Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Cosmic Lesson with Z - unconditional love

Sept 25 Eve

Father, I spent 3.5 hours in volunteer meet and followed by lunch with them. It was a good one and I don't feel drained.

I am so happy to learn of other experiences. I am glad C and P is here with us.

Soul's South Node to Z's Moon
It doesn't occur to Z to verbalise what it is they need from u. And u r not tuned in to what Z needs from u unless he tells u.
U can overcome by making a conscious effort to ask Z what it is he need from u in order to feel supported and cared about.
Eventhough this may feel awkward at first, validating their emotional needs in this way will greatly be to ur advantage. When Z feels deeply understood and happy, their loving energy comes back to u in ways that more than make up for ur extra effort.

As ur awareness grows, u may also notice that - on a deep level - ur first instinct is to pull away from Z's need for closeness. This is to avoid the pit-fall of co-dependency in this lifetime by remaining separate and whole while consciously choosing to validate ur partner's feeling because of the love u feel for then.

The healthiest resolution is for u to continue to ask Z what he need from u while lovingly encouraging him to verbalise his needs on an ongoing basis. He will feel grateful that u asked and it will make them happy. The more he feel cared about in the relationship the easier it will be for him to take the important step of asking for what he need.
It is also important for u to remember to ask for what u need from him as well.

Past life
In this lifetime, it is ur job to consciously help him to restore his emotional self-sufficiency without injuring his heart - to let him know he is loved and supported for who he really is without enslaving him.

(Nov 16 - this sound like unconditional love)

Soul
I was just talking to him that he always asked me what I like, whereas I don't. I just do what I like. Now I know why he brings me the lesson of Soul Mate rship. I have to teach what I got to learn as he also doesn't know how to be in one.

He also always try to guess how I feel and try to adjust. He will bring me to brink and let go. He enjoys cornering me.

Z"s Moon
The Moon reveals where we have the deepest need to feel understood, nurtured and cared about by another. This is the area where we feel most vulnerable and experience ourselves as lacking completion. Thus we need support and encouragement from another Soul in order to gain a deep sense of satisfaction. The Moon also shows our receptive nature - where we most want to experience the feeling of "family" and to be able to depend on another to care about us.
But when a partner falls on ur Moon, it can bring disappointment and feelings of being unloved and unsupported. This person may not be tuned in to ur emotional needs and it can seems like they never gives u what u r really longing for. This is due to her unconscious memories of many family-based past lives in which there were unhealthy co-dependent relationship between u. As a result, everytime u expect this person to fulfill ur needs, they unconsciously pull away in order to prevent a co-dependency from recurring.

Soul
A few instances
1. Him asking for a permanent place for our meetup
2. Him asking to come to my place at night
3. Him asking me to extend another night.
4. Him asking me to help him to bond with me.

I am not sure, but I instinctively pull away.

Z"s Moon
Clearly u have a past history of great love for each other that continues into this lifetime, but because of the co-dependency it hasn't been expressed in a healthy way. This incarnation brings the necessary lessons that can teach u to differentiate between co-dependent and taking responsible action to ensure that ur needs are met. Now u have the opportunity to learn to verbalise ur needs so that the co-dependency dynamics isn't triggered.

Soul
Yea. That's make sense. I will encourage him for my good and our well being.

Composite North Node
Pisces, 11th house

Pisces
This relationship can help u both learn how to "let go and let God".
Creating a pathway that is in alignment with events as they are unfolding can help both of u to become less judgemental, more flexible, and help u surrender to the flow of unconditional love

Aim for:
Understanding and forgiveness; trusting that a Higher Power is in charge; experiencing joy and bliss; letting other people be themselves; accepting that which u cannot change.

11th house
The key to maximising the potential in this partnership is to recognise and remain aware that it offers the special opportunity to experience the joys and benefits of a relationship with someone who can also be ur best friend.
U create plenty of energy to work together toward humanitarian goals. The shared dream of benefiting others energises u both.

If a conflict should arise, the best approach would be; Treat the other person as equal and ask for their input as a friend. Brainstorm with them in order to see the situation more objectively. Be interested in what is best for them, and encourage them in realising their own life dreams.

Soul
Isha connects us.

Today is quite unique. Z calls me to update on the happening. He shared detailed financials, his hobby and the blog.
A real opening.
He asked about another couple and I said recently he keep on speculating potential couples. So, who is the next one he tot of. He replied that its us.

Father, when he send me the link for their blog. I immediately feel myself pulling away from him. Why I do that? I wanted him. And it is great he is sharing with me.

Z's Moon
As ur awareness grows, u may also notice that - on a deep level - ur first instinct is to pull away from Z's need for closeness.

This is to avoid the pit-fall of co-dependency in this lifetime by remaining separate and whole while consciously choosing to validate ur partner's feeling because of the love u feel for then.

Soul
Mmm, I recalled that after few rounds of love making with him, I felt a need to be alone. I want to recover myself again. That's why when he asked for extension, I was not keen.
Father, how do I strike a balance. I do want him but I want in regular small dose that allows me room to be myself. But for him, he want me in irregular long dose, which drains me a bit.
But if I keep on saying no, his style is just to close up and never ask again.

How can I keep us together. How can I not let my fear prevent us from being together. He open, and its all the way without closing. Me, open a bit and close and then open a bit.

He also shared about me shutting down on him. Me, not caring if I hurt him.
(Nov 16 - he said that it was 'bad' that I have hung up on him a few times.)

Mmm, an idea came. Perhaps I can ask for more regular meet with shorter doses.

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