Osho
God is happening. This is what life is all about. The moment u accept urself, u become open, u become vulnerable, u become receptive. The moment u accept urself, then there is no need for any future, because there is no need to improve on anything. Then, all is good as it is. In that experience, life starts taking a new colour, a new music arises.
Soul - same msg as Sadhguru. I felt the msg is tellin me that m on d right track. Don't stop. Its ok to receive. Don't be fearful. I am thinking of 3rd level meditation more becos of Sadhguru rather than me. Mmm, falling again but this time not as fearful that I lost me. Resentful that I have to let go of food and do volunteering. Resentful I have to give myself. Not willing to pay the price to receive and hence I judged the giving.
Osho
If u accept urself, that is the beginning of accepting all. If u accept urself, u hav accepted God. Then there is nothing else to do but to enjoy, to celebrate. Then joy is good and sadness is good, then to be with ur beloved is good and to be alone is good. Then whatsoever happens is good because it happens out of God.
But u have been conditioned for centuries not to accept urself - to improve urself. They all create anxiety in u. Anxiety is the tense state between that which u are and that which u shld be.
Soul - yeah I was feeling anxiety that if I followed Sadhguru I still have to do more or perhaps to let go of more. I felt resentful. Alas now I knew how I do it is up to me. The thing is not to judge the giving. I need not feel guilty if I don't behave like them. I need not feel guilty for being receptive and yet not behave like them. No one is forcing me too. It is me feeling guilty, that's all. I can jus be who I am, receiving All and bloom in my own time. I need not feel guilty in receiving.
Osho.
When u stop improving upon urself, life improves u. In that relaxation, in that acceptance, life starts caressing you, life starts flowing through you. And when u don't have any grudge, no complaint, you bloom, you flower.
Don't lose this thread that has fallen into ur hands. Accept urself as u are. And that is the most difficult thing in the world because it goes against ur training, ur education, ur culture.
Soul - I am dropping the grudge of receiving from Sadhguru. Previously, I have been falling unconsciously cos there is something in me that resides with Sadhguru. There is a conflict between my unconsciousness and consciousness. And now I consciously see what I want. Yeap, to take the journey. In a way, I admire sis that she dares to be baptised, whereas me was afraid cos I don't want to lose what I have, I don't want to let go, I don't want to improve.
Actually, there is nothing to lose. I have gained so much since I meditated. I am now much calmer, I can feel both my emotion of sadness and joy, I can absorb the Energy of the Nature. I have feel completeness. I have felt love within me.
Now inside match outside in terms of emotional make up.
Now as for the energy, its the Outside that have to match Inside. That's is what the Osho card meant abt if Energy not used it will turn negative.
So, will do hatha yoga to release the Energy.
Osho
And the whole existence starts pouring its energy into u when u are open. Then the trees are greener than they look to u, then the sun is sunnier.
Soul - yeap, that's what I feel whenever I am near nature, I felt their energy pouring into me, enveloping me.
Osho
Accept urself ; that is gratitude. Relax into ur being. In no other way did he want u to be, otherwise he would have made u somebody else.
Soul - I am receptive to Sadhguru, to Nature and if my behaviour is different from the rest of them, so be it since my expression of receptiveness is also different.
I am different. I am Me. I need not be like them.
I judged them cos I tot they won't accept me in terms of my meditation and outside meditation. At least they have accepted that I have different expression during meditation and now I just have to accept m different. That's all. Don't have to let this drive me away.
Osho
When joy comes, in spite of urself, mind you; when joy comes in spite of urself, when sometimes God simply bumps into you and u cannot avoid him, immediately u start punishing urself. Something has gone wrong; how can this happen to a horrible person like u?
Soul - that's it. Tears welt within me. I am feeling guilty for receiving so much when I do nothing. Others has struggled n do so much and yet receive nothing. How can this be?? Or perhaps I was mistaken, perhaps all my experiences is just a release cos I got loads of issues (like what a fellow meditator told me) and they don't have any issues and hence no expression.
Whenever I receive more, I feel fearful cos firstly, not sure if I am receiving or releasinhg and secondly if receiving, feel guilty cos I have done nothing to deserve it, unlike the others and I have not been prayerful/respectful to Sadhguru, unlike the others. Thirdly, worried that the more I receive, I may become like them, bit like robot, no mind of their own, no spontaneity, no joy.
That's is why the Sathsang when Sadhguru said u will only receive the Energy when u live joyfully. Cos the Universe is joyful. If u r not joyful, no matter what u do, u will never receive. Sadhguru also said it is good that women can laugh. Its only miserable people who doesn't want to hear laughter.
For the first time, I know I am receiving and I know its ok to be joyful and I know that I won't turn into them. That's why I will continue the path.
Osho
Learn more and more acceptance and unlearn ur rejections. If u understand this, u will understand laughter. Otherwise the ordinarily so-called religious know nothing of laughter, they have become cemetries - serious, somber, unlaughing, unloving, undancing.
God is always the God of love and laughter and light.
The real God is always a God of laughter. Whenever u think of God, think of him laughing, think of him rolling on the floor with great laughter, and u will be closer to God.
When u really laugh, for that moment, u r no more on the earth, for that moment, all weight disappears. For that moment, the window opens, you are divine.
Whenever you laugh, you are closest to the divine. Whenever you love, you are closest to the divine. Whenever you sing and dance and make music, that is what real religuon consist of.
Soul - another reaffirmation that's is ok to laugh. M not crazy. I am not creating it. Its just a by-product of Energy.
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