Too much Past and too much Future - results in negativity

Jan 28

Father, thank u for the quarterly reminder at the hospital that if I don't balance myself, d outcome will be crippling. Jus now, hav to help another patient. Her knee is spoilt n require surgery. Her back bone is all crooked. Her daughter told me she has overworked.

According to the doctor, one of the side effect of my medication is fever n cough. No wonder of late I been having cough, something that i havent had for 1 year but much better. Will continue wit yoga. According to doctor, result in Nov showed that due my affected liver, it resulted in higher cholestrol. Well, its 2 mths later n m sure m fine.

Thanks for motivating me. I jus wan to heal myself. Whatever it takes.

A new earth
All negativity is caused by an accumulation of psychological time and denial of the present.

Too much future and not enough presence - unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry and all forms of fear.

Too much past and not enough presence. - guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness, bitterness and all forms of non-forgiveness.

Soul - m definitely too much future.

Afternoon
Jus now when I was in d hospital, looking at the crippling pain that patient encounter. I said I will find a cure. I will heal myself and others. We not supposed to suffer like this. There is a way out n since Western doctor only give symphtomatic relief that also causes other illness. We can't rely on them.
I am sure of my 3 days week. I will heal myself an others.

Also, met a lady who saw me reading yoga matters n she asked if m doing meditation. I replied yes n told her d benefits that others experience. She sound keen n I told her that I can call her when the program in March comes up.

Today Nine of club
You are ready to awaken to a new and higher way of thinking that will be better than u have imagined.
This is a time when powerful spiritual experiences occur, such as universal consciousness and also indicates the success of any endeavours that involve spreading higher truth to the world.

Amen

The power of Now.
Dysfunction of the mind - its attachment to past and future and denial of the Now.

If all ur problems or perceived causes of suffering or unhappiness were miraculously removed for u today, but u had not become more present, more conscious, u would soon find urself wit a similar set of problems or causes of suffering, like a shadow that follows u wherever u go. (Soul - Back in the Past)
Ultimately, there is only one problem, the time
There is no salvation in time. You cannot be free in the future. Presence is the key to freedom, so u can only be free now.

Soul - how true. No wonder I find issues never ending. I tot it was my mind generating shit. But now I realised I m responsible for not being conscious n follow my mind.
I have unravelled all my unconsciousness but is there. And the only way is now to stay conscious.

The Power of Now
When u r full of problems, there is no room for anything new to enter, no room for a solution.
So, whenever u can, create some space, so that u find the life underneath ur life situation.
Use ur senses fully n observed.

Soul - I find that I have created this space during meditation. And I m back. Today n yday, my laughter is back n I felt d strong connection to Universe once more.

The Power of Now.
Problems are mind-made and need time to survive.
There is no problems, only situations to be dealt with now, or to be left alone and accepted as part of the "isness" of the present moment until they change or can be dealt with.

"Problems" means that u r dwelling on a situation mentally without there being a true intention or possibility of taking action now and that u r unconsciously making it part of ur sense of self.
You become so overwhelmed by ur life situation that u lose ur sense of life, of Being.
Or, u r carrying in ur mind the insane burden of a hundred things that u will or may have to do in the future instead of focusing ur attention on the one thing that u can do now.
When u create problem, u create pain.
If u create no more pain for urself, then u create no more pain for others.
You also no longer contaminate the beautiful Earth, ur inner space and the collective human psyche wit the negativity of problem-making.

Soul - my tot is to heal myself by not creating any more pain.

The Power of Now.
As soon as u honor the present moment, all unhappiness and struggle dissolve, and life begins to flow with joy and ease.

So do not be concerned abt the fruit of ur action - jus give attention to the action itself. The fruit will come of its own accord.

Being free of psychological time, u no longer pursue ur goals with grim determination, driven by fear, anger, discontent or the need to become someone.
Nor will u remain inactive through fear of failure, which to the ego is a loss of self.
When ur deeper sense of self is derived from Being, when u r free of "becoming" as a psychological need, neither ur happiness nor ur sense of self depends on the outcome, and so there is freedom for fear.

Soul - yeap, M focus on jus learning d tools in 2010. Focus in balancing myself, enjoying my Being.

The Power of Now
When every cell of ur body is so present that it feels vibrant wit life, and when u can feel that life every moment as the joy of Being, then it can be said that u r free of time.
To be free of time is to be free of the psychological need of past for ur identity and future for ur fulfillment.

Soul - I m always evolving. Always moving forward, letting go of past. But m afraid of future cos I don't know what wil become of me. If I ever amount to anythjing.

The Power of Now
Ordinary unconsciousness means being identifed wit ur thought processes and emotions, your reactions, desires and aversions. It is most people's normal state. In that state u r run by the egoic mind and u r unaware of Being.
You will feel continuous low level of unease, discontent, boredom or nervousness - a kind of background static.

The unease of ordinary unconsciousness turns into the pain of deep unconsciousness, when things "go wrong", when the ego is threatened or there is a major challenge, threat or loss, real or imagined.
Deep unconsciousness often means pain-body has been triggered.

You can use a challenge to awaken you, or you can allow it to pull you into even deeper sleep.

Those challenges are ur tests. Only the way in which u deal with them will show you and others where u r at as far as ur state of consciousness is concerned, not how long you can sit with ur eyes closed or what visions u see.

Soul - that's telling.

The Power of Now.
So it is essential to bring more consciousness into ur life in ordinary situations when everything is going relatively smoothly. In this way, u grow in presence power.

Soul - noted. M doing it now.


Jan 28 Evening
Jus now meditation, went in deep into abyss. There were no light. Jus dark abyss. Yet so peace cos its all silence.
I felt like I ran miles n miles n coming to a rest. There is no more to run.
Its like d point when I m sleeping n yet I am awake.

Bhagavad Gita
The family members to be destroyed by devotee are not the senses themselves, but their offspring or inclinations - desires for objects of the senses. There r 2 kind of objects. The first is material objects and second is subtle objects in the astral world, which are perceived by the Godward- moving inner consciousness.

The outward objects of the senses breed material attachment; the inner objects of the senses destroy this physical attachment. However, long-continued association wit even the inner objects of sense may divert the mind of the devotee from higher soul perception and ultimate realisation of God.

Wit enhanced perceptions rooted in a knowledge of unending joy of God, the advance yogi, far more than a worldly man, is able to enjoy the sensory world - its people, its roses and its skies!

The man of realisation develops extraordinary powers of clairaudience and clairvoyance; the mind comprehends everything intuitively; the intelligence is no longer guided by fallible human reasons but by unerring divine wisdom.

It is as ridiculous for a person to fear that his various power will be annihilated by entering into superior estatic state of God-union, as it would be to fear the extinction of any of his powers by their nightly state of suspended animation in sleep.