Questioning Mind

Swami Rama
The mind raises questions such as "Shall I do this or not?". Whenever you consider doing something, suddenly a questioning comes into your mind and you wonder, "Shall I or not?" Shall I go this way or that way?"
There is always a doubting nature to your mind and that is the result of the faculty of manas. This constant doubt is called samkalpa vikalpa. Manas is an importer of external and exporter of internal. To do that it employs the senses.
But manas is limited as it can't make decision.
The decision maker is buddhi, the faculty of discrimination.
You are usually controlled by manas because you do not take the advice of buddhi, the higher function.

Buddhi - judges, discriminate and decide.
The deciding quality of buddhi is also important especially on timing of decision. If u miss to decide, an opportunity is lost.
Chitra - acquire knowledge - intuitive library within you.

Ahamkara - the sense of I-ness (ego). A high ego person always uses "I" a lot.
The higher ur ego, the more you do not communicate or relate well to others. The ego is helpful, provided you understand its intended role.

Manas - disturbs u with doubts n questions
Ahamkara - separates u from ur center of consciousness
Buddhi - discriminator
Chitta - intuitive library

The use of manas n ahamkara is due to mental habits.
U needs to train your ahamkara towards chitta and train your manas towards buddhi.

Don't do anything in life unless your buddhi tells you to do it.

Training the physical habits has a direct result in training the mind.
1. Get up from bed immediately. The no. of minutes that it takes you to get out of bed will tell you how lazy you are.
Regardless of Sunday or Monday, get up immediately at the time u want to instead of lazing around as it is a bad habit on both the physical and mental level.

2 Don't overeat or eat food that makes u lethargic.

3. If u remain idle without doing something useful, your mind thinks scattered and random thoughts and waste its energy.

Habit patterns weave your character;
Character composes your personality
Personality is who you are.

You are responsible for your habits patterns (although your family has also contributed to them through the way they brought you up and treated you in your childhood.)


Soul
This mornin woke up, feeling tired cos I was dreaming. Then I had a tot why meditate, no difference. I just replied at least I enjoy it. I may not know the benefits yet. Besides, perhaps that is why I found it difficult to intro meditation cos its personal and I enjoy it and besides no one has noticed any transformation.
For me, my auto control is gone and hence I am experiencing my internal mood swing. while I do experience mood swing, during meditation, I flower even more.
The more I allow my negative emotion to come out in the open, the more I allow my positive emotion to come out too.
So, the major transformation is the disappearance of my Auto-Control mode.
I used to be fearful of losing the switch. My switch is on ‘off mode’ now n I too gained the benefit of enjoyable meditation.