I too dont want to let my Inner being be released

Sadhguru
When u fine-tune urself to such a point where everything functions so beautifully within u, naturally the best of ur abilities will just flow out of you.
When u r happy, ur energies always function better.
So, just knowing a little happiness is liberating u from ur normal limitations of energy and capability.
When ur body n mind function in a completely different state of relaxation and a certain level of blissfulness, u can be released from so many things that most people are suffering from.
If u gained a little bit of mastery over ur own energies, u will see, things u never imagined possible, u will do simply and naturally.
It is the inner technology of creating situations the way u want them.

Soul - Thanks for reminding me I have received d tools. Jus practice and trust in the Divine. U led me so far.


Deliberate Creation
If I am Eternal Being, then there must always be unfulfilled desire.
There will always be something that I have defined as desire that is yet to be manifested.
I am an Eternal Being and I will never get it done.
When u make peace with the knowledge that there will always never-ending, ever unfolding of that which is ur life experience, then u will not contract ur Desires and live joyously expanding, never complete.
If u can relax and understand that there will always be new unfulfilled desires, u can enjoy the fact that it is not all done, and look forward to the unfolding of it.
When ur circuits are wide open to the Source, u must thrive. U r clear minded, sure footed, u feel good and everything in ur experience is delicious.

Soul - similar to Sadhguru.

Deliberate Creation
U cannot really deactivate a tot, but u can activate other better feeling tot. And the more often u activate that better feelin tot, then the easier that tot, and othes similar tot comes to u.

There is no end to ur journey. You will never reach the place where u want to isolate yrself from the contrasting experience that causes u to focus.
What u r looking is creative control of ur own focus. We want u to train urself to feel good, no matter what.
We do not want people to treat u nicely and not hurt ur feelings so that u can feel good; we want ur feelings to be unhurtable.
We want u to be so aware that u can change the way u feel - jus by wanting to and by focusing - that u r now no longer fearful about what is going on out there in the world.
You are not afraid of dying; you are in love with living. You are not worried about people doing things that displeases u. You are in creative control of ur vibration and therefore u r in creative control of everything that happens to u.
You are free. But the only way u will ever perceive that freedom is understanding that u have the ability to feel good, no matter what.
And when u reach that place where fear is gone, u r in that place of freedom. Now u can go anywhere. Now u can have a wonderful time, no matter what, u see.
We want a child to be an adult who does not listen to anyone. We want all of you to be adults who are not so controverted by what everybody else thinks that you contradict your own vibration and disallow what u really want.

Soul – that’s how I felt when I judged the people at the Ashram. I don’t want to follow them as I think they follow blindly. How can they just surrender like that? Who are they surrendering to???

Afternoon
Mala called me to said that I m very lucky to have d meditative experience. And asked me not to worry cos others pray for such experience.
She also said Sadhguru said that what is more important the transformation after meditation. I told her that I agreed with Sadhguru. To me, the meditative experience is jus a release.
I hav loads of laugh via Shoonya n Shakti n even Suria Namaskara but no evidence of transformation yet per se, except I am more peaceful within.

Mala asked me if I had asked the teacher why I m so easily meditative. I said no cos I don't wan to know the answer. What if the answer requires me to be responsible and take action. I told her I asked only abt Shambavi.
Mala said then to ask Sadhguru. I said no way cos I don't want to bring attention and I am not ready to know the answer cos I think there is a big responsibility.
Part of me felt grateful for d meditative experience, but another part prefer not to have cos it comes with responsibility.
Actually I was planning to sit as far back as possible so I can experience Sadhguru without him knowing about me.

Deliberate Creation
Esther was jus someone who was bipping along living happily ever after, who happened to be married to someone who had insatiable questions.
Thru a process of meditation, she realised that she was receiving from Abraham. In the beginning, it was really startling to her because she could not believe it. Jerry recorded everything that Abraham has ever said.
Esther did not care how wonderful it was, she did not want anyone to know how weird she was.

And we think that that is the saddest part about all of this, because what that says is, those who have somehow stumbled upon the process that allows them to open to the Energy that creates worlds, allow that God Force to flow through them and to talk about enlightenment, are afraid because they are different from everyone else. They think that it is something that should be kept a secret. In other words, that is a big part of what keeps more people from having direct contact. You are made fun of.

So many people are afraid to be who they really are because when they are who they really are, they are so secure that the insecure ones around them try to keep them from being secure.

Those who do not know continue to outnumber those who do know, until those who knows refuse to admit that they know. And in time, u have an epidemic of those who seem not to know and then u say, "Why don't they know?". And we say, they knew. And they can know again. It just takes one or two here and there.

Soul - this is so me. When I was in KL, I tot since this is a small group, ok if I m the only one laughing and being so easily meditative. I assumed that there are loads of people like me elsewhere. When I attended Shoonya, abt 140 persons and also the daily guru pooja who are the seniors meditators, I too didn't see anyone like me. That make me feel m odd one out. And I jus wan to ignore what I have. I will continue to experience but wld just keep quiet abt it. I can't even let my family knows cos they think m loco.