Jul 20 eve
Mmm, much tots on the sannidhi.
At the moment , the divider is the thing to do. Can put the divider about 2 feet so can walk in.
The half divider will be painted same as wall.
Evening
Just read a blog on sannidhi.
I may be keeping the window wall. Sannidhi to be placed in the reclaimed balcony.
Best to let the balcony be sacred space. Meanwhile I do my practices at current place with gudi and Dhynalinga yantra.
Need my personal space too. I can't be lying down discriminately in my room with Sannidhi there. That be losing my room. So keep the window divider wall.
Just remove the door. Put up all the windows.
Friday, August 29, 2014
Fitness improved after Angamadharna
Jul 20
Woke up at 6.30 am. Shower and followed by Bhuta Shuddi.
Tot of sannidhi, looks like that I definitely break up the wall. I truly dont' want to have 2 shrines.
I want Sannidhi and I have to have a bigger space.
Will have to figure out how to renovate.
Today another breakthrough.
Climb the staircase in the park, did 10 cycles. amazing.
Also did my usual 2 cycle of walk in the park.
My fitness level has increased considerably.
Actually I got no expectation on Kailash. To me, it just another program that I go through.
My greatest limitation is my body. I have always said my last step is my body.I already got the benefits of breakthrough in my body with Angamadharna.
Woke up at 6.30 am. Shower and followed by Bhuta Shuddi.
Tot of sannidhi, looks like that I definitely break up the wall. I truly dont' want to have 2 shrines.
I want Sannidhi and I have to have a bigger space.
Will have to figure out how to renovate.
Today another breakthrough.
Climb the staircase in the park, did 10 cycles. amazing.
Also did my usual 2 cycle of walk in the park.
My fitness level has increased considerably.
Actually I got no expectation on Kailash. To me, it just another program that I go through.
My greatest limitation is my body. I have always said my last step is my body.I already got the benefits of breakthrough in my body with Angamadharna.
Sadhguru - intense and relax..intoxication of the divine
Jul 18 aft
Saw this update in June
Of Mystic and Mistakes
If you do not know the intoxication of the divine within u and if u do not know the alertness of the mind, u will completely miss life. The only way to perceive life at its best is when u are intense and absolutely relaxed at the same time.
To be intense and absolutely relaxed - this is only possible if u are absolutely aware, and at the same time, u are absolutely drunk.
So this means u are producing ur own narcotic and consuming ur own narcotic, it has tremendous impact on ur health, well being, mental alertness, perception, everything.
This blissful state is not a goal by itself.
The blissful state will eliminate the fear of suffering.
Only when the fear of suffering is gone, only when this anxiety of "what will happen to me", is completely eliminated from u, will u dare to explore life. Otherwise u only want to protect it.
Soul
Yes...my shrine and sadhana produce my own narcotic.
Thats why I want them both.
And Sannidhi...is my Home...
Amen
Saw this update in June
Of Mystic and Mistakes
If you do not know the intoxication of the divine within u and if u do not know the alertness of the mind, u will completely miss life. The only way to perceive life at its best is when u are intense and absolutely relaxed at the same time.
To be intense and absolutely relaxed - this is only possible if u are absolutely aware, and at the same time, u are absolutely drunk.
So this means u are producing ur own narcotic and consuming ur own narcotic, it has tremendous impact on ur health, well being, mental alertness, perception, everything.
This blissful state is not a goal by itself.
The blissful state will eliminate the fear of suffering.
Only when the fear of suffering is gone, only when this anxiety of "what will happen to me", is completely eliminated from u, will u dare to explore life. Otherwise u only want to protect it.
Soul
Yes...my shrine and sadhana produce my own narcotic.
Thats why I want them both.
And Sannidhi...is my Home...
Amen
Finally got into Shakti Chalana Kriya
Jun 18
Woke up just before alarm at 7 am. Feel rested
Did Bhuta Shuddi and sang guru pooja.
Today my left shoulder is hurting, can even go down to do push up in angamadharna and lying down breathing for Surya kriya.
Angamadharna was quite okay despite my inner resistance. Feeling tired..but know I need to persevere for Kailash. I don't do the daily prescribed jogging. Just do angamadharna.
Father, I am not listening to any 'sharing' on Kailash. I just want to go as myself, totally unexpected. As for the trek, Kailash and Sadhguru will carry me through. My fitness level has increased loads..thats enough for now. I don't think I can push myself further.
Shakti was good, for some period, can hear the correct sound during Kapala Bhakti. Lauging at end of every cycle of Kapala Bhakti. Towards the end silence descend on me. I knew I went deep into meditation.
Shambavi was fine.
Soul
Had some exchanges with V.
He said my belief on sannidhi gave me the experience. I told him nope. I have no knowledge at all on sannidhi when I first saw It in Chennai. And then
Woke up just before alarm at 7 am. Feel rested
Did Bhuta Shuddi and sang guru pooja.
Today my left shoulder is hurting, can even go down to do push up in angamadharna and lying down breathing for Surya kriya.
Angamadharna was quite okay despite my inner resistance. Feeling tired..but know I need to persevere for Kailash. I don't do the daily prescribed jogging. Just do angamadharna.
Father, I am not listening to any 'sharing' on Kailash. I just want to go as myself, totally unexpected. As for the trek, Kailash and Sadhguru will carry me through. My fitness level has increased loads..thats enough for now. I don't think I can push myself further.
Shakti was good, for some period, can hear the correct sound during Kapala Bhakti. Lauging at end of every cycle of Kapala Bhakti. Towards the end silence descend on me. I knew I went deep into meditation.
Shambavi was fine.
Soul
Had some exchanges with V.
He said my belief on sannidhi gave me the experience. I told him nope. I have no knowledge at all on sannidhi when I first saw It in Chennai. And then
Joyful sadhana
Jul 17
Woke up upon alarm at 4.45 am. Slept around 12 am yesterday after doing twenty minutes with shrine. Went in deep.
Didn't do Angarmadhana.
Surya kriya was good; both feet on the ground for three mountain pose. Not sure why last one seems to be difficult.
Breathing was okay
Shakti was good. Can feel the energy build up. In the end, laughter came intermittently but long time. Just feel so joyful
Shambavi was good.
Plough back was good.
Amen.
Just shared with V my retirement home plan in ashram. He thinks quite good idea.
My 52 days card and Today card in Jupiter.
My 52-Day Period Card
The Three of Diamonds
The Three of Diamonds signifies that indecision or worry about some money matter may be a large part of your experience when this card is present. This card has such a strong creative energy associated with it that if we don't find some productive, creative outlet for its energies, we will inevitably feel afraid and indecisive. The key is to find ways to express ourselves when this card shows up.
It could also mean getting two opportunities for work at one time or having to split our time between two projects or money-making deals. Often variety can be a blessing allowing us to explore other areas. Usually, however, lack of focus brings lack of achievement or lack of detail in one project or the other. Knowing this may help you avoid wasting this invaluable creative force.
My Daily Card
The Nine of Clubs
The Nine of Clubs literally means 'completion of plans or ideas'. When this card appears it will signal a time when some ideas, ways of thinking or communicating, or some personal plans of yours are ready to end. If you choose to resist this ending, you will experience great disappointment, stubbornly holding on to things, ideas or plans that are no longer useful or helpful to you. If it seems that things are going against you when this card is present, it is probably because you are resisting letting go of something, that in reality, is no longer doing you any good.
On the positive side, you are ready to awaken to a new and higher way of thinking that will be better than you have imagined. The Nine of Clubs has been known to signal a time when powerful spiritual experiences may occur, such as universal consciousness, and also indicates the success of any endeavors that involve spreading higher truths to the world.
Woke up upon alarm at 4.45 am. Slept around 12 am yesterday after doing twenty minutes with shrine. Went in deep.
Didn't do Angarmadhana.
Surya kriya was good; both feet on the ground for three mountain pose. Not sure why last one seems to be difficult.
Breathing was okay
Shakti was good. Can feel the energy build up. In the end, laughter came intermittently but long time. Just feel so joyful
Shambavi was good.
Plough back was good.
Amen.
Just shared with V my retirement home plan in ashram. He thinks quite good idea.
My 52 days card and Today card in Jupiter.
My 52-Day Period Card
The Three of Diamonds
The Three of Diamonds signifies that indecision or worry about some money matter may be a large part of your experience when this card is present. This card has such a strong creative energy associated with it that if we don't find some productive, creative outlet for its energies, we will inevitably feel afraid and indecisive. The key is to find ways to express ourselves when this card shows up.
It could also mean getting two opportunities for work at one time or having to split our time between two projects or money-making deals. Often variety can be a blessing allowing us to explore other areas. Usually, however, lack of focus brings lack of achievement or lack of detail in one project or the other. Knowing this may help you avoid wasting this invaluable creative force.
My Daily Card
The Nine of Clubs
The Nine of Clubs literally means 'completion of plans or ideas'. When this card appears it will signal a time when some ideas, ways of thinking or communicating, or some personal plans of yours are ready to end. If you choose to resist this ending, you will experience great disappointment, stubbornly holding on to things, ideas or plans that are no longer useful or helpful to you. If it seems that things are going against you when this card is present, it is probably because you are resisting letting go of something, that in reality, is no longer doing you any good.
On the positive side, you are ready to awaken to a new and higher way of thinking that will be better than you have imagined. The Nine of Clubs has been known to signal a time when powerful spiritual experiences may occur, such as universal consciousness, and also indicates the success of any endeavors that involve spreading higher truths to the world.
Sadhguru's sannidhi
Jul 16 eve 1
During meditation more ideas unfold. Totality unexpected and it works.
1. Get the brass Sannidhi instead of mercury ones.
2. No taking down wall. Renovate the balcony for the brass Sannidhi
3. The saving of money can be used to make down payment for apartment in ashram.
On the balcony, plan to put the ionic wood floor. Glad I have a top and bottom window so won't be claustrophobic when I sit. Actually it is quite sizeable 40 sq ft balcony. Big enough for me to sit with Sannidhi.
The window between balcony and room will be removed. Just have the existing blinds. Can leave blind opens all the way. Close the blind only when it is necessary.
Suddenly know why the ashram guy didn't revert. Time for me plan to unfold. Also maybe why I met Yas and Mah. Both of them own the apartments in ashram.
Everything is unfolding.
Just today I said I let this be empty.
"Do not be afraid to let ur bowl be empty"
Jul 16 eve 2
From exceptional living
Love is a risk, sometimes u win, sometimes u lose.
But whether its pain or joy; or right or wrong
Love doesn't have room for mistakes, only lessons.
Aug 29
Anyway, Ashram said no to apartment..so back to myself.
Will most likely take down wall..may costs more..but I truly want a big space for sannidhi..
i need a big consecrated space..and I only want to sit in one space..not two..
I don't want to choose between my existing Shrine of Devi and Dhynalinga vs Sadhguru's sannidhi.
Amen
During meditation more ideas unfold. Totality unexpected and it works.
1. Get the brass Sannidhi instead of mercury ones.
2. No taking down wall. Renovate the balcony for the brass Sannidhi
3. The saving of money can be used to make down payment for apartment in ashram.
On the balcony, plan to put the ionic wood floor. Glad I have a top and bottom window so won't be claustrophobic when I sit. Actually it is quite sizeable 40 sq ft balcony. Big enough for me to sit with Sannidhi.
The window between balcony and room will be removed. Just have the existing blinds. Can leave blind opens all the way. Close the blind only when it is necessary.
Suddenly know why the ashram guy didn't revert. Time for me plan to unfold. Also maybe why I met Yas and Mah. Both of them own the apartments in ashram.
Everything is unfolding.
Just today I said I let this be empty.
"Do not be afraid to let ur bowl be empty"
Jul 16 eve 2
From exceptional living
Love is a risk, sometimes u win, sometimes u lose.
But whether its pain or joy; or right or wrong
Love doesn't have room for mistakes, only lessons.
Aug 29
Anyway, Ashram said no to apartment..so back to myself.
Will most likely take down wall..may costs more..but I truly want a big space for sannidhi..
i need a big consecrated space..and I only want to sit in one space..not two..
I don't want to choose between my existing Shrine of Devi and Dhynalinga vs Sadhguru's sannidhi.
Amen
Possible retirement in Ashram ??
Jul 16 eve
As I was driving this tot came unexpectedly.
Ashram can be my retirement home. Once I retired I can continue with my writing. Then I be writing my life in ashram. Sadhana, spending time in Dhynalinga and Linga, Suryakund and part time volunteering and writing.
I can give myself all that I need to be happy.
Suddenly I burst out into tears.
I cried because I was overwhelmed by this sudden plan.
I m so grateful that I found my Home. Grateful that I can have my spiritual life intact and spending my retirement in ashram. Knowing Sadhguru is there. I am truly Home.
Later i become sad cos suddenly it just occurred to me that I have planned for my retirement alone in ashram. Looks like my plan and dream of having a partner is gone.
Then a tot came. I truly can plan for my life. sadhana and ashram is important to me. I don't know if partner will show up or not. Even if the partner show up , my retirement plan in ashram is definitely on irrespective of my partner's inclination.
And if my partner doesn't show up, I found my home.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
Environment
Five of Diamonds
Favourable changes in ur work or business will bring blessings this year. Any travel connected with work or making money will also be a source of benefits.
It would be wise to think about ways that u can expand of change ur current money making enterprises with this influence.
In addition, any travel, moves or changes will tend to have a positive result. A change in ur values toward greater expansion is bringing rewards and blessings.
Long Range
Ace of Clubs
U will have strong desire for knowledge of some kinds and that new plans, ideas and form of communication could have a major impact on u.
U may throw urself into some new educational pursuit or some other Mercury-ruled activity such as writing, speaking or teaching. U may purchase a new computer or be exposed to some advanced system of knowledge. This will probably mean that u begin some new job as well. This is a powerful indicator of new beginnings in many areas of ur life.
Ur natural curiosity is heightened this year and this could lead u into many new ideas, concepts, beliefs and ways of communicating. With all the passion of this 'one energy', try to stay relaxed.
Pluto
Queen of Spades
Somehow connected to ur result card you are attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within, a greater level of organisational ability or both. Self mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It is knowing u can have everything u want, not by changing the world but by changing yourself.
U will have to work hard this year and possibly doing work that u find somewhat distasteful. Spades are work and the Queen using her work as karma yoga, a tool to purify her tots and emotions.
This is the goal u have set for urself and u must have good reason for why u want this. Keep this uppermost in ur mind as u progress through the year. U will no doubt have to make changes within and outside of urself to achieve this goal.
Affirmation
I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, ideas, and concepts of the world. I become the master of myself.
Result
Nine of Clubs
Much of ur challenges is to let go of outworn ideas, projects, plans or way of communicating. This is a year of completion that may at times seem like disappointing endings.
The Nine of Clubs says that u are completing a major chapter in ur life and it is time to move on to greener pastures.
Be open to spiritual wisdom in all forms, as this will help make change easier.
Affirmation
I complete projects this year and let go of the past. I broaden my understanding by releasing old ways of thinking.
Soul
Suddenly things fall into place. Just today I was wondering what's next. This plan truly comes unexpectedly and suddenly since Kapalvriksha during Sathsang last Sunday. It has never occur to me. This plan just happen. Again that's my journey in Isha; it like falling in love. It just happen.
Earlier this evening I spoke to boss and about the illogical plan I got on having an apartment In ashram during last Sunday meditation. She just looked at me and said it will happen. I deny it and said this is subject to review and approval and I may not get it. She looked at me and said I will definitely be accepted.
Father, timing is just perfect. I only got One year left on the car. By the time the process complete will be year end and I can definitely afford It. And I got enough money in my provident fund too if bank doesn't give me loan.
Father, perfect plan.
At my house got Sannidhi, Dhynalinga yantra and Gudi and at ashram got Dhynalinga and Devi. My life now revolved around consecrated space. I now live in consecrated space; receiving Grace from the Divine.
I am truly blessed.
So truly glad I got this plan before Kailash. Now Kailash be just like going home to Grandfather place.
As I was driving this tot came unexpectedly.
Ashram can be my retirement home. Once I retired I can continue with my writing. Then I be writing my life in ashram. Sadhana, spending time in Dhynalinga and Linga, Suryakund and part time volunteering and writing.
I can give myself all that I need to be happy.
Suddenly I burst out into tears.
I cried because I was overwhelmed by this sudden plan.
I m so grateful that I found my Home. Grateful that I can have my spiritual life intact and spending my retirement in ashram. Knowing Sadhguru is there. I am truly Home.
Later i become sad cos suddenly it just occurred to me that I have planned for my retirement alone in ashram. Looks like my plan and dream of having a partner is gone.
Then a tot came. I truly can plan for my life. sadhana and ashram is important to me. I don't know if partner will show up or not. Even if the partner show up , my retirement plan in ashram is definitely on irrespective of my partner's inclination.
And if my partner doesn't show up, I found my home.
Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.
Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".
Result
Two of Diamonds
The net result of one of ur important goals is likely to be successful financial partnership and arrangements.
Ur Pluto card will tell u more about this or tell u who, in particular u are joining forces with.
Taking advantage of other people's help may cause u to go through some changes this year. However, cooperation is the key to ur success and all business deals will have to be a "Win-Win" so that u and all others profit from them.
Affirmation
I create successful financial deals and partnership. I end this year connected to others in a financial way.
Environment
Five of Diamonds
Favourable changes in ur work or business will bring blessings this year. Any travel connected with work or making money will also be a source of benefits.
It would be wise to think about ways that u can expand of change ur current money making enterprises with this influence.
In addition, any travel, moves or changes will tend to have a positive result. A change in ur values toward greater expansion is bringing rewards and blessings.
Long Range
Ace of Clubs
U will have strong desire for knowledge of some kinds and that new plans, ideas and form of communication could have a major impact on u.
U may throw urself into some new educational pursuit or some other Mercury-ruled activity such as writing, speaking or teaching. U may purchase a new computer or be exposed to some advanced system of knowledge. This will probably mean that u begin some new job as well. This is a powerful indicator of new beginnings in many areas of ur life.
Ur natural curiosity is heightened this year and this could lead u into many new ideas, concepts, beliefs and ways of communicating. With all the passion of this 'one energy', try to stay relaxed.
Pluto
Queen of Spades
Somehow connected to ur result card you are attempting to develop a sense of mastery from within, a greater level of organisational ability or both. Self mastery comes from inner knowledge and self control. It is knowing u can have everything u want, not by changing the world but by changing yourself.
U will have to work hard this year and possibly doing work that u find somewhat distasteful. Spades are work and the Queen using her work as karma yoga, a tool to purify her tots and emotions.
This is the goal u have set for urself and u must have good reason for why u want this. Keep this uppermost in ur mind as u progress through the year. U will no doubt have to make changes within and outside of urself to achieve this goal.
Affirmation
I develop my capacity to transform my life by changing my beliefs, ideas, and concepts of the world. I become the master of myself.
Result
Nine of Clubs
Much of ur challenges is to let go of outworn ideas, projects, plans or way of communicating. This is a year of completion that may at times seem like disappointing endings.
The Nine of Clubs says that u are completing a major chapter in ur life and it is time to move on to greener pastures.
Be open to spiritual wisdom in all forms, as this will help make change easier.
Affirmation
I complete projects this year and let go of the past. I broaden my understanding by releasing old ways of thinking.
Soul
Suddenly things fall into place. Just today I was wondering what's next. This plan truly comes unexpectedly and suddenly since Kapalvriksha during Sathsang last Sunday. It has never occur to me. This plan just happen. Again that's my journey in Isha; it like falling in love. It just happen.
Earlier this evening I spoke to boss and about the illogical plan I got on having an apartment In ashram during last Sunday meditation. She just looked at me and said it will happen. I deny it and said this is subject to review and approval and I may not get it. She looked at me and said I will definitely be accepted.
Father, timing is just perfect. I only got One year left on the car. By the time the process complete will be year end and I can definitely afford It. And I got enough money in my provident fund too if bank doesn't give me loan.
Father, perfect plan.
At my house got Sannidhi, Dhynalinga yantra and Gudi and at ashram got Dhynalinga and Devi. My life now revolved around consecrated space. I now live in consecrated space; receiving Grace from the Divine.
I am truly blessed.
So truly glad I got this plan before Kailash. Now Kailash be just like going home to Grandfather place.
North Node in Taurus - to recognise they alone are enough
Jul 16 aft 1
North node in Taurus
To achieve successful long term relationships, they need to first recognise that's their energy is enough - they can live off their own energy. As long as they feel incomplete they will continue to attract people who also have low self esteem. But without the untamed neediness driving them, they can take their time in discovering whose energy will actually increase them and bring them joy.
Soul
Mmm...a good reminder..
Today card in Mars.
My Daily Card
The Queen of Spades
The Queen of Spades is known as the card of 'self-mastery', the one that sits in the position of highest accomplishment and recognition in what we call the 'Spiritual Spread'. Whenever this card appears, we are given a special opportunity to achieve much success in our external life by mastering ourselves within. This means creating more success by changing our inner thoughts, beliefs, and attitudes instead of trying to alter our external circumstances.
The Queen of Spades is a hard-working woman card and a good manager as well so we can also expect success in work and organizational ability whenever she appears in our spreads.
Soul
Today faced challenges in submitting forecast.
Boss also don't know how.
Later after lunch, I revisit the file and came back with alternatives.
Got things resolved, bought some times.
Great...
North node in Taurus
To achieve successful long term relationships, they need to first recognise that's their energy is enough - they can live off their own energy. As long as they feel incomplete they will continue to attract people who also have low self esteem. But without the untamed neediness driving them, they can take their time in discovering whose energy will actually increase them and bring them joy.
Soul
Mmm...a good reminder..
Today card in Mars.
My Daily Card
The Queen of Spades
The Queen of Spades is known as the card of 'self-mastery', the one that sits in the position of highest accomplishment and recognition in what we call the 'Spiritual Spread'. Whenever this card appears, we are given a special opportunity to achieve much success in our external life by mastering ourselves within. This means creating more success by changing our inner thoughts, beliefs, and attitudes instead of trying to alter our external circumstances.
The Queen of Spades is a hard-working woman card and a good manager as well so we can also expect success in work and organizational ability whenever she appears in our spreads.
Soul
Today faced challenges in submitting forecast.
Boss also don't know how.
Later after lunch, I revisit the file and came back with alternatives.
Got things resolved, bought some times.
Great...
Sadhguru - spiritual process is about being conscious
Jul 16 aft
Life and death in one breathe by Sadhguru
Spiritual process is about re-writing ur software consciously. Somehow u wrote it unconsciously. Now that u have become aware enough, why not write it consciously.
Soul
At first I see myself as the victim in L's attack as I perceived that I didn't do anything to warrant it. Later I realised that its because of my innate fear of lost of validation or rather of someone hating me; that create this lesson. Once I see that I thanked her privately as she was just a tool. I didn't lift the block as I don't see the need for her in my life but I no longer see myself as a victim and with that suffering is gone.
Later when I saw her, she ignored me but I didn't. She attacked me and I acted by blocking her. I have no regrets.
I no longer feel guilty after clarification from Sadhguru in Mystic Eyes; spirituality doesn't mean nice communication. Need to responds accordingly. Just as Sadhguru said he will kill if he met a shooting terrorist. I m right to block L as she need to know her behavior is not appreciated. She has done this a few times.
So liberating to face someone who hates me and feel okay. Liberating not to feel guilt too. Father, in the end I m truly a kind person.
Life and death in one breathe by Sadhguru
How much out of control u are, that is how much destiny u will talk about. If u have mastery over ur physical body, 15 to 20% of ur life and destiny will be in ur hands. If u have mastery over ur minds, 50 to 60% of ur life and destiny will be in ur hands. If u have mastery over ur life energies, 100% of ur life and destiny will be in ur hands.
Soul
Just did Shoonya. So thankful for the tool. Really a good deep rest.
My shrine great too.
Life and death in one breathe by Sadhguru
Somehow in the name of divinity, we have just lost our humanity. Don't talk about divinity, let ur humanity overflow. When ur humanity overflow, u will touch divinity, otherwise there is no way. It is simply empty talk; it doesn't get anyone anywhere.
Too much God in this world, that has been the biggest problem. Everyone is talking about God simply because they have not realised the immensity of being a human being. The immense potential of being a human being has not been understood or experienced; that is why anything that is little good, they say "Divinity".
Surrender is not to anything. Surrender is a simple art of keeping yourself aside. U are too full of yourself, if u know how to keep urself aside in the way u exist or at least in the way u act, this is what u r referring to as surrender.
If u know how to keep urself aside completely, then suddenly a totally different dimension starts functioning within u.
U can call it Divinity, or anything u want, but that which is the basis of creation becomes active within you.
The Creator is within, constantly functioning. It is just that u have ignored him for too long because u r too identified with the physical and mental aspect of urself.
Soul
Amen.
Life and death in one breathe by Sadhguru
Spiritual process is about re-writing ur software consciously. Somehow u wrote it unconsciously. Now that u have become aware enough, why not write it consciously.
Soul
At first I see myself as the victim in L's attack as I perceived that I didn't do anything to warrant it. Later I realised that its because of my innate fear of lost of validation or rather of someone hating me; that create this lesson. Once I see that I thanked her privately as she was just a tool. I didn't lift the block as I don't see the need for her in my life but I no longer see myself as a victim and with that suffering is gone.
Later when I saw her, she ignored me but I didn't. She attacked me and I acted by blocking her. I have no regrets.
I no longer feel guilty after clarification from Sadhguru in Mystic Eyes; spirituality doesn't mean nice communication. Need to responds accordingly. Just as Sadhguru said he will kill if he met a shooting terrorist. I m right to block L as she need to know her behavior is not appreciated. She has done this a few times.
So liberating to face someone who hates me and feel okay. Liberating not to feel guilt too. Father, in the end I m truly a kind person.
Life and death in one breathe by Sadhguru
How much out of control u are, that is how much destiny u will talk about. If u have mastery over ur physical body, 15 to 20% of ur life and destiny will be in ur hands. If u have mastery over ur minds, 50 to 60% of ur life and destiny will be in ur hands. If u have mastery over ur life energies, 100% of ur life and destiny will be in ur hands.
Soul
Just did Shoonya. So thankful for the tool. Really a good deep rest.
My shrine great too.
Life and death in one breathe by Sadhguru
Somehow in the name of divinity, we have just lost our humanity. Don't talk about divinity, let ur humanity overflow. When ur humanity overflow, u will touch divinity, otherwise there is no way. It is simply empty talk; it doesn't get anyone anywhere.
Too much God in this world, that has been the biggest problem. Everyone is talking about God simply because they have not realised the immensity of being a human being. The immense potential of being a human being has not been understood or experienced; that is why anything that is little good, they say "Divinity".
Surrender is not to anything. Surrender is a simple art of keeping yourself aside. U are too full of yourself, if u know how to keep urself aside in the way u exist or at least in the way u act, this is what u r referring to as surrender.
If u know how to keep urself aside completely, then suddenly a totally different dimension starts functioning within u.
U can call it Divinity, or anything u want, but that which is the basis of creation becomes active within you.
The Creator is within, constantly functioning. It is just that u have ignored him for too long because u r too identified with the physical and mental aspect of urself.
Soul
Amen.
Sadhguru - Love is just a vehicle for feeling of oneness
Jul 16
Body woke up fresh. Moments later alarm rang at 3.45 am. I got up and shower.
Yesterday sitting with my shrine from 10.30 to 10.55 pm helps. At first I couldn't get into zone and tot I lost it. Five minutes later I was in.
Angamadharna was okay. Surya kriya was good; quite effortless both feet on ground for 3 postures and the last one nearly reach. Will continue to do.
Breathing was okay.
Shakti was good. This time taking break after first cycle of Kapala which is more feasible. Feel such joy and was laughing intermittently for quite a long time. These days taking longer after break to ensure that my knees are properly rested.
Shambavi was okay. Just contented silence in the end.
Father, the realisation that I m like M; seeking validation truly throw a spanner. I can't judge her anymore.
Life and Death in one breathe by Sadhguru
Somewhere, the way the human being is right now, no matter where he is in his life, no matter what he is or what he has achieved, there is a sense of insufficiency. The way he is right now, he wants to include something else as part of himself to make himself more complete.
Love is just a vehicle for wellness.
Love is a huge longing to include the other as a part of u. It starts from gathering simple things around u, to seeking spirituality or God.
Soul
Amen. Don't feel so bad. Everyone is the same.
Life and Death in one breathe by Sadhguru
What u are longing for is that oneness. Emotion or love is just one more vehicle to get there.
When you get sufficiently mauled by the process of love, u will be ready for Grace.
Body woke up fresh. Moments later alarm rang at 3.45 am. I got up and shower.
Yesterday sitting with my shrine from 10.30 to 10.55 pm helps. At first I couldn't get into zone and tot I lost it. Five minutes later I was in.
Angamadharna was okay. Surya kriya was good; quite effortless both feet on ground for 3 postures and the last one nearly reach. Will continue to do.
Breathing was okay.
Shakti was good. This time taking break after first cycle of Kapala which is more feasible. Feel such joy and was laughing intermittently for quite a long time. These days taking longer after break to ensure that my knees are properly rested.
Shambavi was okay. Just contented silence in the end.
Father, the realisation that I m like M; seeking validation truly throw a spanner. I can't judge her anymore.
Life and Death in one breathe by Sadhguru
Somewhere, the way the human being is right now, no matter where he is in his life, no matter what he is or what he has achieved, there is a sense of insufficiency. The way he is right now, he wants to include something else as part of himself to make himself more complete.
Love is just a vehicle for wellness.
Love is a huge longing to include the other as a part of u. It starts from gathering simple things around u, to seeking spirituality or God.
Soul
Amen. Don't feel so bad. Everyone is the same.
Life and Death in one breathe by Sadhguru
What u are longing for is that oneness. Emotion or love is just one more vehicle to get there.
When you get sufficiently mauled by the process of love, u will be ready for Grace.
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Lunar in Scorpio - give to other sincerely
Jul 15 aft
Lunar in Scorpio
I am here to learn: discovery and belief in my own goodness. To stop projecting my goodness outward by looking for someone to believe in.
As u learn to support and trust ur one sense of goodness, u can begin to construct ur own boundaries and contain ur own energy. This gives u the freedom to be more trusting of those around u since it eliminates the need to give away ur power.
From this position u can support those around u for a purer motive, since u no longer feel that u need them to ensure ur own strength. Now when u support others it will be from a place of true caring and u will no longer be involved in a process that gives ur power away.
Soul
As I was reading this, I suddenly tot of me and local Isha. Yes, let go and know my own strength.
Now that I am just who I am, no longer need to prove myself.
Once I am strong on my own, then I can support them without any motives; without any need for validation
Suddenly a tot occur to me. I seek validation too but hidden. M was seeking validation openly. I judged her; guess that's why I m judgemental as I project to her.
Me seeking validation is so bad that even a no response from the core team affect me. No one ask for me to share the info.
Whereas for my blog and website I m doing it for myself so I m not bothered.
Mmmm.
As I looked at myself in mirror just now. I looked good as if all unnecessary fats has melted off. Truly looked young and youthful. Now I understand why others are shocked at my real age. I easily looked 15 years younger.
Lunar in Scorpio
I am here to learn: discovery and belief in my own goodness. To stop projecting my goodness outward by looking for someone to believe in.
As u learn to support and trust ur one sense of goodness, u can begin to construct ur own boundaries and contain ur own energy. This gives u the freedom to be more trusting of those around u since it eliminates the need to give away ur power.
From this position u can support those around u for a purer motive, since u no longer feel that u need them to ensure ur own strength. Now when u support others it will be from a place of true caring and u will no longer be involved in a process that gives ur power away.
Soul
As I was reading this, I suddenly tot of me and local Isha. Yes, let go and know my own strength.
Now that I am just who I am, no longer need to prove myself.
Once I am strong on my own, then I can support them without any motives; without any need for validation
Suddenly a tot occur to me. I seek validation too but hidden. M was seeking validation openly. I judged her; guess that's why I m judgemental as I project to her.
Me seeking validation is so bad that even a no response from the core team affect me. No one ask for me to share the info.
Whereas for my blog and website I m doing it for myself so I m not bothered.
Mmmm.
As I looked at myself in mirror just now. I looked good as if all unnecessary fats has melted off. Truly looked young and youthful. Now I understand why others are shocked at my real age. I easily looked 15 years younger.
Ralph Waldo Emerson - within more important than without
Jul 15
Ralph Waldo Emerson
What lies behind us and what lies in front of us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
Soul
Amen. Exactly my tot this morning.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by singing guru pooja.
Angamadharna was okay despite a rest of 5 days.
Surya Kriya a great one, I was able to have my both feet touch the ground in 3 out of 4 asanas.
Getting there.
Breathing meditation good. Suddenly sat in arashidarna posture.
Shakti was good with laughter in the end.
Shambavi was good too.
Today start to gather ready some clothes.
Truly glad that I have slimmed down and can wear my old Thermal wear.
Got them back in 1999 when I went to Finland.
I am finally back to my old weight more than 10 years ago
Ralph Waldo Emerson
What lies behind us and what lies in front of us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
Soul
Amen. Exactly my tot this morning.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by singing guru pooja.
Angamadharna was okay despite a rest of 5 days.
Surya Kriya a great one, I was able to have my both feet touch the ground in 3 out of 4 asanas.
Getting there.
Breathing meditation good. Suddenly sat in arashidarna posture.
Shakti was good with laughter in the end.
Shambavi was good too.
Today start to gather ready some clothes.
Truly glad that I have slimmed down and can wear my old Thermal wear.
Got them back in 1999 when I went to Finland.
I am finally back to my old weight more than 10 years ago
Focus on my gains instead of my loss
Jul 14 aft
Father, I am feeling restless. I lost everything or rather I let go of everything that used to define me.
I knew its just the ego playing tricks again; my old karmic issues saying me now redundant; what's next.
Issue with Y closed. Issue with Z closed. Issue with E closed. Issue on volunteering closed. Issue on Sathsang guide finally closed yesterday.
I m feeling bit lost; feeling redundant.
I must remember that I m truly blessed. I can go to ashram whenever I want. I can get the Sannidhi I wanted. I can even go to Kailash.
I am receptive and go into meditative zone whenever I want.
Let me focus on what's I have. Not what I have let go.
This week Osho really true and seems to follow my last week.
1. Issue
Courage
There is no point fighting against the challenges of life or trying to avoid or deny them. They are there and if the seed is to become the flower we must go through them.
Soul
Tot of my 3 wishes
1. My husband in Kailash
2. Me a famous person on self knowing; being interviewed by Oprah
3. Me owning an apartment in ashram.
All seems far off.
Much to do.
A little part of me said why did u let go of those things u know? I ignored it cos I knew those weren't what I truly value.
Just follow what I want instead of being dictated by fear.
2. Internal influence that u are unaware
Completion.
Whatever has been absorbing ur time and energy is now coming to an end. In completing it, u will be clearing the space for something new to begin. Use this interval to celebrate both - the end of the old and the coming of the new.
Soul
Yes.
3. External influence that u are aware
Celebration
Ur cleverness is ur disease. Don't be too wise. Always remember to stop; don't go to the extreme. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good and the right combination makes u a Buddha.
Soul
Yea. Just like I m not bothered about Kailash; the same I should be doing now for my wishes.
4. What is needed for resolution?
The Outsider
So u are feeling urself an outsider. This is good. This is transitory period. Now u have to be alert not to fill urself with pain and misery.
Be a man, a woman and stand on ur own feet.
The only way to be connected to existence is to go inwards because there at the center u r still connected.
Whenever we feel left out, or excluded, it brings up this feeling of being a small helpless child. It is not surprising, as the feeling is deeply rooted in our earliest childhood experiences. The problem is that, because it is so deep rooted.
U now have an opportunity to stop the tape, to quit tormenting urself with ideas that u are somehow not 'enough' to be accepted and included.
Recognise the root of this feelings in the past and let go of the old pain. It wil bring u the clarity to see how u can open the gate and enter that which u long to become.
Father, I am feeling restless. I lost everything or rather I let go of everything that used to define me.
I knew its just the ego playing tricks again; my old karmic issues saying me now redundant; what's next.
Issue with Y closed. Issue with Z closed. Issue with E closed. Issue on volunteering closed. Issue on Sathsang guide finally closed yesterday.
I m feeling bit lost; feeling redundant.
I must remember that I m truly blessed. I can go to ashram whenever I want. I can get the Sannidhi I wanted. I can even go to Kailash.
I am receptive and go into meditative zone whenever I want.
Let me focus on what's I have. Not what I have let go.
This week Osho really true and seems to follow my last week.
1. Issue
Courage
There is no point fighting against the challenges of life or trying to avoid or deny them. They are there and if the seed is to become the flower we must go through them.
Soul
Tot of my 3 wishes
1. My husband in Kailash
2. Me a famous person on self knowing; being interviewed by Oprah
3. Me owning an apartment in ashram.
All seems far off.
Much to do.
A little part of me said why did u let go of those things u know? I ignored it cos I knew those weren't what I truly value.
Just follow what I want instead of being dictated by fear.
2. Internal influence that u are unaware
Completion.
Whatever has been absorbing ur time and energy is now coming to an end. In completing it, u will be clearing the space for something new to begin. Use this interval to celebrate both - the end of the old and the coming of the new.
Soul
Yes.
3. External influence that u are aware
Celebration
Ur cleverness is ur disease. Don't be too wise. Always remember to stop; don't go to the extreme. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good and the right combination makes u a Buddha.
Soul
Yea. Just like I m not bothered about Kailash; the same I should be doing now for my wishes.
4. What is needed for resolution?
The Outsider
So u are feeling urself an outsider. This is good. This is transitory period. Now u have to be alert not to fill urself with pain and misery.
Be a man, a woman and stand on ur own feet.
The only way to be connected to existence is to go inwards because there at the center u r still connected.
Whenever we feel left out, or excluded, it brings up this feeling of being a small helpless child. It is not surprising, as the feeling is deeply rooted in our earliest childhood experiences. The problem is that, because it is so deep rooted.
U now have an opportunity to stop the tape, to quit tormenting urself with ideas that u are somehow not 'enough' to be accepted and included.
Recognise the root of this feelings in the past and let go of the old pain. It wil bring u the clarity to see how u can open the gate and enter that which u long to become.
Breakthrough - It is okay to be redundant
Jul 14
Woke up around 5 am. Alarm was switched for 4.45 am but for Sunday. Laze bit cos waiting for alarm and finally checked its 5.15 am. Skip Angarmadhana. Didn't even do cat stretch.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by singing guru pooja.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya, for the first mountain posture, both feet touch ground effortlessly. It was more difficult in subsequent mountain posture but still better than most days.
Still thinking of my yesterday long term wish during Kapalvriksha meditation. I was surprised that I wanted to have my own apartment in Ashram; so I can visit whenever I want to. Its new to me.
Mmm, well I know that I always need an annual retreat to ashram. For me; not a case of volunteering but just a good retreat.
Mmm yesterday L avoided me; which is good. Less chance of unnecessary confrontation. I can see that SF also dislike her. Anyway, thanks to L; my karmic issue on validation is gone.
Life and Death by Sadhguru
Grace is trying to lift u up and gravity holds u down. If u are released from the physical forces of existence, then Grace burst forth in ur life.
Just as gravity is active, Grace is constantly active. It is just that u have to make urself available to it.
With gravity, u have no choice, anyway you are available to it, but with Grace, u have to make urself receptive and available to it. So whatever kind of spiritual work u are do - ultimately u r just working towards making urself available to the force of Grace, because without Grace, u will not be lifted up.
Soul
Amen.
Sannidhi. Found out it cost around USD1.5k; which is okay. Main cost will be renovation.
This morning suddenly feel redundant in Local Isha; translate to low value means I m not useful, not wanted.
Mmm; that's the aim. To be useless and yet wanted. While I have felt resentment for having to always be useful to be wanted. I guess I put myself that way. So this is a beginning. Feeling redundant to others and also to myself.
Becoming no one.
Father, loads of shedding before Kailash.
Woke up around 5 am. Alarm was switched for 4.45 am but for Sunday. Laze bit cos waiting for alarm and finally checked its 5.15 am. Skip Angarmadhana. Didn't even do cat stretch.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by singing guru pooja.
Did one cycle of Surya kriya, for the first mountain posture, both feet touch ground effortlessly. It was more difficult in subsequent mountain posture but still better than most days.
Still thinking of my yesterday long term wish during Kapalvriksha meditation. I was surprised that I wanted to have my own apartment in Ashram; so I can visit whenever I want to. Its new to me.
Mmm, well I know that I always need an annual retreat to ashram. For me; not a case of volunteering but just a good retreat.
Mmm yesterday L avoided me; which is good. Less chance of unnecessary confrontation. I can see that SF also dislike her. Anyway, thanks to L; my karmic issue on validation is gone.
Life and Death by Sadhguru
Grace is trying to lift u up and gravity holds u down. If u are released from the physical forces of existence, then Grace burst forth in ur life.
Just as gravity is active, Grace is constantly active. It is just that u have to make urself available to it.
With gravity, u have no choice, anyway you are available to it, but with Grace, u have to make urself receptive and available to it. So whatever kind of spiritual work u are do - ultimately u r just working towards making urself available to the force of Grace, because without Grace, u will not be lifted up.
Soul
Amen.
Sannidhi. Found out it cost around USD1.5k; which is okay. Main cost will be renovation.
This morning suddenly feel redundant in Local Isha; translate to low value means I m not useful, not wanted.
Mmm; that's the aim. To be useless and yet wanted. While I have felt resentment for having to always be useful to be wanted. I guess I put myself that way. So this is a beginning. Feeling redundant to others and also to myself.
Becoming no one.
Father, loads of shedding before Kailash.
Breakthrough - It is okay to be hated by others
Jul 12 morn
My Uranus card today...unexpected
My Daily Card
The Jack of Spades
The Jack of Spades is probably the most creative card in the entire deck. It is called the 'Actor Card', the 'Card of the Thief' and the 'Spiritual Initiate Card'. Just how it manifests in your life will depend a lot on what are your values and your occupation.
In all cases, it is wise to safeguard your personal property when the Jack of Spades is present. Just be more careful than usual because there is a strong potential for someone to either rip you off or in some other way do something dishonest.
Being such a creative force, the Jack of Spades can bring great success in any of the artistic pursuits. This is an energy that can be used to further one's success in many areas.
Finally, the Jack of Spades can represent an initiation into a higher lifestyle. For example, you might read a book that inspires you to start a regular plan of exercise. Because that book caused a positive change in your basic lifestyle, this would be considered to be a spiritual initiation. Of course, there are more profound spiritual initiations than a new exercise program, but keep in mind that the Jack of Spade's initiation will have a definite effect on what we do day in and day out.
Soul
So true.
Unexpectedly there were breakthrough.
Yesterday when I read my Osho Tarot...I tot what can it be. ...but I persevere.
The Issue
To transform breakdowns into breakthroughs is the whole function of a master. The psychotherapist simply patches you up. That is his function. He is not there to transform you. You need a meta-psychology, the psychology of the buddhas. It is the greatest adventure in life to go through a breakdown consciously. It is the greatest risk because there is no guarantee that the breakdown will become a breakthrough. It does become, but these things cannot be guaranteed.Your chaos is very ancient - for many, many lives you have been in chaos. It is thick and dense. It is almost a universe in itself. So when you enter into it with your small capacity, of course there is danger. But without facing this danger nobody has ever become integrated, nobody has ever become an individual, indivisible. Zen, or meditation, is the method which will help you to go through the chaos, through the dark night of the soul, balanced, disciplined, alert. The dawn is not far away, but before you can reach the dawn, the dark night has to be passed through. And as the dawn comes closer, the night will become darker.
The predominance of red in this card indicates at a glance that its subject is energy, power and strength. The brilliant glow emanates from the solar plexus, or center of power on the figure, and the posture is one of exuberance and determination. All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough." At such times it seems we must do something, anything, even if it later turns out to be a mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us. If we don't, they threaten to suffocate and cripple our very life energy itself. If you are now feeling that "enough is enough," allow yourself to take the risk of shattering the old patterns and limitations that have kept your energy from flowing. In doing so you will be amazed at the vitality and empowerment this Breakthrough can bring to your life.
Soul.
True...
Breakthrough in Surya Kriya - finally both feet can touch the ground easily...
Second breakthrough - swimming effortlessly; today going into third lane.
I was able to maintain my calm despite vigorous interruption from others in the pool
Alas...breakthrough...it is okay to be hated by others.
My Uranus card today...unexpected
My Daily Card
The Jack of Spades
The Jack of Spades is probably the most creative card in the entire deck. It is called the 'Actor Card', the 'Card of the Thief' and the 'Spiritual Initiate Card'. Just how it manifests in your life will depend a lot on what are your values and your occupation.
In all cases, it is wise to safeguard your personal property when the Jack of Spades is present. Just be more careful than usual because there is a strong potential for someone to either rip you off or in some other way do something dishonest.
Being such a creative force, the Jack of Spades can bring great success in any of the artistic pursuits. This is an energy that can be used to further one's success in many areas.
Finally, the Jack of Spades can represent an initiation into a higher lifestyle. For example, you might read a book that inspires you to start a regular plan of exercise. Because that book caused a positive change in your basic lifestyle, this would be considered to be a spiritual initiation. Of course, there are more profound spiritual initiations than a new exercise program, but keep in mind that the Jack of Spade's initiation will have a definite effect on what we do day in and day out.
Soul
So true.
Unexpectedly there were breakthrough.
Yesterday when I read my Osho Tarot...I tot what can it be. ...but I persevere.
The Issue
To transform breakdowns into breakthroughs is the whole function of a master. The psychotherapist simply patches you up. That is his function. He is not there to transform you. You need a meta-psychology, the psychology of the buddhas. It is the greatest adventure in life to go through a breakdown consciously. It is the greatest risk because there is no guarantee that the breakdown will become a breakthrough. It does become, but these things cannot be guaranteed.Your chaos is very ancient - for many, many lives you have been in chaos. It is thick and dense. It is almost a universe in itself. So when you enter into it with your small capacity, of course there is danger. But without facing this danger nobody has ever become integrated, nobody has ever become an individual, indivisible. Zen, or meditation, is the method which will help you to go through the chaos, through the dark night of the soul, balanced, disciplined, alert. The dawn is not far away, but before you can reach the dawn, the dark night has to be passed through. And as the dawn comes closer, the night will become darker.
The predominance of red in this card indicates at a glance that its subject is energy, power and strength. The brilliant glow emanates from the solar plexus, or center of power on the figure, and the posture is one of exuberance and determination. All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough." At such times it seems we must do something, anything, even if it later turns out to be a mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us. If we don't, they threaten to suffocate and cripple our very life energy itself. If you are now feeling that "enough is enough," allow yourself to take the risk of shattering the old patterns and limitations that have kept your energy from flowing. In doing so you will be amazed at the vitality and empowerment this Breakthrough can bring to your life.
Soul.
True...
Breakthrough in Surya Kriya - finally both feet can touch the ground easily...
Second breakthrough - swimming effortlessly; today going into third lane.
I was able to maintain my calm despite vigorous interruption from others in the pool
Alas...breakthrough...it is okay to be hated by others.
Guru purnima breakdown
Jul 12
Last year guru purnima. A fiasco also happen with L. I remember I broke down and cried.
This year guru Purnima is the same.
She hates me cos she think that I m the cause of her being outcast.
Since she cannot get my acceptance; she is hating me.
True she sought love but I can't take her.
Now I realised that my path is on the right track. My goal is Letting go of my karmic Two of Diamonds. In my life I never let go of friends. I always conscious of my own lovability.
First one was SL and then later Z And now L.
On the right track.
Why Guru?
Cos I m Cancer and affected by the moon. And maybe she too is affected by Moon.
A breakthrough on Surya Kriya; both feet on the ground. Never tot it can happen. Alas; yes a breakthrough.
Breathing was nice.
Shakti was good; sounds coming. I realised now my head need to be even and then faced down in exhalation. I wrongly put my head facing up.
Shambavi was good too.
Today longer than usual
Went for my swim later.
The water is so lovely.
Today I am so calm, just enjoying the water.
My head was able to down in the water..just swimming effortlessly.
Today many newbies splashing around and some professional swimmers.
I just swim in my stride.
Many times there was near collusion but I stay calm.
The only time I had to stop was when one of the newbie kept holding one of my legs after I try to shrugged off.
So there were some panic and I had to swim to the side.
Later after I calmed down, effortlessly continuing.
The old me would have been affected.
As I was swimming effortlessly suddenly tot of my greatest fear is to be disliked by people.
I undertake the Self Mastery path because I don't want to be affected by people, likes and especially their dislikes of me.
Then I suddenly tot of all the bitchy and nasty CEOs that I reported to; I always wondered how can they take it when others dislike them; how come they stay unaffected and still be nasty.
I couldn't have done it.
Others used to say I have high tolerance. The truth is I practiced it and enforced control on myself. Since I can't control others, I can only control myself. It is my fear of being disliked, of losing validation that cause me to have so much self control.
Alas..for once in my life, I am being disliked or rather hated for just being me; I wasn't even being unkind. The person project her anger on me...
And for the first time I barred someone phone, my tolerance limit is up. Who is she to send me abusive messages. Now that I am no longer the guide, there is no responsibiilty, I need not tolerate her.
A year ago, I decided this lady L, cannot be a friend and I dismissed her from my clique. I stop answering her phone. A year later and I tot she is okay and I was being my normal self and she reacted. Looks like her deep seated anger is still there.
This time it is okay for me to be hated....it is fine.
Main thing is for me to accept myself.
Once I accept myself and happy on my own, others validation no longer matters..even the hate no longer matters.
Amen...truly a major breakthrough.
Last year guru purnima. A fiasco also happen with L. I remember I broke down and cried.
This year guru Purnima is the same.
She hates me cos she think that I m the cause of her being outcast.
Since she cannot get my acceptance; she is hating me.
True she sought love but I can't take her.
Now I realised that my path is on the right track. My goal is Letting go of my karmic Two of Diamonds. In my life I never let go of friends. I always conscious of my own lovability.
First one was SL and then later Z And now L.
On the right track.
Why Guru?
Cos I m Cancer and affected by the moon. And maybe she too is affected by Moon.
A breakthrough on Surya Kriya; both feet on the ground. Never tot it can happen. Alas; yes a breakthrough.
Breathing was nice.
Shakti was good; sounds coming. I realised now my head need to be even and then faced down in exhalation. I wrongly put my head facing up.
Shambavi was good too.
Today longer than usual
Went for my swim later.
The water is so lovely.
Today I am so calm, just enjoying the water.
My head was able to down in the water..just swimming effortlessly.
Today many newbies splashing around and some professional swimmers.
I just swim in my stride.
Many times there was near collusion but I stay calm.
The only time I had to stop was when one of the newbie kept holding one of my legs after I try to shrugged off.
So there were some panic and I had to swim to the side.
Later after I calmed down, effortlessly continuing.
The old me would have been affected.
As I was swimming effortlessly suddenly tot of my greatest fear is to be disliked by people.
I undertake the Self Mastery path because I don't want to be affected by people, likes and especially their dislikes of me.
Then I suddenly tot of all the bitchy and nasty CEOs that I reported to; I always wondered how can they take it when others dislike them; how come they stay unaffected and still be nasty.
I couldn't have done it.
Others used to say I have high tolerance. The truth is I practiced it and enforced control on myself. Since I can't control others, I can only control myself. It is my fear of being disliked, of losing validation that cause me to have so much self control.
Alas..for once in my life, I am being disliked or rather hated for just being me; I wasn't even being unkind. The person project her anger on me...
And for the first time I barred someone phone, my tolerance limit is up. Who is she to send me abusive messages. Now that I am no longer the guide, there is no responsibiilty, I need not tolerate her.
A year ago, I decided this lady L, cannot be a friend and I dismissed her from my clique. I stop answering her phone. A year later and I tot she is okay and I was being my normal self and she reacted. Looks like her deep seated anger is still there.
This time it is okay for me to be hated....it is fine.
Main thing is for me to accept myself.
Once I accept myself and happy on my own, others validation no longer matters..even the hate no longer matters.
Amen...truly a major breakthrough.
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
Letting go of others, so can accept others letting go of me
Jul 11 aft 1
No one responded to my call of sympathy.
The old me would feel sad. But the new me is not as sad. Just as I decided to give myself space for not responding; the same I got to let other not respond to me.
Just as I let go of SL and now L, the same as Z and Y let go of me.
Father, learning Seven of Hearts. First thing is to be authentic. To responds as who we truly want to inside. Not to be who we think we should be out of loss of validation.
Evening
After so many hours still no response.
Mmm perhaps they think got to do with the exit from the Sathsang guide group. But that one I deleted yesterday cos I m no longer the guide.
Mmmm, bit off now that no one respond.
Well, I got to live by myself. If they disagree so be it.
My first step was of course to feel like a victim and reject them. That's my old way. Anyway, maybe they too don't know how to comfort me.
Actually not so much hurt by L but more hurt by the lack of response.
Their silence is telling.
Well, may be good. This episode before Kailash.
Aft
This week Osho tarot card
1. The Issue
Breakthrough
Without facing this danger, nobody has ever become integrated, nobody has ever become an individual.
Meditation is the method which help u to go through the chaos, through the dark night of the soul, balanced, disciplined, alert.
The dawn is not far away but before you can reach the dawn, the dark night has to be passed through.
All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough". At such times, it seems we must do something, anything, even if it later turns out to be a mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us. If we don't, they threaten to suffocate and cripple our very life energy.
If u are now are feeling that "enough is enough", allow urself to take the risk of shattering the old patterns and limitations that have kept ur energy from flowing. In doing so, u will be amazed at the vitality and empowerment this Breakthrough can bring to ur life.
Soul
When I saw this card I wonder what could it be. I was expecting a nice week and looking forward to guru Purnima.
I tot the meet up with E was it. I even tot the subsequent call to Z was it. Looks like it not so.
Alas, The breakthrough over L. Amen.
3. Internal influence that u are aware of
Celebration
Life is a moment to celebrate, to enjoy.
Make it fun, a celebration, and then u will enter the temple. The temple not for the long-faced, it has never been for them.
Don't be too wise. Always remember to stop. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good and the right combination makes u a Buddha.
True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within and spills over into an overflow of song, dance and laugher.
Soul
Mmm
No one responded to my call of sympathy.
The old me would feel sad. But the new me is not as sad. Just as I decided to give myself space for not responding; the same I got to let other not respond to me.
Just as I let go of SL and now L, the same as Z and Y let go of me.
Father, learning Seven of Hearts. First thing is to be authentic. To responds as who we truly want to inside. Not to be who we think we should be out of loss of validation.
Evening
After so many hours still no response.
Mmm perhaps they think got to do with the exit from the Sathsang guide group. But that one I deleted yesterday cos I m no longer the guide.
Mmmm, bit off now that no one respond.
Well, I got to live by myself. If they disagree so be it.
My first step was of course to feel like a victim and reject them. That's my old way. Anyway, maybe they too don't know how to comfort me.
Actually not so much hurt by L but more hurt by the lack of response.
Their silence is telling.
Well, may be good. This episode before Kailash.
Aft
This week Osho tarot card
1. The Issue
Breakthrough
Without facing this danger, nobody has ever become integrated, nobody has ever become an individual.
Meditation is the method which help u to go through the chaos, through the dark night of the soul, balanced, disciplined, alert.
The dawn is not far away but before you can reach the dawn, the dark night has to be passed through.
All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough". At such times, it seems we must do something, anything, even if it later turns out to be a mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us. If we don't, they threaten to suffocate and cripple our very life energy.
If u are now are feeling that "enough is enough", allow urself to take the risk of shattering the old patterns and limitations that have kept ur energy from flowing. In doing so, u will be amazed at the vitality and empowerment this Breakthrough can bring to ur life.
Soul
When I saw this card I wonder what could it be. I was expecting a nice week and looking forward to guru Purnima.
I tot the meet up with E was it. I even tot the subsequent call to Z was it. Looks like it not so.
Alas, The breakthrough over L. Amen.
3. Internal influence that u are aware of
Celebration
Life is a moment to celebrate, to enjoy.
Make it fun, a celebration, and then u will enter the temple. The temple not for the long-faced, it has never been for them.
Don't be too wise. Always remember to stop. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good and the right combination makes u a Buddha.
True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within and spills over into an overflow of song, dance and laugher.
Soul
Mmm
Being fearless in personal relationship
Jul 11 mor
Checking out my blog an saw others reading this
Difficult to react to my anger due to validation; written back in Oct 2013.
I wrote it then as I was receiving abusive messages from L over me being a bad person, me being bad guide and etc.
Back then I couldn't react as I was afraid of more abuses, I was afraid due to my position as Sathsang guide and core lead.
Now no more reason to hold on.
Of all persons in the world, she is the last one that I need validation from.
She was the last card...
Finally let go of my karmic Two of Diamonds.
My Daily Card
The Ace of Diamonds
The Ace of Diamonds means the desire for money or the birth of a new way of earning money. All Aces represent new beginnings, a desire for something that starts a new cycle of creating. Aces are the representatives of pure creative energy.
Diamonds represent our value systems, the things that we like or dislike, treasure or discard. So, the Ace of Diamonds means that we experience the birth of a new value or that we suddenly like or want something that we didn't before.
Because diamonds are commonly associated with money and our work, the Ace of Diamonds can mean the beginning of a new financial enterprise or the desire to obtain money for a specific purpose.
Soul
Definitely new value. I need not suffer alone.
I also able to share her abusive messages with teacher and close friends. This time I am not afraid of L's threat. My friends know me. Old teacher know me..new teacher I am not sure but this is informative for her...as I am sure same thing will happen with others. But others may not dare to confront her, unlike me.
Finally being fearless in Isha.
Now updating blog and read this.
May 23 aft
Was updating my blog for April and saw this.
From Facebook
As above, so below
As we absorb more Light, there are some effects to be aware of. As vibration continues to rise, all systems, both internal and external, of ourselves that are not based on love and cooperation, will eventually collapse. You may feel like you are being shaken up and shaken loose of what you are holding on to.
Sometimes, out of fear, our ego tries to preserve itself, falsely promising control and protection. As we transmute our old beliefs and habits, our relationships shift and our life moves into the chaos of change to allow space for the transformation.
Soul
Alas let go of L.
It wasn't easy but I am fearless.
No response from P and the close friends. Yes, they may see this as not loving but may judge me.
What is important is I can now share..
If they don't like this part of me..so be it.
It is now more important to seek my own validation.
From facebook
As our vibration increases, our shadow and egoic patterns may become glaringly obvious. They are being revealed so we can transcend them. Now is the time of transparency.
To make an easier, more gentle transition to the new frequency and paradigm, allow the fullness of your shadow. Then be responsible for it. Parts of us will continue to pass away. Give yourself the gift of clean deaths. Make space for the new adventures.
Soul
Mmm...now I have given up my image...of being a kind compassionate person.
Me taking a passive stand has not stopped L.
M now taking an assertive stand and barred her from my phone.
For the first time in my life I am barring my phone.
Anyway, thanks to her for reminding me I truly don't want to hold any lead role in local Isha.
Maybe the travel...
Checking out my blog an saw others reading this
Difficult to react to my anger due to validation; written back in Oct 2013.
I wrote it then as I was receiving abusive messages from L over me being a bad person, me being bad guide and etc.
Back then I couldn't react as I was afraid of more abuses, I was afraid due to my position as Sathsang guide and core lead.
Now no more reason to hold on.
Of all persons in the world, she is the last one that I need validation from.
She was the last card...
Finally let go of my karmic Two of Diamonds.
My Daily Card
The Ace of Diamonds
The Ace of Diamonds means the desire for money or the birth of a new way of earning money. All Aces represent new beginnings, a desire for something that starts a new cycle of creating. Aces are the representatives of pure creative energy.
Diamonds represent our value systems, the things that we like or dislike, treasure or discard. So, the Ace of Diamonds means that we experience the birth of a new value or that we suddenly like or want something that we didn't before.
Because diamonds are commonly associated with money and our work, the Ace of Diamonds can mean the beginning of a new financial enterprise or the desire to obtain money for a specific purpose.
Soul
Definitely new value. I need not suffer alone.
I also able to share her abusive messages with teacher and close friends. This time I am not afraid of L's threat. My friends know me. Old teacher know me..new teacher I am not sure but this is informative for her...as I am sure same thing will happen with others. But others may not dare to confront her, unlike me.
Finally being fearless in Isha.
Now updating blog and read this.
May 23 aft
Was updating my blog for April and saw this.
From Facebook
As above, so below
As we absorb more Light, there are some effects to be aware of. As vibration continues to rise, all systems, both internal and external, of ourselves that are not based on love and cooperation, will eventually collapse. You may feel like you are being shaken up and shaken loose of what you are holding on to.
Sometimes, out of fear, our ego tries to preserve itself, falsely promising control and protection. As we transmute our old beliefs and habits, our relationships shift and our life moves into the chaos of change to allow space for the transformation.
Soul
Alas let go of L.
It wasn't easy but I am fearless.
No response from P and the close friends. Yes, they may see this as not loving but may judge me.
What is important is I can now share..
If they don't like this part of me..so be it.
It is now more important to seek my own validation.
From facebook
As our vibration increases, our shadow and egoic patterns may become glaringly obvious. They are being revealed so we can transcend them. Now is the time of transparency.
To make an easier, more gentle transition to the new frequency and paradigm, allow the fullness of your shadow. Then be responsible for it. Parts of us will continue to pass away. Give yourself the gift of clean deaths. Make space for the new adventures.
Soul
Mmm...now I have given up my image...of being a kind compassionate person.
Me taking a passive stand has not stopped L.
M now taking an assertive stand and barred her from my phone.
For the first time in my life I am barring my phone.
Anyway, thanks to her for reminding me I truly don't want to hold any lead role in local Isha.
Maybe the travel...
Breakthrough in handling unwanted friends and in Surya Kriya
Soul
I just finished my practices. Had some tots of L. I know she is just projecting her suppressed anger at me. At home she is already ousted. Guess now she perceive me as ousting her. To be ousted from Isha means u got to be one hack of unbearable person. Tot of barring her from my phone but not sure cos don't want to aggravate her.
Angamardana was good. Had a good child posture sitting.
Surya kriya was awesome. Finally a breakthrough. I managed to get both my feet on the ground with no effort. It just happen. Not sure how I did it. When I consciously want to do it, didn't happen. Let's see, a breakthrough. It will only flow.
Shakti was good. Kapala Bhakti getting there except third cycle was lost in tots of L. Laughing loads in the end.
Now tears are coming. Not really sad. I wonder whether this is what one perceive as being unfair. Good tears of release.
Truly a breakthrough. Today I finally answered L's messages. I told her I forwarded all her messages to teacher. Finally I blocked her from my phone. Didn't dare to do that earlier but today I m exercising my right. I have the right to my space.
I also shared her abuses with my close friends and also S. No more keeping sadness to myself.
Glad that I finally connected with S. He was even saying to block L from group chat.
Releasing myself from volunteer core team and also from guide freed me. I can be who I am. Originally tolerated with L because I sympathised with her. Then it was out of gratitude that she handled my car. Later I tolerated further despite her abuses due to commitment and responsibility to Isha. Now there is no more commitment. I can be who I am. Finally barred her from my phone.
Sadhguru - The Golden Mean by life time sadhana
Jul 11
Sadhguru
The knowledge about these cycles has sunk into people in a certain way, and they kind of psych themselves into believing that anyway misery will strike them – and it will. If you understand that you alone make up both joy and misery, there will be no problem. The biggest mistake that people make is they try to be happy. And not only happy – they try to be happier than someone else. That is a serious problem. Do not try to be happy. Once you experientially know that whatever happens within you is caused by you and nothing else but you, you will be blissful. You will neither be flying high nor will you be in the dumps – you will just be blissful. This maintainable height of pleasantness may be different from person to person, depending upon the intensity and the amount of energy that you have, but it is a stable platform. If you want to enjoy an ecstatic state, you can always go up and come back. If you like melancholy, you can go down and come back up again.
The Golden Mean
This mean experience of blissfulness is the golden mean, the middle path that the Buddha and others have talked about. It is just that different people arrive at a different mean. This is not a passive, sedate state but a lively, pleasant state – like a nice morning. No thunder claps, but everything is fine, going well. This is where the “Good morning!” comes from. When you wake up in the morning after having been removed from the world for a period of time, it feels so nice. Even the afternoon is nice, and so is the evening and everything else, but it takes a withdrawal for you to notice this. It is like after having nothing but kanji [liquid porridge] for five days, you eat regular food again. You will suddenly notice how nice it is. Every moment is good in its own way, but it takes a withdrawal for you to notice this.
This golden mean is not non-participating. If you want, you can fly up and land again, or you can go down and come back again, but in any case, you maintain a certain level of blissfulness. Organizing this blissfulness is the work of your kriya. If you do your kriya properly, you will hit that golden mean and maintain it. From there, you can strive to set your golden mean at a higher, more exuberant level. Depending on how much energy and aliveness you generate within yourself, your mean will settle at a higher or lower level. But wherever it settles, it will be a beautiful experience for you. It is not effervescent ecstasy because you cannot maintain that, or if you do, you cannot be active in the world. You can get sozzled with ecstasy, but then you will not be able to do whatever you have to do.
If you want to be effective in the world, you need to maintain the golden mean of blissfulness – a blissfulness that is, for lack of better words, a combination of natural peacefulness and joyfulness. Let’s say you are moving around in the morning, making your breakfast, humming without knowing; you simply feel nice – this is blissfulness. Ecstasy is a freaked-out state of pleasantness. You cannot stay there unless you have reached a certain level of energy. There are yogis – they are called avadhutas – who are in such states of ecstasy that they do not even know that they must eat. They do not care to do anything. Someone has to feed them, someone has to take them to the toilet – as if they were completely drugged out. But in today’s world, there is no one to take care of you – you better come down.
A Stable Platform
You must hit your golden mean. It is time to simply sit – no matter if your knees swell, your ankles hurt like hell – you are blissful. One part is in heaven, one part is in hell – in between is the golden mean. That is why long meditations – to arrive at a state where you can be engaged in everything in the world, but still be blissful. If you do not have this stable platform and you get into activity, you will get lost. In today’s world, most of people’s lives are too controlled – nothing extreme happens to you. Suppose you were living in the wild, your golden mean of blissfulness would make you very alert and enhance your survival capabilities.
If you are miserable and depressed, you will not survive well – you will want it all to end and become the tiger’s lunch today. If you are too ecstatic, you do not care if the tiger eats you either. Only if you are in the golden mean, you can maintain your survival instinct, do all the work that you can, and still be pleasant to yourself and to everyone around you, which is important if you want to live in the world. If you are so freaked out in ecstasy that you do not care what happens around, you have to withdraw completely. Such people usually will not last too long – they will die young, but this does not matter – ecstasy serves its own purpose. They are in such a freaked-out state of ecstasy that life may pop out any moment. If instead of living for fifty years, they were in freaked-out ecstasy for five years and then died, it is perfectly all right. They have seen everything that human experience can touch – there is nothing more to do.
The Bhava Spandana program is to show you that you can freak out in ecstasy for no reason, which is nice, but you cannot stay there. If you want to always be in a pleasant state, you need to create a stable platform – a golden mean of blissfulness. Meditating a few days in a year will not do. The idea is to take the sadhana into your life. If you give yourself to sadhana, I will be a living reality in your life. Right now, I am a thought, a memory in your mind. If you want me to be a living reality every moment of your life, you have to invest some time into bringing clarity to who you are. If who you are is murky, whatever I am will be missed. There is no space, no nook or corner, not one atom which is not touched by the Grace of the Creator, but you completely miss it as long as who you are is murky. If you settle this, suddenly, it will be like a new existence altogether.
Sadhguru
The knowledge about these cycles has sunk into people in a certain way, and they kind of psych themselves into believing that anyway misery will strike them – and it will. If you understand that you alone make up both joy and misery, there will be no problem. The biggest mistake that people make is they try to be happy. And not only happy – they try to be happier than someone else. That is a serious problem. Do not try to be happy. Once you experientially know that whatever happens within you is caused by you and nothing else but you, you will be blissful. You will neither be flying high nor will you be in the dumps – you will just be blissful. This maintainable height of pleasantness may be different from person to person, depending upon the intensity and the amount of energy that you have, but it is a stable platform. If you want to enjoy an ecstatic state, you can always go up and come back. If you like melancholy, you can go down and come back up again.
The Golden Mean
This mean experience of blissfulness is the golden mean, the middle path that the Buddha and others have talked about. It is just that different people arrive at a different mean. This is not a passive, sedate state but a lively, pleasant state – like a nice morning. No thunder claps, but everything is fine, going well. This is where the “Good morning!” comes from. When you wake up in the morning after having been removed from the world for a period of time, it feels so nice. Even the afternoon is nice, and so is the evening and everything else, but it takes a withdrawal for you to notice this. It is like after having nothing but kanji [liquid porridge] for five days, you eat regular food again. You will suddenly notice how nice it is. Every moment is good in its own way, but it takes a withdrawal for you to notice this.
This golden mean is not non-participating. If you want, you can fly up and land again, or you can go down and come back again, but in any case, you maintain a certain level of blissfulness. Organizing this blissfulness is the work of your kriya. If you do your kriya properly, you will hit that golden mean and maintain it. From there, you can strive to set your golden mean at a higher, more exuberant level. Depending on how much energy and aliveness you generate within yourself, your mean will settle at a higher or lower level. But wherever it settles, it will be a beautiful experience for you. It is not effervescent ecstasy because you cannot maintain that, or if you do, you cannot be active in the world. You can get sozzled with ecstasy, but then you will not be able to do whatever you have to do.
If you want to be effective in the world, you need to maintain the golden mean of blissfulness – a blissfulness that is, for lack of better words, a combination of natural peacefulness and joyfulness. Let’s say you are moving around in the morning, making your breakfast, humming without knowing; you simply feel nice – this is blissfulness. Ecstasy is a freaked-out state of pleasantness. You cannot stay there unless you have reached a certain level of energy. There are yogis – they are called avadhutas – who are in such states of ecstasy that they do not even know that they must eat. They do not care to do anything. Someone has to feed them, someone has to take them to the toilet – as if they were completely drugged out. But in today’s world, there is no one to take care of you – you better come down.
A Stable Platform
You must hit your golden mean. It is time to simply sit – no matter if your knees swell, your ankles hurt like hell – you are blissful. One part is in heaven, one part is in hell – in between is the golden mean. That is why long meditations – to arrive at a state where you can be engaged in everything in the world, but still be blissful. If you do not have this stable platform and you get into activity, you will get lost. In today’s world, most of people’s lives are too controlled – nothing extreme happens to you. Suppose you were living in the wild, your golden mean of blissfulness would make you very alert and enhance your survival capabilities.
If you are miserable and depressed, you will not survive well – you will want it all to end and become the tiger’s lunch today. If you are too ecstatic, you do not care if the tiger eats you either. Only if you are in the golden mean, you can maintain your survival instinct, do all the work that you can, and still be pleasant to yourself and to everyone around you, which is important if you want to live in the world. If you are so freaked out in ecstasy that you do not care what happens around, you have to withdraw completely. Such people usually will not last too long – they will die young, but this does not matter – ecstasy serves its own purpose. They are in such a freaked-out state of ecstasy that life may pop out any moment. If instead of living for fifty years, they were in freaked-out ecstasy for five years and then died, it is perfectly all right. They have seen everything that human experience can touch – there is nothing more to do.
The Bhava Spandana program is to show you that you can freak out in ecstasy for no reason, which is nice, but you cannot stay there. If you want to always be in a pleasant state, you need to create a stable platform – a golden mean of blissfulness. Meditating a few days in a year will not do. The idea is to take the sadhana into your life. If you give yourself to sadhana, I will be a living reality in your life. Right now, I am a thought, a memory in your mind. If you want me to be a living reality every moment of your life, you have to invest some time into bringing clarity to who you are. If who you are is murky, whatever I am will be missed. There is no space, no nook or corner, not one atom which is not touched by the Grace of the Creator, but you completely miss it as long as who you are is murky. If you settle this, suddenly, it will be like a new existence altogether.
Breakthrough by making peace with the past
Jul 10
Had a good brainstorming session with my team. They were quite good. My team is coming together as we embark into operations.
Met E and we have a good chat; just like old times.
From Facebook
What other people say is a reflection of them not you.
Soul
L was bashing me in chat group. I still remain cordial and assert my view. I knew there be back lash but by this time I just proceed.
True enough the backlash came in the form of lengthy nasty messages from her.
I m surprised at myself. I was able to see it as her issue.
This time I take it as my role to stop her behaviour. And since I released my role as Sathsang guide, we are equal playing field.
S said he won't quit being a guide. It is for life. He also said it is now very difficult to get into becoming a guide. I felt a slight pull if I made a mistake but I shrugged it off as I knew I truly not keen to be a guide.
Today many breakthrough
1. Met my ex boss, E and we have a good chat, like old times. After the chat, I felt a nice contentment in my heart. No regrets. Just happy we each found our own.
2. Overcome my fear of backlash from L. Reported her to S and he said to remove her. Anyway let her be.
Suddenly a tot came; she never feel guilt for sending out the vicious msg; so need not feel hurt for receiving. Truly evolved.
3. Finally talk to Z after so long. He teased me and said this is the first time I was bashed. Trying to joke and I was bit irritated by his voice. I don't like his voice. Suddenly I remember I didn't like his voice earlier but later was okay as I fall in love him Now that I m over him, I can see his voice as what it was; not easy to my ears.
Mmmm this is the breakthrough from the past.
Just deleted myself from Sathsang coordination group. Not keen to do this. If I to do volunteering, preference will be for oversea coordinator. Firstly cos I m a frequent visitor to ashram, secondly it require prompt email response, thirdly to keep database. So all within my scope. This is truly a cut.
Had a good brainstorming session with my team. They were quite good. My team is coming together as we embark into operations.
Met E and we have a good chat; just like old times.
From Facebook
What other people say is a reflection of them not you.
Soul
L was bashing me in chat group. I still remain cordial and assert my view. I knew there be back lash but by this time I just proceed.
True enough the backlash came in the form of lengthy nasty messages from her.
I m surprised at myself. I was able to see it as her issue.
This time I take it as my role to stop her behaviour. And since I released my role as Sathsang guide, we are equal playing field.
S said he won't quit being a guide. It is for life. He also said it is now very difficult to get into becoming a guide. I felt a slight pull if I made a mistake but I shrugged it off as I knew I truly not keen to be a guide.
Today many breakthrough
1. Met my ex boss, E and we have a good chat, like old times. After the chat, I felt a nice contentment in my heart. No regrets. Just happy we each found our own.
2. Overcome my fear of backlash from L. Reported her to S and he said to remove her. Anyway let her be.
Suddenly a tot came; she never feel guilt for sending out the vicious msg; so need not feel hurt for receiving. Truly evolved.
3. Finally talk to Z after so long. He teased me and said this is the first time I was bashed. Trying to joke and I was bit irritated by his voice. I don't like his voice. Suddenly I remember I didn't like his voice earlier but later was okay as I fall in love him Now that I m over him, I can see his voice as what it was; not easy to my ears.
Mmmm this is the breakthrough from the past.
Just deleted myself from Sathsang coordination group. Not keen to do this. If I to do volunteering, preference will be for oversea coordinator. Firstly cos I m a frequent visitor to ashram, secondly it require prompt email response, thirdly to keep database. So all within my scope. This is truly a cut.
Volunteering is not my path and it is okay
Jul 9
Great meet up with V. She too not align to volunteering. Like me she too wonder what's wrong with her; why she can't derive fulfillment from volunteering like the others.
Then she realised that she is different. She loves her hata yoga practices whereas P find doing Hata so onerous.
In the end, she smarten up and decided to be on her own.
I shared my journey with her. Looks like we both into sadhana.
She loves guru pooja just as I love my shrine. Like me she too hope to have her own partner in future. Yea, she is King of Diamonds and I m Queen of Diamonds.
Great meet up with V. She too not align to volunteering. Like me she too wonder what's wrong with her; why she can't derive fulfillment from volunteering like the others.
Then she realised that she is different. She loves her hata yoga practices whereas P find doing Hata so onerous.
In the end, she smarten up and decided to be on her own.
I shared my journey with her. Looks like we both into sadhana.
She loves guru pooja just as I love my shrine. Like me she too hope to have her own partner in future. Yea, she is King of Diamonds and I m Queen of Diamonds.
Ace of Clubs in Long range
Jul 8 aft
The other sister company, my peer said my salary is low. I said that's why I don't want to enlarge my role.
He said he is about 10k more than mine. He said his role is operational cos his boss also not business minded. Since he is taking a bigger role, he might as well get himself paid higher. He said in our role we can't avoid operational. Hence might as well take the money.
I told him my boss is pressuring me to take operational role. I m resisting cos partly salary and partly I m semi retired. I m getting stirred. Today straightened two process; got myself involved in operations.
Mmm. Looks like my semi retirement is not going to happen. I feel a revive in my career.
Long Range in 2014/2015
Ace of Clubs
U will have strong desire for knowledge of some kinds and that new plans, ideas and form of communication could have a major impact on u.
U may throw urself into some new educational pursuit or some other Mercury-ruled activity such as writing, speaking or teaching. U may purchase a new computer or be exposed to some advanced system of knowledge. This will probably mean that u begin some new job as well.
This week card.
1. Issue
Transformation
To transform breakdown to breakthroughs is the whole function of a master. It is greatest adventure to go through breakdown consciously.
All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough". At such time we must do something, anything, even if it later turn out to be mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us.
If we don't, they threaten to suffocate.
If u are feeling that "enough is enough", allow urself to take the risk of shattering old patterns and limitations that have kept ur ent
Soul
I had resisted going into operations but looks like I m the best person to do it. Talking to M helps me to see what I need to do.
Time to let go of my restriction. See where this leads me to.
The other sister company, my peer said my salary is low. I said that's why I don't want to enlarge my role.
He said he is about 10k more than mine. He said his role is operational cos his boss also not business minded. Since he is taking a bigger role, he might as well get himself paid higher. He said in our role we can't avoid operational. Hence might as well take the money.
I told him my boss is pressuring me to take operational role. I m resisting cos partly salary and partly I m semi retired. I m getting stirred. Today straightened two process; got myself involved in operations.
Mmm. Looks like my semi retirement is not going to happen. I feel a revive in my career.
Long Range in 2014/2015
Ace of Clubs
U will have strong desire for knowledge of some kinds and that new plans, ideas and form of communication could have a major impact on u.
U may throw urself into some new educational pursuit or some other Mercury-ruled activity such as writing, speaking or teaching. U may purchase a new computer or be exposed to some advanced system of knowledge. This will probably mean that u begin some new job as well.
This week card.
1. Issue
Transformation
To transform breakdown to breakthroughs is the whole function of a master. It is greatest adventure to go through breakdown consciously.
All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough". At such time we must do something, anything, even if it later turn out to be mistake, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us.
If we don't, they threaten to suffocate.
If u are feeling that "enough is enough", allow urself to take the risk of shattering old patterns and limitations that have kept ur ent
Soul
I had resisted going into operations but looks like I m the best person to do it. Talking to M helps me to see what I need to do.
Time to let go of my restriction. See where this leads me to.
Four of Clubs
Jul 8 mor
My Daily Card
The Four of Clubs
The Four of Clubs is the card of mental satisfaction and stability. Whenever this card appears, you can bet that you will experience some mental peace for a while. Any sort of mental occupation you may be involved in will benefit from this stabilizing and practical influence.
This is a good time to make plans for the future since you are thinking clearer than ever. This card brings organizational ability and the ability to achieve a solid foundation of knowledge about a particular subject. Just watch out for a tendency towards fixed mental attitudes that might alienate you from others.
Soul
Mmm, good. I was suprised that I forgot about Y not replying to my message
I realised that I wasn't seeking. I was just asking and he didn't respond, fair enough.
The old me would have reacted but not the new me.
Today woke up had tot of Z and his Seven of Hearts last year, suddenly tot of his wife not agreeing to having babies. But this year is Four so he should be fine and settled.
My Daily Card
The Four of Clubs
The Four of Clubs is the card of mental satisfaction and stability. Whenever this card appears, you can bet that you will experience some mental peace for a while. Any sort of mental occupation you may be involved in will benefit from this stabilizing and practical influence.
This is a good time to make plans for the future since you are thinking clearer than ever. This card brings organizational ability and the ability to achieve a solid foundation of knowledge about a particular subject. Just watch out for a tendency towards fixed mental attitudes that might alienate you from others.
Soul
Mmm, good. I was suprised that I forgot about Y not replying to my message
I realised that I wasn't seeking. I was just asking and he didn't respond, fair enough.
The old me would have reacted but not the new me.
Today woke up had tot of Z and his Seven of Hearts last year, suddenly tot of his wife not agreeing to having babies. But this year is Four so he should be fine and settled.
Sadhguru - Love is just a vehicle for oneness
Jul 8
After enduring an unexpected traffic jam, finally reach my new breakfast place. Unfortunately there were no bread since they were close yesterday. The old me would have reacted. The new me take it in and walked over to opposite restaurant. Got myself an Indian fry bread instead. To my surprise the sauce was good and bread is okay too.
Yesterday evening practice was awesome. Body was shaking non stop for quite a long while. Then went into peaceful Shoonya.
This morning Angamardana was okay. Breathing was fine. Shakti was great, I laugh loads. Also couple of times I think I got the right Kapala Bhakti sound. This is truly another level. Shambavi was good too. Plough back was good too.
Today realised that I got bruised from last Sunday massage. But the shoulder is good. Will go again in one week to clear all the knots. Massage is good for me.
Life and death in one breathe
Love is a huge longing up include the other as a part of urself. That which is not u right now, u want it to become u. It starts from gathering simple things around you, to seeking spirituality or God. The fundamental longing up have a larger slice of life than what u have right now.
It does not matter how intensely you approach it, you will see it almost there and it falls apart. It gives u a taste of oneness but ever establishes u there.
Love is just a vehicle for oneness. What u are longing for is that oneness.
Emotion or love is just one more vehicle to get there, but it is a vehicle which takes u close to the other bank and turns u around - it never lands u there. When u get sufficiently mauled by the process of love, u will be ready for Grace.
There are two longings: one to preserve urself and another is to continuously expand. These two things are not opposing forces but are related to two different aspects of who u are.
Self preservation needs to be limited to physical body. It is only ur body that need to be preserved, everything else can be mauled and demolished and rebuilt everyday. Everyday in the morning u can actually get up and build a whole new personality.
After enduring an unexpected traffic jam, finally reach my new breakfast place. Unfortunately there were no bread since they were close yesterday. The old me would have reacted. The new me take it in and walked over to opposite restaurant. Got myself an Indian fry bread instead. To my surprise the sauce was good and bread is okay too.
Yesterday evening practice was awesome. Body was shaking non stop for quite a long while. Then went into peaceful Shoonya.
This morning Angamardana was okay. Breathing was fine. Shakti was great, I laugh loads. Also couple of times I think I got the right Kapala Bhakti sound. This is truly another level. Shambavi was good too. Plough back was good too.
Today realised that I got bruised from last Sunday massage. But the shoulder is good. Will go again in one week to clear all the knots. Massage is good for me.
Life and death in one breathe
Love is a huge longing up include the other as a part of urself. That which is not u right now, u want it to become u. It starts from gathering simple things around you, to seeking spirituality or God. The fundamental longing up have a larger slice of life than what u have right now.
It does not matter how intensely you approach it, you will see it almost there and it falls apart. It gives u a taste of oneness but ever establishes u there.
Love is just a vehicle for oneness. What u are longing for is that oneness.
Emotion or love is just one more vehicle to get there, but it is a vehicle which takes u close to the other bank and turns u around - it never lands u there. When u get sufficiently mauled by the process of love, u will be ready for Grace.
There are two longings: one to preserve urself and another is to continuously expand. These two things are not opposing forces but are related to two different aspects of who u are.
Self preservation needs to be limited to physical body. It is only ur body that need to be preserved, everything else can be mauled and demolished and rebuilt everyday. Everyday in the morning u can actually get up and build a whole new personality.
Feeling bit uncertain over loss of validation
Jul 7
Body woke up earlier and I doze bit till alarm rang at 3.45 am. Had a good sleep but body is bit painful from the massage. Never felt this before or perhaps too long.
Did Bhuta Shuddi and sang guru pooja. Angamardana was good. Surya kriya bit off, just a second of tots and alignment is off.
Breathing was fine. Shakti was good towards the end I was laughing loads. Still didn't get the sound but at least now no stop in Kapala Bhakti. Shambavi is good. Towards the end contentment enfolds me.
Had some tots on P and I realised that's my mind acting up. Feeling bit slighted for not being invited to volunteer dinner with teacher. But then I remember I don't want to join. These are some price to pay. Some external validation is gone but at least I m self validating. Still have tots of doing the visit India mail but will KiV till I m back from Kailash.
As I was driving doing my Samyama...which is good.
My Daily Card
The Five of Spades
The Five of Spades is one of the strongest indicators of travel or moving your home or your business. It could indicate a change in your health as well. At its most basic level, the Five of Spades means a change in your lifestyle, or the things that you do day in and day out. When this card appears, something will change that affects the way you live or the things that you do each day.
This card usually brings with it a certain amount of restlessness and the desire for changes or travel. It can result in a dissatisfaction with the way your life has been that motivates you to want new things, lifestyles, and experiences. This card has a strong Sagittarian influence to it.
Soul
Just focus on my preparation for Kailash.
Getting myself fit and ensuring office is running okay.
Body woke up earlier and I doze bit till alarm rang at 3.45 am. Had a good sleep but body is bit painful from the massage. Never felt this before or perhaps too long.
Did Bhuta Shuddi and sang guru pooja. Angamardana was good. Surya kriya bit off, just a second of tots and alignment is off.
Breathing was fine. Shakti was good towards the end I was laughing loads. Still didn't get the sound but at least now no stop in Kapala Bhakti. Shambavi is good. Towards the end contentment enfolds me.
Had some tots on P and I realised that's my mind acting up. Feeling bit slighted for not being invited to volunteer dinner with teacher. But then I remember I don't want to join. These are some price to pay. Some external validation is gone but at least I m self validating. Still have tots of doing the visit India mail but will KiV till I m back from Kailash.
As I was driving doing my Samyama...which is good.
My Daily Card
The Five of Spades
The Five of Spades is one of the strongest indicators of travel or moving your home or your business. It could indicate a change in your health as well. At its most basic level, the Five of Spades means a change in your lifestyle, or the things that you do day in and day out. When this card appears, something will change that affects the way you live or the things that you do each day.
This card usually brings with it a certain amount of restlessness and the desire for changes or travel. It can result in a dissatisfaction with the way your life has been that motivates you to want new things, lifestyles, and experiences. This card has a strong Sagittarian influence to it.
Soul
Just focus on my preparation for Kailash.
Getting myself fit and ensuring office is running okay.
North Node in Taurus - helping others from a sense of contentment and not neediness
July 6 aft
Luckily I didn't get involve in Y's affair; didn't listen to his wife.
Y is gone from my life and I need not hold him back.
Also the latest incident on his wife, makes me wonder his level of growth. Anyway, he is not my match. That I know.
Let him and wife play out their own karma.
I am not interested to be in their drama.
My period with Y is truly over.
Pe agreed that when we are vibrating at higher zone, we become more detached. We become unwilling to be in others' drama.
Now reading the edited version done by Pe and saw this in my final story in Vol 4.
Practice detachment
I urge you to let go the things to which you cling.
If you are meant to have something or someone in your life, they will not leave you. People, objects and situations are woven like the threads of a fabric; the nature of the weaving will determine whether it holds or not. You can mend and patch, but if a tear is meant to be, it will happen. So be at peace with the way people and objects weave through your life.
Now finally ready to upload Vol 4..it took me awhile.
Finally got it edited, partly due to delay from G for a couple of months.
In the end I took it back from G and gave to Pe and she got it done in one month.
Then delay of another month from me due to dad passing away, my trip to ashram and then volunteering for inner engineering programme.
Amen.
I also noticed that I have not been active since Sept 2013, truly one year break.
Now time back to my writing.,
Was updating my blog and saw this..truly a good reminder.
North node in Taurus
They are here to learn to take back their power. When they stand in their power, they can afford to be loving and helpful to others - not from the place of neediness but from a sense of contentment that enables them to be generous.
Thus their first responsibility is to themselves. To do things that bring recognition of their self worth and the contentment of enjoying life.
There are no more battles to fight, nothing more to give up, no part of themselves that has to be thrown away.
This is a building lifetime: building a sense of comfort through their connection with themselves.
Soul
Yes, me taking back myself..
Going back to what gives me contentment.
I want to give out of generosity not out of neediness due to fear of losing validation
This year focus back on myself.
Truly glad for Kailash trip..truly timely.
I am just ripe.
Luckily I didn't get involve in Y's affair; didn't listen to his wife.
Y is gone from my life and I need not hold him back.
Also the latest incident on his wife, makes me wonder his level of growth. Anyway, he is not my match. That I know.
Let him and wife play out their own karma.
I am not interested to be in their drama.
My period with Y is truly over.
Pe agreed that when we are vibrating at higher zone, we become more detached. We become unwilling to be in others' drama.
Now reading the edited version done by Pe and saw this in my final story in Vol 4.
Practice detachment
I urge you to let go the things to which you cling.
If you are meant to have something or someone in your life, they will not leave you. People, objects and situations are woven like the threads of a fabric; the nature of the weaving will determine whether it holds or not. You can mend and patch, but if a tear is meant to be, it will happen. So be at peace with the way people and objects weave through your life.
Now finally ready to upload Vol 4..it took me awhile.
Finally got it edited, partly due to delay from G for a couple of months.
In the end I took it back from G and gave to Pe and she got it done in one month.
Then delay of another month from me due to dad passing away, my trip to ashram and then volunteering for inner engineering programme.
Amen.
I also noticed that I have not been active since Sept 2013, truly one year break.
Now time back to my writing.,
Was updating my blog and saw this..truly a good reminder.
North node in Taurus
They are here to learn to take back their power. When they stand in their power, they can afford to be loving and helpful to others - not from the place of neediness but from a sense of contentment that enables them to be generous.
Thus their first responsibility is to themselves. To do things that bring recognition of their self worth and the contentment of enjoying life.
There are no more battles to fight, nothing more to give up, no part of themselves that has to be thrown away.
This is a building lifetime: building a sense of comfort through their connection with themselves.
Soul
Yes, me taking back myself..
Going back to what gives me contentment.
I want to give out of generosity not out of neediness due to fear of losing validation
This year focus back on myself.
Truly glad for Kailash trip..truly timely.
I am just ripe.
Fitness level improved after Angamardhana
July 6
Today broke record, climbing 8 flights of staircase, aiming for 10 flights.
From tomorrow onward will have to climb half an hour staircase as per former teacher's advice. Short time and good exercise.
After the staircase, I found myself walking even more energetically than the first round. I even walked up the staircase garden, taking a bigger round. I am now comfortable with the hiking shoes.
Towards the end, suddenly I can feel the trees once again. They were calling out to me and I can feel their comforting presence. Amen. Energy is back up again.
I am no longer afraid of Kailash.
Such irony, used to have massive issues and resistance on Kailash and after it was decided, no issue and I am quite lackadaisical on it. On the shopping, will get the socks from V and inner wear my own and also sis. Will get the rest from Nepal.
Today, got maid to clean up the drinking copper pot, copper jug and cup. Will get her to do at least once a month.
I myself cleaned up Gudi, Dhynalinga copper plates and bhuta Shuddhi sets. Now all shining for next week Guru Pournima.
Checked my emails and it is now empty, feeling bit uncertain. No wonder Three of Diamonds in Destiny till 24 Aug; Luckily King of Clubs in Ruling.
Just checked today Osho Tarot and got this card
Letting Go
In existence there is nobody who is superior and nobody who is inferior. The blade of grass and the great star are absolutely equal.... But man wants to be higher than others, he wants to conquer nature, hence he has to fight continuously. All complexity arises out of this fight. The innocent person is one who has renounced fighting; who is no longer interested in being higher, who is no longer interested in performing, in proving that he is someone special; who has become like a rose flower or like a dewdrop on the lotus leaf; who has become part of this infinity; who has melted, merged and become one with the ocean and is just a wave; who has no idea of the "I". The disappearance of the ''I" is innocence.
To choose this card is a recognition that something is finished, something is completing. Whatever it is--a job, a relationship, a home you have loved, anything that might have helped you to define who you are--it is time to let go of it, allowing any sadness but not trying to hold on. Something greater is awaiting you, new dimensions are there to be discovered. You are past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work. Go with it--it represents liberation.
Soul
Thanks for the motivation.
Today broke record, climbing 8 flights of staircase, aiming for 10 flights.
From tomorrow onward will have to climb half an hour staircase as per former teacher's advice. Short time and good exercise.
After the staircase, I found myself walking even more energetically than the first round. I even walked up the staircase garden, taking a bigger round. I am now comfortable with the hiking shoes.
Towards the end, suddenly I can feel the trees once again. They were calling out to me and I can feel their comforting presence. Amen. Energy is back up again.
I am no longer afraid of Kailash.
Such irony, used to have massive issues and resistance on Kailash and after it was decided, no issue and I am quite lackadaisical on it. On the shopping, will get the socks from V and inner wear my own and also sis. Will get the rest from Nepal.
Today, got maid to clean up the drinking copper pot, copper jug and cup. Will get her to do at least once a month.
I myself cleaned up Gudi, Dhynalinga copper plates and bhuta Shuddhi sets. Now all shining for next week Guru Pournima.
Checked my emails and it is now empty, feeling bit uncertain. No wonder Three of Diamonds in Destiny till 24 Aug; Luckily King of Clubs in Ruling.
Just checked today Osho Tarot and got this card
Letting Go
In existence there is nobody who is superior and nobody who is inferior. The blade of grass and the great star are absolutely equal.... But man wants to be higher than others, he wants to conquer nature, hence he has to fight continuously. All complexity arises out of this fight. The innocent person is one who has renounced fighting; who is no longer interested in being higher, who is no longer interested in performing, in proving that he is someone special; who has become like a rose flower or like a dewdrop on the lotus leaf; who has become part of this infinity; who has melted, merged and become one with the ocean and is just a wave; who has no idea of the "I". The disappearance of the ''I" is innocence.
To choose this card is a recognition that something is finished, something is completing. Whatever it is--a job, a relationship, a home you have loved, anything that might have helped you to define who you are--it is time to let go of it, allowing any sadness but not trying to hold on. Something greater is awaiting you, new dimensions are there to be discovered. You are past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work. Go with it--it represents liberation.
Soul
Thanks for the motivation.
Kailash is the greatest sannidhi - my Home
Jul 5 eve
Today have a good swim in the pool. I swam quite effortlessly taking little breaks.
Singing and laughing joyfully, so nice, savouring my joy, my connection with Existence.
There was an instance where one of the boy hit my head during a swim, the old me would have immediately gone into a panic attack. The new me just continue swimming. Amen
I have come this far.
I am confident Kailash will be fine.
Kailash is home and He will bring me safely home.
Amen
Sadhguru on successful sadhana
Sadhana purpose is to break the limitation of one's energy. So sadhana is pulling in one way and if ur mind is identified with limited things, u are unnecessarily creating conflict. Its like u tied up a boat and u are rowing hard, it's just good exercise and u are not going anywhere.
If u untied the rope, even if u don't row, slowly you will go somewhere with the pace of the river, u will flow.
Spiritual journey need not be effortful, it just need to be sensible.
But to come to sense, it takes effort sometimes, need not but it may.
Soul
Amen.
Today have a good swim in the pool. I swam quite effortlessly taking little breaks.
Singing and laughing joyfully, so nice, savouring my joy, my connection with Existence.
There was an instance where one of the boy hit my head during a swim, the old me would have immediately gone into a panic attack. The new me just continue swimming. Amen
I have come this far.
I am confident Kailash will be fine.
Kailash is home and He will bring me safely home.
Amen
Sadhguru on successful sadhana
Sadhana purpose is to break the limitation of one's energy. So sadhana is pulling in one way and if ur mind is identified with limited things, u are unnecessarily creating conflict. Its like u tied up a boat and u are rowing hard, it's just good exercise and u are not going anywhere.
If u untied the rope, even if u don't row, slowly you will go somewhere with the pace of the river, u will flow.
Spiritual journey need not be effortful, it just need to be sensible.
But to come to sense, it takes effort sometimes, need not but it may.
Soul
Amen.
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