Nine of Diamond - death of current work

Sept 22

Father, tell me what to do. Yea, that's the excitement of new job, of growth. But a tot came, Sadhguru said life is not about earning income. Also, my Top 5 doesn't have job. And what I want most is my rship with my partner. I also recalled Vision Book said retire by 45.

E said he doesn't care about time line, he only cares about result. Of course, we can say u have off time but that also can mean u cannot have off time.

I have already "retired", but earning income. That's the best deal.
I recalled that I wanted to close door so I have an easy life. So, why go back. I need not have to prove myself. True, my peers are not business minded, that's why they need me.

I want to be transformational leader, not a problem solver.

Tots came through disturbing. But once I made the decision not to take the offer, a calm settled over me. I knew its the right thing. Also thank to RA that makes me realise I don't have time to waste. Even if I take this job, it would be max 5 years of earning money for retirement and I would delayed my dreams.

I am transformed. I am not taking the best job offer in my life. The job has a great boss, growth and opportunity, travel in AP, great office, great income.
But I have changed. Career is no longer in my Top 5.
to be a famous published author, spend time on learning and sharing tools,
promoting Isha, spend time with family, have a good relationship with my partner.

I told K that I haven't seen the change. Well, alas I have, my value as Ace of Diamond and Queen of Diamond has changed. I have retired from my career life.
The high flying job offer has to be so good that I cannot refuse. But alas I refused because it is not in my Top 5.

Seeing boss also helps. She doesn't like her career but she continues because it gives her validation and security.
I no longer seek my validation in career, I no longer need to be in a career
I am ready to settle down.

My motto
Work towards something that makes u happy.
Do not hold on things that doesn't make u happy.

Nodes in Scorpio
Soul Mates
A soul mate rship is really a combining - on an energetic level - with someone with whom they have the right "chemistry"; who gives them a sense of excitement. As they empower their partner, the partner responds by validating and taking care of them. The mutual energy revitalises those parts that become stagnant during past incarnation.

Soul mate rships are not limited to sexual rships. If two people share a common goal - such as writing a book, running a restaurant, starting a business and etc.

Each person has to be willing to let go of personal issues to allow both partners' energies to integrate. These folks need to be willing to understand the other person, what he or she is offering, and what his or her resources are in order to combine and achieve maximum mutual gain. That is where they shine!

They cannot focus on "my values vs your values" cos they will lose. If they are clear about the higher goal they want to experience with the other person, and that's agreed on, then these folks are willing to adjust their methodology to work with the other person and gain the experience.

This could be as basic as deciding the kind of rship they want to create and then supporting each other in reaching the ideal.
When couples are younger, they may have the goal of raising children. Later, it might be the goal of living together according to certain spiritual ideals, growing together through self-help or transformational experiences, supporting each other in reaching shared health goals, and so on.

The best approach to creating personal relationship is to get to know the other person and see if that person's values, desires and motives are compatible. Having shared values is important.

For sexual experience, if they tune in to the physical energies of their partner, then when they combine sexually, the experience far exceeds anything they could imagine.

They need to stop relating from a "me/you" position and start relating from a position of "what's best for us". Then they can share power of mutual empowerment and reciprocity.

Father, I read thru Nodes in Scorpio and not able to identify myself. (NOv 16 - can now see me in SN)
But this healing song strikes me, especially today, it relates to my motto that I created this morning after my practice

What's the point in hanging on?
Your dream is true, but no on the form
What brings u joy in life today
May come true a different way!

Reach ur arms up to the sky
Greet the new that's in ur life today
Life sent it just to u,
"Cause you're ready for something new"
But you've got to let go of what's already gone
You've got to let go, its time to move on.

Soul
Amen.

52 days in Destiny
Ace of Spades
Is a card of death, change and transformation. With this mystical card in ur spread, it is certain that u will go through some sort of death and rebirth, or at the least, some important and powerful changes.

New beginning - we r preparing to launch a new occupation.