She said that whenever she is away, she destresses automatically. I told her that means internally she is ok and she absorbed easily from her environment and it stays with her.
I used to think that it was her affecting the people around her as most people are fearful of her and try as much as possible to avoid her. At times, I even thought of Hitler who lost the War as he cannot receive bad news. My boss also hates bad news and hence people hide from her. But in reality, she also absorb from us, so is a two-way thingy.
Yesterday evening, suddenly I thought of my boss is being an absorber of energy/vibes around her as she is sensitive and detailed. She has a threatening mode as her mgm style and hence creates fear in people.
She then absorb the fear from people and become heavily burden and also fearful.
In fear mode, unconsciously she further activated her defensive mechanism and becomes even more attacking and threatening.
She is always seems to be proud of her mgm style that has seem to bring her much success and hence keeps to it despite receiving much negative feedback.
What she is not aware and infact all of us also, is that both parties are 'linked'.
She is not aware of her defense mechanism and hence continue to issue threat whenever she feels insecure. Until she realise she is at the receiving end and only hurts herself, the cycle continue.
She has a choice as she is the generator.
If she realise she is the generator and also the one who is at the receiving end, she can make a choice to be generate positive energy and hence will receive positively.
I realise she is very comfortable with me. Firstly, I am generally not fearful of her and at times seems immune to her anger. So, since I have no negative vibes, she didn't absorb any, and hence she stay ok....Now I know why she is comfortable with me.
I wonder, what is my issue. What is my mirror here?
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