Universe is responding to my call

Yday meditation was amazing. There were no reply from teachers on Nadha Brahma and I been wondering when is d best time to sing the song. Yday I reached home abt 9.45 pm. After my shower, before meditation, I tot I really have a stress day at office and I needed to release the tension. So tot why don't I sing Nadha Brahma as it will help me to soften up before meditation. I sang and towards the end, tears fell and in d moment, tension was released and I felt soften up. Then I did my shoonya, flood of tears came n then follow by laughter.

Later did my Shakti n d Kapala Bhakti was intense n m now into 120 times already. It was so intense that I can't focus during the counting session for the body breathing n then I tot I can't do the whole Shambavi as I m already into deep meditation. But I recalled my commitment n then a tot came, forgo the legs session and adjourned straight to surka kriya as that is d real starting point of Shambavi and I did that n Shambavi was really intense, my head was shaking on d floor so fast n effortlessly. When it ended wit the quiet session, I saw a blaze of bright light n felt such intense love that give me such bliss and I cried cos I was so touched n thankful that God let me experience this bliss. I said again n again Thank You to God and then followed by quiet session n then laughter.

I don't do guru pooja in d evening cos it takes 8 min and also it got me into immediate meditation which then may not jive wit Shoonya. I am glad God and Sadhguru directed me to Brahma Nanda

I now found my evening meditation mode (1 hour 15 min);
1. Brahma Nanda
2. Shoonya
3. Shakti
4. Shambavi starting from Surka Kriya

Mornin (1 hour 15 min)
1. Guru Pooja
2. Suria Namaskara
3. Relaxing
4. Shakti.

Afternoon (20 min)
1. Shoonya.

Wow. looks like I am spending nearly 3 hours daily to be with the Source. Amazing, me who can't meditate and who can't sing and now sing Sanskrit, hated Suria Namaskara and now can do 7 cycle of Suria Namaskara and can spend tons of time doing meditation. The only exception is m a flowering/expressive meditator rather than quiet meditator. I accept that now. I am so blessed.

I know now God will give me what I need. There is no need to search, guidance comes whenever I need to (even if I didn't know I need it). Amen.

Mmm, suddenly I tot of being Life Coach or a counsellor. Yea, I can also get a Diploma n find a counsellor job abt 4k n meanwhile freelance as Recruiter and Life Coach which can get me 1k.
So many people is comin to me, even a friend's CEO. The sky is the limit.
1. Counsellor
2. Recruiter
3. Life Coach
4. Isha Promoter

Suddenly a sense of quietness envelop me n tears start to well, the statement - This is ME. My heart start to beat in excitement n fear n happy.

Osho
Internal u r not aware - Creativity
From the alchemy of fire and water below to the divine light entering from the above, the figure is literally possessed by the creative force. Really, the experience of creativity is an entry into the mysterious. Technique, expertise and knowledge are just tools; the key is to abandon oneself to the energy that fuels the birth of all things.
The important thing is to be open to what wants to be expressed through u. Remember that we don't possess our creations, they don't belong to us. True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.

Soul - lookin at the pix, I am reminded of the blazing light I saw during meditation yday.
And now suddenly what I want to do is clear. I do want a few things but all are related to dealing with people. Helping them psychologically and spiritually. Helping others to be who they meant to be.

I know I won't gp into psychology cos that is too specialist n the fee is too much. I can do Diploma in Counselling and start from there.

I used to have doubts cos I want variety but everything is linked. And I used to fear counselling cos I tires easily. Actually is becos I spend all energy at work n stil counsel - double impact n there is no release.

Now, I remove energy from work n got meditation, I will be fine. Helping people to be who they really are is My Calling.

Osho card - Rebirth - Finally the child emerges, innocent and spontaneous and true to his own being.

Compromise. Don't be clever, otherwise you will remain the same, u will not change. Compromise is dangerous n confuse u even more. Compromise may be a way of not going in either direction, Don't compromise on ur own truth.

Soul - I have been compromising. Wanting to stay in work n helping others. Tot helping others won't give me money for security. But alas I can settle my loan and get RM4k job.
My CEO was my mirror. I didn't want to let go just like she didn't want to let go. So is the CEO’s PA.

Schizophrenia
Getting stuck in the indecisive and dualistic aspect of the mind. Whatever decision we make, we will always wonder if we shld have decided the other way. The only way out of this dilemma is, unfortunately, to let go of both arms at once. You can't work your way out by solving it, making lists of pros and cons, or in any way working it out with your mind. Better to follow ur heart, if u can find it.
If you can't , just jump - your heart will start beating so fast that there will be no mistake abt where it is.

Father, Amen.
A voice ask if I m looking for escape. Father, guide me.

Jus read email, the Sathsang teachers are shifting out to China. So they need someone to take charge of Sathsang. Teacher wrote to the meditators – the old timers. Asking us to be the Lead in Sathsang and I agreed. I jumped in but only if don't have to be vegetarian n I can use my blackberry. That is funny, right!! What a coincidence!
I just decided to be Isha promoter this morning and now the call came thru. Universe sure works fast!

Father, U give me whatever I need. I jus fulfilled one of my role - Isha Promoter!