None can reach heaven who has not passed through hell.

Sri Aurobindo

None can reach heaven who has not passed through hell.
For descent is commensurate with ascent; we cannot descend lower than we have ascended, because the force needed to descend is the very force needed to ascend. This is a fundamental psychological law no one can escape
We cannot heal unless we heal all the way down and we cannot go all the way down unless we go all the way up. The deeper we want to descend, the more powerful the light we need, otherwise we are eaten alive.

Soul - true, if I have no risen via yoga kriya, there is no way I can experience my miserableness in Finance. Since I have descended, now I need to ascend again by moving out of Finance. This is a journey without destination.

Sri Aurobindo
Psychoanalysts - appear to progress from below upward, from past to future or from night to conscious light,but that is our narrow momentary vision that cuts out the totality of the picture, otherwise we would see that it is the future that pulls us, not the past that pushes us, and the light from above that slowly enters our night - how could night ever create the light.

The significance of lotus is not to be found by analysing the secrets of the mud from which it grows here; its secret is to be found in the heavenly archetype of the lotus that blooms for ever in the Light above.

Soul - I was searching via psychoanalyst method n I reached a void, knowing my mind is shitty n there is no solution. Then isha yoga kriya came in with the light n for a short few mths, instead of focusing on my perceived guilt n resultant suffering. Its my future, its my Destiny that is the guiding light, not me having to suffer, having to make amends, like what pearly n I think.

Sri Aurobindo
We feel we are making great effort to grow, to understand and know, we feel a tension towards the future, that is our small perspective. There may be another perspective, from which we would see this superconscious Future, striving to enter our present. And we might see that our great efforts were only the resistance put up by our denseness and darkness. The future does not move only from below upward, otherwise there would be no hope for the earth. The future move also from above downward, it descends more and more into our mental fog, our vital confusion, into the subconscious, until it illuminates everything, reveals everything, heals everything and finally fulfill everything - Destiny.
And the more it descends, the greater the resistance.
At the supreme point, where this Future touches the lowest depth of the past, where this Light burst through the bottom of the night, we will find, God willing, the Secret of Death and of immortal Life. But if we look down below and nowhere else, we will find mud and nothing but mud.

Soul - when I finally see that it was my Destiny. Only thing is still not sure what is my Destiny.