Sathsang with Sadhguru

Osho
You have been told that if u seek, u shall find. But I say unto u; don't believe he who claims to have sought and found, but only he who has found without seeking. Seeking is basically the self. If u seek, that means the self is functioning. The journey starts in seeking but ends in a non-seeking mind. The journey starts with intention but ends in spontaneity. You have to learn two things; first u have to learn a great intensity to search, and then paradoxically, you will have to learn to drop that intensity and that seeking.

Soul - I started my inward journey 11 years ago with such intensity until a year back, I drop my search cos I have explored enough dirt and also I no longer trust my mind. I stopped n jus wan to rest my mind and started meditation. Now with Sadhguru's help, I have found back my Energy and its something amazing that is not created by me, something wonderful as its both quiet my mind and gives me such joy and makes me laugh and followed by such feeling of Love, of completeness. Amazing.

Osho
Kabir drives the point deep into ur heart that first, a great flame-like desire is needed to be God. But then finally that very desire becomes the last barrier - that has to be dropped too. Once that is dropped and u are innocent, things start happening. The bud opens and becomes a flower, the caterpillar becomes a butterfly.

Soul - coincidentally, after using my blackberry for 1 year, tot of changing my wall paper n selected a beautiful butterfly cos I feel I have transformed from a caterpillar to a beautiful butterfly and I am flying. Amen.

Osho
Kabir asked student, where is God? Their answer, He is the breath inside the breath.

Soul - suddenly my tears welt, cos God is the breath inside my breath. When I breathe during Shoonya, I felt His silent breathe after mine and it connect me with Him. Amen.
Its now half an hour past, m stil silent, tears hovering in my eyes, m so grateful to connect wit Him.

Evenin
Jus finished sathsang wit Sadhguru. I m glad my faith in him was restored. My time spent in Ashram, stir me up cos our path is different.

My experience of Sadhguru is d same as in his videos.

Not sure why, suddenly there was a topic of laughter. Aha, he mentioned to live joyfully and its good that women can laugh. He cannot understand why some men don't want women to laugh. He wouldn't like to live with a woman who can't laugh.
I was already glad when he said that cos at least its ok that I can laugh.

Then he came out with the story of his grandmother n he said she was called a Devil of a woman cos she love to laugh n live to be 100 plus, outlived all her children and even some grandchildren. She also share food with animals. We'll, at least I fulfill one and m glad. At last I can laugh freely. Wit that I laugh openly. Just like in the Ashram, I realised in the whole sathsang, perhaps abt 600 meditators, I think I am one of the few that laugh.

Asia Works taught me is ok to cry
Isha Yoga taught me is ok to laugh.

When Sadhguru was talkin abt ok to laugh. I had flashback of my dad asking us to tone down the volume whenever he hear any commotion. He tot we were fighting. So, laughter, so called joyful noise was kept to a minimum.

I was sorry I snapped at the gal. She asked my why I laugh. She asked if I see any vision. I tot she is a regular meditator n she queried me. She then back off and told me she is new. So, I soften my tone to explain. She said she has done Shambavi n so far no such experience. I explained to her everyone is different. She don't have to compare. I told her jus continue doing and feel n experience her body.

When Sadhguru spoke abt the major event abt d dhayanalinga. He said he was excited n has not felt such excitement for past 20 years, I laugh.