose of investment and then tot of retirement home. Then confusion over investment and staying. Finally resolved that I can rent out current property.
Firstly wanted a house and others said I should get condo. Then dilemma on location and pricing and etc.
So much in my mind that on Wednesday pooja I prayed to Sadhguru to let me have peace. A tot came, just as I was in dilemma over Linga yantra and sannidhi, I rest my case and answer came. So with that I was at peace.
Yesterday I had some free time at office and I just google for some property near my current house. Suddenly a condo caught my eyes. But it was 1550 sq ft and I tot I should only be entitled to 1000 sq ft since I be staying alone in a few years time. Spoke to my boss and she said that's a right size and she asked me to focus on security.
I was excited cos I can have 1550; I deserved my space. Since I can't have house at least I can have a big condo.
I called and set appointment today. Saw the place and love it. The amazing thing was my mom love it too, even more than me. She was okay with the size and love the fantastic view and good location.
We went back home and my sis said good place. My mom asked me to call the agent immediately. She said that's a golden space and I should buy before other grasp it. Infact agent told us she had a prior buyer whose loan got rejected.
Called the agent and paid Ernest money.
The next amazing thing was that mom said we should shift in. She loves the awesome skyline in the purchased condo. I am happy. Then a few hours later she changed her mind cos my elder brother is with us and suggest I rent out instead.
Anyway be at least 6 to 9 months before I can take possession of condo. So by that time my brother may leave.
But if he doesn't and my mom wants to stay in current house then I may want to shift. I don't want to have tenant staying in the amazing place. I can afford to stay at the place. I can afford to keep two house.
I deserve a nice luxurious space of my own. I want to savour decaf coffee at the awesome balcony. I want to swim in the pool. Just don't want tenant to spoil the space. Reminds me of friend G's luxury condo. I remembered I used to dream of owning and old elegant spacious condo with awesome view in a low density area.
Father. Yes. The purchase of this property is like falling in love with the right one and things just flow. Reminds me of the love story between J and wife.
Finally a love story happens with me.
Perhaps the same can happen with a romantic partner. When the right one comes along it will just clicked. I finally got myself am awesome love story.
North Node in Cancer - cannot handle rejection
Jan 22 aft 1
North node in cancer
Above all other feelings, Cancer North node absolutely cannot handle rejection. Although they are learning to be sensitive to others' feelings, they came to the planet being overly sensitive to any hint of rejection and they take everything personally. The key is to be more objective - less focused in self and more aware of how to respond to other people's immediate needs.
Soul
For me true especially in romantic rship and somewhat in personal. For me its the loss of validation rather than rejection.
North node In cancer
When others become upset, they tend to the other person what to do to dispel the negative feelings. They inadvertently invalidate others's feelings (this is also the way they treat themselves) but it causes others to feel unacknowledged and unnurtured.
For example. To say to the child, "I'll kiss and make it better" is not as logical as saying "Next time, avoid putting urself in that situation and u won't get hurt.
Yet the first message of comfort is what others need and what they need for themselves. After acknowledging the pain, so the other person knows they care, they can then make practical suggestions that will be useful.
Soul
Suddenly tot my response to G this morning. I wasn't being comforting.
Mmm, a tot came of my response to Z when he said he can't even pay his phone bill. I was furious at him for putting himself in such a situation. Instead of comforting him, I told him don't put himself in such situation. I did loan him the money to repay the phone bill but it left a bad taste in me, it makes me see how financially insecure he can be.
For him, the felt that I judged him and he contionously brought him up. Guess he feels I see him down..which is true.
His current wife holds him in high regards..but not me..
North node in cancer
Above all other feelings, Cancer North node absolutely cannot handle rejection. Although they are learning to be sensitive to others' feelings, they came to the planet being overly sensitive to any hint of rejection and they take everything personally. The key is to be more objective - less focused in self and more aware of how to respond to other people's immediate needs.
Soul
For me true especially in romantic rship and somewhat in personal. For me its the loss of validation rather than rejection.
North node In cancer
When others become upset, they tend to the other person what to do to dispel the negative feelings. They inadvertently invalidate others's feelings (this is also the way they treat themselves) but it causes others to feel unacknowledged and unnurtured.
For example. To say to the child, "I'll kiss and make it better" is not as logical as saying "Next time, avoid putting urself in that situation and u won't get hurt.
Yet the first message of comfort is what others need and what they need for themselves. After acknowledging the pain, so the other person knows they care, they can then make practical suggestions that will be useful.
Soul
Suddenly tot my response to G this morning. I wasn't being comforting.
Mmm, a tot came of my response to Z when he said he can't even pay his phone bill. I was furious at him for putting himself in such a situation. Instead of comforting him, I told him don't put himself in such situation. I did loan him the money to repay the phone bill but it left a bad taste in me, it makes me see how financially insecure he can be.
For him, the felt that I judged him and he contionously brought him up. Guess he feels I see him down..which is true.
His current wife holds him in high regards..but not me..
Universe answered my prayer for the right property for me
Jan 22 aft
Thanks for yesterday prayer. Also knowing I m good in search. Today got a potential for old condo near my house. I like the spaciousness and exclusivity. Saw a 1500 sq ft condo and at first talked myself out of it. Later spoke to my boss and she said since that's going to be my retirement home. I deserved a good one.
Yes, I wasn't keen on those below 1000 sq ft.
Also got one single storey in a location that I want at 430k. So will see.
Yes, I have always love those old big condo. Those I saw in old city town area.
Akash, thanks for manifesting. I m keen on 450k for 1300 plus sq ft. The other one is 1600 for 560k. Hope can get the 450k. But I can also afford the 560k. This one I can rent out to partially cover the rental.
Today volunteer to help in promoting BSP, doing calling. I m excited in doing it. Father, now I only do what I excite me, what I enjoy doing.
Thanks for yesterday prayer. Also knowing I m good in search. Today got a potential for old condo near my house. I like the spaciousness and exclusivity. Saw a 1500 sq ft condo and at first talked myself out of it. Later spoke to my boss and she said since that's going to be my retirement home. I deserved a good one.
Yes, I wasn't keen on those below 1000 sq ft.
Also got one single storey in a location that I want at 430k. So will see.
Yes, I have always love those old big condo. Those I saw in old city town area.
Akash, thanks for manifesting. I m keen on 450k for 1300 plus sq ft. The other one is 1600 for 560k. Hope can get the 450k. But I can also afford the 560k. This one I can rent out to partially cover the rental.
Today volunteer to help in promoting BSP, doing calling. I m excited in doing it. Father, now I only do what I excite me, what I enjoy doing.
North Node in Cancer - difficulty in emotional expression
Jan 22
Yesterday slept after 11 pm and since I got 2 hours of yoga class today tot I skip hata and put alarm at 4.30 am instead. Body woke up on its own. I snooze bit but body awake so I checked the clock. Its, 3.56 am. Pondering whether to wake up. Then decided to do Anga for my health.
Also I know that if I slept back it be the mind time. Body is already rested.
North node in Cancer
These folks are actually extremely sensitive to emotion, both their own and the emotional reactions of others. Others perceive them as being insensitive, but infact they are too sensitive and don't know how to handle the feelings that arise in themselves and others. Until they developed a system that allows them to experience their "feeling" connections with other people with confidence and ease, their automatic response is to try and control either themselves or others because this eliminates the issue of how to deal with feelings. They try to organise their partners so they can control the rship, but this bypasses the element of caring. Ultimately they feel alienated.
Soul
That's used to be me in personal and romantic rships.
Nowadays I learn to express.
North node in cancer
Sometimes these natives indulge in emotional outbursts - getting angry, blowing up, becoming insulted - as an avoidance of feelings and a way of bringing the situation to an end.
Soul
I only does that in extreme case. Only time I remember was the break up with Z. Even then I m able to walk out with a last hug. But at that times I was feeling so much, wants to end the constant uncertainty. Me ending it well was me controlling myself.
North node in cancer
What they really want in their rships is to feel secure and know they are loved for who they are. Yet they make this almost impossible because they don't reveal themselves, how can others know them and love them?
The greatest challenge is to allow themselves to be vulnerable. Taking the risk of revealing their feelings establishes their emotional identity for themselves as well as for the other person.
Soul
That's the old me.
Yesterday slept after 11 pm and since I got 2 hours of yoga class today tot I skip hata and put alarm at 4.30 am instead. Body woke up on its own. I snooze bit but body awake so I checked the clock. Its, 3.56 am. Pondering whether to wake up. Then decided to do Anga for my health.
Also I know that if I slept back it be the mind time. Body is already rested.
North node in Cancer
These folks are actually extremely sensitive to emotion, both their own and the emotional reactions of others. Others perceive them as being insensitive, but infact they are too sensitive and don't know how to handle the feelings that arise in themselves and others. Until they developed a system that allows them to experience their "feeling" connections with other people with confidence and ease, their automatic response is to try and control either themselves or others because this eliminates the issue of how to deal with feelings. They try to organise their partners so they can control the rship, but this bypasses the element of caring. Ultimately they feel alienated.
Soul
That's used to be me in personal and romantic rships.
Nowadays I learn to express.
North node in cancer
Sometimes these natives indulge in emotional outbursts - getting angry, blowing up, becoming insulted - as an avoidance of feelings and a way of bringing the situation to an end.
Soul
I only does that in extreme case. Only time I remember was the break up with Z. Even then I m able to walk out with a last hug. But at that times I was feeling so much, wants to end the constant uncertainty. Me ending it well was me controlling myself.
North node in cancer
What they really want in their rships is to feel secure and know they are loved for who they are. Yet they make this almost impossible because they don't reveal themselves, how can others know them and love them?
The greatest challenge is to allow themselves to be vulnerable. Taking the risk of revealing their feelings establishes their emotional identity for themselves as well as for the other person.
Soul
That's the old me.
Letting the Universe decides the right one for me
Jan 21 eve
During pooja, just being in Sannidhi presence. No asking.
After Linga's Struthi, just feel Devi stroking my head. Feeling at ease.
On the matter of the property investment. I let this rest. The right one will come along. The same as when I faced the dilemma between sannidhi and Linga yantra. The right one comes.
So blessed having Sadhguru presence. I m slowly changing. No longer needed to prove my worth in volunteering. Even when others asked to volunteer. I just declined. It not a matter of resistance. Just not interested. Reminds me of when I lost the interest to meet reporting deadline.
Just as I overcome the validation over corporate career. The same now is happening with volunteering in Local Isha.
I also don't feel wanting to meet P's request. All these are seeking validation and finally I no longer need it.
During pooja, just being in Sannidhi presence. No asking.
After Linga's Struthi, just feel Devi stroking my head. Feeling at ease.
On the matter of the property investment. I let this rest. The right one will come along. The same as when I faced the dilemma between sannidhi and Linga yantra. The right one comes.
So blessed having Sadhguru presence. I m slowly changing. No longer needed to prove my worth in volunteering. Even when others asked to volunteer. I just declined. It not a matter of resistance. Just not interested. Reminds me of when I lost the interest to meet reporting deadline.
Just as I overcome the validation over corporate career. The same now is happening with volunteering in Local Isha.
I also don't feel wanting to meet P's request. All these are seeking validation and finally I no longer need it.
Ending my dream of having a Prince Charming
Jan 20
Body woke up at 3 plus am, feeling cold. Just realised the fan was too fast. Nose was blocked. Slept back and woke up at 3.48 am. Body was okay but mind was acting up and sat on the toilet bowl pondering for a few minutes.
Close the lights and did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch
Did Angamardhana and it was good. Spend more time on the Dhyna time. Surya Kriya alignment not okay cos right elbow bit strained.
No time for breathing meditation. I must have spent more time on Cat stretch and Dhyna.
Shakti was okay but my right feet was so numb that I had to take a little rest.
Shambavi was good but alas no much time for silent contentment cos alarm ringing.
Yesterday pooja without light was awesome. But I was lost in my retirement home. Tot of my new house with shrine room, possibly with Linga yantra too. Tot of management of the community's facilities. Doing Isha Kriya and yoga. Baking and selling brownies and lemon bars and bread.
Tot of walking in the park, swimming, going out to Wetmarket.
Cried a bit during Brahmanda and spent more time on silent moment.
Did 3 cycle of Linga Struthi. Later cry for a long while. Looks like my subsconcious plan for Prince Charming coming for me has ended. No one is coming and I have to save myself. I have to buy my own dream house. I can give myself the house that I want.
Part of me still feeling scared. I haven't told family that it was my retirement home. Also worried of money inflow after retirement. Looking at my retirement plan, I be fine cos I won't be spending much except for annual trip to ashram.
Body woke up at 3 plus am, feeling cold. Just realised the fan was too fast. Nose was blocked. Slept back and woke up at 3.48 am. Body was okay but mind was acting up and sat on the toilet bowl pondering for a few minutes.
Close the lights and did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch
Did Angamardhana and it was good. Spend more time on the Dhyna time. Surya Kriya alignment not okay cos right elbow bit strained.
No time for breathing meditation. I must have spent more time on Cat stretch and Dhyna.
Shakti was okay but my right feet was so numb that I had to take a little rest.
Shambavi was good but alas no much time for silent contentment cos alarm ringing.
Yesterday pooja without light was awesome. But I was lost in my retirement home. Tot of my new house with shrine room, possibly with Linga yantra too. Tot of management of the community's facilities. Doing Isha Kriya and yoga. Baking and selling brownies and lemon bars and bread.
Tot of walking in the park, swimming, going out to Wetmarket.
Cried a bit during Brahmanda and spent more time on silent moment.
Did 3 cycle of Linga Struthi. Later cry for a long while. Looks like my subsconcious plan for Prince Charming coming for me has ended. No one is coming and I have to save myself. I have to buy my own dream house. I can give myself the house that I want.
Part of me still feeling scared. I haven't told family that it was my retirement home. Also worried of money inflow after retirement. Looking at my retirement plan, I be fine cos I won't be spending much except for annual trip to ashram.
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Destiny card really true
Jan 19 eve
Destiny card for this year now materialised.
Destiny
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
Destiny card for this year now materialised.
Destiny
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
North node in cancer - feelings demand attention
Jan 19 aft
Watch the video on the landed property. Slightly farther but love the landscape and security. It also got pool and park. My retirement place. For a moment mind said, can u afford to stay there, shouldn't this for investment.
Then I kept quiet and then remember my current place is for investment. I don't like condo. Besides I can afford to stay in it. My preference is for landed. Earlier took out landed cos security issue. But this one is gated and secured. Its outskirt. Besides I never like town and I don't go to mall. So perfect retirement.
Want to go tomorrow to buy it.
Father, looks like I planned out my next 30 years.
North node in cancer
In this lifetime, their feelings demand attention; they need to be around others who are sensitive and supportive. It is important for these natives to develop a technique for discriminating between those who care enough to be emotionally supportive of them and those who do not. The best technique is to honestly reveal how they feel when others take actions that affect them and see how the other person responds.
For example if one of the Cancer friend has a party and doesn't invite her, the best bet would be to tell the friend directly; "I felt left out when u didn't invite me to ur party." No justification, no manipulation - simply an honest disclosure of her emotional response to the incident. If the friend says; "You shouldn't have felt left out - I invited u to three parties last year! and invalidates her feelings, that gives her a clue that she is dealing with someone who does not really care about how she feels.
On the other hand, if the friend says "I am sorry u feel that way, and I can understand it, but in this particular case ... ( and explains what happened) then Cancer North node knows this is a person who responds to her feelings.
Soul
Exactly why I dropped P. I used to keep my feelings whenever she hurt me.
Last year I start to share my feelings and she brushed it off and even said something wrong with me instead. That's why I know she is not my close friend and I was not hers.
Now that I have detached I no longer seek her company.
The same goes for S. She too invalidates my feelings. I too detached from her.
North node in cancer
These folks tend to hide their feelings from others in intimate rships. The irony is that this prevents them from developing the intimacy they seek and hinders them in establishing the interactions that would help them feel fulfilled.
Intimacy is a by-product of revealing personal feelings and having those feelings understood and accepted by another.
Feelings add fullness to life and it is the birthright of Cancer North node people to open themselves and experience the satisfaction of mutual caring on a deep, personal level.
Watch the video on the landed property. Slightly farther but love the landscape and security. It also got pool and park. My retirement place. For a moment mind said, can u afford to stay there, shouldn't this for investment.
Then I kept quiet and then remember my current place is for investment. I don't like condo. Besides I can afford to stay in it. My preference is for landed. Earlier took out landed cos security issue. But this one is gated and secured. Its outskirt. Besides I never like town and I don't go to mall. So perfect retirement.
Want to go tomorrow to buy it.
Father, looks like I planned out my next 30 years.
North node in cancer
In this lifetime, their feelings demand attention; they need to be around others who are sensitive and supportive. It is important for these natives to develop a technique for discriminating between those who care enough to be emotionally supportive of them and those who do not. The best technique is to honestly reveal how they feel when others take actions that affect them and see how the other person responds.
For example if one of the Cancer friend has a party and doesn't invite her, the best bet would be to tell the friend directly; "I felt left out when u didn't invite me to ur party." No justification, no manipulation - simply an honest disclosure of her emotional response to the incident. If the friend says; "You shouldn't have felt left out - I invited u to three parties last year! and invalidates her feelings, that gives her a clue that she is dealing with someone who does not really care about how she feels.
On the other hand, if the friend says "I am sorry u feel that way, and I can understand it, but in this particular case ... ( and explains what happened) then Cancer North node knows this is a person who responds to her feelings.
Soul
Exactly why I dropped P. I used to keep my feelings whenever she hurt me.
Last year I start to share my feelings and she brushed it off and even said something wrong with me instead. That's why I know she is not my close friend and I was not hers.
Now that I have detached I no longer seek her company.
The same goes for S. She too invalidates my feelings. I too detached from her.
North node in cancer
These folks tend to hide their feelings from others in intimate rships. The irony is that this prevents them from developing the intimacy they seek and hinders them in establishing the interactions that would help them feel fulfilled.
Intimacy is a by-product of revealing personal feelings and having those feelings understood and accepted by another.
Feelings add fullness to life and it is the birthright of Cancer North node people to open themselves and experience the satisfaction of mutual caring on a deep, personal level.
Friday, February 13, 2015
North Node in Cancer
Jan 19
Woke up before alarm, wondering what the day. Minutes later alarm rang at 3.48 am. Body aching a bit from yesterday lymphatic massage.
Sat in the toilet bowl pondering whether I should rest one more hour. But I can see body is awake just mind doing its show. So I can ignore and shower.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Angamardhana was okay cos body still aching especially the top back and left feet.
Surya Kriya was okay but left feet bit painful.
Shakti was good but right feet was so numb that I had to rest a bit.
Shambavi was good. Can feel the energy rising.
Jan Spiller
North node in Cancer
They have very clear boundaries in their own mind - beyond which others may not go. Their limits are not unreasonable. They need to be treated with a certain amount of consideration to feel good about themselves. The problems is that others don't know where these boundaries are and thus may encroach on them unintentionally.
In response to feeling violated, these natives generally remain silent in that presence of the offender and then complain about it to everyone else. They need to learn to respond directly to the person they think is treating them disrespectfully. They need to say, "Stop! This is my boundary! and let others know how they feel. This can be difficult since they fear others's emotional reactions and are afraid that they won't know how to respond if the other person get upset. This may intimidate them and keep them from speaking directly since they don't want to justify their feelings. Its enough to say:"Look, when u said that, it hurt my feelings." Or in business situations, its enough to say: "Look, that's how I want it".
Soul
In professional rship and food,
no problem.
In family I can normally say what's my boundary.
In personal rship, only realised two years ago that I had difficulty and now learning.
With romantic I now know my real issue. No partner now so no opportunity to learn.
North node in Cancer
They are still learning not to let anyone invalidate their feelings. Feelings are personal matter; each person is the only one who can accurately describe what he or she is experiencing.
For example, if I stub my toe among a crowd of people. I might say: "Gosh, I just stubbed my toe. It's really throbbing." One person might respond:"It doesn't really hurt that much; I've stubbed my toe before." But the fact is that I am the authority: Its my toe and I'm the only one who knows how it feels.
In the same way, no one can invalidate how a person feels emotionally. Only that person knows if he or she feels disappointed, hurt, insecure or left out, just as I know how much it hurt to stub my toes.
Soul
Amen.
Woke up before alarm, wondering what the day. Minutes later alarm rang at 3.48 am. Body aching a bit from yesterday lymphatic massage.
Sat in the toilet bowl pondering whether I should rest one more hour. But I can see body is awake just mind doing its show. So I can ignore and shower.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Angamardhana was okay cos body still aching especially the top back and left feet.
Surya Kriya was okay but left feet bit painful.
Shakti was good but right feet was so numb that I had to rest a bit.
Shambavi was good. Can feel the energy rising.
Jan Spiller
North node in Cancer
They have very clear boundaries in their own mind - beyond which others may not go. Their limits are not unreasonable. They need to be treated with a certain amount of consideration to feel good about themselves. The problems is that others don't know where these boundaries are and thus may encroach on them unintentionally.
In response to feeling violated, these natives generally remain silent in that presence of the offender and then complain about it to everyone else. They need to learn to respond directly to the person they think is treating them disrespectfully. They need to say, "Stop! This is my boundary! and let others know how they feel. This can be difficult since they fear others's emotional reactions and are afraid that they won't know how to respond if the other person get upset. This may intimidate them and keep them from speaking directly since they don't want to justify their feelings. Its enough to say:"Look, when u said that, it hurt my feelings." Or in business situations, its enough to say: "Look, that's how I want it".
Soul
In professional rship and food,
no problem.
In family I can normally say what's my boundary.
In personal rship, only realised two years ago that I had difficulty and now learning.
With romantic I now know my real issue. No partner now so no opportunity to learn.
North node in Cancer
They are still learning not to let anyone invalidate their feelings. Feelings are personal matter; each person is the only one who can accurately describe what he or she is experiencing.
For example, if I stub my toe among a crowd of people. I might say: "Gosh, I just stubbed my toe. It's really throbbing." One person might respond:"It doesn't really hurt that much; I've stubbed my toe before." But the fact is that I am the authority: Its my toe and I'm the only one who knows how it feels.
In the same way, no one can invalidate how a person feels emotionally. Only that person knows if he or she feels disappointed, hurt, insecure or left out, just as I know how much it hurt to stub my toes.
Soul
Amen.
Settling down my fear of money
Jan 18
Woke up groggy. Slept late after 1 am cos mind heavy with issue on the property.
Woke up at 6.30 am to do Bhuta Shuddi.
Walk in the park. Mind feeling calm, start to sing Guru pooja automatically.
Made up that my current big house be used for future investment rental. Just need to buy a small sized apartment near my current area. Will buy a second hand unit. Can wait till mid year to scout as properly expect to drop. I don't need facility as I be going to the current public garden park and swimming pool.
Thats my original plan before I got frightened when I heard about Pe lack of investment recently.
Also glad mom agreed with my action. At last that settled.
Everything settling down. My plan may not be the most smart. But it's what I valued. Time freedom and low commitment.
Woke up groggy. Slept late after 1 am cos mind heavy with issue on the property.
Woke up at 6.30 am to do Bhuta Shuddi.
Walk in the park. Mind feeling calm, start to sing Guru pooja automatically.
Made up that my current big house be used for future investment rental. Just need to buy a small sized apartment near my current area. Will buy a second hand unit. Can wait till mid year to scout as properly expect to drop. I don't need facility as I be going to the current public garden park and swimming pool.
Thats my original plan before I got frightened when I heard about Pe lack of investment recently.
Also glad mom agreed with my action. At last that settled.
Everything settling down. My plan may not be the most smart. But it's what I valued. Time freedom and low commitment.
My love and joy for water is back
Jan 17 morn
This morning in the pool, I got my laughter back. I just focus on swimming on 15 metre. Just want to get back my joy of swimming. My love for the water. There were no panic attack but got some fear. But I am able to feel the loving water. I laughed loads and even sang.
A tot came to me, no comparison. Instead of judging myself to swim the whole lap, perhaps my purpose is just to savour the water. Maybe I can't swim the whole lap.
Just as others can't think strategise on work like me, didn't head top role in their career and I m fine with them; why do I feel that I need up complete the lap.
Yes, we are different and is okay.
After the swim I had a tot of Y. While we were mentally compatible. He can be quite abrupt and not sensitive. I won't be happy. So he too wasn't for me.
Yes, focus on why they not right for me instead of me not right for them. Remember I too got a choice. I need not be at receiving end. Amen.
This morning in the pool, I got my laughter back. I just focus on swimming on 15 metre. Just want to get back my joy of swimming. My love for the water. There were no panic attack but got some fear. But I am able to feel the loving water. I laughed loads and even sang.
A tot came to me, no comparison. Instead of judging myself to swim the whole lap, perhaps my purpose is just to savour the water. Maybe I can't swim the whole lap.
Just as others can't think strategise on work like me, didn't head top role in their career and I m fine with them; why do I feel that I need up complete the lap.
Yes, we are different and is okay.
After the swim I had a tot of Y. While we were mentally compatible. He can be quite abrupt and not sensitive. I won't be happy. So he too wasn't for me.
Yes, focus on why they not right for me instead of me not right for them. Remember I too got a choice. I need not be at receiving end. Amen.
Still facing my issue with money and investment
Jan 17
Alas now got the right idea. Buy a landed property for investment. Can go outskirt area near my current living location. No need to pay maintenance.
As for future rental, my current house can be a good source of rental. I can then rent or buy an apartment near my place. So I can then safely invest.
Mmmm, that's the plan. Feel okay now.
And the good thing is that I now can go up to 700k for landed property. So today visit to the high end condo is good too as it elevate my real budget.
Also glad finally got the issue of house resolved for future.
I have a tendency not to dwell on capital commitment. Firstly there be much resistance. And when finally resistance is over, I don't want to do more thinking or research, just want to jump in. I realised mom too like that. Anyway, first time not jumping in.
Just now just tot of asking Ye for her opinion. She was so negative, from falling property to old age and no loan. I just want to hang up on her. She still the same after all these years, never a positive approach, just downward thinking. I guess I disliked it cos that hidden Seven of Clubs in me. But now no more.
Will do my research. Need not jump in. In the end, if nothing happens at least I now know I can look for a property near my place.
Alas now got the right idea. Buy a landed property for investment. Can go outskirt area near my current living location. No need to pay maintenance.
As for future rental, my current house can be a good source of rental. I can then rent or buy an apartment near my place. So I can then safely invest.
Mmmm, that's the plan. Feel okay now.
And the good thing is that I now can go up to 700k for landed property. So today visit to the high end condo is good too as it elevate my real budget.
Also glad finally got the issue of house resolved for future.
I have a tendency not to dwell on capital commitment. Firstly there be much resistance. And when finally resistance is over, I don't want to do more thinking or research, just want to jump in. I realised mom too like that. Anyway, first time not jumping in.
Just now just tot of asking Ye for her opinion. She was so negative, from falling property to old age and no loan. I just want to hang up on her. She still the same after all these years, never a positive approach, just downward thinking. I guess I disliked it cos that hidden Seven of Clubs in me. But now no more.
Will do my research. Need not jump in. In the end, if nothing happens at least I now know I can look for a property near my place.
Facing my issue with money
Jan 16
Got this from Rebellesociety.
I wrote out a list of what I wanted in a relationship — how did I want to feel while in a relationship?
Acceptance, Confidence, Love, Nurture, Freedom, were a few words on my list. How could I be this person for myself ? What actions would compliment these words? I began to jot them down.
Nourish your relationship with the self.
Soul
Good to do a list.
This evening pooja I was distracted. Tots of the company losing big client and here I m planning to buy property for investment.
As usual I get all jittery whenever I do capital commitment. But this time I m keeping the fear at bay.
Did Linga Struthi and the lying down posture, no tears. Just silence.
This week I noticed changes in me in terms of expectation of others. With P, I already dropped her as close friend and I can see we were close due to volunteering. Not a real close friendship. This time I no longer seek her. When she didn't reply my message promptly I no longer ponder over it. When she revert I no longer get excited over it. Same with A too, eventhough he apologise I no longer feel the need cos there is no longer expectation. My role now is just to communicate what I need to express. As for their response I just wait for them. Its up to them their response.
Tomorrow there is volunteering event. I didn't plan to go for the event. And normally goes when people ask. This time I didn't want to go. This time no longer need to do volunteering just to be in the gang.
Something happening to me. Alas doing thing because I want not because of fear of being left out.
The old me would have make sure I got another event to cover myself. Now I am just okay. Just being with my family, being with my shrine, by myself I am fine.
For the first time no fear of being left out.
Mmm, suddenly tot of my Osho tarot card.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Got this from Rebellesociety.
I wrote out a list of what I wanted in a relationship — how did I want to feel while in a relationship?
Acceptance, Confidence, Love, Nurture, Freedom, were a few words on my list. How could I be this person for myself ? What actions would compliment these words? I began to jot them down.
Nourish your relationship with the self.
Soul
Good to do a list.
This evening pooja I was distracted. Tots of the company losing big client and here I m planning to buy property for investment.
As usual I get all jittery whenever I do capital commitment. But this time I m keeping the fear at bay.
Did Linga Struthi and the lying down posture, no tears. Just silence.
This week I noticed changes in me in terms of expectation of others. With P, I already dropped her as close friend and I can see we were close due to volunteering. Not a real close friendship. This time I no longer seek her. When she didn't reply my message promptly I no longer ponder over it. When she revert I no longer get excited over it. Same with A too, eventhough he apologise I no longer feel the need cos there is no longer expectation. My role now is just to communicate what I need to express. As for their response I just wait for them. Its up to them their response.
Tomorrow there is volunteering event. I didn't plan to go for the event. And normally goes when people ask. This time I didn't want to go. This time no longer need to do volunteering just to be in the gang.
Something happening to me. Alas doing thing because I want not because of fear of being left out.
The old me would have make sure I got another event to cover myself. Now I am just okay. Just being with my family, being with my shrine, by myself I am fine.
For the first time no fear of being left out.
Mmm, suddenly tot of my Osho tarot card.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Silent contentment
Jan 15
Woke up bit groggy at 3.48 am alarm. Just needed to close the eyes a bit cos I slept at nearly 11 pm last night.
Mind said skip hata yoga. I ignored it cos I already skipped one session of Anga on Monday. So wake up and shower. My back neck is bit painful when I bend forward to wash my hair.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angamardhana was good.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya, alignment was out for left feet. Also can't bend my head properly.
Breathing meditation was good. So nice.
Shakti was good. Little tots. Not able to lock bhanda properly due to neck pain.
Shambavi was good. Sat for a long while in silent contentment. Glad I now have the alarm changed to 3.48 am instead of 4 am. The 12 minutes is for my silent contentment period.
Woke up bit groggy at 3.48 am alarm. Just needed to close the eyes a bit cos I slept at nearly 11 pm last night.
Mind said skip hata yoga. I ignored it cos I already skipped one session of Anga on Monday. So wake up and shower. My back neck is bit painful when I bend forward to wash my hair.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angamardhana was good.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya, alignment was out for left feet. Also can't bend my head properly.
Breathing meditation was good. So nice.
Shakti was good. Little tots. Not able to lock bhanda properly due to neck pain.
Shambavi was good. Sat for a long while in silent contentment. Glad I now have the alarm changed to 3.48 am instead of 4 am. The 12 minutes is for my silent contentment period.
Saturday, February 7, 2015
Doing the correct sequence in sadhana
Jan 14
Woke up at 7 am upon alarm but feeling good to sleep further as it is cool and nice in bed.
Laze a bit till 7.16 am and then woke up.
Sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch. Right elbow is not painful this morning. Left wrist joints is less painful today so cat stretch is good.
Did Surya Kriya followed by Yogaasanas
Surya Kriya was bit stiff but alignment still okay.
Yogasanas was good. I can breath the standing posture much longer than normal. I can breathe normal during the lying down posture. Yoga mudra also good.
But I forgot the lifiting up leg asanas and also the preparatory steps for Yoga mudra.
Breathing meditation was nice. I sat much longer.
So this is the right flow, Surya Kriya followed by Yogaasanas, the last one is the more subtle.
On the same note, then Angamardhana followed by Surya Kriya.
Shakti was good but bit lost in tot during the third Kapala Bhakti.
Shambavi was good now that I am correcting the preparatory steps. The butterfly has improved. Right side rock baby is always good but somehow left side, my buttock still shift. I wonder why, and then I realised its because I was sitting toward the back, and hence when I moved, my buttock move too.
So nice after Shambavi.
I went to stand by the window and say thanks to Akash.
I told Akash that I am so thankful to have this sadhana experience.
I can't ask for more.
Amen.
Woke up at 7 am upon alarm but feeling good to sleep further as it is cool and nice in bed.
Laze a bit till 7.16 am and then woke up.
Sang guru pooja followed by cat stretch. Right elbow is not painful this morning. Left wrist joints is less painful today so cat stretch is good.
Did Surya Kriya followed by Yogaasanas
Surya Kriya was bit stiff but alignment still okay.
Yogasanas was good. I can breath the standing posture much longer than normal. I can breathe normal during the lying down posture. Yoga mudra also good.
But I forgot the lifiting up leg asanas and also the preparatory steps for Yoga mudra.
Breathing meditation was nice. I sat much longer.
So this is the right flow, Surya Kriya followed by Yogaasanas, the last one is the more subtle.
On the same note, then Angamardhana followed by Surya Kriya.
Shakti was good but bit lost in tot during the third Kapala Bhakti.
Shambavi was good now that I am correcting the preparatory steps. The butterfly has improved. Right side rock baby is always good but somehow left side, my buttock still shift. I wonder why, and then I realised its because I was sitting toward the back, and hence when I moved, my buttock move too.
So nice after Shambavi.
I went to stand by the window and say thanks to Akash.
I told Akash that I am so thankful to have this sadhana experience.
I can't ask for more.
Amen.
The secret of life - Life is a Gift
Jan 13
Osho - the man who loved seagulls
The greatest secret of life - and remember it always - life is a gift. U have not deserved it in the first place. It is not ur right. It has been given to u, u have not earned it.
If life is a gift, then all that belongs to life is going to be a gift.
Happiness, love, meditation - all that is beautiful is going to be a gift from the holy.
U cannot deserve it in any way and u cannot force existence to make u happy or to make u loving or to make u meditative. The very effort is of the ego. That very effort creates misery.
U can only wait for it, u can be receptive to it, u can remain in a surrendered mood, waiting, patient but u cannot demand, cannot force.
Osho - the man who loved seagulls
The greatest secret of life - and remember it always - life is a gift. U have not deserved it in the first place. It is not ur right. It has been given to u, u have not earned it.
If life is a gift, then all that belongs to life is going to be a gift.
Happiness, love, meditation - all that is beautiful is going to be a gift from the holy.
U cannot deserve it in any way and u cannot force existence to make u happy or to make u loving or to make u meditative. The very effort is of the ego. That very effort creates misery.
U can only wait for it, u can be receptive to it, u can remain in a surrendered mood, waiting, patient but u cannot demand, cannot force.
Connecting with Devi
Jan 12 eve
Did my sannidhi pooja. Nice and cosy in the sannidhi cloth. Just want to continue sitting.
Chant Devi's Struthi. Plan to do one cycle but did three cycle instead. Did the lying down posture, tears just flow. Feel as if I m in Devi's temple.
I m so blessed with my Shrine. Feel ashram with me
Suddenly tot I should do Shoonya. Went in deep. A good one cos tired after chanting Devi after the Brahmananda chanting.
Did opening invocation, followed by cat stretch. Then a short Samyama meditation. Towards the end eyes can't open as wave of energy runs through me. Head shaking non stop.
By the time I finished my practice it was nearly 8 pm. Longest sadhana time after pooja.
Have decided to chant Devi Struthi more frequently. Truly connect with Devi. There are still tons of tears in me, unresolved issue especially on past rship and desire for new rship. Wish my rships karma would dissolve.
Did my sannidhi pooja. Nice and cosy in the sannidhi cloth. Just want to continue sitting.
Chant Devi's Struthi. Plan to do one cycle but did three cycle instead. Did the lying down posture, tears just flow. Feel as if I m in Devi's temple.
I m so blessed with my Shrine. Feel ashram with me
Suddenly tot I should do Shoonya. Went in deep. A good one cos tired after chanting Devi after the Brahmananda chanting.
Did opening invocation, followed by cat stretch. Then a short Samyama meditation. Towards the end eyes can't open as wave of energy runs through me. Head shaking non stop.
By the time I finished my practice it was nearly 8 pm. Longest sadhana time after pooja.
Have decided to chant Devi Struthi more frequently. Truly connect with Devi. There are still tons of tears in me, unresolved issue especially on past rship and desire for new rship. Wish my rships karma would dissolve.
Spiritual sadhana is to be empty page
Jan 12 mor
P said she has not heard from me for sometime. She asked if I have been busy. I was surprised she missed my presence.
Actually I have switched off from her a few weeks ago. I came to the realisation that she is not the deep and close friend that I expect her to be. Our friendship are not mutual. To her, I am just a meditator friend. Once I m out from local Isha, there not much to tie us together.
The old me would have want to go back and ignore my insight. The new me no longer need the validation from the friendship. I now need to put our friendship to her level so we can be mutually be satisfied. No more melodrama.
Mmm, with professional rships, I don't look back at all. With personal rships, it may take me some time to break it, but once I broke it off, I may look back a bit. But with romantic rships, so difficult to let go and once let go, I still look back more than I should. Just as I did look back into Y, but more so into Z cos its body memory vs Y's mental memory.
Sadhguru
Your mind’s memory is miniscule compared to your body’s memory. If you just touch something or someone once, the mind might forget, but in the body, it is registered forever. When people have sex with each other, the mind may forget it, but the body will never forget. If you get a divorce, no matter how much you hate your spouse – still you will go through pain because the physical memory can never be lost.
The body needs stable memory – people feel this. Their spouse may not be physically great or intellectually great, they may be quarreling on the surface, but still they would sacrifice anything to be with them, because somewhere, they understand that this gives them maximum comfort and wellbeing. This is because your physical memory rules your life much, much more than your mental memory. The very way you are right now is ruled by your physical memory, not by your mental memory. Mental memory can be thrown away tomorrow morning, but you cannot throw your physical memory away. That would require a completely different level of spiritual evolution within you.
Generally, the denser the substance, the better its ability to retain memory, and inanimate substances have better memory than animate life.
Soul
there must be a way out of the past.
Sadhguru
All the spiritual sadhana is not to become knowledgeable, but just to become an empty page so that just anything can be projected. If you become an empty page and remain one, you can project life upon it. If you have been to the local theater, any number of movies have been played upon that screen, but it does not distort anything because light is a subtle thing. If they had used a crayon or a paint brush, those screens would have been discarded a long time ago.
So it is about moving your relationship with the existence from that which is physical, mental, and emotional – which will leave marks and never allow you to have an empty page – into an etheric state, where your relationship is far deeper and much more profound, but subtle in such a way that you can play any kind of cinema on it. The moment it is off, it is off; not a trace left. The previous movie, if it left even a little bit of trace upon the screen, the next movie would be a disaster. That is all that is happening right now. The previous movies have left impressions.
P said she has not heard from me for sometime. She asked if I have been busy. I was surprised she missed my presence.
Actually I have switched off from her a few weeks ago. I came to the realisation that she is not the deep and close friend that I expect her to be. Our friendship are not mutual. To her, I am just a meditator friend. Once I m out from local Isha, there not much to tie us together.
The old me would have want to go back and ignore my insight. The new me no longer need the validation from the friendship. I now need to put our friendship to her level so we can be mutually be satisfied. No more melodrama.
Mmm, with professional rships, I don't look back at all. With personal rships, it may take me some time to break it, but once I broke it off, I may look back a bit. But with romantic rships, so difficult to let go and once let go, I still look back more than I should. Just as I did look back into Y, but more so into Z cos its body memory vs Y's mental memory.
Sadhguru
Your mind’s memory is miniscule compared to your body’s memory. If you just touch something or someone once, the mind might forget, but in the body, it is registered forever. When people have sex with each other, the mind may forget it, but the body will never forget. If you get a divorce, no matter how much you hate your spouse – still you will go through pain because the physical memory can never be lost.
The body needs stable memory – people feel this. Their spouse may not be physically great or intellectually great, they may be quarreling on the surface, but still they would sacrifice anything to be with them, because somewhere, they understand that this gives them maximum comfort and wellbeing. This is because your physical memory rules your life much, much more than your mental memory. The very way you are right now is ruled by your physical memory, not by your mental memory. Mental memory can be thrown away tomorrow morning, but you cannot throw your physical memory away. That would require a completely different level of spiritual evolution within you.
Generally, the denser the substance, the better its ability to retain memory, and inanimate substances have better memory than animate life.
Soul
there must be a way out of the past.
Sadhguru
All the spiritual sadhana is not to become knowledgeable, but just to become an empty page so that just anything can be projected. If you become an empty page and remain one, you can project life upon it. If you have been to the local theater, any number of movies have been played upon that screen, but it does not distort anything because light is a subtle thing. If they had used a crayon or a paint brush, those screens would have been discarded a long time ago.
So it is about moving your relationship with the existence from that which is physical, mental, and emotional – which will leave marks and never allow you to have an empty page – into an etheric state, where your relationship is far deeper and much more profound, but subtle in such a way that you can play any kind of cinema on it. The moment it is off, it is off; not a trace left. The previous movie, if it left even a little bit of trace upon the screen, the next movie would be a disaster. That is all that is happening right now. The previous movies have left impressions.
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