Pscyhic being called the soul

Sri Aurobindo
Psychic being is what is called as the soul. And beyond the psychic being is our cosmic center or central being. The first step is to search for our individual center, the psychic being.
It is at once the simplest thing in the world and the most difficult.
The simplest, because a child understand it, or live it spontaneously in his psychic being - he is a king and he laughs! It is the most difficult, because this spontaneity is soon covered by all sorts of ideals and sentiments. That is when we start speaking of "soul", which means we no longer understand anything about of psychic being.
All the seeker's difficulties are the reverse story of a slow disentanglement from the various mental and vital mixture.
Yet, as we shall see it, it is not really travelling back to where we started, first because one can never go back, and then because the psychic child we find again at the end of the journey (an end that is always a beginning) is no longer momentary caprice but a conscious royalty.
For the psychic is a being, it grows - it is the miracle of eternal childhood is an ever vaster kingdom.

Soul - this is so right. I find myself resonate with this truth. This is my hope when I faced difficulty, knowing that there is a reason for it, knowing that I have opened and stepped into one of my unconscious doors. While I have encountered sadness, I find that my laughter has more depth. I felt m loved whenever I meditate, humming song of "Love me tender, love me sweet, love me evermore"
Since last Tuesday's finding on Sri Aurobindo, I didn't cry during my meditation.

I also note the cries n tears is during the start of meditation and hence it it just my Swan expressing her fear. When I went into meditation mode, it is only laughter. I laughed like a child, just feeling happy.
I was lost for these past 2 months, and I am back now. I have regained my faith in my inner journey.

Sri Aurobindo
The psychic birth
The first manifestations of the psychic are joy and love. A joy without any object. It needs nothing to be; for it is not a feeling but a state, like a river that is joyous wherever it flows.

Other signs reveal its presence- Lightness, nothing is a burden to it, as though the world were its play; it is invulnerable, untouched by anything, as though forever beyond tragedies; already saved from accidents; it is wise; it sees; it is tranquil.

It is free - nothing can catch it, neither life, nor men, nor ideas, nor doctrines, nor countries - it is beyond and yet innumerably in the heart for everything. For It is God in us.

How do we open the doors of the psychic being? For it is well hidden. It is hidden by our ideas and feelings which plunder it and ape it mercilessly; we have so many ideas of what is high or low, pur or impure, we have so many sentimental little padlocks on what is lovable or not. With all this clutter taking up the whole space, the poor psychic has little chance to show itself.
And if it tries to slip in, it will be used by the mind or emotion for their own purpose.
Or it could be, when it came out of its hiding place, it casts such a glory on everything it touches that we naturally confuse its luminous truth with the circumstances of the revelation. Eg, someone who had one day the revelation of his psychic while listening to Beethoven will say, "music, nothing but music is true". The same goes for churches, gurus, ocean, and etc.
Each one construct his own edifice around the nugget of experience.
But the psychic is free, marvelously free of everything!
It needs nothing to be, it is the very essence of Freedom, and uses all our greater and lesser pieces of music, our sublime or less sublime scriptures, simply to bore a hole through this armour of man, so it can come out.
It lends its power and its love, its joy, its light, its irresistible open Truth to all our ideas, feelings, doctrines, because is the only chance it is given to be born, the only means of expression it has.

Soul - that's how I think too, we can be free to explore. All matters are just channels. When we are open, anything can be a channel.
Just like Isha meditation, they were very specific on what is to be done. At first I followed, later something else in me took over n I didn't stop it, now my meditation deviate from isha, but the experience has more depth.
We need not follow any particular one or anything.

Sri Aurobindo
By the same token, the mind and vitals, drawing from this element of pure Truth, their indisputable certainties, their exclusive profoundness, the very strength of the element of truth increases the strength of the element of error. In the end, the psychic is so throughly buried, so perfectly mixed that we can no longer tell the difference and extricate the counterfeit without destroying the very fabric of truth.
Perhaps the real difficulties lies not in delivering ourselves from evil, for we know what it looks like, but in delivering ourselves from a good which is but the reverse side of evil and has put a particle of truth under lock and key for ever.

As soon as we are clear, Truth emerges spontaneously and vision, joy - it is all there without least effort.

In tragic circumstances too, the psychic can emerge, when all at once, the whole being gathers together in great poignant intensity and something is rent; then we feel a kind of presence behind which makes us do things we would normally been incapable of doing.

We will find again certain deadlocked situations that will strike us with an air of deja vu and seem wrapped in a halo of fatality : what we did not conquer in the past returns again and again, each time with a slightly different face, but basically always the same, until we confront it and untie the old knot. Such is the law of inner progress.

Soul - I would certainly know that. My old knot that has followed me for a few years now - feeling being made to suffer if asked to anything which I don't like - basically anything I perceive as low value.

Sri Aurobindo
To grow, we need to forget. We r still too young to undertand that our soul needed to learn the opposite of virtue, or rather it has allowed the asbcess its virtue was hiding to burst.
Evolution does not consist in becoming more saintly or intelligent, but in becoming more conscious.
Consciousness is the means, consciousness is the key, consciousness is the end.

Soul - I first started this inner journey because of my fear of not having control in my life. When I know thru Carl Jung that it is our unconsciousness that is the real director of our life.
It has not been easy. Each time I prod myself to proceed until alas I reach the end of my mind and found there is no peace there. Thank God for sending Isha, perhaps that is why the Energy click wit me straight, no effort on my part. In my journey, I have opened so many uncountable knots n left with nothing. I was feeling hopeful when I found Isha but a mth ago, I was down again n now He directed me to Sri Aurobindo......the journey is now smoother.