Osho reading

The osho card for this week:
1. The Issue - Slowing down - do whatsoever you are doing, but at the deepest core, remain at ease, cool, calm, centred. We carry our home with us wherever we go. There is no need to seek shelter elsewhere and u develop Acceptance of What is.

Soul. - recalled my tot this morning and tot of using kriya to handle my external circumstances and my job is not me. Everywhere has its own issue, good and bad. Main thing was handling me.

2. Internal influence that I am unable to see - Possibilities. A world of possibilities is open to you. Because you have grown more loving towards yourself, more self-contained, you can work easily with others. Because you are relaxed and at ease, u can recognise possibilities as they present themselves.

Soul - not sure of what is the possibiliites but I know m more loving towards myself. Not judging myself. And for the first time changed "rejection" into "separation". There is no rejection.

3. External influence that you are aware - Maturity. Wherever you are, it will be there and the flowers continue to shower on you. This is spiritual spring. The inner being is filled with flowers - that carry the quality of springtime and regenerate wherever he goes.
He can move in any directions. It makes no difference as his joy and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. He has come to a time of centredness and expansiveness - the white glow around the figure is his protection and his light. All of life's experiences has brought him to this time of perfection. When u draw this card, this moment carries the gift for hard work well done. Your base is solid now and success and good fortune are yours for they are the outcome of what has already been experienced within.

Soul - when my inner eye first open, it will be orange in colour n then later changed to white glow. I always felt at ease n blissful when I am in the white light n my laughter jus bubbled. Amen.
As for d maturity, when my boss was scolding me for d electricity, me ego said why do we need to bear this. We already don't like the job n with such ungrateful n unreasonable boss, it just tilt me over. I really wanted to quit n tot that last day end june with 3 mths notice. But 2nd tot came in that my Finance Mgr is comin in and hence i cannot leave just yet.

4. What is needed for resolution - Turning in - turning inwards is not a turning at all. You have been runnung and running and you have been coming again and again to frustation When u finally know each desire bring you misery, u may wan to stop. But stopping also is running, in a subtle way. Any effort is going.
When going stops, journeying disappears; when desiring is no more clouding your mind, you are in. This is called turning in. It is not turning at all, it is simply not going out.
Jus watch ur tots as if they were traffic on the road or ripples on the surface of pond; it goes up n down, good n bad, happy or sad, trying to get ur attention and seduce you into a game.
Meditation is jus watching the mind, as if the mind belongs to somebody else.
You are now ready to take this distance now, to watch the show without being caught in the drama. Indulge urself in the simple freedom of Turning in, whenever you can and the knack of meditation will grow and deepen in you.

Soul - yea, will turn in. No running away or running to. Both good n bad are the same, all games. The good can turn into bad and the bad can be a blessing.

5. The resolution - Miser card. This card challenges us to look at what we are clinging to and what we feel we possess that is so valuable that it needs to be protected.

Soul - when I read this card yday, I tot of past achievement. Jus now I tot me wishing for my ex Management Team. While we do disagree, at least the comm is easy. Me, clinging on to my style of commn, my smartness, not willing to share or instruct.
Yeah, it took me so long to come into this commn style of using perhaps n maybe n not be directive. This is the indirect style but her comm is direct.

Yeah, good for me to see my boss being so horrid. Perhaps is good I saw her horrid side, of how nasty she can be. I emphatise with her PA. She is being paid a premium to face the nastiness. And she pay d price by being nasty to others. I encounter it yday, she threw on me. For me, I didn't throw .

For me, jus remember my days of glory are over. Or rather days whereby I can communicate using my current style is over.