Three of Hearts in Mercury

Jul 28 aft

Mind still have tots on meditator, P no response.

Could be my Three of Hearts period..
My 52-Day Period Card
The Three of Hearts

The Three of Hearts signifies creativity or indecision in affection that can manifest in different ways. This could indicate having two or more love interests at the same time or simply that we are unsure of where to place our affections. This indecision can lead to either more fun or worry and fear, depending upon how we handle it. This card's influence usually occurs at a time when we are wanting to learn about love through experimentation and variety. Its presence usually means that we will not be making any hard and fast relationship commitments until later.

On a positive note, the Three of Hearts is a card of self expression and its presence can indicate that we are talking more, expressing our feelings, and meeting new people.


My Daily Card
The Eight of Spades

The Eight of Spades is the most powerful card of physical and will power. When this card is present, you will find yourself experiencing more power over your health and work matters. Success is indicated by this card, along with the ability to overcome any obstacles that may appear in your way. Power comes from a focusing of our will, a narrowing down of the areas of our interest. Because of this, we often lose focus in less important areas while we gather force in one.

Soul
Today settled with my RA specialist treatment.
She just took my no joints pain as normal and prescribed only cholestrol pill. I asked for blood test report but she wouldn't print. She said liver enzymes reading has reduced much but still need more clearing before she can prescribed RA medication, so back to on need to basis for steroids. I asked for my blood test and she unwilling to give me.
Decided to do a full blood test so can seek advice from Homeopathy.

The con money can't be cancelled.
Never mind, let this be a lesson to me.


This week Osho tarot card...really true..it was unexpected this con job

I2. Internal influences that you are unaware
Control
There is a time and a place for control, but if we put it in charge of our lives we end up totally rigid. The figure is encased in the angles of pyramid shapes that surround him. Light glitters and glints off his shiny surfaces, but does not penetrate. It's as if he is almost mummified inside this structure he's built up around himself. His fists are clenched and his stare is blank, almost blind. The lower part of his body beneath the table is a knife point, a cutting edge that divides and separates. His world is ordered and perfect, but it is not alive - he cannot allow any spontaneity or vulnerability to enter it. 

The image of the King of Clouds reminds us to take a deep breath, loosen our neckties and take it easy. If mistakes happen, it's okay. If things get a little out of hand, it's probably just what the doctor ordered. There is much, much more to life than being "on top of things."

Soul
Guess thats asking me to let go.


3. External influences that you are aware
Fighting
An explosive temper or a smoldering rage often masks a deep feeling of pain. We think that if we frighten people away, we can avoid being hurt even more. In fact, just the opposite is the case. By covering our wounds with armor we are preventing them from being healed. By lashing out at others we keep ourselves from getting the love and nourishment we need. 

If this description seems to fit you, it's time to stop fighting. There is so much love available to you if you just let it in. Start by forgiving yourself: you're worth it.

Soul
Thats me crying to Sadhguru and Devi.
I felt I was alone..finally truly alone.
Alone in getting financially capable to own my place and alone in getting conned.


4. What’s needed for resolution?

Miser

This woman has created a fortress around herself, and she is clinging to all the possessions she thinks are her treasures. In fact she has accumulated so much stuff with which to adorn herself--including the feathers and furs of living creatures--that she has made herself ugly in the effort. This card challenges us to look at what we are clinging to, and what we feel we possess that is so valuable it needs to be protected by a fortress. It needn't be a big bank balance or a box full of jewels--it could be something as simple as sharing our time with a friend, or taking the risk of expressing our love to another. Like a well that is sealed up and becomes stagnant from disuse, our treasures become tarnished and worthless if we refuse to share them. Whatever you're holding on to, remember that you can't take it with you. Loosen your grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.

Soul
Did something today.
Shared about the con job on the online india visa application payment.
I should have been alerted at the high costs and the type of currency.
I did shared on the high cost but not to my close friends..so happen they all not around.
Never mind..its only little money.
Just the ego is dented.
Alas shared on facebook that I was conned.

5. Resolution

Existence

Now is the time to look at whether you are allowing yourself to receive the extraordinary gift of feeling "at "home" wherever you are. If you are, be sure to take time to savor it so it can deepen and remain with you. If on the other hand you've been feeling like the world is out to get you, it's time to take a break. Go outside tonight and look at the stars.

Soul
Well, i have the shrine..i have the Devi's temple with me.
Amen.